I need to make more pictures.

But yeah, I'm good now.

Thanks for making this. I like it, a lot. Also, can I get help for positing my Cute Mark? It's not something I'm good at, and request your knowledge of.

So, we're talking Dark Souls level of "Fuck you, fuck you reeeal good"?

The first creature you face, two wolves, can pretty easily fucking rip you apart.

Wait. . . Two WORLDS.

TWO Wolves. . .

Half Life 3 confirmed.

Lolz.

But they can seriously fuck you up.

It took me so, so long to beat the Taurous Demon.

SO

Yeah, I doubt it'd be that any time soon.

Taurous Demon?

Big ass motherfucker bull demon first boss thing in Dark Souls.

Took about two, three weeks for me.

Oooh, Dark Souls.

Ahh, Masochism Souls, a game I should not of gotten, and purchased MineCraft instead.

MineCraft is fun :3

My girlfriend want's me to get it, to play with her.

Problem. I aint no money since then. And it'll be on Xbox, since I'm a casual.

I wanna get an Xbox over a computer because money too

Tell me about it.

If my teenage ass could get some superdoopar gaming laptop, that'd be nice. But, I can't. Eh.

I would, but I gotta watch my money.

It should be in your wallet, or a bank. It won't move any where without you.

The bank moves it. Kinda.

Dang.

Move the banks money. Show them who boss.

You said you were gone for good.

That's my only reason.

Ah. Okay?

I dunno.

You seemed pretty shaken up. Are you okay?

... I'm not entirely sure.

I'm functioning, but I feel kinda fragmented.

Oh. OH.

I think I know that feeling.

WELL, talk to me if you need it, Mister Bane.

Thanks Light.

I appreciate it.

After hearing what your parents did to you, over things that you don't have much control over, it's the least I can do.

Word of advice. Fuck them with the spiny end of a rake. I would. They aren't "Parents" if they do that, and if my facts are right.

Well they aren't my parents anymore...

They disowned me.

It's a shame, yeah, but so are their actions.

I'm just kinda focused on the immediate at the moment.

That's what I'd do. Look for the future when you can handle it.

Mhm.

Though I do want an Xbox.

Xbox 1.

How nice is that gonna be? It does the thingies, and makes it happen.

But that's pricey.

I just want a simple 360

I have one. It's neat.

I don't play it that much.

I'm hoping to buy one cheap.

And then get Skyrim. And Two Worlds.

Skyrim was okay, and it wasn't really my game.

Never played Two Worlds.

I like the Elder Scrolls series.

And it is amazing.

They're hits or misses for me.

Huh. It's an RPG, I know that. But, what feature do you like the most?

With Two Worlds?

Umm... I don't know about feature, but it doesn't baby you. Like... at all.

wut.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJ4L-kCeQto
So, this song is cool. I hate when the label adds their name to it, but fuck that.

I've shown you my favorite rapper, right?

www.youtube.com/watch?v=GxJzj65cOHE

Not Lil B

Hello.

how are
you

Good. How about
You?

i am
good
yes
yessssssssssssssssss

Huh.

What's the saying? If you're happy and you know it, shake dat ass?

SOUNDS GOOD TO ME

IF YOU DONT SHOW ME I WONT BELIEVE YOU

YOU WILL NEVER SEE THE BUTT SHAKING

FOR A FEW WEEKS

watcha up to :3

Right now, I'm cleaning.

i seeeeeeeee

how do you see me oh my lord what am doing now

shhh i'm just
hiding
in your room

Are you in the closet?

nope

So you. . .

CAME OUT THE CLOSET?

i was never theeeeeeeeere

Dang.

Where you be?

in ur butt
face
head
butt head

nuu das creepy

Sorry for the late reply. I didn't have FJ in a tab, and I was rather busy.

Wonderful evening to you.
Pardon me, but do I know you?

you dont have to worry about the late reply darling, and it is good to hear you are doing well. We have not spoken to my knowledge i simply felt like coming to visit.

Are you on Ponyville, or Friendly? I feel like I've seen you on friendly.

Well, if that's the case, feel free to tell me about your day.

Im afraid i am not on friendly darling, though in honestly i have never attempted to join it
also my day has been going good darling, thank you for asking.

