I'm sorry...

It only makes your life harder, y'know?

I do not want to sound mean or rude... but I am not an idiot...
I know what is good and what is bad...

Well if you know it's so bad what's blocking you?

I just think I do not need help... all of my problems are minuscule...

I need to get sleep right now though... I am sorry for having to leave you...
Goodbye...

...aww we left it on a bitter note...

Every problem is big in my eyes. If it's bad enough to bug you it's bad enough to talk about.

Hello...

It's been a little while. Though I ought to drop by.

That is awfully nice of you...

I aim to please!

How have things been for you?

Worse than usual...

Oh no

What happened?

It happened a while ago... It is just eating away at me...

Oh... Do you want to talk about it? I'm very good at listening.

I am very good at listening as well...
That is why I prefer not to talk...

I have never, nor do I ever plan to tell people of my troubles... I will get over them myself...

But that's how people go prematurely bald!

Than I guess that is too bad for me...

Do you know what my hair looks like now...?

Pink still?

And c'mooooon. It's not a burden to me or anything... You're not helping anyone by bottling it up :\

I'm sorry...

You are very difficult to assist you know.

Your demeanor practically screams "somebody understand me"... but you're very keen on staying aloof rather than opening up.

Very difficult indeed!

I do not make any sense... a couple others strive to understand me...
I do not understand myself either... I am sorry...

I am not sure how I can help...

You can open uuuuuuup ;)

"I'm not sure how I can help..."

That is one of the things I can't do...

Poo

you know you don't need to impose these things on yourself :\

"I do not make any sense..."

That's no good :\

We will get back into the swing of things one day, I am sure.

I don't know... maybe...

I can only hope.

I am leaving soon.

Good...

What I said now has double meanings.

Not only am I leaving for the summer in a matter of a few days, but I am also hopping off funnyjunk soon.

Just wonderful...

If you believe so, I do as well.

It is beyond expressing...

See you around, Gio.
Take care.

Goodbye...

Alright.

How is the weather today?
I think it is rainy here, today... It started raining last night, for sure. Around nine thirty.

Hot and annoying... nothing else...

I played that same shooting game with Mister Fire as you...
The one with the pews...

He has informed me.
You're rather good at it too, yes?

Do you enjoy it?
Have you embraced the pews?

I suppose I am good... though I take no pride in succeeding in video games...
It is enjoyable... You were right when you said that he dies a lot... He is reckless...

After making that sword with a name closely resembling Crona, I have been more fond of the swish, swash and stab part of the game rather than its pews...

I don't know if reckless is the right term.
I die from being reckless. I pay attention to my health and shields, and still do things I shouldn't.
He just does not pay attention.

Cronus? I think that is the name... I have gotten that too...
I prefer the first sword, because I can make it fiery and electricy!

Not paying attention is a form of recklessness I believe...

You are right about the name of the weapon and I know you have it...
as well as a measly 5 successful uses of it...

I have only used it yesterday yet I have almost already surpassed the first sword...
Although I have yet to make anything fiery... though electricity has been applied to my rifle and sword...

I have also found out that you go through the pain of using a touch pad...
Have you gotten used to using it... or is it awful...?

I am used to it.
I think I do rather well, for using it...

Though, generally speaking, I am a novice when it comes to games.
I think novice is an alright term to use...

You use the best terms ever...

I am a novice when it comes to the keyboard and mouse...
I hit the wrong buttons a lot...

Will will both get better with things eventually...

Unlike you I have only played with Mister Fire...

He is fun enough to play with.

He wants the three of us to play together, some time.

Spookyscary.

Oh yes. Very much so.

You and I, however...
We should play together.

We made a good team of killing things in my dream, so... Perhaps we would in a game, as well.

I can't think!

Mable's name is going to stay Mable.
In case you were not aware.

Playing alone with you does not make it any less spookyscary!

and that is good to hear I think...

But Gio! We have done a lot of stuff alone together.
I thought it was getting less spookyscary?

I think it is good.
You liked the name, no?

Yes, but I so much as a few days away form something and all experience is lost and I can't do anything...

It is a nice name...

People should just stop talking to me in general...

