*username/current skype name/etc

my name rn is "Meh"

it's got some trippy ass elephant on it as the picture, says something probably depressing

the status is more edgy than depressing
is it some reference i dont get

what does it say?

i dont have skype open lol

its judgement day, ready to die?

i believe that was post my really confusing mushroom trip.

it was definitely a change of pace from the rest of them.

what was the trip like

a lot of mixed feelings about where i wanted my life to go mixed with a super strong high
while you watch the world twist together and form things that aren't there but seem like they are.

its really interesting and entertaining, this was my first trip where i just ate them at leisure instead of doing a specific dose.

i had a very interesting dilemma involving a train, but i think i made the right choice.

sounds like some spooky ****

it's not really spooky, more just fascinating, you want to figure out how and why things are the way they are, and if the way you see is the way it really is, or if it has some other meaning that you haven't seen it said thing before, maybe from a different point of view.

i'd say to try it, but it's more of something you gotta decide you want to do
that being said, i've not run into any horrific scenarios involving the fungus among us

well thats good at least

yeah, have you looked into any of this kinda stuff?

not really

my ***** what is this nonsense you have plastered onto me

hey mane

how are you

ayy lmao

im alright, doing summer precal stuff

you?

Hey Dashie, it's been a while

how's you doin?

Holy **** man i totally skipped past this when i last checked my notifications

i'm aight mane, out of school and thinking about where to go from graduation.

what about you?

Just about wrapping up a visit to my dad's in a couple days.

You got any ideas about what?

wat

lol

yeah mane, i been had been around haha

how's it goin

Oh? My apologies, dear.

Have you heard of the new pony board?

not in a minute

how's it doing? any oldies still hanging

I believe there are still quite a few, yes.

that's good

i still think some of the old systems we had put down for when bronies were a heated topic were takin out and shouldn't have been, i hope that's changed

how're you doing? what's going on in the life of rarity

neato

do some research man.

south's a ******** anyways, whether east or west or dead ass center of the u.s
get outta there

well i'm less likely to **** a tranny in the south, for one
two, ****** love to kill each other with machetes in brazil.

i'll take getting shot to death over getting worked with a machete any day, thanks.

it's all about the right places dood

well brazil sure aint one of em

good luck finding iowaska, literally dmt tea

i'd do it, maybe once and that'd be it
i'll just machete my own enemies if i have to

honestly, i wanna try peyote. be with my ancestors for a while

it's on reservations

well where the hell are all the Choctaw at

wuz good

thats a damn good question

i dont remember speaking to you much in the past. i guess now's a good time to rectify that

you know we actually had some really deep conversations back in the day

something with your dad and some real **** , but it's been years

how's your life been going?

a constant spiral

downward

care to evaluate? or is that still not your style

that's beatsauce man, you gotta get on that uphill grind

im a sociopath with a drug problem and no friends

im just riding this out until something kills me. boredom, i guess

well what kinda drugs are we talking about, i can probably assist you with that

as for friends, find good homies who do the same **** as you

nothing addictive, just hallucinogens and maybe gasoline when i get really bored.

man there aint no one to trust here.

trade out the gasoline for ganj and you're straight imo
mixing psychies with bud is a fun ass experience

where art thou

im black dude, i figured it was already implied that i smoke heavy.

the southern US wasteland

i mean i'm not one to judge on that,

you never know really, especially over da internet

damn, sitting here on that east coast. it's been beat here for the last few months

you might as well bro everyone else is doin it

shid ***** , there's yet to be a dull moment in NO

eh, i tried it years ago, ended up fancying mushies over cid or even dmt
something about sticking with naturals just feels better.

yeah but nc-virginia is some dead ass ****

anything that isnt THC-based is pretty much nonexistant in the south. i'd kill many men for some DMT.

get in the dark web
you'll find it

how do you think we got it? it doesn't just have a constant stream
i only did it once, but another time would be fun

>getting drugs off the internet

yeah, no, there are easier ways to get arrested.

dead drop ur **** .

i'm just sayin that's how we got anything we wanted, we had pounds upon pounds of shrooms going through

the south is full of snakes man, suggesting a ***** dead drop your **** is an easy way to get bitched outta some money.

no thanks.

we had a tight circle i guess, just got lucky.

either way if you dont someone else might and you'll get lucky.
or go to brazil and take iowaska

man, im not ****** with brazil

sup

gonna play some tf2, you?

waiting on my boy to come around so i can go over to his house

i was supposed to be working today but i missed it so icalled in sick

aw that sucks

meh i don't really like working there, i'd rather have a free saturday

whats your job?

just front line team member at chik fil a

i run registers and ****

are the customers pleasant at least?

sometimes.

other times they're just stupid lol

hue

yeah it could be worse

i still get paid, so meh

I know it's okay, i'll live and walk away strong if i chose to.
it'd hurt, but i'll survive, that's what i'm good at.

but at a certain you just have to ask "why the **** does it even matter to survive?, it's just more pain in the long run."

you have 60+ years to experience much more in this world than just pain. there's going to be ups and downs, but it's a journey that's always worth it.
You're really thinking about this way too much. she isn't perfect, and thinking about her while not being with her isn't a valid reason to die.
i gotta get off. take a breather and relax man. and please try to get some sleep soon.

she's one of many. iv'e been really stressed out lately and it's frying me.

goodnight Paul, thanks for listening.

don't be afraid to reach out for advice to others, like blue, eric, inks, etc.

anytime.