My apologies for this. I have no say in the matter. . .

its fine darling, i will talk to you when you return should you wish to

Well, mine has been dand,y too. I need to do something. I may not return until late, if at all.

I went to do menial labor. It's okay.

Oh sorry... I just felt rather bad...

It's fine.

Don't feel bad for me. Better uses of energy out there.

That is what I do though put a lot of care and effort into my friends! Besides I don't really have much to use energy on haha

Just a tulpa.
My favorite pony is all of them, I guess.

I have no idea the exact numbers, but my father has a family of less than 5, including me, and my Mother has over 20.

Oh tulpas I uh have been hearing quiet about those a lot.... I think someone said I had one Trixie and I was like what?

Speaking of Trixie... its my username so it is obvious who favorite pony is...

Oh I meant like in your house or immediate... Like me I have 3 older siblings making me the youngest and then 5 pets only one is mine

What is the oddest combination of food you enjoy?

Um well people look at me weird... but I once was dared to stick an oreo in salsa con queso and it was honestly one of the best things I have ever had...

What is the most embarrassing thing you ever did

Most embarrassing. . .

Get taken seriously when I said "Obama is a useless nigga, who only made white slaves, and we should still own niggers like him."

Somebody took that seriously? They must be stupid like seriously they went full retard!

Um in 6th grade I my section of stands cleared the stands at a basket ball game because I had a really bad fart....

That's why my rowing team thinks I'm racist.

Oh, my. . .

Well you could be racist if you live in the south like I do! Where we support slavery and incest....

Yeah the cafeteria had mexican food that day and my stomach as a yongster wasn't very strong..... but at least I did not shit myself!

That's good!

What's your least favorite thing that people say about you?

Oh yes excellent....

No one has really said anything bad about me that I know of or at least on here... but I do question sometimes why people say they like me so much well at least on here... and I am really not trying to be egotistical or anything it is like I seriously don't really do much and some people call me awesome I just don't get it....

You? And what is the nicest thing anyone has said about you? Other than Luna is best princess haha

Because you are.

The best thing is probably anything www.funnyjunk.com/user/discordwhooves has said to me, as she's sweeter than something sweet.

You?

Awe that is adorable... Is this our girlfriend or just a girl?

Hmm well I have really only had once serious relationship but I can't really remember anything in particular that was said that I found sweet and no one really says anything sweet or charming around here... Well at least not a girl :/

Girlfriend.

Fun Fact: You can date other guys.

Fun fact: I am in no way gay or bi sexual...

I only like girls it has been all I have ever liked and I all I will ever like... I am not saying guys are bad but they are not sexually appealing to me so yeah....

You don't HAVE to fuck them. You can just like, enjoy who they are.

I know and I do but I am not going to date someone I am not sexually attracted too or even have a crush on... Do I like talking with them yes but it will not go beyond that...

I have a whole sister, a half brother, my mom, and stepdad, which I don't count.

Could be worse, really.

You could always be a few degrees below temp, to the point where you're at way high risk for hypothermia.

Who knows I could be... Oh well I don't let my health issues stop me from enjoying life!

That's a good out look.

What music do you listen to?

What music don't I listen too? If it is good I will listen too it but I guess you could say I prefer 70s and 80s music! And you?

I'm more of a metal / rocker child at heart. But, like you said, I'm game with anything.

Rock is good it is excellent! Are we playing 20 questions haha

Okay hmm favorite food?

Umm. . .

Hard one.

My favorite food has to be Fish and Chips, or Breaded Shrimp.

Oh seafood... I live in Florida and can't stand the stuff haha

Mine doughnuts I love sweets... burger and fries is a close second though!

Your turn :P

What's your favorite song, or book? Both, if you will.

Hmm favorite song that is a tough one because it is heavily dependent on my mood...

Book though Wind Up Bird Chronicle! Have read it over 5 times and it is almost 700 pages haha

You? And lets see a good question? What makes you happy like something simple that just always puts a smile on your face? Like for me rain does... Just the sound and smell and look cheer me up!

What is your favorite season?

Oh a lady friend... Yeah that is a good one excellent in fact!

Hmm I like winter I love the cold and it is well excellent cuddle weather if I had someone to cuddle! I just wish there was snow!

Okay hmm I want a good simple question but not to simple lie facorite color (orange) haha

Hmm favorite material possession other than technology!