But we care about you sweetie. We want to talk to you.

I know...

Just don't worry about all this, sweetie. Do what you want to do.

Just look within and think what you want to do and it'll come to you eventually.

Now, let's change the subject. Allow me to assist you.

Ask me what I've been up to.

I do not really feel like talking anymore...

Alright, sweetie. I'll leave you to your thoughts. I'll check up on you another time.

I'll see ya around, alright? Have a good day sweetheart.

But then why should you bother talking with me...?

Because I enjoy talking with you.

You are odd...

Hahaha, oh yes I definitely am. But that's besides the point.

I like you Mangio, you're a good friend of mine and I really enjoy talking to ya.

I'm sorry for removing you as a friend...

Oh, that's perfectly alright sweetheart. I know how you stand with all this friend list business. I may not be on your list but I'm still your friend. That's never gonna change.

But it didn't make you feel very good...

It just took me by surprise is all. I didn't expect it at all, I care a lot for my friend list. It stores memories of the past and the friendships I've made. When I saw your removal I thought there was something I said or did. I never enjoy losing a friend from that list.

I've really destroyed mine...

I have only become more and more solitary...

But, hey. You get plenty of visits from people that care about you on your profile. That's a counter for solitude if you ask me.

Not very much recently...

and even then... They have become shorter...

Then along comes Runzi and breaks the combo.

But here's also an issue with the friendlists and whatnot, you can always come on over to my profile for example if you're after a chat but I like to keep my profile private. Many others have the same setting as well.

Heck even you had it for a little while when I wanted to hop on by.

If I wanted to talk with you I can mention you or send you a private message...

Hm, alright, sure that works. But wouldn't just a simple comment on a profile be simpler?

But I won't pry, you have your reasons.

My stupid, awful, horrible reasons that make no sense even to me...

I probably don't even have any reasons I can think of...

Oh, come now. It may have just been one of those friend list cleanups to see who would care to stay on it and who would just move on. I've been in many situations like those.

I dunno, but you don't need to explain it, I understand. This is something you want to look into yourself and I'll let you do that. I don't need to be on that silly list as long as your profile is open for me to pop on in.

I don't know what I think I'm doing with this!
I don't plan on having any friends anymore... I'm just stupid, that is the only logical reason I am doing this...

Darling, it's alright. You didn't hurt anybody and everyone that care for you are still around. You can look at this in many ways, perhaps you wish to start anew, meet new users and rebuild your friend list. Perhaps you just wish your friend list to be special for those that mean a lot to you, something like that.

But don't worry about all this. You'll figure out what you want to do in due time.

The closest person I've ever met isn't on that list...
I don't plan on adding anyone anymore...
I know I've hurt people with that dumb list...
and I plan to never use it again...

This is another thing... almost all of the conversations I have now revolve around the other worrying about me or trying to help me...

That's because we care about you sweetheart. You seem so troubled and we want to do what we can to ease your mind.

You might also try and give back to the conversation, you know like ask the other a bit more and get him talking more about himself for you. That'd even out the scale and add in a lovely conversation for both parts. But like now for example I always get the impression that something might be wrong and my protective instinct hops into play. And well.. Here we are.

I do not know...

I just do not like males... I have been around them most of my life and have come to hate them horribly...

Ah, I see. That makes sense.

Well alright, you can think of it as you wish but I think you look cute.

At least it is a positive thing to think...

Heheh, yeah. It really is.

Positive things to think are always nice.

Please say something...

Aw, but hugs are nice.

Hm, have you watched Attack on Titan? It's bloody fantastic.

I have not...

Dude, you gotta check it out. I've never seen an anime quite like that one.

What's this now? Y'alright?

I just do not know what to say a lot of the time...
so I usually just say nothing...

Heheh, that's understandable sweetie. Although saying something can always help me continue our talks further.

But I don't know what to say... ever...

There's a plenty you could say. For example I've been asking you a whole lot to keep a thread going, what you could do is direct some of my questions towards me.

I'm so sorry for not replying...

Heheh, don't worry about it sweetheart. I'm keeping busy with other conversations and youtube.

I'm sorry... I forgot it was on that setting...

