I need a smoke again, though...

Really bad...

Smoking is bad for you.
It'll ruin your perfect body.

Yes it is... and I'd defend myself in just saying it's one cigar, but I think we both know that it's quite the slippery slope. I've haven't been in the mood to smoke for days though... so like all the others, it was just an odd mood thing. Might still pick one up if I think of it, though. Just so I can have it when I feel like it.

Buuuuut if you've surpressed the urge to smoke for this long, then why not see how long you can really go without smoking.

Because, just like anything else... it's not so bad in moderation. I've had two cigars so far in my whole life, and not a drag more. There's just been some nights recently that a cigar sounded really really nice.

Well that's understandable then.
How are things going on your end then? I hope you're not stressed with anything.

Yes, of course... just the nights are getting quieter, I think. So I'm finding myself more and more... needing with things to occupy myself when other things fail me. Namely people. Such is the curse to having mostly UK friends. After about eleven, everyone's in bed and I'm left to watch the night. I suppose it's just... getting to me a bit. Should be fine once people come back into town, too.

What about you, TeeFee? How are things for you?

Lost my job, stress with college, stress over college work, literature exams, tension with father, looking after my mother, stress all around... but despite it all I am doing very good at this moment in time.

http://www.colorquiz.com/quiz.php This is the quiz. Just be aware that some of the answers have hit a little too close to home with some people.

Hard to believe you have time for here, then. How'd you lose your job?

I'm coping. Things could always be worse I say.
I was "Let go" from my job because it's the winter season and we're hardly getting any orders sent to us. Less orders = Less money = Not enough money to keep me on.
Buuuuuut I have been promised that once things pick up again I'll be worse able to go back.

I think I'll have a go of that test now so my next reply may be late.

Well, I'm glad you're still plenty able to keep yourself together and positive. It's a bit... refreshing, I think. But, with that said, if you ever need a little help coping, I'd be happy to oblige.

Your Existing Situation
Works well with others. Needs personal relationships which are understanding and relatively conflict-free.
Right
Your Stress Sources
"Not a team player and is unwilling to be involved in most activities. In the past he was over involved and now emotionally drained. Due to his fear of over involvement, he now chooses to remain uninvolved with the activities around him. "
Wrong
Your Restrained Characteristics
"Feels he is carry more than his share of problems. He is flexible and laid back, sticking to his goals and working to overcome any difficulty."
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.
Feels as if too many walls and obstacles are standing in his way and that he is being forced to make compromises. He needs to put his own needs on hold for the time being.
Right to the first. I have no sexual activity so that's wrong. Right to the third
Your Desired Objective
"Looking for affectionate, fulfilling, and friendly relationships. Seeks intimacy and personal relationships full of love, self-sacrifice and trust."
Yeah
Your Actual Problem
Needs to find a stable and peaceful environment which will free him of the worries that are preventing him from achieving the things he wants.
It would be nice, yes.

Thank you for the friendly gesture, Joshua. I'll be sure to call if I'm feeling needy or something.

What is right certainly seems true to you. I'm not sure why, but it does sound like it fits you pretty well. Or maybe I do know why, but I can't think. But, yes, do come to me if you want attention. You know I can be just as affectionate as I am teasing.


"Wants to make a good impression on others and be seen as a special individual, like no one else. He is constantly observing how others react to him and to make sure this is true. He knows how to effectively gain special recognition, by planning and scheming. He is draw to things which are beautiful and unique."

This is from mine... and it's disturbing how accurate that line is. Everything else seems more or less right, maybe a bit vague, but it's got the right idea, and could work better in different contexts. That, however? Fucking nailed it. That's me alllllllllllllllllllllllll over. I guess I should be proud... because for the most part, I'm achieving that just fine.

Well it's not so bad really. I admit a few things were fairly close to the truth. Unlike that one I stumbled upon a few months ago... god that was deeply accurate and so bloody depressing. I can't remember what it was called or where I found it though.

You should know that you're special, Joshua. You don't need us telling you that.

Oh, I know. Yet I continue to 'plan and scheme' on new ways to show it, to express it... and to hear it~ Because, it's less about knowing other people see it, and more about how wowed they are when they do see it. I love hearing about how people see me. About how wonderful I am... about how perfect I am. It's just so much fun to be praised for being yourself. I even have this awful habit of fishing for comments, it's terrible, but I don't care so much. People seem always so happy to say, and some are just so cute when they struggle to find the right words to describe me. Like I imagine you do from time to time~

Well it's just hard thinking up something that I haven't already said about you before.

I think I shall be heading off to bed now.
Don't want to be waking up late.

Yes, yes, go on.

Remember: I'll be here if you're in need of my.... services~