I think that the sombrero I got during the "Fiesta de Senor Joeyseph" party that we had for my stepuncle Joey last fall.

Yours?

What is the best gift you've been given?

Oh hmm well this is a toughie... favorite possession... idk I lost my home and most of my sentimental things from my childhood so it is hard to choose... so I guess I just keep all my old tickets from movies and sporting events and concerts those are pretty important to me....

As for best gift... The gift of life I guess haha

Hmm what is your fondest memory?

My dad leaving me when my parents divorced when I was 3. His final walking out the door, and goodbye.

You?

What was the worst thing you've ever bought?

I never knew my dad... Well my biological one at least... That sounds sad I am so so sorry....

Fondest memory there isn't much but going to McDonalds every Wednesday with my grandfather is always a pleasant thought!

Hmm the worst thing I have ever bought... Probably something food related that I didn't enjoy... material wise I don't know anything I bought for an ex... or probably something I don't get much use from like hmm a nice shirt or something... I don't like to buy things I don't need or rarely use!

Best purchase?

My best purchase had to be dinner, for my two best friends one night.

What was the oddest thing anyone bought for you, and think you would want?

Hmm my best purchase is my laptop.... Just because school and what not plus first computer so it is special!

Hmm well I can't really say anything about stuff from my grandmother who buys me little religious things all of the time even though I am not religious but she is old and has dementia and what not... So hmm this actually tough one I don't really receive any gifts... I one time got cheese as a Christmas gift.... So that was bad...

You?

If you could choose three things to bring on an online what would they be? The island has electricity and internet connection but you can't go on the internet and get help like anything mentioning the island gets rejected...

Also, my oddest gift was a journal, and it had nothing on the cover. On the pages it was "Case study of Ben H.

Page 1. He's fucking nutty. Look at this freak. He probably likes girls. What a queer."

From a lady friend of mine.

If you could have one super power, aside all of them, what would you take and why?

I'd bring. . .

Wow that's tough.

Umm. . . I'd bring my girlfriend, my dream house, and enough food and clean water to put the stockpiles of a doomsday prepper to shame.

Wow I said three things not a grocery store but then again I guess that would be three things... the house would not be furnished though :P
I would bring uh nothing except maybe water! I wand to rough it up in the wilderness haha

Lets see there are two ways this could go.... I would love my own iron man suit but that is not really natural powers unless you count money as a power... so either superior intelligence or like elemental powers like ice and fire and stuff!

You?

Hmm oh man these past few ones have been bueno lets see! Favorite pony? haha I guess Luna :P

Seriously uh Family size including pets?

I think that the thing that makes me the most happy is talking to my girlfriend, rowing, or me being in my wonderland.

I dunno.

I feel like you know everyone in pv really well and I see you being nice on like everyone's profile... but we aren't even friends....

I try to.

We're friends now.

Woo!

You don't try you succeed!

Yes.

Is this the first time we have talked I really do not know?

It is the first time we've talked.

I don't think that is true... There is no way I have been pv back when it was Canterlot since the very first day and I talk to everyone so that can't be possible... I am just under a different name now...

Unless we are given the original, we won't be able to figure anything out.

Ponytimecrusader... You have to remember that I was like captain or whatever... and now I am an addy... And I swear I have talked to you on this profile because I remember you being sad someone didn't tag you in a post and I tried to cheer you up by saying you were the best lighting and best eagle!

We share no record of this.

It was maybe a month ago but I know for a fact that I have indeed talked to you before if only brief!

Then I can recall earlier this year maybe this last summer or at least I think it was you... That you were excited about going on a date with a girl you liked and that you tried weed for the first time or something... And then I think you posted some sort of secret but I couldn't tell if you were joking and won't post because I don't want to upset or tell anyone if it wasn't a joke... Yep does that ring a bell?

I never did smoke, I wanted to try it, that's all.

IT does now.

So, wait, secret? What is that secret? I forget now.

I believe something about trying semen once when you masturbated...

Oh, right.

Tastes like Swedish Fish or pears depending on my diet then.

Since I've aten like shit and gotten a lot of salt and take out, it's just gross now. I'm glad I get to actually have a diet now that we've moved.

