thats ******* adorable

I deserve this hug <33

You already did. So you can ask another.

I'm just lookin to ask, how do you handle love?

Quite unexpected question. And a bit hazy. Can you rephrase it somehow?

I'm such a Numbskull, my apologies i'll try.
How can someone go though Love and Loss at the same time?
Can intimate love be shared properly?
Is there such a thing as False love?

I don't now is this making your question easier or harder.
So let's try to answer each of your questions.
I suppose it's possible. Isn't this called unrequited love?
I guess it can, though it doesn't mean it's easy. You know, it's not just about clicking together. It requires two people who simply complete each other. Like all relationships, love is about giving and receiving. To share love properly, you must give what they want and receive what you want. Then again, it's just perfect and unreal vision of love. However, reality is just a shadow of perfection, so it's all about getting as close to it as possible, but also accepting that you won't ever reach absolute perfection.
As to the last one, I'm quite sure there is such a thing. Whether it's just a mistake or there is an ill intention, false love exists. Though it's quite different thing from love. Think of "false" as part of the noun rather than adjective. Like there is "love" and "false love", not true "love" and false "love". If you get what I mean.

I sea. Thank you.

To what I owe this spontaneous visit?

shhh snek is sleeping

Y-you too

Sup?

I missed you so much. .n.

I have to sleep from time to time...

I kinda had a bad day, sorry

Sorry for what?
better tell me your sorrows. Maybe it can help a bit.

Eh, nothing too bad
Just Christmas sucks this year

I love you invadey.

Yeah, I also have a hard time enjoying it. To the point where i don't think I actually enjoy it.

I don't enjoy it either

Well, there are better and worse years.
Maybe the next will be better.

You can always think that these Christmas aren't that bad thanks to what I gave you.
Even though it was a bit early.

your present was the only thing that's made this Christmas memorable so far. I should return the favor, shouldn't I?

If you want to.
In a way, you already did.

guess what

You want to and you love me?

Was I wrong?

You were right
You banana

You're so predictable.
By the way, I love you too and don't regret what we're talking about like I thought I would.

Well it was pretty obvious what I was gonna say

I love you more <3

Well, if you really are sorry, don't experiment with drugs anymore. If you can't quit, at least stick to what you already know. Doing some **** you haven't even heard about is really a great shortcut to grave.

i'll try not to
and i really am sorry for just leaving you all to think that i died

It's mostly their fault. I'd give you at least a week, but they kept joking and I couldn't help but get the grimmest of thoughts.

i know i've said this a lot now, but
i'm sorry

Well, you've pretty much convinced me that you actually are sorry.
But seriously, if anything, you should try to keep your addiction to minimum, not expand horizons with stuff that makes you drown in your own vomit.
Like, by now it's too late to ask you to quit, but you used to take pride in doing drugs somewhat responsibly. That was junkie equivalent of skydiving without checking your equipment.

we were supposed to get speed, but we only got that other stuff

That's what I'm talking about.
They couldn't get you speed, so they got you whatever **** they currently had. Which most likely means it's some sort of **** no one wanted to buy.

it was like a mix of speed and mdma
it wasn't any bad **** at all, the high from it was intense and amazing. i only felt like i was about to die because i had neither slept nor eaten for 3-4 days

I'll never get used to how you seem to agree with me that what you do is stupid and you're acting like you're sorry only to suddenly change your mind and anger me again.

Because last time you took MDMA you totally didn't end with hands shaking for most likely the rest of your life...

Ehh... just keep yourself alive. At least until something happens and we lose contact.

have i never told you about how my mind has changed since the drugs?
my opinions can change really fast, much like my mood
it's like i forget my previous opinions and reasons for opinions, then form new ones that's different. it's really annoying when writing long comments because i always start with something, then end somewhere completely different

But yeah, you did say it. I recall it now.
But, as I've said, I'll never get used to it. I'm annoyed when I do it, let alone someone else.

it doesn't bother me that much, only when writing essays in school

For me it's absolutely normal.
And I've never done any drugs.

Bloody Shia, always making the silliest porn.

>when her knot gets bigger on the next page

Better.
I yelled at him some more and finally gave him a break.

What you tell him, if i may ask.

Yelled at him in general.
Overdid it to the point where I've told him that I preferred when I didn't know what's happening to him, though later took it back. He said he's sorry and I've told him that while I'm glad he is, he doesn't know what being sorry means.

Maybe he's is genuinely sorry, but that word doesn't have enough strength right now.
Is that all he's saying just sorry?
That's not enough.

I suddenly had to go. I've calmed down.
But if I could strangle him back then, I would.

I've already cried and said my piece /autism/11129389#11129389

snuggle me in your arms and tell me you like me

Relationship with such autistic ****** must be tiring, considering how you must ask for any kind of attention or sign of affection. Usually I gladly take such opportunities since I somewhat lack required spontaneity to do it, but sometimes... like right now... it feels like you might think I'm just nodding so you stop bothering me.

