It sucks to hear that, man. But I can't be too sad about it. I got him when he was separated from his mother too soon as kinda depended on me a lot of the time; he was very nervous. But on the night he was slipping away, for a cat usually so nervous, he was the most calm I'd ever seen him. When your own cat's time comes, the best you can do is to make it so that they are the happiest they can be when they do. One last happy memory, y'know?

Mahou shoujo madoka magica.

Thanks sorry for the late reply

Madoka Magica.

might be k-on

It's madoka magica. Not even close to k-on.

Lol, no. Two entirely different art styles.

The hope for things turning up like that is still there. Anywho, thank you, thank you very much for this converstion

But I don't want to develop that side to be, I can't commit to it. I feel fine, aside the one thing I posted in admins sticky, the way I am. This might sound arrogant to say, but I know I can change towards that side, I just always failed to see a need for it

Then that's the way you see yourself as the best person you can be, then I don't see anything too bad about it. It's not arrogant to say that at all. I'd say that if you meet the right person you'll be able to find a great friend out there the way you are

The hope for things turning up like that is still there. Anywho, thank you, thank you very much for this converstion

Last time someone gave me a compliment, I fought as hard against it, it made me look like a attention whore... But then again, at that time I, I tried to make myself a dung pile because I had some half baked issues and problems... But hey, nice people from funnyjunk, like you, helped me get over it then, and I turned from pure nihillism to plain minimalistic. Which is more than I ever wished for

I don't know if I would like something nice to happen to me. My best guess is that I'm too used to this way od thinking, that I glued a thought in my brain, that it's impossible for me to have nice things. Like, most of the time something nice happens, I simply don't know how to respond to it, not to mention how I'm with people who I don't know well... Well as in at least 3 years

To be honest, accepting nice things happening to you would seem like a good first step in breaking out of it. You should enjoy it if something nice happens to you. When it's done is done. If someone paid you a compliment they had already said it. There is no way to make it so that they didn't say so, so why not enjoy it? I get that your mind would turn you away from that, but fight against that is a start

Last time someone gave me a compliment, I fought as hard against it, it made me look like a attention whore... But then again, at that time I, I tried to make myself a dung pile because I had some half baked issues and problems... But hey, nice people from funnyjunk, like you, helped me get over it then, and I turned from pure nihillism to plain minimalistic. Which is more than I ever wished for

But that's a salty point for me, since I don't feel the need to be apriciated

You don't have to feel the need or want for something nice in order to have something nice given to you. Sometimes life can just give you nice surprises, or in other words, luck. And if not luck, that apprecation would be something you had earned through the friendship

I don't know if I would like something nice to happen to me. My best guess is that I'm too used to this way od thinking, that I glued a thought in my brain, that it's impossible for me to have nice things. Like, most of the time something nice happens, I simply don't know how to respond to it, not to mention how I'm with people who I don't know well... Well as in at least 3 years

To be honest, accepting nice things happening to you would seem like a good first step in breaking out of it. You should enjoy it if something nice happens to you. When it's done is done. If someone paid you a compliment they had already said it. There is no way to make it so that they didn't say so, so why not enjoy it? I get that your mind would turn you away from that, but fight against that is a start

Last time someone gave me a compliment, I fought as hard against it, it made me look like a attention whore... But then again, at that time I, I tried to make myself a dung pile because I had some half baked issues and problems... But hey, nice people from funnyjunk, like you, helped me get over it then, and I turned from pure nihillism to plain minimalistic. Which is more than I ever wished for

Like, the guy who will be lending a hand most of the time, if not all of the time, but no one ever notices. The one who apriciates listening more than talking, even if it means to be silent for dar longer than it's comfortable

Then heck, that's even more reason to have a good friend. To have someone who appreciates you in return

But that's a salty point for me, since I don't feel the need to be apriciated

You don't have to feel the need or want for something nice in order to have something nice given to you. Sometimes life can just give you nice surprises, or in other words, luck. And if not luck, that apprecation would be something you had earned through the friendship

I don't know if I would like something nice to happen to me. My best guess is that I'm too used to this way od thinking, that I glued a thought in my brain, that it's impossible for me to have nice things. Like, most of the time something nice happens, I simply don't know how to respond to it, not to mention how I'm with people who I don't know well... Well as in at least 3 years

To be honest, accepting nice things happening to you would seem like a good first step in breaking out of it. You should enjoy it if something nice happens to you. When it's done is done. If someone paid you a compliment they had already said it. There is no way to make it so that they didn't say so, so why not enjoy it? I get that your mind would turn you away from that, but fight against that is a start

Last time someone gave me a compliment, I fought as hard against it, it made me look like a attention whore... But then again, at that time I, I tried to make myself a dung pile because I had some half baked issues and problems... But hey, nice people from funnyjunk, like you, helped me get over it then, and I turned from pure nihillism to plain minimalistic. Which is more than I ever wished for

You really think so? I'm pretty much a second hand support is all

Second hand support?

