>Get compliments for my art
>Feels good
>Acidently see youtube videos of people making speedpaints in photoshop
>God i have so fucking much to learn and it feel so overwhelming..

I just love so much.. I don't know what to call it, self-esteem drive motivation or something.
I get sad because i feel like my drawings don't matter, but i also get sad because i want to be able to draw better.. I'm at the verge of crying right now, i don't know what to do.