Holy **** .That must be the runner up for the pain Olympics. **** man. I regular best gore and don't flinch. But this **** , **** man. I'm a bit speechless.

im sorry you had to see that

It had to be done, man. Had to be done.

Holy **** nuggets, a famous person commented on my profile. I will cherish this comment forever.

soundofwinter

King **********

Indeed good sir, The best of the best

ouch

What can I do ya for?

As I said, immature and not a civil person.

Well, I don't want anyone to know because lets say I get hurt really bad, they might not give me pain meds when I really need them for pain. Also I plan on joining the army soon and they won't take me if they see a drug addiction in my past. I really want to serve. Also me joining will help my addiction, during boot camp when they brake me down I won't have access to them, or I hope.
But I also use them as a escape, life is going down hill right now. It helps me cope. I appreciate you talking about it. I like the fact that there are people that care. And what you have to say.
But I will never turn into one of those junkies that steal. There has been times I go without them for weeks, and that hurts. But I never steal for them, I also have a $2400 tv, $1200 rig, xbox and other goodys. I just tell myself it isn't worth it selling my stuff I worked for, but it hurts man. My dad has them to, but he doesn't abuse them. He got hurt really bad, tore 2 ligaments in his knee, broke his knee cap and severed something else. He gets 120, 10 millogram percocets a months. those cost 10 bucks apiece. But I don't steal those either. He needs them bad for his blown knee, and that hurts more having them in my face like that. But you can see they are expensive. I'll do 5 of them a day, that is 50 bucks a day. I won't do anymore though so I don't od. It is a very expensive habit. But as you can see. I am addicted but won't wrong anyone to get them . I am a christian to, so that helps me cope sometimes, and why I won't wrong anyone, I don't want karma to get me. But it was so stupid to start, I did it when my first and only gf broke up with me. That is when it started. My sis is in the same boat. But she sold her tv, the same one as me for $120, I called her stupid, but I'm afraid I'll end up doing that. I've been on them for 4 years, I was 15 when it started. But I'm curios what you have to say. It does help me sometimes. I have quit once from people helping me stop. Damn, sorry for the long essay, lol.

You're determined to not wrong anyone, but you are wronging yourself. You aren't even 20, and this is something that will consume you. Maybe not anytime soon but addiction always wins. You have to remember that. I see what you mean about getting really hurt, but it's a different situation- if you are deemed to need pain meds, you will get them regardless of history. I think the army is a good thing and it's understandable that that's why you wouldn't want this on a record, but the army has drug screens and even pain killers show up on them in amounts like you're describing.
Here's my take, I'd like it if you were willing to try to let me help you, but if not then please just bear in mind what I have to say:
90% of an addiction like this is psychological. Your body has no requirement for the pills, your mind tells it that it does. I'm sure a lot of this stuff you understand, you're no idiot I can tell just from your style of writing. You say you don't sell things, but believe me when I tell you that in the end, you would. When there is no other way, you would. The reason you never did before is because you didn't need to. You mention times when you went a couple of weeks without any, but I'm guessing you were always waiting on a pay check or something? You knew that after the period there would be a way. But look at that as evidence you don't actually need the pills. Your brain is fine to go without for a bit.
You think it's cool that you have goodys like a cool rig and so on, but imagine what you could have if you didn't spend money on pills. I'm going to make a list of the benefits if were addictionless:
- Money
- Joining the army like you want to
- You can prove to your sister it can be done and help her too.
- You'll be able to live beyond the pills, rather than be tethered to them.
- The pride you can have in yourself.
- Get a girl, a job a home a life a family and anything else.

I've got more to say but I'm out of letters, so give me your thoughts so far.

I'm not ignoring you. I'm just thinking about what you said. I want to ponder on this for a while. I'll get back whenever I get my thoughts together and in the correct context.

Take your time man, and do please get back when you can.

Dude, I need that. Is there a link or is it all on youtube? I didn't plan to buy it when it came out because I am broke as **** . But I have been to their concerts so they get my money, I will still buy it when I can. But I need that in a badway. Listing to 1 minute of a song kills me man.

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heres a pirate bay link. its really solid, "wrong side of heaven" and "anywhere but here"are amazing songs. but its a little weak on the solos

Dude, I freaking love you. Might take a while to download, slow internet where I'm at. And not every song is perfect. I did get to meet Ivan and the last concert I went to. Got his autograph and we chilled for a good 15 minutes before he had to leave. But I could kick myself for not having a camera. Thanks for the link man.

dont worry about it! and i heard mayhem festival was sick. 5fdp killed it!