I was trying to hide from somebody...

Oh, no problemo, sweetie.

Hm? Who do you mean? How did that turn out?

It was fine...

My replies may be late...

Okay, that's good to hear.

How are you sweetie?

I am fine...

Wonderful, what have you been up to? I haven't heard from you in forever.

I have been up to nothing...

You already know of my pink hair, no...?

Other than that there is nothing to inform you about...

Ah, yes I know of that. How's that treating you so far? Gotten into any funny shenanigans with it yet?

Not really...

Hm.. Interesting, well it still seems like fun. And looks Kawaii as well.

I really do not think so...

Aw, you don't like it?

I just do not think it is cute...
I like it plenty...

Ooh, well I find it plenty cute.

Others have said the same, but I can't seem agree...

Opinions of the many outweigh the opinions of the few! x3

I do not see how that matters...

More people thinking I am cute will not change the way I think about myself...

Hm, perhaps but more people saying that could help you realize that you are :3

My mentality says that boys cannot be cute...
Only females are capable... or boys who change themselves surgically to be a girl...

Oh, please sweetie there are tons of cute guys. Why do you think that anyway?

Please stop...

What did I do D:

Stop apologizing...

The friend list doesn't say if you are my friend or not...

*hugs* I missed you

I do not see why you should...

Well I did.
I missed you, and I'm sorry.

I still do not see why you should be sorry towards me either...

I'm sorry... you got here at a bad time... I have to go now...
We can talk later I am sure... please do not be sad...

Goodbye...

Please talk to me on my profile when you're ready...
We'll talk later?
Bye....

You want me to be less weak, but in doing so I gather the strength to disappear, which you do not want to happen...

I just want you to be happy.
Do whatever you need to, for that to be the result.

This conversation has made me hate everything I say ever to anyone...

Definitely including that...

Hate is a bad thing, Gio Dear.
A bad, but necessary, thing.

Everything you know of me...

May I ask why that is?

Did something bad happen, maybe?

It happened a while ago... within the past two weeks I think...

It is just slowly eating away at me...

I am sorry...
Is there anything I can do for you?

Never...

I am so sorry, then.

Don't be...

What would you like to talk about?

Talking will be one of the things I am bad at...

Implying I wasn't already anyway...

I think you've always been good at talking, and probably will be still...

I cannot disagree with you without feeling awful...
I am sorry...

I am sorry.

Am I upsetting you by being here?

I do not know...

I think everyone should just ignore me...

I think that you may think that, but I disagree.
Ignoring is bad times.

I should not be telling you any of this...

I should not be telling anyone anything...

The best thing to do would be for me to just disappear...

Please do not disappear.

I am sure I will not...

I am too weak... I can't do much of anything...

You should rest.
Rest helps the weak.

I'm sorry...

You're a silly pony.

You are crazy...

Are you most commonly on around this sort of time?
That would explain why I haven't seen you...

I'm sorry...

And now I realize that my reply was too late and I have missed you...
I hope you have a good time way from the internet...

I've been on for hours...
I've been on a lot of the time that you have...

I am just easily not noticed...

I've noticed you on.
I just assumed that if all of your most recent comments are multiple hours old, that you're not really here.
I am so sorry.

Is your computer still not working?

Sorry, sorry, sorry.

I am not going to the car graveyard like I told my dad I was going to.
I am too tired. Staying home makes sense.

What are you doing today?

Nothing... ever...

Do you like gummy bears?

I do not know...

Do you have a favourite pokemon?

I am worthless right now...

You are never worthless, little one.
Hush now.

Am I at least really stupid...
I am most certain that I am a lot...

Everyone is stupid sometimes.
It's not a problem.

I just ate a whole bag of gummy bears.
I bit their heads off. Is that bad?

I think I might dye my hair black...
If not black, then orange. I do not know.

I am going to be very bad at things today... especially today... and it will probably last for a couple days... maybe even weeks...
Truly dreadful...

What sort of things will you be bad at?

Hello...

How has your day been?

I woke up about three hours ago...

Late night, eh?

...That worries me. Want to elaborate? You could just be saying you're tired or something... but the picture looks like tormented...