I love Sweedish fist and I love pears and now I feel like they may be slightly ruined now.... haha

Yes diets are good my diet needs to consist of eating more because the doc thinks I am to skinny :/

Lucky.

Not really... I have extremity and circulation problems.... everyone complains that I am constantly cold even though the majority of the time I feel hot... so yeah

I'd love to always be colder than normal, but not more.

Sorry to hear. Any know ways to fix it?

Eat more and hope it doesn't become worse... I am not complaining but obviously something is wrong with me if I am cold when I touch people and I feel like I am too hot...

But I have made two.

Kitty. Please, you're the one that let me enable my fab to show it to you.

It is kinda adorable, and may, or may not of happened to me.

:OO It may or may not have happened to you? Did it, or did it not? I must knowwwww! <3

Let's say that uh, Memori / Enigma has. . . Their sexual needs. . . and they'll indulge where ever they are. And in my case, field.

Ohhhh~ Hehe. c:

Sorry, not out here. IN here.

That's how most things that are exciting, or not a snore are.

Thanks, Madi!

Thank you. I need a late party now. I JUST moved and got everything settled.

Ah. :3

How're you?

This move killed me. . .

Good, you?

I'm probably gonna see my father tonight. Will be cash.

So, I have a question.

Question?

Yes. Answer me this.

Hm?

www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPpWk_qQfc8&list=LLl1mdpF0IQFNi1ikvYfQd3w

Is this a good song?

Salutations.

To what do I owe the honor?

I'm bored

And I'm going through a break up.
Neat.

How was your day?

Meh. Pansy's bitching everyone out

You have something against me, do you?

And you're surprised, shocked, or have any reaction to this?

Common occurrence. I'd rather not shit talk behind his back, though. I will keep going if you want too, though.

Really nice to hear that, considering that I never had any fight/arguement with you.

You seem to be more. . . vocal towards me.

Do you wish to talk?

Im really only just surprised.

You say you have no issue with me, and I don't have one with you, so I guess that's alright.

Well, I don't really remember much of April. Bad month, for me.

I guess I have an issue with you now.
I NEVER had any arguement with you.
I NEVER gave you any reason to dislike me.
And you never gave me one either
Yet you feel the need to talk that way about me.
That hurts, honestly.
I can handle a CJ or Homage being mad at you for no fucking reason.
But an good old fj buddy like you?
No.

I. . .

What? What did I do? What did I say?

"Meh. Pansys bitching everyone out"

your reply:
And you're surprised, shocked, or have any reaction to this?

From what math I've done, statistically, you're the most likely to cause drama.

So, it doesn't surprise me that the numbers I made up didn't lie.

I'm done.
Bye.

Goodbye. Have fun, sir.

May life bring you no conflicts.

nah, I have a skype call to do that.

I think you mentioned like the first night I met you that you had a tulpa?

I'd like to ask you a few questions about it

Talking behind my back with people in a skpe call?
Wow.
I am kinda shocked.
I have no fuzz with anyone besides this CJ and I do not talk to him anyways.
What did I do to make you hate me?

The skype call at the time wasn't talking about you, we were talking about dashgamer

also, You've been really on edge and jumping at everyone. Beta, nova, cj, etc. Also, you go and find where people talk about you and you freak out about it doesn't help your case. I understand it's hard to be a mod, but I have no quarrel with you. It's the way you act and conduct yourself under stress, and it's something I've noticed in the 3 or so months that I've been here

Nice to know I made an impression.

isnt it?

Jesus, man. Look at this shitstorm down below. I empathize with you, and I left because I can't abide these impudent kids.

The fun thing is.
he is like the only guy I dislike there
and well
some people couldn't stand your way of stating an opinion
I have the same way but I froofroo it down for ponyville

Well, instead of enduring perpetual arrogance and anger, I went ahead and made my own hang-out board with Iam.kagji where we impose our own standards that basically amount to this one statement: get along with your fellows. Instead of... becoming huge, we're trying to get a moderately sized group of folks together, and every person has a say in who stays. After about a week of being there, new guys' permanency is voted upon, and if there's a dissident voice the problem is addressed either by intervention leading to a positive conclusion or the ousting of a person.
It's been fun so far, and no one has caused any trouble because in that board we're all friends.

sounds a lot like ponyville until post 80k

Yeah, but we aren't going to get as large as Ponyville, and if we do I'd boot impudent people like CJ long before they could be well embedded enough to get away with talking the kind of bullshit he talked below me.

