Dont forget that not only I'm at the hospital im also hungry
food will be ready soon but it will be after all the tests

My best wishes on the results.
Please stay well polar.

This is revolutionary

Saw it on facebook, I knew you would like it~

Ugh I had a fight with my best friend of 6 years on fb me and her aren't talking

Oh i had one of those, this friend of 4 years got mad because she felt like i forgot her.
I was just busy, and she wanted more attention..

Mine was because I threatening to kill myself in one of my unstable time and she didn't bother to help she just stated that I was contradicting my teachings and being a hypocrite so after my episode I got upset because she was close to me and at one point we told each other that we love each other now I'm feeling neglected and forgotten
that's one of the main reasons why I'm posting more on /autism/ because I'm trying to fill another void

Oh i see, i'm sorry about that.
How long has it been since?

6 days and the only reason why I said that was because she's always upset that I keep my real emotions suppressed around her, and that I never talk about my problems

Oh, you tried just speaking to her again?
Maybe (Im not saying anything right/wrong here) apologizing or explain to her that that's what she wanted in the first place...but maybe bringing it up like that was a bad move.

Maybe but I was trying to learn them. Hate her so when she left me I wouldn't get hurt

I'm not going to talk to her I'll just try and replace her since friends are replaceable...

That's friendship, you live, enjoy and hurt through it all together.

And i know i don't have to tell you but i still will, how much crap was in that last sentence.
I'll save you the whole mushy speech, you make new ones but you can't simply swap. That's not how it works, you dehumanize the people that care for you by thinking like that.
You can always get a new one but it'll never be the same and you're smart enough to realize this.

You know you could always apologize or try and talk to her, nothing is stopping you from doing that except yourself.
Do you honestly want to throw away 6 years of your life all for one giant upset?
It's your only life you have, you have to fight and to have to do.

My pride won't let me

My sincerest Apologies.



But **** That. With what you're telling me pride has nothing to do with this.

Idk I guess I just don't want to talk to her anymore
she always talks about herself and when I try to put myself on the picture she just keeps talking about herself and its been like that for a year she hasn't considered my feelings for a long fime

So why don't you just tell her this exactly, are you scared?

I dont know right know

right know all I can think of is food cause I'm hungry and I'm still at the hospital

Look, just don't over think this.
Sometimes with friendship you just have to follow your gut and just do what feels right not what feels safe.
Go eat dummy.

I can't I'm waiting on my little brother to be tested for his heart