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User avatar #10 - furrypuppy (12/14/2012) [-]
You did good, Tanked. He sent me a private message, too.. I'll show you what's been going on so far.

garrettjacobsen said:
> Heh.
> I feel like shit the consistency of a pale brown paste. Every time I'm in a relationship I end up hurt. I almost killed my self once, too. I had a gun in my mouth and I just threw it down and cried.
> I'm fucking 14 years old, I'm being offered scholarships by mail everyday, and I'm drinking my mother's vodka and contemplating suicide while I vomit in the toilet.
> Life is the best fucking thing ever.

me to garrettjacobsen
Sweety, I have a record of 32 suicide attempts on my name.. for the same reasons as yours.. every time I thought to myself; Is it worth it? Who am I leaving behind?
And if you think for a while, you'll see that you're leaving alot of people behind, and that it's definitely not worth throwing your future away for.

There's no magical solution to it, but do stay away from alcohol. I too have made that mistake, and It'll make things worse. Instead of contemplating all by yourself, throw it at people you trust from moment one, and talk about it. Because, as long as you're talking to someone, you can't do anything silly.

We're here for you, sweety. We've all been trough shit, so we know how it feels. We can relate, and we want you to be happy. Keep that in mind.
User avatar #17 to #10 - garrettjacobsen (12/14/2012) [-]
Yeah Tanked, you did good.
User avatar #18 to #17 - furrypuppy (12/15/2012) [-]
He got really worried about you
User avatar #12 to #10 - ugottanked (12/14/2012) [-]
[small]here dad....this is for you... www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-Naa1HXeDQ[small]
User avatar #11 to #10 - ugottanked (12/14/2012) [-]
i...i had no idea that you have attempted it that many times...and..you know what? i think that because of what yo sent him..this message right here, is going to make him really think about it...i think because of this, he wont go through with it, but he will still be hurt....there was a time when i was contemplating suicide...it was a few days after my dad died...but i thought of who i would be leaving behind if i did..i thought of my brother..my mother...and in my mind i saw my dad, waiting for me to make the right decision....i got that thought out of my head...my mom and brother needed me now more than ever. we all needed each other. im tearing up as i write this, as i remember the one time i was weak..the time i want to forget...you are the first to hear of this. i know now that no matter how bad life can get, suicide would just hurt the ones around you, and you would be dead...you would never get to see what happens later on in your life..never see if you ever get married...kids..i swear to god i was thinking of just jumping in front of traffic on the highway and just ending it...but my family is what forced me to purge those thoughts from my head..i dont think about suicide anymore..but the emptiness i feel is still there...but time...time will help all wounds...as it turns out, scales easily figured out that i had some problems from day one..he said that i kind of hinted at it through my writing..well...just thought you should know puppy..through my sorrow and pain though i have become a stronger person, and i know my dad would want to see me live on, have my own family...then when i have kids of my own, i would tell them stories of the grandfather they never got to meet, tell them he was a great father, a great friend...he was great furrypuppy....i cannot tell how much i miss him....

dad...i dedicate this song to you..i know it was one of your favorite songs, and so i will play this, just for you

-your dear son Austin


- sorry if i went on a bit of a tangent..just..i needed to let out everything ive been feeling this past year...i needed to
User avatar #13 to #11 - furrypuppy (12/14/2012) [-]
I feel sorry for your loss sweety.. glad you were able to get it out of your system, though. <3
User avatar #14 to #13 - ugottanked (12/14/2012) [-]
thanks...i..i feel better now...now im laughing at the fact that if my dad is looking down at me, hes probably wondering why i have furry porn lol
User avatar #15 to #14 - furrypuppy (12/14/2012) [-]
Yea that has got to be awkward xD
User avatar #16 to #15 - ugottanked (12/14/2012) [-]
lol yeah more than likely xD anyways i gotta get off for the night, ill talk to ya later puppy!
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