Like, the guy who will be lending a hand most of the time, if not all of the time, but no one ever notices. The one who apriciates listening more than talking, even if it means to be silent for dar longer than it's comfortable

Then heck, that's even more reason to have a good friend. To have someone who appreciates you in return

But that's a salty point for me, since I don't feel the need to be apriciated

You don't have to feel the need or want for something nice in order to have something nice given to you. Sometimes life can just give you nice surprises, or in other words, luck. And if not luck, that apprecation would be something you had earned through the friendship

I don't know if I would like something nice to happen to me. My best guess is that I'm too used to this way od thinking, that I glued a thought in my brain, that it's impossible for me to have nice things. Like, most of the time something nice happens, I simply don't know how to respond to it, not to mention how I'm with people who I don't know well... Well as in at least 3 years

To be honest, accepting nice things happening to you would seem like a good first step in breaking out of it. You should enjoy it if something nice happens to you. When it's done is done. If someone paid you a compliment they had already said it. There is no way to make it so that they didn't say so, so why not enjoy it? I get that your mind would turn you away from that, but fight against that is a start

Last time someone gave me a compliment, I fought as hard against it, it made me look like a attention whore... But then again, at that time I, I tried to make myself a dung pile because I had some half baked issues and problems... But hey, nice people from funnyjunk, like you, helped me get over it then, and I turned from pure nihillism to plain minimalistic. Which is more than I ever wished for

I think there is more to it that that... But that is a thought for another day. And I'm sure there is more to deserving a friend than just apriciating them. I apriciate alot of things might be too much , even that one guy who shares one eight of a chip, I'm gonna be thankful about that.

That's still pretty cool of you though. And seeing as you said that this whole self restraint thing is pretty bad, I'd be willing to say you could be exaggerating the negatives. The fact that you do care about how you would want to deserve getting said friend shows signs of a good person. Anyone could have said that they wanted someone to talk to, but seeing as you want someone to talk to and want to deserve that, I'd say you're in the clear for having a good friend

You really think so? I'm pretty much a second hand support is all

Second hand support?

Like, the guy who will be lending a hand most of the time, if not all of the time, but no one ever notices. The one who apriciates listening more than talking, even if it means to be silent for dar longer than it's comfortable

Then heck, that's even more reason to have a good friend. To have someone who appreciates you in return

But that's a salty point for me, since I don't feel the need to be apriciated

You don't have to feel the need or want for something nice in order to have something nice given to you. Sometimes life can just give you nice surprises, or in other words, luck. And if not luck, that apprecation would be something you had earned through the friendship

I don't know if I would like something nice to happen to me. My best guess is that I'm too used to this way od thinking, that I glued a thought in my brain, that it's impossible for me to have nice things. Like, most of the time something nice happens, I simply don't know how to respond to it, not to mention how I'm with people who I don't know well... Well as in at least 3 years

To be honest, accepting nice things happening to you would seem like a good first step in breaking out of it. You should enjoy it if something nice happens to you. When it's done is done. If someone paid you a compliment they had already said it. There is no way to make it so that they didn't say so, so why not enjoy it? I get that your mind would turn you away from that, but fight against that is a start

Last time someone gave me a compliment, I fought as hard against it, it made me look like a attention whore... But then again, at that time I, I tried to make myself a dung pile because I had some half baked issues and problems... But hey, nice people from funnyjunk, like you, helped me get over it then, and I turned from pure nihillism to plain minimalistic. Which is more than I ever wished for

Honestly,I quite enjoyed reading what you had to say. I'll keep that in mind, although I'll start by thinking over the reasons I started training myself to be restraint in the first place.

Hah, I'm pretty omenous when it comes to luck, so my best guess is to be nice to others. Not that it's needed for me to do so, but rather that I prefer it that way As in I like being nice to others. Except egoistic people.

There, see? There's a good reason as to why you would deserve a friend, becuase you would appreciate them. Nothing selfish in that at all

I think there is more to it that that... But that is a thought for another day. And I'm sure there is more to deserving a friend than just apriciating them. I apriciate alot of things might be too much , even that one guy who shares one eight of a chip, I'm gonna be thankful about that.

That's still pretty cool of you though. And seeing as you said that this whole self restraint thing is pretty bad, I'd be willing to say you could be exaggerating the negatives. The fact that you do care about how you would want to deserve getting said friend shows signs of a good person. Anyone could have said that they wanted someone to talk to, but seeing as you want someone to talk to and want to deserve that, I'd say you're in the clear for having a good friend

You really think so? I'm pretty much a second hand support is all

Second hand support?

Like, the guy who will be lending a hand most of the time, if not all of the time, but no one ever notices. The one who apriciates listening more than talking, even if it means to be silent for dar longer than it's comfortable

Then heck, that's even more reason to have a good friend. To have someone who appreciates you in return

But that's a salty point for me, since I don't feel the need to be apriciated

You don't have to feel the need or want for something nice in order to have something nice given to you. Sometimes life can just give you nice surprises, or in other words, luck. And if not luck, that apprecation would be something you had earned through the friendship

I don't know if I would like something nice to happen to me. My best guess is that I'm too used to this way od thinking, that I glued a thought in my brain, that it's impossible for me to have nice things. Like, most of the time something nice happens, I simply don't know how to respond to it, not to mention how I'm with people who I don't know well... Well as in at least 3 years

To be honest, accepting nice things happening to you would seem like a good first step in breaking out of it. You should enjoy it if something nice happens to you. When it's done is done. If someone paid you a compliment they had already said it. There is no way to make it so that they didn't say so, so why not enjoy it? I get that your mind would turn you away from that, but fight against that is a start

Last time someone gave me a compliment, I fought as hard against it, it made me look like a attention whore... But then again, at that time I, I tried to make myself a dung pile because I had some half baked issues and problems... But hey, nice people from funnyjunk, like you, helped me get over it then, and I turned from pure nihillism to plain minimalistic. Which is more than I ever wished for