Which is not true. I just lately feel pretty bad again. Nothing major, but I can't find myself anything constructive to do. I really need some sort of self-fulfillment since my self-esteem once again hit the ground and lies there...

Anyway, you're my precious and it wasn't easy to get rid of jealousy I felt towards kilroy. But I did it, mostly because you asked for it. By the way I also really started to like him as well and got rid of this feeling like he isn't even a real person.

Shush, I know you love and care deeply for me, I'm sorry I ask for confirmation of your love so much.

You're my invadey and you mean the world to me, you always will. <3

I'm really happy that you're talking to kit and giving him a chance, thank you invadey.

I really need some kind of meaningful task, you know?
Job would be technically the best, but it's a bit too much to handle.
Small chores I do do not suffice. Anyone could do them and because of that they make me feel like I'm easily replaceable.
I feel awful. Grim thoughts are once again tormenting me. I'm tired despite negligible amount of physical activity. I feel like throwing up the dinner. My heart is still acting silly. I once again started binge playing video games, an activity I detest, but it lets me completely forget about everything.

Chores are nice, just because they're easy doesn't mean theyre gonna get done, if I don't do the dishes, the clothes and wash the house, it gets ******* disgusting because nobody else does it.

You should look for a job though, i used to think the same, that it would be too much. I got one for a few weeks, it wasn't a permanent job but it was a job, and I felt really damn having it and getting a bit of moni was nice.

I'm always here for you.

Recently I've finally understood, or at least think so, how I work. You see, I knew I'm afraid of failure for a long time, but never really understood how this whole process works.

You see, it's not really that I fear failure per se. I just absolutely can't handle being seen when I fail. I can acknowledge failure before myself and only myself. Letting others know I failed is unacceptable. When I do fail I kinda... cut myself off. Pretend nothing happened and hope that everyone including me, will forget.

If I were to get a job and I would underperform once, I'd be incapable of going there the next day. This has happened multiple times at university. If I was late to one class I would rather skip it whole. Skipping it once would lead to being too ashamed to show myself again. Failed a test? Well, technically I should talk to the teacher and try to retake it, but I'd rather never ever in my life approach that person than admit that I've failed a test. Despite them knowing very well I did.

And so, I have ended as the lowest of the low without any hope.

You have to accept failure. You're a human, you're not perfect, I'm not perfect, nobody is. We're not robots, and we can't be programmed for absolute success. But we can do something nothing else can, and that's that we can learn from our mistakes. Each failure is a step closer to success, we work by a trial and error process that gets us to the top of we try hard enough. No matter how proficient you are at what you do, how knowledgeable you are, how many successes you've had before, the chance for failure is always there. We have to take these failures and learn from them, learn from our mistakes and better ourselves from them. You can make a mistake once, learn from it, and it will never happen again, but if you just ignore it, ignore what you did wrong, you'll never learn. I'm sure you've heard this before, but it's what I believe in.

It's complicated, you know?
I don't know how to explain it. I lack the words to express it. Like, showing your weaknesses is an offense to the universal order. It's absolutely forbidden. Showing your weaknesses means you need help and it's...

No, that's not it. I just can't explain it.
Once again:
To show your failure is to admit your weakness. To admit weakness is to accept it. And accepting your weaknesses is against the universal order. An unforgivable crime for which you deserve eternal punishment. You are absolutely forbidden from letting your weaknesses affect others so you can't fail.

i think this is the closest i can get to expressing it.

I'm going to bed before I think even further and worsen my state.
G'nite

Weaknesses are bad and good. Detrimental, but they show us what we need to improve.

I hope you understand.. I love you invadey. Sleep well dear.

Remember that having property isn't only a privilege, but also a responsibility.

Do I have to potty train you or something

No. But mistreat me and I'll break. Forget me and I'll wither.

I love you too much to ever leave you
You're mine forever, and there's nothing you can do about it

Alligator, grump-sun.

Great, and now I have to clean this mess...

The hat on my cmoment is changing color
It's light blue now

I don't poop

Out of things I have that I listen quite regularly:
The Sisters of Mercy
Simon & Garfunkel
Aurelio Voltaire
System of a Down
Pink Floyd
Blind Guardian
And loads of Polish music, from punk rock through blues to sung poetry. In fact, I'm quite extremely fond of sung poetry.

i heard punk, soad, blues, and maybe sung poetry
if you call <<< sung poetry

Alas, sung poetry is more of a European things, especially in Slavic ones.
It's kinda like Simon & Garfunkel, I guess, though subjects are usually heavier. The most famous person singing poetry here also listed Bob Dylan as inspiration.

While it's pointless to listen to it without knowledge of the language, you'll get an idea how it sounds. Subjects are usually quite heavy. It generally can be described as depressing music, though not always.

i kinda like the first one

also not what i thought when you said heavy but i get what you're saying


songs semi related

Also, that first sentence is butchered beyond redemption. It should be:
Alas, sung poetry is more of an European thing, especially in Slavic countries.