I'm seeing a lot of posts about fat shaming or making fun of fat people, while it's kind of wrong making fun of people, at the same time you people are right, there's no excuse to be fat. Same with me, I was at my lightest 240lbs. after high school, I'm almost 300lbs. now, no excuse for it. I could lose it at any time, I can change at any time, because only I have that control, but I have problems.

I am a picky eater, anything that's healthy tastes like **** to me, anything that's bad for me, tastes awesome. I'm to the point where I don't like anything, and my mom and I are almost too poor to buy any actual groceries. So I'm left with eating pizza, mac'n'cheese, fast food (I don't order large or super size, just small or regular size), chicken, or other meats and potatoes, there's not a lot of food I like. I can't even eat onions anymore because they do **** to me like nobody's business. So I've lost control with my eating. I could never diet because I would be torturing myself, that wouldn't make me happy, it would only cause me pain, it would be unhealthy.

I cannot run or do endurance exercises because they're also painful, they're not fun, exercising to me is not fun, if I want to exercise, I want it to be fun. I like to lift, but when I don't put my mind to it, I won't do it. For me to go lifting, I need a friend who's willing to put up with me and willing to hang out with me, lift, and just be a friend.

I don't necessarily want to lose weight, but I want to become that mountain man strong, that lumberjack strong, where I have a body that can fight bears, I don't want to tone my body like Batista from WWE, I don't want to be skinny, I don't want to be a model, I just want to be strong like an Offensive Lineman in the NFL. I have a co-worker who told me I could've been that or a defensive lineman! I just never lifted or played football .

All these posts have me conflicted, because while I do respect people's accomplishment's for losing weight, while I understand that being fat is unhealthy, I just have to ask these people, are they happy? Do they feel better and happy that they lost weight? If so, ok, good for them, because honestly I don't think my sadness is caused by my fat. I think my sadness is caused by my lack of initiative to make friends, my lack of confidence, my different interests and hobbies, all of those would just require a personality change, not necessarily weight loss. For me, happiness isn't losing weight, happiness is having friends, laughing, having fun, crying, being a part of a family, adventure, and just living the life.

that would make me very happy.

You guys wanna know something? I'm 25 years old, yet i still feel like I'm fresh out of high school, I should be doing 25 year old things, but I don't want to, why? Because they're boring, I don't feel like or want to be an adult yet. Yet so many of my classmates are married, having kids, and doing adult things, yet here I am, stuck at home, on this website, or playing vidya. If I try to be social irl, I come off as an annoying 3rd wheel, I feel like I'm in the way of people's lives, rather than being a part of them. I feel behind
Mentally
Socially
technologically
but mostly the former.
What's worse is I lack not just social skills, but things I have in common with people. I'm on a social website that mine as well be the hipster website as opposed to Tumblr, Reddit, 4chan or others. I watch abridged cartoons, I watch anime (now sparingly), I hate most M rated games, I maybe a sports guy but that only goes so far, I love Pro Wrestling, and I know so much about it, but most other people whom I know are fans of it don't know as much, and I come off as a creepy nerd sharing my knowledge. I'm a person with Autism no less, meaning I"m already not normal to begin with, and I know this feel just like them, it's uncomforting to be around someone who isn't mentally normal. I work in a grocery store, and while I'm thankful for the job, most people my age have a 9-5 job now and get paid and have a home/apartment.

This is why I feel I can't make IRL friends, I'm in the wrong place, I feel out of place, I don't fit in. I'd rather be playing video games with people who have spare time, but I know no one like that, I'd rather find single people willing to have fun, but I know no one like that, i want to have friends, but I have 0 clue if they like me or not.

People complement me everyday that I maybe the sanest one of my family, that I may have the best chance of being successful, married, with kids, but they don't know how ****** up I am, how different I am, or how fearful I am that I may never be normal or independent. I feel like I still want to be special, I want to be good at something, I always wanted to be a pro wrestler, a baseball player, a roller coaster designer, something that I can become a legend in, support my mom, and be happy, however, that isn't the case anymore. I'm lucky to even have the job now that I have, because I'm so behind.

this may sound stupid to a lot of people reading this, but please hear me out. As much as I love this site, as many friends as I have here, if only I can be the same with people IRL, as I am with you. I want to feel free about myself, like I am here.

I hope everyone who reads this, understands how I feel.

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to be fair postie, about kav, i didn't like him after he pissed me off by pissing on my family, after my grandma died last year... i was very distraught and angry that night... just saying my piece. i think we may have made up but we just recognize each other's company, that's it.

hey postie! I hope you're having a wonderful Merry Christmas. I just wanted to tell you, I forgot that I have a British family member, from Sheffield. One of my Uncle's, is married to this woman, who's son in law is British. He visited our house tonight for our Christmas dinner. Last time I met him was at the wedding reception for my Uncle.

Anyway, he's awesome, he was so tickled how I got a 10 Pence Piece, he was even more tickled how i knew how to call it that and not a British Quarter. I told him guys like you sort of cultured me XD. I made him smile throughout the night cuz I had nothing but awesome things to say about the British. He had no idea our town has 2 resident British ladies from London.

I really hope Ryder wins Superstar of the Year. Maybe then he'll get a push

I'm calling it now: Daniel Bryan will win the RR

I've just noticed that what Kevin did on Raw was a very good heel move.

Cause DQ to Ambrose by attacking Ziggler first, thus giving the victory to Ziggler

That opening segment on SD was cringy af

>Roman will be fired if he loses
>Roman will be on Coachman's show tomorrow

Well, thanks WWE for spoiling the match before it even started

>Ryback and Swagger vs Del Rio and Rusev

Brb, taking a shower

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Breaking news: These kids who claimed to have moderately fondled your mother the night before your Call of Duty online session with them were kicked out of Smackdown

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I'm surprised and glad that WWE is letting Tommy Dreamer advertise House of Hardcore on his ring gear

Dean Ambrose will obviously turn heel at TLC, which will suck, because he's one of those people that are better off as a face.

Also, Dean won't win his match this Sunday

I was fixing to just take a shower since Raw always starts out ****** , but I postponed my shower tonight.

This match is more of a main event than an opener

So is Tommy Dreamer really still under contract with TNA, or what? I heard that he was, but it doesn't make sense to me