*sigh*
I mean this cj isn't a bad guy.
I COULD get along with him.
But for some reason, he and this homage keep thinking of me as an easily angered evil mod who will ban people for wronging me and shit like that
I mean
I NEVER DID THAT
They keep bringing up that I was a dick to beta and that was one god damn comment and I apologized 5 mins afterwards
I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHY THEY HATE ME SO MUCH
I get along with EVERYONE
but they have that way of me stuck in their head
Heh....well, I was a dick on this thread here

Well, my offenses to Homage and CJ are as imagined as yours. The only person I ever intentionally started shit with was xero in a debate about communism, and even then I insisted that we don't push the point because I'm bound to offend. Ponyville is, in my very biased opinion, overly saturated with overly sensitive and immature teenagers without the single modicum of sensibility required to not take offense from and to not be hostile to others. So, I've chosen a corner of my own making in which to socialize.

I have to agree with you.

This is your application. =D
Iamkagji Iamkagji Iamkagji get over here.

I posted something on his profile, and I hope it's enough.

Iamkagji
Sure. Here are our rules.

I like it. I can handle it.

I'll send my application.

Now we have our own Ponyville.

That sounds nice.

Can I join the club?

What can you do, you know?

What you did.

Leave Ponyville.

I understand your point.
And I have to agree partly.
But hell
I am there since the beginning
And I won't leave
And after some adjusting its cool there

I know you don't want to leave your friends, no matter what shit comes, and that's admirable. If you'd ever like to pop into our "pub," you're welcome.
Iamkagi will consent, I'm sure.
It's all about having friendly conversation and good times, and though I it was bountiful in Ponyville, the altercations I had made them seem too far and in between.

I can't just leave for another board
lunargreenhouse is one of my best friends
He trusts me with his account and well
that would be kinda like cheating

1. I made up with beta and apologized heavily.
2. This is the first time I hear people talking behind my back
3. It was CJs fault and he is literally the only guy on FJ I dislike. Jumping at everyone?
You clearly do not know me at all.
Talking behind other peoples back is a total dick move.
Especially in that manner.
ESPECIALLY when I never had any shit with you going on.

Ummmm...... I never talked to you once that day. So blaming ME! for YOUR! out burst, is totally uncalled for and unconditional. Get your facts straight before you go blaming people that had absolutely no insolvency in it.

I accepted your apology two times.
Two times it was cool.
Then you started bashing on me again.

And that was the very first time I was a dick to beta.
And novabird?
I have no problem with him.

It's cute how you try to sound smart and angry :D

Im mad at you for going around and telling people I am a prick you mongo

If you're seriously still mad about me telling one person when I was being a idiot. When I even apoloigized multiple times about it... No. You know what. Keep hating me, I don't care any more.

You little silly idiot.
Count all the times you were a huge cunt to me
Count them.
Apologizing doesn't makes everything up

And do you think it would imply ANY guilt, when you say that you don't care anymore? :D

I can count twice. But not three times. And I was not trying to put any guilt. If you seriously think I was trying to guilt you, you really need to re-look on how you judge people.
God, you make all Germans look bad.

And you make all black people look bad
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

>implying I'm black.
They make them selves look bad.

I thought you are black
You aren't?
I saw your skype
looked pretty black to me
and you got offended when I said "sup niggers"

And saying "I just dont care anymore" is a way to imply guilt/make someone give more fucks.
And who is insulting now?

1) Definitely not Black, look to the right to blind peice of shit.
2) I really don't care for racism, yeah I joke about it, but all seriousness it's just fuck ed up
3) "Implying" You're also "implying" like I give two shits about you. Guilty or not, I don't care. Just leave me alone.

Blind piece of shit?
You sound anal crusaded.
And YOU made me dislike you.
YOU said I cause too much drama
And what happened?
You caused a butt full of drama a week later on yourself.

I'm done. Go be dick to someone else. You seem to love doing that after you flipped out on both nova and beta. It doesn't matter if you apologized, remember you said that. "Apologizing doesn't makes everything up " Which if I can understand your shit grammar, it doesn't matter.