You should know by now... nothing ever bad happens to me...

My life is the epitome of boring...

...You could always make it less boring by... doing stuff... 'n things.. < : )

I'd rather it stay this way...

you like the bore, eh?

I don't bother anyone and I don't get hurt...

I guess. But sometimes getting hurt is fun!

A month or so ago I jumped 15 stairs and scraped myself so bad I'm still bruised! It was fun though :3 And it's a story to tell!

I like your new mascot. She's a cute one. What's she from?

I have never heard of that anime... or game... or whatever she's from

Looks real old school. Neat! Reminds me of my childhood

It is a nice game...

True, quite true. Never thought that function would be useful the day it came out and everyone was spamming it... Heh

I have found it quite useful...
Mostly for getting people's attention...

Like Navi in Zelda!

Am I really just as annoying...?

I never thought she was annoying... She was only ever trying to help :\

Hell, Link misses her so much when she leaves him that he goes into the lost woods without a fairy guide to search for her despite knowing it will turn him into a stalfos!

I am not good with Zelda games...

Zelda games were always my favourite... They were the thinking man's action rpg...

They weren't like elder scrolls or borderlands where it's all run 'n gun... You really had to puzzle out how to solve each dungeon... Orcarina of Time most of all required immense amounts of patience... and the richness of the world of Zelda was unparalleled in my youth...

I'd recommend you give 'em a second try. Usually the tough games of our youth become easier as we age... and they really were an incredible experience... At least for me

I have never beaten any... but I have played a good lot...

I watched my friend play through Windwaker...

Aw well... Some games aren't for everyone... I'm admittedly pretty hard core when it comes to gaming.

'Least I used to be... No more time for that now.

Oh...

Sorry to cut things short tonight... Busy day tomorrow. Need to sleep. Seeya later!

Goodbye...

The fried list on this site means nothing to me...

ok..

The things that matters most to me is being able to talk to people... and we are doing that right now, so I am fine with that...

ok..

sorry...

I only disagree because I hide my profile from folks who aren't my friends... It'd be nice to be able to extend the same degree of freedom for you to contact me as I have to contact you!

Even if I had you as a friend, it would be very very unlikely that I would go to your profile...

I never choose to talk to someone, I only let them come to me...

Ah well... I guess... that's... Something.

Can't say it makes me happy to see, but I guess it's an answer.

Haven't seen you much since I got into friendly. Finding your comments is real difficult. Much more difficult than I thought it'd be.

A couple days ago I messed up my laptop... so I haven't been on...

Just hours ago I fixed it... but I got back just in time for all this annoying game stuff... It is all very frustrating...

Ah well... glad I wasn't missing you because of my own incompetence. The game crap is starting to die down I think...

I am not sure you will see many of my comments anyway...

I'm a little confused as to why you are searching for them in the first place...

Well if it weren't for you, I would never have made it onto the friendly board.

My first friend in friendly isn't exactly someone who I'm just going to forget!

Right... I forget things easily...

heh. Guess I'll just have to work extra hard to prevent that from happening.

I am happy you are here to talk to...

And I'm happy to be your friend!

Did I make you uncomfortable?

I just do not know what to say... I am sorry... This happens too often...

Aw well. I don't mind. Sometimes it's hard to come up with the right words.

I am pretty sure I choose not to be...

Which is why I choose to be for us both!

If you are okay with it... I see no reason you shouldn't be...

Wonderful then we're in agreement! I'll continue being as obnoxiously peppy as usual and you can join me whenever you feel inclined If that is never, so be it!

uh... I don't know what to tell you...

we could try again...

I guess... Should I try a different approach?

some of the mods are on right now...
so I can actually talk to them...

Any and all help is appreciated

You should send another friend request...

...

Sent!

You should be in at any moment now...

Wonderful!

Yes...

So... how was your day?

It has barely started...

Oh right... time difference... Heh, forget these things sometimes...

Got any plans?

never...

Ah well... That's alright... I guess...

I am boring, remember...?

No, just bored. I'm sure you'll find something that inspires you eventually

I suppose...

I'm certain!

Okay...

