Heya, Ryan.

What's up?

Just chatting is all. And listening to music.

It's what I always do during the evenings.

Also, I absolutely loved the dream you had.

Anyways, how're you feeling?

Yeah, it was pretty fun. And nice considering most of my dreams are much... nastier~

That's pretty much what I'm doing right now... and singing to Fimmer a bit, since she loves getting stuff like that.

I'm also quite good. Just enjoying the night after a long day. Work's been hell these past few days, due to the Cortica Jug going on. It's one of the biggest little league games in the nation, and so it's just one big party for everyone, and Iiiiiiiii gotta feed 'em all.

Heck the last time I had a dream that memorable was way back in August. All my dreams since then haven't been worth remembering or they've been confusing as heck.

Fimmer=fimi right?

Yes those are always the best...

Aaaaaaaand what was it about?

Yep, little Fimi.

Well... oddly enough I do remember most of it. I wrote down what happened in a little journal I used for my pilgrimage to San Francisco back in June. Anyways:

It started off with me sitting in a chair on the porch of a little house in the middle of nowhere. Some farm area way out in Kansas or some similar area. I tried to get up, but it took much effort and I ached a lot. I felt veeeeery old, my suspicion was confirmed when i looked in a mirror. Looked about 80 years old. It was then I felt that death was near so I headed towards the phone to call my oldest friend Michael Fisher to make some final amends before I passed into the next world. But on my way there I caught sight of an odd photo album... it stuck out because... well... it had a pink spine. I took it out and on the cover it said "FJ Pony Thread road trip" I opened it and inside was a note saying that after I won the lottery I spent the money on something I wanted to do for ages... meet all of the guys on the thread. So I looked through it and inside were all the people I wanted to meet, how they looked like, what their houses looked like, and so forth. And the best part was is that I wasn't just meeting them, I was picking them up for the ride. About 75% of the way through the album I saw photos of us in an airport and I knew we were going to go see our good friends outside of the States. My favorite photos were from Britain, the place looks gorgeous. But I noticed something... fimi was nowhere to be found. I though she'd be in there for sure! But on the second to last page I found a video tape... my findings were amazing to say the least (continued in reply)

The video was of me and everyone else in a charter bus explaining what was going on. We were going to surprise her with this. Of course j.o.f.j. was yelling in the background saying as how he had first dibs on hugging her. I had the guy holding the camera who was joe.trifical follow me outside and I called her phone. Told her to look out the living room window to see us. When she lifted the blinds and saw us she charged out of the front door and tackle-hugged me. The video ended right there. I flipped to the last page and it was a group photo of everyone in a group hug right in front of the Eiffel Tower. I was crying at this point and I noticed some music playing in the background... it was the music that played during the first sequence of Up after Ellie died. I woke up just after realizing that.

I don't think that's a dream I'll ever forget.

Oh yeah, and tell her that I'm still not moaning for her.

I was afraid of some kind of sad ending... like something happened when you went to see Fimi. Thank goodness it wasn't something so awful. It sounds like a wonderful dream... with wonderful memories not yet had. Hmm... but maybe one day. Maybe.

Also she said you've refused such things before. It's only a matter of time.

It's... I will admit one of the things that I really want to see happen.

I have refused and later done things like that. I did them mostly for shits and giggles but I'm probably not going to give in this time. I couldn't moan anyways.

But there's the problem! I'm not willing to try!

Anyways, I'm off to get some sleep.

Goodnight Josh.