I went to tresspass america here at knoxville Tn, augest 8th was the date. I went crowd surfing to. Somehow I ****** it up and rolled around like a rolly polly. But the mosh pit was sick. He got all the little kids on stage and played white knuckles. They know how to treat the crowd.

i dont know why but ivan always seems like a douche to me.but id still love to meet him.
I saw jason hook in nyc at a music shop he was great

Can be, but he was a chill guy. He doesn't act like he is his high horse. He shook my hand when he left to. I'd like to meet the rest of the band to. When ever I get a lot of money I should get backstage passes to meet them all.

Yes?

I forgot what i was gonna ask...

Oh and also the PS3 emulators are complete **** for making you do a survey/pay to get the BIOS...gonna see if someone has a BIOS free shared somewhere.

Well that sucks. chances are the whole thing is a scam. And that mech game, can't remember the name looks badass. I didn't see enough rpgs either.

Titanfall? Yeah, tho Witcher 3, DA: Inquisition; Kingdom Hearts 3; FF XV and...I don't know. Might get a PS4 future-wise to get the KH3.

Yeah, titanfall. It looks awesome. I've lost all faith in ff. I played ff13 and it didn't feel like ff should. I really hope dragon age isn't rushed like 2 was. Hopefully they listen to what their fans want. But honestly I'm looking forward to dark souls 2 more than anything. That game is amazing.

Gotta agree, tho the new FF battle style seemed interesting from the show case, gotta see it for myself tho. And hopefully they do take their time...I can already see 'day one DLC' announced 7 months before game release...instead of adding it in-game. (Like EA did to BF4)

I miss the old day of gaming. Companies are so greedy. We should make out own companie that offers complete games
with black jack and hookers.
But I do have to give it to ea. They are taking away online passes. They are listing. Or there is a greater scheme at work.

Could you link me the new ff battle system. I would like to see it.

Sure here:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=KfLz4bYuOM0
Also the company that did that are the ones that are making The Witcher series, they got some companies trying to buy them, they neglected them all.
Would the hookers have to pay for international shipping? That would be costly.

Damn that looks pretty good. Doesn't look as bad as 13. Looks like the combat is hack and slash. I'll have to get that game. Well just give the hookers dlc.

Yup, tho when it comes out I'll check out some gameplay to see how it is. And wait...I was talking about actual physical hookers. And man Kingdom Hearts 3 is being shown everywhere...BUT IT'S SO FAR FROM DONE!!!! 7 ******* years man! Replayed KH2 yesterday on PCSX2 emulator tho it randomly crashed. I actually was able to make it work with a keyboard O_O

I never really got into the kingdom heart series. But I can feel your pain waiting for a game. I'm sure you know about the whole megaman legends 3 ordeal. I waited 10 years and there was a spark. They said they were going to make it. 10 years of nothing. Then about halfway through production capcom cancelled the game. It has been cancelled for 2 years and the assholes never gave us a reason why it was cancelled. That is why the creator of megaman left capcom. It pains me to think about it. My favorite game of all time and they cancel it without a reason. They basically said screw you. And I was to about the hookers. The hookers will have iphone credit card readers in which you pay for dlc ( dress less content. ) Also, know any good psx games. Like rpg based. I've been playing some ff7 and 9 and some legends of dragoon. Legends of dragoon has the best story of any game I have ever played. And wait, are you saying it will be done 7 years from now? That is a long ******* time. Just hope they don't cancel it and crush your every hope and dream after they say they are making it.

I'm not that much of a Megaman fan (just liked the 1st 3 games) but yeah heard about that. There was also that Star Wars 1313 that was cancelled when Lucas Art broke...And nice, we can also have the DLC (Dick Licking Content) and various other DLCs. Tho we have to make the hookers in a high variety of physic.

And no, no, it's that they took 7 years to announced that KH3 is being built. (Most likely started working about a year or so ago). But man I gotta get a controller...on keyboard it's working but it's a bit hard because of the left up,down,right,left buttons that really kills me.

Man I hate gaming with a keyboard. I don't see how people do it. And that would suck waiting 7 years. If you had to wait that long then it better be damn good. Might have to wait a year 2 at most now.

Yeah, tho hopefully they took that time and created something good, like how The Witcher 3 and DA 3 are taking so long and aren't being rushed (don't know about DA 3 tho) it might turn out to be good, hopefully.
Yeah keyboard is hard, for handheld emulator it's easy but other than that omg...

I hope they make do3 good. I do love a good rpg. And Try playing orcorina of time on the keyboard. Didn't turn out to well.

I played Windwaker on the Dolphine emulator...Impossible with a keyboard, you have zero control on the camera. And you mean DA3? I also hope it's good, hope EA won't do an 'always' online crap like they did to that SimCity.

What? Dare I ask.