Optimism is kinda hard to impart on people, eh? Oh well, Guess I'll just have to be optimistic enough for the both of us

...

Just a pic I found, thought you might want it
I thought it was funny anyway

thank you...

Anytime

9:50 PM

Close enough

Glad I figured out time zones... When do you plan to go to bed?

I do not know...

No scheduled time? I plan to nod off soon. Gotta wake up in 5 + 1/2 hours

I plan to sleep whenever Milk sleeps really...

I forgot to thank that person...

Thank him/her for what?

I was not tired, but they got me to sleep... I woke up well rested for once...

Ah... well good sleep is something to be sought... So I guess on that note I'll be off... gonna be so dead tired tomorrow x_x Oh well.

goodbye...

g'night!

I do not know why they haven't yet...

Is it 'cause I made my profile private so only friends could see it? 'Cause I made it that way during the anon raids where they were thumbing users down to hell and the only way to survive was to lock up and not comment...

I do not think so...

has the mod been on the past few days?

don't you worry...

they should be on some time...

I sent another message to a different mod...

Alright. I won't worry.

I'd just like to chat with you among your other friends. Conversations on your profile feel like they're pulling you away from the world just to pay attention to me.

I'm barely using the thread anyway...

Oh... Well, it'd still be nice enough to talk to people my own age for once.

Though I've mentioned before, patience is virtue. I can wait

how old are you...?

19, you?

17...

Closer to my age than the run of the mill FJer ;)

people on the thread are mostly 16-18
I know two 22 year olds...

Glad I'm not the oldest fella there o_o

I guess most people graduate to either reddit or 4chan as time goes on... I'm already making forays into /pol/ and /a/ recently...

I don't know...

Well... suffice to say I advocate quite highly for 4chan. It has lots of boards besides /b/ and the people there can be really smart when they aren't being asses

Not to mention it has a similar system to FJ as far as conversations are concerned

okay...

so... ya...

...

It's 10:00 pm where you live, eh?

I had a pretty good idea of what it was...
I didn't need or want to know more...

Sorry

it is alright...

So.... whadaya wanna talk about?

I do not know...

Am I bothering you :\

not at all...

Ah... It's kinda hard to tell. Seems like I'm never saying the right things :\

I am hard to talk with...

Nothing easy is worth pursuing o_o

Milk seems to make you happy readily enough. If only I could figure out his/her secret... Then perhaps it might feel less like I was bothering you with these conversations xD

I think something is just wrong with me...

Well I mean... the worst I could say is you show some pretty textbook signs of chronic depression... Saw you mention to someone that when you woke up it felt like your lungs were filled with water (a common psychosomatic response to depression), the fact that the best you've ever said you felt in our conversations is "fine". The persistent mild negative state of mind (boredom) punctuated by periods of depressed state of mind, not to mention the consistent theme of helplessness scattered about in conversation...

But I'm not here to play armchair psychologist (despite how much fun it is!). I'm just here to be your friend You're certainly a lot more interesting than the masses of 3edgy5me 14 year olds that populate this site so I figure you're worth hanging on to... regardless of whether or not something is wrong with you.

Something is wrong with everyone in some way or another. It's how we choose to live with that wrongness that defines our character!

I do not know how to respond to this...

Did I upset you? :\

I guess the first paragraph could have been a little less harsh... I only meant to say that I notice the "faults" and don't mind them!

honestly it made me happy...

Woo! I finally said the right thing!

you can't really say the wrong thing towards me...

Well some things evoke better responses than others.

And "made me happy" is one helluva good response

I guess so...

Welp, that made my night.

Now all I need is to be accepted onto friendly board and my day will be perfect

I am fine...

So the day went well?

boring

shucks. Welp, boring isn't too bad, eh? Just a day waiting to be fun

my days are always boring...

Hobbies usually make days more interesting? Do you have any?

I talk to people here...

True...

I've always been a hobbyist. I like to think that the more skills I learn the better a person I become. Took up sketching, piano, fencing, fitness, and of course who can forget reading...

The more hobbies the better, right? Maybe you just need more hobbies to feel less bored Or maybe I'm just projecting myself... Who knows