Found something else. You know how I adore watching the Shaytards? Well their Aunt (Shay's sister, the kids' aunt) Carlie just got married. At least a day or two ago, but the vlog for it was put up yesterday. And it is SO BEAUTIFUL!

I'm in one of those overly in-love kinda moods. We all know why, haha. <3

I Love You, Beautiful. Each and every hour -Every second- I spend with you under this expansive sky is not an ounce short of a golden miracle. Through these 10, almost 11 months I've spent at your side this love we've shared has multiplied exponentially and is growing stronger every day. I wake up still believing I'm in a dream and go to sleep ready to hurry up and awaken to hold you close to my heart once more. I'd profess my affection from the highest peak of the tallest mountain for the world to hear and heavens to sing.

And when you rise from your slumber I will be there to greet you back to the world and into our home <3

When you first shared with me the voice file for this you said it gave you chills.
This. This right here, man. This gave me chills.
Undertale is one of those rare on a blue moon titles that hardly ever comes around but makes you care about its world more than any other.
And right now all I care about is seeing that knightly bastard get his sweet revenge.

Thanks, dude
I appreciate you this much

Well, aren't you just the sweetest

Damn, dude, thanks~
I honestly didn't think anyone would remember.

Sounds to me like this dream had a deeper meaning, an underlying message that your subconscious translated into a series of symbolism.

I'm gonna assume the person you cared for here was a past flame you parted ways with but didn't end on a particularly bad note. Her calling you reflects how you were a pillar of support she could count on and her being pregnant is you accepting she'll lead a life with someone else.

The dark and intimidating features of the baby could be a representation of either outside stress culminating into a recognizable figure or your worry of how this former flame as a parent would result in a troubled and misguided child. It bit you and continued to do so because of this.

The fact that it did so adds to your negative feelings towards it, in this case making it seem bigger and older. I have a feeling if you were a dad IRL this baby would be something innocent and brighter, a treasure that would probably laugh or fall asleep in your arms. But as you are now there's a general wall between you and the child just as there would be between absolute strangers.

The joke about breastfeeding may stem from how you would be cheery and humorous with this flame even when the world around you was strange and against you. Through the pain of the bite you still put on a front of being alright enough to joke around.

All in all this was very interesting, and as long as you're not disturbed or anything by this I'd say it could be a nice trip down memory lane. Thanks for sharing it with me.

That's pretty funny considering I'm bi

Hm. Never woulda guessed

Well I'm at least glad nobody remembers how cringy I was about it back in 2012

That bad eh? Date any cute boys?

Only long distance relationships, really. Would always be on the verge of a meetup before something went wrong and we went our separate ways.

But my current relationship shows they can still be successful if you work for it enough.
I never had a doubt from the start fate would carry me to greener pastures so long as I never gave up.

Oh yeah?
Anyone on thread that's notable?

A couple but in the past mentioning them led to drama. Kinda like a bad omen.
Just know that it never really extended past the PT regulars back in the day. Of the 5 only 2 of them are still relevant, with one slowly becoming relevant again.

Oops.

How're you? You good?

I'm good, thank you for asking ^^
But I'm about to go to sleep for about 13 hours so I'll talk to you some more when I wake up.

Oke <3

Are you intentionally avoiding name </3

Yeah, I went offline there for a bit to make some progress in a game too in case you were wondering.

Yoyoyo
How's your New Year's been so far, Spens?

Lonely.
Just kinda played video games. But that's alright. I enjoyed being here during new years.
This place is different from everywhere else, it was weird spending my new years here, y'know?

Sorry, dude.
You're not alone in that, man. Plenty of us had to go down that road too. But we lived to tell about it.
You'll be alright.
And yeah, I know exactly what you mean. I've never seen a website like Funnyjunk and I doubt I ever will again. Still, the community has carried me ever since I first started using the internet and I feel just as close to the users here as the people I share a room with.

Yeah, this place is full of some weird ass ************* . But they're pretty amazing people.
I liked being alone. For a long time I was asking for some alone time because no one would stop bothering me. Now that I have it I was getting all sad because I was alone before I realized this is what I asked for.

