There is no one else I could truly love, I know this and Ive come to accept. I do have outlet now that I started lifting weights, and I got girlfriend.

That's always a good outlet, just remember not to let yourself get bitter. Honestly, being bitter eats you from the inside out, and it starts to seep into every other aspect of life. Just take it one step at a time, and you never know, life may surprise you. I never thought I'd love anyone like I loved that boy, but I found someone else and over time, I've truly come to love him and I don't even think about the other one anymore.

Indeed, We had fucked few times she broke up with the junkie year later, but after that I would be bitter even if I didnt want to, and hurt her verbally. I used to punish other women emotionally cause of how much she hurt me, going as far as getting one girl to psychiatric ward.

It sounds like you have extreme pent up anger that you need to get out. Bottling the emotions is never good. You don't want to find a girl who you truly love and lose her because of your anger at your ex. Do you have any good outlets?

There is no one else I could truly love, I know this and Ive come to accept. I do have outlet now that I started lifting weights, and I got girlfriend.

That's always a good outlet, just remember not to let yourself get bitter. Honestly, being bitter eats you from the inside out, and it starts to seep into every other aspect of life. Just take it one step at a time, and you never know, life may surprise you. I never thought I'd love anyone like I loved that boy, but I found someone else and over time, I've truly come to love him and I don't even think about the other one anymore.

Oh yes, many a times. But over time I have come to accept I cant have her, atleast not for long cause of our past (she left me for a junkie who was lowlife, who later on killed himself), I kinda feel like I wanna make her love me just so I can hurt her back.

I felt that way once. I dated a guy who I still feel for to this day. When he was a prick, he was a total fuckin' prick. His way of breaking up was he would just completely disappear and cut me out until I forgot him. He kept coming back, and a part of me wants to say yes just so I could have ground him to fucking pieces, but my head knows that it's a bad idea. You never know if you would be able to do it, because maybe you'd fall even harder and just try to forget the negative that happened to you. As much as you fall for someone, if you have bitter feelings toward them, it won't work because you will always question them, and always wonder if it would happen again.

Indeed, We had fucked few times she broke up with the junkie year later, but after that I would be bitter even if I didnt want to, and hurt her verbally. I used to punish other women emotionally cause of how much she hurt me, going as far as getting one girl to psychiatric ward.

It sounds like you have extreme pent up anger that you need to get out. Bottling the emotions is never good. You don't want to find a girl who you truly love and lose her because of your anger at your ex. Do you have any good outlets?

There is no one else I could truly love, I know this and Ive come to accept. I do have outlet now that I started lifting weights, and I got girlfriend.

That's always a good outlet, just remember not to let yourself get bitter. Honestly, being bitter eats you from the inside out, and it starts to seep into every other aspect of life. Just take it one step at a time, and you never know, life may surprise you. I never thought I'd love anyone like I loved that boy, but I found someone else and over time, I've truly come to love him and I don't even think about the other one anymore.

Yes we are in contact, but no way I could get her back. But I still try sometimes, for a while. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Only facebook messages though.

This might sound odd, but have you tried telling her? Like full on telling her how you feel about her?

Oh yes, many a times. But over time I have come to accept I cant have her, atleast not for long cause of our past (she left me for a junkie who was lowlife, who later on killed himself), I kinda feel like I wanna make her love me just so I can hurt her back.

I felt that way once. I dated a guy who I still feel for to this day. When he was a prick, he was a total fuckin' prick. His way of breaking up was he would just completely disappear and cut me out until I forgot him. He kept coming back, and a part of me wants to say yes just so I could have ground him to fucking pieces, but my head knows that it's a bad idea. You never know if you would be able to do it, because maybe you'd fall even harder and just try to forget the negative that happened to you. As much as you fall for someone, if you have bitter feelings toward them, it won't work because you will always question them, and always wonder if it would happen again.

Indeed, We had fucked few times she broke up with the junkie year later, but after that I would be bitter even if I didnt want to, and hurt her verbally. I used to punish other women emotionally cause of how much she hurt me, going as far as getting one girl to psychiatric ward.

It sounds like you have extreme pent up anger that you need to get out. Bottling the emotions is never good. You don't want to find a girl who you truly love and lose her because of your anger at your ex. Do you have any good outlets?

There is no one else I could truly love, I know this and Ive come to accept. I do have outlet now that I started lifting weights, and I got girlfriend.

That's always a good outlet, just remember not to let yourself get bitter. Honestly, being bitter eats you from the inside out, and it starts to seep into every other aspect of life. Just take it one step at a time, and you never know, life may surprise you. I never thought I'd love anyone like I loved that boy, but I found someone else and over time, I've truly come to love him and I don't even think about the other one anymore.

Yes sir, countless of others been after her and not once I've felt the feeling that is described "love", what I felt with her.

Oh man, I'm definitely sorry. I know that feel too. I've been with a kid for 6 years, and he has something (or does something) that irks me almost as much as the septum does, but I still love him.

Do you two still have contact or is she completely gone?

Yes we are in contact, but no way I could get her back. But I still try sometimes, for a while. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Only facebook messages though.

This might sound odd, but have you tried telling her? Like full on telling her how you feel about her?

Oh yes, many a times. But over time I have come to accept I cant have her, atleast not for long cause of our past (she left me for a junkie who was lowlife, who later on killed himself), I kinda feel like I wanna make her love me just so I can hurt her back.

I felt that way once. I dated a guy who I still feel for to this day. When he was a prick, he was a total fuckin' prick. His way of breaking up was he would just completely disappear and cut me out until I forgot him. He kept coming back, and a part of me wants to say yes just so I could have ground him to fucking pieces, but my head knows that it's a bad idea. You never know if you would be able to do it, because maybe you'd fall even harder and just try to forget the negative that happened to you. As much as you fall for someone, if you have bitter feelings toward them, it won't work because you will always question them, and always wonder if it would happen again.

Indeed, We had fucked few times she broke up with the junkie year later, but after that I would be bitter even if I didnt want to, and hurt her verbally. I used to punish other women emotionally cause of how much she hurt me, going as far as getting one girl to psychiatric ward.

It sounds like you have extreme pent up anger that you need to get out. Bottling the emotions is never good. You don't want to find a girl who you truly love and lose her because of your anger at your ex. Do you have any good outlets?

There is no one else I could truly love, I know this and Ive come to accept. I do have outlet now that I started lifting weights, and I got girlfriend.

That's always a good outlet, just remember not to let yourself get bitter. Honestly, being bitter eats you from the inside out, and it starts to seep into every other aspect of life. Just take it one step at a time, and you never know, life may surprise you. I never thought I'd love anyone like I loved that boy, but I found someone else and over time, I've truly come to love him and I don't even think about the other one anymore.

Palestinian guy puts on "Security Fence" condoms. "Make sure no explosions make their way into the southern regions!" hehe

Someone has to make the pork joke.
Someone has to make a decent pork joke.

An Israeli/Palestinian Orgy? That may just be fucked up enough to work...

"ALRIGHT, everyone put down the guns, take off the robes, and get naked. We're going to solve this once and for all."

Palestinian guy puts on "Security Fence" condoms. "Make sure no explosions make their way into the southern regions!" hehe

Someone has to make the pork joke.
Someone has to make a decent pork joke.