I'm in a similar boat, when I came to college I did my best to meet as many people as possible and make friends.

This resulted in me getting kicked out of residence due to underage drinking, harrassment, and violent behaviour. In addition to people starting a rumour that I was calling this one muslim girl a terrorist and asked if her tits were a suicide vest, which obviously I didn't.

The harassment thing was also based on a joke where I sprayed my roommate with a can of compressed air, and the violent behaviour was me griping a guy's shoulder when I was drunk to get his attention.

Stick to yourself, keep in contact with your loved ones and family. People are crazy, they're over sensitive and, at least where I am, seem to resent anyone who isn't quiet, and isn't afraid to say or do what they want.

So here I am, same friends as ever, hated by a good number of people, and am seriously beginning to question if I'm insane or just autistic. I suggest you look at the brightside of your situation, because it might not be as bad as you think.

Nah, residence rules. Not so much them as it is the people ya know? They report such little things ya know? I saw a girl here get multiple restraining orders against guys here, but in her defence for reasons idk. It's just sad really, its the kind of thing that drives wedges between people. Everyone here is so silent and... idk soulless. The human contact is strictly enforced via social protocol, and it makes me a bit scared to talk to people. You have to be very careful what you say, as a guy told me I was threatening him because I crossed my arms while talking to him.

I kinda feel the same. And I'm not really looking forward to anything in life. I don't really have much of a reason to live, but at the same time I don't really have much of a reason to die either. I'm just kind of...here.

Well, i feel like shit because most of my goals require some years to achieve. If I really want to make a diference in my country I need to have the power. I want to be a minister, a president.

Maybe what you need is an ultimate goal. Travel around the world? Make it a better place? discover new things? invent something? I don't know. I don't believe you are here to acomplish a specific goal because you are free to do whatever you want. Do the things that you like and be the best at it

I forget the quote, but it's something like:

War is worse than hell, because in hell only the guilty are punished, in war only the men in power are guilty, but all are punished.