How've you been, dude? Holding up alright?

Absolutely, the whole "Strangers on the internet are sick and evil" thing never really rang true to me after spending so much time on this site.
Yeah, I've met pedophiles, burnouts, and scam artists here, but the good overshined the bad tenfold with the financial supporters, suicide preventers, and moralfags.
The hivemind is a bit cancerous here and there but all things considered I'm glad to have called this place home for so long.

It's like they always say: Be careful what you wish for.
Honestly I'm not too many steps from your position. Sure I have a cat and my gf but I don't leave the house often and haven't talken to any IRL friends in years now.
The only other people I really socialize with are Shea's family. But thankfully I'm going back to Kentucky for a few days to reconcile with my family and buds.
I'm sure you'll be able to come back to those you miss soon.

I've been in Tennessee for a year now and in the end I'd say I'm pretty happy. It sucks being away from so many of the people I used to know but I'm working each day to go back to them when I'm ready to move.
That's my coping method right there. Moving forward even when it feels too hard.
Howboutchu?

You're the only ten I see.

I just get lonely quick. I spent a week with my dad and just got back like 3 days ago.
I'm at martial arts every day and go to school often, so I'm usually around people, right?

I just endure. I know life'll get better. It always does. and it always gets worse. That goes for everyone too. It keeps me motivated. I know plenty who don't deserve negative things to happen to them, but it's inevitable. So, I'm there for them. I just hope when I need it someone'll be here for me.

I'm really sorry, man. I hope it's the last.

I did get to spend some time on Skype with Lisa, but it's not the same as actually being with her. On the bright side of things, I did book my flight to Canada tonight. $467.19 total for a round trip flight. (I made more than that after taxes from last week; feels good man)

She'll be there to shower you with affection and comfort for your entire visit, Mast. It's times like this we feel the most alone but you need to always remember that there are still people who care and will be a pillar of support for you through even these most difficult times.

I know. It's just so disheartening to come home from work to such an empty and lonely home. I have my cats still, but there's a massive hole torn open inside me from the loss of my mother and muffin this year. I can hardly believe it's almost been a year...

You've come a long way, man. Your mother and Muffin were there every step of the way to be your rock and see you off to new heights. Though they may not be around in body they'll always be beside you in your heart and in your soul.
And they're glad that your lonely New Year's will be replaced with your lover's warm embrace. Every small joy is nothing short of a victory to them.

caucasianandgeeky life

You as well, my friend!

Spensy? More like spendy
Ya bleedin' gold digger

Wow ok, didn't wanna be your friend anyway </3

You tend to not know how you get places a lot

Just how much stalking do you do?

I just... get bored, open up interfaces and click on things

It is also 5.45 am which affects my ability to remember and notice things

Fair enough

Hi, hey, what's up? I'm just playing Dragon's Dogma and have been in all week so I don't have much to report
What's up with you?

I'm worrying about something like finals which I'm of course not studying for
Life rolls slow when there's nothing fun to do but all the work to neglect


...I don't know what the Dogma thingy is so I couldn't come up with anything to bounce the ball back with :c

**** , man, if you don't have anything fun to occupy yourself with you might as well work
You'll regret it come 5 years where you wish you did better in what I assume is university, must have cost a fortune to get in and I'd hate to see you waste it

It's like a third person Skyrim with the difficulty of Dark Souls and the real time combat of Dragon Age 2
I'm personally having a blast, I got it for Christmas and have been playing it until early in the morning every day since

well I uhh..
A level below university, hard to explain since it's different things in different countries
still rather important final exams, matriculation exams
Being from Finland it doesn't cost much but yeah, should make use of it
..just don't know what to do after, completely drains motivation


Having played very few games I probably can't say much to that
never tried any of those :^(
Glad to hear someone's making the most of their holiday season

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Hey, dude... you caught me at a really awkward time.

I honestly didn't see the text until just now.

You're the second one to have said that this week, thankfully my colored text is almost gone.