You seem to pick a fight with nova quite a bit, and nobody messes with him. Seriously, it's a bad idea. You've seemed to have it out for me since the first day I met you, but not in the "I hate you" way. I sense serious distrust (But there is a reason why, I'm sure this is one of them) and I state my opinions because I can and I'm not afraid to hide them. When this has happened Multiple times in just the past month, I think I'm able to say that you haven't been the same since I started. You seem more hostile, especially to those I consider my friends. I've said this Multiple times as well, If my opinion gets me banned, then PV isn't the place for me to spend my time, as that would be total bullshit anyways.

TL;DR, We don't trust each other farther than we can throw each other

I don't have a problem with Nova.
But last time it was just a teensy bit too much.
creeping into someones dreams...But I won't pursue that.

And you know what the REAL fun thing is?
I had absolutley no problem with you.
Not at all. You were a nice guy in my books.

You can subline things all you want.
Doesn't changes the fact, that I am on good terms with your friends except CJ
And he knows what he did.

Backtalking isn't stating your opinion.
Not at all.
Backtalking is gossiping.
And that was in a mean way

To be honest, I just said that in a matter of "Pansy's in a bad mood, I don't want to have him pissed at me at the moment."

Looks like I just delayed the inevitable, so...

I am not in a bad mood at all.
I am in a good mood actually.
I saw you talking behind my back and asked you why
because I thought we were on good terms and all

You were

A month ago, almost.

You do realize we are talking about the past in this thread?

It is not past until I know why people I barely know think its a good idea to gossip about me on skype

Again, we weren't talking about you on skype. We were talking about dash

Hmm... Just as with the lieutenant here, I never intended to give you offense. And when I did, I apologized. It wasn't my intention to rile up anyone, but even when I'd reconciled with all the other people that had set me off, you refused. Now, it seems that you are spectacular at fabricating offense wherever you go, and for that reason I don't give much of a damn about bettering your opinion of me, so feel free. I'll hold in my opinion that you're an oversensitive, whiny, naive teen, and you can bitch and moan your little heart away.

Don't worry, we're good now. It was almost a month ago

Then shut your mouth about me when I'm not present to hear your insults.

Look above please.
That is backtalking.
Heavily.

And why the fuck did you just felt the need to make a post about it?!

And what would that skype be?

It's sorta a podcast stream

I'll add you if you want

I have like, 7.

Want to talk to the only one that I can actually see now? Let's say I'm stuck in a boundary world. Long story.

Aside from that, ask away.

Alright, let's start from the top: What's the one that that you can see right now's name?
What does he/she look like?

Well, my little Angel can see me!
Hi, I'm Nirvana Memori. You'll know me as. . . Actually, you don't know me. Whatever!

Well, I am a pony. I'm a deep blueish purple. Kinda Luna colored, but darker.
I also have some neat pink eyes! My hair is black, until I use magic. Then it goes green, like my Noxy.

Oh, Ben here can change genders and into a pony.
Female = Angel Memori
Male = Nox Nirvana or Nox Memori. Either or.

I would like to apologize for no responding earlier, I was writing my reply when my parents hd decided to ground me because I lied to them anout a project I was suppsed to do. Please forgive any spelling erors,because mobile fj crashes my phone, and I will talk ao you again asap

At ends with a choice. But the path is becoming clear, I take it.
Thank you for the concern.

To what do I owe the honor?

Well, I saw your reply to Ryan, and that reminded me that I wanted to see how things were going with you (since the incident a few weeks ago)...

And this reminds me that I need to speak with someone else... Huh, funny how it works...

I've. . . Come to terms. . . about it all.

So, what are you going to do?
Sorry if I'm prying...

I sit, and I wait. I'll be with my father two months over summer. I've kept this withheld from my mother and stepfather, and I'll see how that works, and plan accordingly. They have one month to convince me to come back after I'm with my dad. Because one week I'll go, and refuse to come back.

Good!

Has coming to terms with everything made you feel better about it all?

I want to lie to you, and say yes. But I won't, and I'll tell you the truth.

No, it hasn't. I feel bad. I beat myself up every day over my lack of standing up for myself and wanting better for me. I haven't felt better, because, if I look closely, I see my life falling at the strings that keep the little marionette I am up and about.

But I like to pretend, you know, and say that everything is actually fine. But it's not. And it never will be. That's the human condition.

