alright whats up?

ok....so these last couple of months havent been the best to me and i have taking it out on my fj friends that i care for

well today i decided to leave them and left my real account so they can not worry about me or my troubles

now that i actually left them and i started thinking to myself and other stuff i realized i made a terrible mistake

i want to go back to them but that i would show that i couldnt handle myself and that im just an attention whore
, which im not but i dont want to them to think that i am

what do i do?

could you explain to them why your feeling the way you are and remind them how much they each mean to you?

i never fully tell my problems to anyone

but each of them do care for me and try to help me feel better about myself but part of me just wanted them to go away and to leave me alone

say your going through a rough patch and you need some alone time. how serious are these problems anyway. is it family/school/drugs/relationship problems, are you suicidal?

no, i once was but not anymore,
i got through that phase and promised no matter how depressed, tired, restless i was i will never commit suicide

thats good, anything else your willing to share, i want to respect your privacy though

not atm,
but i do want to go back to my friends on fj without appearing all that situation i caused was nothing but to gain attention from them

alright then. also what are these pictures of??

ah i see. interesting.

indeed,
so, how do i tell them that i wish to come back to them without looking like my final goodbye to them was a giant lie?

hmm give me some time to think