Holy **** , admin noticed me

Thanks m8

Beautiful...

Thank you, mein fuhrer! That's a nice picture!

I'm assuming you are wondering why I added you as a friend?

eyup, i tend to be somewhat paranoid about just adding people.

/text/5628751/Let+s+make+friends/
/text/5628751/Let+s+make+friends/710#710
I have to say, the picture I included with my comment on that will not help your paranoia

eh, you appear to know one person i have known for a while and don't appear to troll so i'm not quite as worried about it.
bear in mind i can be rather crazy at times.

I grew up with crazy, I'll be just fine

heh, the board i'm on is full of it usually but i'm a totally different breed.

Different breed, as in you are the Nuckelavee?

nah, i'm the guardian, i watch over many people and keep them safe as i can, however i take in a lot of stress and pressure among other things so i can kinda lose control sometimes and go off the deep end, it doesn't help i do so much in such bad mental and physical state though.

It helps to vent sometimes instead of letting it all build up though, try to find someone that you can do that with

oh, i have 4 to consume bad energy and focus it on people who cause trouble like a karma toxin, if i get really bad i go troll hunting, however i do have a board i made specifically for venting as well, in my case i use it for things i have no control over.

What would that be if you don't mind my asking By the way I will respond tomorrow, I need to get to sleep to get up early tomorrow

4 is part of my quad split personality, you will usually talk to 1-2, 1 is more hyper and 2 is more relaxed but they are more normal and usually in control, 3 is in control of learning, logic, getting work done and skills etc and is raw willpower, it doesn't ever sleep and will keep tabs on the rest as well as keep 4 in check, 4 is a manifestation of all the bad i have been thru and survived, it has no compassion and is raw hatred and rage with sadistic bloodlust, it's only allowed out under orders and if i'm in danger, it takes pleasure in causing pain so it's really dangerous, i prefer to keep it locked away as i hate harming others, causing harm goes against my base nature.
understood, night.

Man, that must suck. But I know how it can be dealing with people with those issues. My older brother is bipolar, schizophrenic, and has chronic paranoia, so it was difficult dealing with him but did become progressively easier

well, my full list of just mental stuff is brain damage, mental and physical trauma, ptsd is related to those as well, ADD, border autism, border schizo, aphasia, memory loss and time warp as well as night phase extreme mood swings including manic depression to mania or emptiness among other stuff, also have a guardian complex and have died twice.
my genetic disorders make it worse as i have rabdo, mcardles disease, occasional heart murmurs, had kidney damage that healed and likely other stuff that i can't recall.

Wow, I'm sorry to hear about all that. Do you still get along in life okay? Despite all of those problems and disorders?

i'm technically physically handicapped and am not allowed to over exert myself, i'm currently in the process of getting disability as i can't work more then 4 hours a day on average as the non stop work messes up my body easily putting me in the ER to recover for days at a time, however if i get the job a friend wants to hire me for i'll be an exec manager with a fleet under me pulling 100k a year and no more lifting or running around too much which will give me a lot more ability, main reason i'm getting that job is the person is an old friend i have known for nearly 2 decades that i have saved at least 8 times from death and they know what gifts i have as i can create almost anything and get even more powerful with those gifts if placed with a bunch of people with ideas as i can act like a catalyst of sorts to make new things happen.

Wow, well that's good that it's working out for you. Nobody should have to deal with all that and I'm glad you have turned it around

to be honest my willpower is fueled by others who need my help, the more people under me the more i work to keep myself stable, i'm unable to ask for things but i reflexively respond to others without thought for some reason and am capable of altering people to make them stronger or change behavior at times as well as moods etc, since i do that i also have a habit of learning all i can about people in general so i can get in their heads easier and find patterns to work with or identify which also allows me to recognise mental conditions easily, to date in the last 2 years i have spotted 3 people with symptoms of schizophrenia and gotten 2 of them to take action and get therapy and disability for their problems, still working on the third one but they are being difficult to convince.
aside all this since i severely overthink events into the future i have a habit of saying X will happen or is likely to happen and it usually does as well as i'll say or do things people are thinking about, not sure why just yet.

Well that's good. Usually people who have a lot of issues or problems in their life become better equipped to help others deal with those problems because they know what it is like and usually know already how to help them.

tis very true, i know several who are a lot like me among many others who also help people and that's a common trait we all have.
one thing i have noticed however is the worse condition we're in the worse we perform at this though.