*sigh*
I know what you mean... Life is hard sometimes (hah, "sometimes"), and it tends to like kicking you while you're down. Just remember that though it all, you have people by your side, including myself.

And try to not beat yourself up over it... Standing up for yourself in general can be hard, but it's a hell of a lot harder when you have to stand up against your parents (and family, for that matter). Also, try to pay attention to the little things in life. By little, I mean even the very little. Like, as an example, a song that you really like plays on the radio, or you do good in a game, or anything of the like. Thinking like this has kept me stable over the past few months...

No, no no. It's one family member. My step dad is NOT a family member. I will NOT bear his name, and no, I do NOT listen to his "rules" over me. This home I reside is not his roof, and nor will it ever be. There is a reason we're getting kicked out of it, and that I assure you.

I also find it hard to enjoy things, really. Because I always feel like I didn't do good enough, or something has to rip what little joy and self esteem I accrue with any task.

Sorry; by family, I was trying to mean people that you live with, but I chose that word for some reason...

Well, did you try your best in the things that you feel you didn't do well enough in? Your best is all that matters, and if you feel that you should be able to do more, practice some of it!

Also, have you spoken with anyone at your school, like a counselor, psychologist, or social worker? They're all good at helping with some problems...

It's a mistake. We all make them. I'm testament to that.

I do practice. Ever day, in the afternoon, or at 6 in the morning for rowing. All that really keeps me going. I'll also be leaving in 7 minutes time to sleep for a race I have tomorrow. I need to pack up my gear, and things to keep occupied and warm. Since it'll be fucking cold all day after my race.

No. I refuse too. They only complicate it. A lot. I've tried and failed many a time on my own to hit the goal we all want in this "house". They chose to not do their end, and I'm refusing to do mine. The street goes both ways.

Well, good luck tomorrow. Also, try to have fun.

Since you'll be leaving soon, just know that I'm here... Granted, all that I can offer are my words, but I am willing to help to the best of my ability. If you need to (or want to) talk about anything, just drop by my profile or send me a PM... Even if I'm not here at the time, I'll be sure to respond.

Duly noted, and I'll be departing now, actually.

Rest well. you've earned it.

You, also.

Well, you know what tulpaes are, I take it.

If you don't, I'll need you to look that up right fast,

Oh yes. Vivid consciousness alternates in your brain. Basically, psychosis.

Are you seeing things..?

Lots and fucking lots, let me tell you.

I didn't make a tulpae. I woke up with it, after sleep paralysis.

No..

I don't even.. So, you went through sleep paralysis, you saw shit, and it fucking STAYED?!

Ignore it and it will die, don't let it read this sentence.

I also don't mind it. I'm stable, so I don't see why I need to kill it.

Too late.

As long as you're OK with it man.

What is it manifestation as?

THEY are ponies. Can shift human, too.

When Memori gets back, feel free to talk to her, if I'm even still on the PC.

Who's Memori?

My wife. We got married in the future. She knows it, and I'm not there yet. Hard to explain.

When I leave the Inversion, I'll get you accquianted with everyone else. Oh, and you'd probably want to talk to www.funnyjunk.com/user/discordwhooves about it.

That's close to Delaware. . .

No it isn't. But I'm not moving there after all.

I guess. I mean, closer compared to where you currently are.

Step.
Aside.
RARITY.
MADI.
Is.
Coming.

hehe, coming...

How's being a girl work? Because I'm kinda GID. Not really. . . I'm not sure.

I dunno...I've always been one, so it's not really something I can explain.

All my friends say I act girly, and when I come over I'm like a housewife. . .

I'm like a little girl and also like an adult.

Ben, I think I'm a lesbian...

Wait, so why'd you ask me out?

Because I only date girls, silly!

I see.

I don't hate being a guy, but if I woke up as a girl tomorrow, I can't say I'd complain at all.

It's not like I'm a girl in my head and all that, or anything. . .

I don't like being a girl.

Transexualgender / GET THIS VAGINA OFF ME I WANT A DICK-Sexual.

Ha, no! I don't want to be a guy. I'm content.

Oh, and do you have a Skype? I want to play League of Legends, and we'd still be able to talk if we Skype Called each other.

Sorry for being selfish and forcing that on you.