*from others

sup dude

nuthin, u?

Talking to an app state university counselor about getting into their school

nice ^^

yeah i really want to go there

their school is nice and they have degrees in things i want to study, and there's like an amazing girl that i want mine and she goes there, we could room together

hehe~

She's amazing dude.

i'd make her a queen if she asked. i don't care how. it'd happen.
and it sucks because she's already there and i'm still at my ******* highschool

don't set your expectations too high though

iv'e gone through like 5 girlfriends this year already.

try to hang out with her some more during the year if you can.

5 gf's?

Yeah, when spring break comes around she'll be home i think.

and yeah, it's been weird cause usually i'd have like 1 if i was lucky. but it's been pretty populated for some reason right now

alrighty then.

yea,

how've you been? you gotten any girls or guys for yourself?

nope :c

i'm a fool

i might get some sleep soon, im pretty drowsy. i can stay up awhile longer to listen though.

It's this girl dude.

it's just eating me up inside

you can't stop thinking about her eh..
you'll be able to hang out with her soon, don't worry.
and no matter what your positive bias says, she's not near as perfect as you think she is.

she's literally on my mind 24/7. if i'm not engrossed in work of some sort my head is just filled with her.
it's like a ******* disease that's infected me, i can't shake it no matter what
i saw her today, only for an hour or two but still.

i just know that i'm not going to be accepted by her, i'm not enough.
it just makes me want to disappear from living.

sorry for the late reply, my folks were having me run up and down the stairs for fruit, she's sick atm

It's okay if you're not accepted by her. you dont have to be some form of great or perfect to get her, that's not how it works. just because you met a "perfect girl" doesn't mean she's the only one you'll ever meet. you're fooling yourself and setting the bar way too high.

how so?

yeah i know
i'm honestly really scared that like we're gonna become distant as the year goes on. but we get really close when we're together at things

destroy nostalgia thoughts, think of the negatives to remind yourself why it stopped happening.

i tried that
i remember that half of it was preventable
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaeiou

it was preventable.

but it wasn't prevented.

THAT MAKES IT WOOOORSE ;-;

oh well, it's nothing ill lose sleep over. whatchu up to?

reading hulk comics wbu

doing some studying for finals

fun

are they hard?

not terribly, except for math

mebe

how have ya been?

and whats your skype name again? everyone keeps changing their names and i forget who they are.

i'm good
gettin pizza.

my skype is still "meh" haha

what kinda pizza

bacony chicken with peppers

yum

it's pretty good haha

ur pretty good

n-no i'm not..

[small]<3[small
]what website is that from?

cool stuff on there, just click around and you'll see

sweet, thanks ^^

it's from weavesilk.com

thanks mane, i'm an old man now

18 isnt old

iv'e known you for 4 or 5 years.

it's been a while when u think about it

c:

and only 2-3

lies and slander

i joined the whole brony and anti depression move my freshmen year of highschool, early 8th grade

i'm a senior now

you may have joined it then, but i didnt make an account until october 2011.

ah i see

i suppose it's just with everyone remaking and deleting accounts i have trouble keeping track

yeah, :c

word

sup dude

Not much.
Saturday night... chilling.

not a bad way to spend the evening

i'm doin that same man

you done ****** up

been a while man. what's up

Posting random stuffs on random friends list people's comments.

Not much, chilling it.

i feel that, i'm about to get outta school man. so excited

That freedom. Even if you don't move out, it's such a good feeling being done with school.

oh definitely, moving out honestly doesn't matter that much. i hardly spend any time at home

True.. I'm spending less time at home too. More work, more long biking / jogging trips (now that I've got tons of music on mah phone), and gaming laptop.

i'm super social now, know hella people and kinda do my thing wherever i go.

**** bitches, get money, that kinda life.

it's not bad haha

Ditto, apart from the super social thing. I keep a small circle of friends, and that's enough for me..

Getting mad stacks from all the work I've done though.

i have a tight friend circle, but you know how it goes, they know this guy and he knows this guy who coincidentally knows you so it all comes together at some point.

i feel that dude, having cash to blow is pretty nice hahaha.

Usually works that way.

I'm tempted to buy so much stuff, but I've done well so far to not buy stuff I really don't need.

honestly with my money i hate spending it. i like mentally don't enjoy it to the slightest bit. I hoard hella until i just have a **** ton then i can buy like anything and it'll hardly matter.

wassup

nuttin much, u

browsin fj, playin WoT and waiting until i know what the plan is today

nice. what all have you been up to?