Anyway, what's up? I'm about to go back to Dragon's Dogma in a bit, been playing it almost non-stop since Christmas.

I have that game, just haven't gotten around to playing it.

Then again, what games don't I have?

Not much is going on with me today. Nobody really reaches out to talk to me these days. Christmas was nice, but bittersweet without my mom there. How was yours?

Well if you're ever bored I'd recommend you give it a try, I'm having an absolute blast with it and I'm unlocking more and more gameplay elements every 30 minutes.
If you do end up playing it I recommend you go with a strider.

I'm gonna guess you don't have anything virtual boy related :^)

Same, honestly. And I'm sorry, man, but if it makes you feel any better I don't really reach out to anyone. I'm more of a loner by nature.
I had a blast with Shea, her uncle, and her grandmother. I'm really sorry about your mom, man, but she'd be really happy you had a good Christmas.

I'm not bored, it's just that I have a mountain of games to go through.

No, I don't

It's alright. I'm just pretty down about all of my friends drifting away. Even Lisa hasn't been talking to me that much lately. Although, that's partially due to our work schedules.

You're not really missing out on much, you've pretty much got all the important systems.

As long as you're alright that's all that matters. I wouldn't worry too much about Lisa, Mast, you're a role model human being and have your life more figured out than most of the people I know.
Than being said, though, it never hurts to always try and reconnect when you think things are slipping a little.

It took me 23 minutes to write that out. I really need to let my feelings flow out more instead of editing them down to nothing. I've always found it difficult to express myself, whether it be through writing or speaking.

Your motivation has to become the drive to never let yourself slip. The plants can't survive without you, the laundry will grow cold and wrinkled.
Mankind is the vessel of what our lives will become. If you stay in that dark place today it will grow and fester and eventually consume you. Your work, loved ones, and general outlook on life will deteriorate at an exponential rate.
Templars and monks suffer every day and bring themselves to the edge of despair just by living, but every day they recite their prayers and work with their higher power for strength. They feel energetic, happy, and fulfilled because it's their body and mind rewarding them for their diligence; I myself have live both lifestyles for years and I promise you that the reward of laboring through the pain makes it all so much easier in the end.

Hoist that righteous shield and push on through the bad times with every ounce of humanity you can muster. The momentum of habit and familiarity will carry you back to that lifestyle you worked so hard to now.

I know that much, and believe me, I'm a paragon of determination. I've just lost so much this year that even I've been pushed back. I need some time to center myself again. Hopefully the time off I'm getting in February will really do me some good.

I'm sure it will, my friend.
You have a square head on your shoulders and have made it this far in life and lived to tell the tale.

Enough sad stuff. Time for happy pug.

Thanks for being here for me.

Oh I remember that webm, so sweet I think it gave me diabeetus.

It's what I'm here for, dude, I'm gonna go ahead and grind like **** .

You grind, I'll shred.

I feel like I'm in a rather dark place right now. Honestly haven't felt like this in a long time. I find myself just not caring about things. They're small things, like how the pants in the other room haven't been watered regularly, or that none of the laundry has been folded and put away, but it's not how I normally am. I wish I was the guy I am at work when I'm at home. That guy cares about every little thing. That tool isn't in the right spot; that car has to have valve caps on every stem, etc. But I can't seem to find that motivation.

Yes.

You love me.

And thank you for telling Tessa something that I told you in confidence.

Every time I talk with you you're in some group call anyway and all I do is take audience to an ear raping game with those people. Your text responses are always short and devoid of any real conversation, like "hi" or "nope". And apparently I can't even tell you things without you going behind my back and stirring up drama.

Three strikes, we're done. I'm blocking you because I know you're gonna play the sob card and be melodramatic until I give in, and I don't dwell on negativity like that. When I know that's gonna be over and done with I'm unblocking you and everything's gonna be status quo again.

In private conversation between Kavrick and me I told him I didn't want to join his Skype call, partly because I don't like you and I saw that you were in it.

How come? Is it because I'm a slut on FJ?

Partially, yes. You can also be a real bummer sometimes with a general meh mood.