Well, yes. missfroslass is my skype, but I'm heading to bed soon. We can talk for a few minutes though.

Whoop whoop.

If you have a phone, be warned that I'm going to get bored, and IM you on mine a lot, too. Because I bore easy, and wish I even had something do to talk.

I do have it on my phone, but I'm leaving town tomorrow so I'll be busy..

Work? Running? Strutting your stuff? Contacting your secret ring of spies, and tracing my IP right now, so I better prepare for the storm that wipes away the pathetic little thing I call a life?

Work, sweetie. I'm going to DC to add to my photography portpholio.

DC? Wow!

Not that big a deal. My old boss offered to take me to New York to work.

I'm half blind, so. . .

I'm legally blind...my dad tries spells on me, but I'm probably going to go blind by the time I'm 30.

Same here. . .

If I am, I'll have to quit work as a photographer. That's my dream..

Don't let that bother you, and get all bleh over it.

Oh my lord, my cousin is fucking weird as shit

I won't. I'm actually making some new stuff for the pixie house.

What's he doing?

Pixie house? I want a pixie house!

he's making weird noises. . .

The pixie house is a little bird house basically that I house pixies in. It stays outside but it has a bed and food and it's like a normal house but small.

This may be random, but you're like, cool as Antarctica. I just wanna point that out.

Thank you sweetheart, but not really...I'm just Madi.

**frossy offers you dinner** Nothing like a date, but I want to be hospitable.

Oh and I go on "Dates" with any friends girlfriends more than they do. Shit, I got a joke going where we go out, and I'm her girlfriend., and she's my boyfriend. Sad thing is, my teachers believe that, because I came out to most of them.

I'm too girly and submissive to be a boyfriend..

Huh.

Never would of guessed. I'm sure you'd still be a good one, though.

Well, I wear skirts every day, I get worried about how my hair looks, I want to paint my nails, I like looking pretty, and as for submissive...I do everything anyone asks.

I wanna try on a skirt. . . and do all sorts of cross dressing. . .

Well, I made this dress...also this is me.

Step aside, Rarity. Madi coming through.

It's a pretty simple design, really..

I like to cook, even though I'm bad at it.

Am I fitting my stereotype correctly?

Hear that, Discordwhooves?

Oh, and my cousin doesn't go here.

Well, I don't have to work tonight, but I can't get back on xbox.

I was about to ask about that.

sorry sweetie

Ah, the joys of being a homosexual in denial. Being called Sweetie and the sorts.

The joys of being bisexual

Wait. . . Bi, means two. And Sexual pertains to sex. . .

And, if you combine that. . .

OH MY GOD, YOU'VE HAD TWO SEXUALS!

I've actually never had consensual sex.

less fix dat, bby.

Hell, I've only dated Discordwhooves and one other person before. I personally feel as if I'm still not good at the dating thing, but if I do more of it, I'm only gonna get better, right?

Oh, and sorry for any delays. I'm playing Zombies with my Cousin.

Oh! So are you two currently dating?
I've dated too many people...Octavia and I have been together 6 weeks or so. I really hope to be with him the rest of my life. He's coming down to visit me this summer.

Yes.

Ever listen to the Mountain Goats or Lil B?

Nope. I'm big into indie music.

www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=oNrYSjoza2E
Full tape

www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=3aUEVUM7sIg&feature=endscreen
Second best song, aside from Wonton Souo

www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZ6O7Jk4MXs&list=RD02ZlA1yyWVoGU
Playlist of MG.

I'll look into it later. I'm in the middle of finding some new spells.

Magic? You also do spells? Well, mine are in my head, so. . .

I'm Pagan...so technically a witch. Magic is for healing and good luck.

Magic is for reaping the soul of those in torment, before they place us in torment.

Sorry, I'm fixing a mistake, and I'm learning how to eat the souls of those, and then use it to power me. But I need to be very fucking careful, or I'll be night mare moon, V2.

But, I'm only doing it once more, to end Vinyls' trouble.

Oh I see. Well, the spells I do are for good dreams and happiness.

Trixie uses hope and deception illusion-y magic. Little Silvia uses frost, and Solarium uses flames. Novae is time,and Vinyl WAS sound. Oh, and if I post a different thing than Nate River / N / Near, It's not me. It's whomever I post.

Twilight is Novae.