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#870405 - oh....  [+] (1 new reply) 1 hour ago on Ponyville +1
User avatar #870406 - onefuckingskurut (1 hour ago) [-]
I better go play some game... sorry for not sticking around... I just kinda wanted to check here for some reason..
#870399 - Something happen?  [+] (3 new replies) 1 hour ago on Ponyville +1
User avatar #870400 - onefuckingskurut (1 hour ago) [-]
I was laying in my room when I heard news about fights in Ukraine from the TV, in the room next to mine...

Slovakia is western neighbour of Ukraine. Thats where I live...
#870405 - cutietooniexx (1 hour ago) [-]
oh....
User avatar #870406 - onefuckingskurut (1 hour ago) [-]
I better go play some game... sorry for not sticking around... I just kinda wanted to check here for some reason..
#870396 - Dont have the skills to finish or make new pics of my OC and j…  [+] (1 new reply) 1 hour ago on Ponyville 0
User avatar #870402 - totallynatedrake (1 hour ago) [-]
take a nap
#870394 - A bit bored and feeling a bit down as usual. How are you?  [+] (3 new replies) 1 hour ago on Ponyville +1
#870395 - totallynatedrake (1 hour ago) [-]
whats got you down
im pretty bored
#870396 - cutietooniexx (1 hour ago) [-]
Dont have the skills to finish or make new pics of my OC and just dont have anything to do today.
User avatar #870402 - totallynatedrake (1 hour ago) [-]
take a nap
#870392 - Hello  [+] (5 new replies) 1 hour ago on Ponyville +1
User avatar #870393 - totallynatedrake (1 hour ago) [-]
how are you
#870394 - cutietooniexx (1 hour ago) [-]
A bit bored and feeling a bit down as usual. How are you?
#870395 - totallynatedrake (1 hour ago) [-]
whats got you down
im pretty bored
#870396 - cutietooniexx (1 hour ago) [-]
Dont have the skills to finish or make new pics of my OC and just dont have anything to do today.
User avatar #870402 - totallynatedrake (1 hour ago) [-]
take a nap
#870389 - I've had dreams like that before but woke up fine. Ca… 1 hour ago on Ponyville 0
#870380 - Hai How are you today? and dunno why that is.... 1 hour ago on Ponyville +1
#870379 - Still not getting the hang of any of this. Guess I will just w… 2 hours ago on Ponyville 0
#870374 - Yeah but sometimes I cant do certain things.....hard to explai…  [+] (2 new replies) 2 hours ago on Ponyville +1
#870376 - hunman (2 hours ago) [-]
Then I hope this will be good
#870379 - cutietooniexx (2 hours ago) [-]
Still not getting the hang of any of this. Guess I will just work on the recolors while I wait to find someone who can add stuff of vector some new images for me....

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User avatar #4424 - novabird (01/29/2015) [-]
he's displaying more personalities than me from observations, he also appears confused and possibly lost and scrambled etc, i'd be happy if he was taken to the ward before worse happens... :\
i don't want to risk losing another friend again.
User avatar #4423 - novabird (01/29/2015) [-]
we have what looks like a huge problem, go read thru c.yas posts, he seems...broken... :\
#4393 to #4392 - cutietooniexx (01/27/2015) [-]
Could be better
#4394 to #4393 - zealotgold (01/27/2015) [-]
why whats up?
#4395 to #4394 - cutietooniexx (01/27/2015) [-]
I just feel like people dont like me
#4421 to #4395 - novabird (01/28/2015) [-]
everyone likes you, you just have a habit of being forgotten like me.
maybe arrange something with lunar so you have a reason to be in the community more?
it's pretty bad when most of the community blows past you because you let your depression get in the way of posting, talking and making new friends, hell you have even hardly replied to my posts or posted in my profile in a while lately either and honestly it wouldn't hurt to get more involved again plus you were at your best when you did all of this, you also had many who tried posting to you that you ignored as well, people will feel unwanted and of no value when you ignore them... :\
#4422 to #4421 - novabird (01/28/2015) [-]
anyhoo, i'm gonna go to bed, i'll see you tomorrow.   
night...
anyhoo, i'm gonna go to bed, i'll see you tomorrow.
night...
#4396 to #4395 - zealotgold (01/27/2015) [-]
id disagree i think a lot of people like you
#4397 to #4396 - cutietooniexx (01/27/2015) [-]
Well I dont think so....
#4399 to #4398 - cutietooniexx (01/27/2015) [-]
Probably cause no one really talks to me, or mentions me.....or really do anything with me.
#4401 to #4399 - zealotgold (01/27/2015) [-]
i can only show up for like an hour a day now which sucks though
#4400 to #4399 - zealotgold (01/27/2015) [-]
well i can't say much, but never hurts to try, maybe talking on both boards will help
User avatar #4403 to #4402 - zealotgold (01/27/2015) [-]
mhm! pt 15, it has gotten better than the last ones i think
#4388 - novabird (01/27/2015) [-]
figured i'd give you a heads up, the stickied content me and moths worked on drew a huge crowd and even admin showed up, he posted it as stickied content and it has already amassed over 36 pages of replies on front page.   
also good to see you doing better as well, i have a feeling things are gonna improve even further as time passes as well.
figured i'd give you a heads up, the stickied content me and moths worked on drew a huge crowd and even admin showed up, he posted it as stickied content and it has already amassed over 36 pages of replies on front page.
also good to see you doing better as well, i have a feeling things are gonna improve even further as time passes as well.
User avatar #4389 to #4388 - novabird (01/27/2015) [-]
anyhoo, night.
#4366 - novabird (01/25/2015) [-]
greetings.
greetings.
User avatar #4317 - novabird (01/23/2015) [-]
hey cadence, really blah lately and drained again, just gonna say night again, going to bed.
wish i wasn't so tired like this lately...-_-
night.
you may wanna sleep as well... :\
#4299 to #4298 - novabird (01/22/2015) [-]
just feeling really weak again and can't remember anything at all today.
figured i'd check on you and see what's going on, i keep getting a bad feeling again and it's really worrying me.
#4300 to #4299 - cutietooniexx (01/22/2015) [-]
Just feeling down at the moment.
#4301 to #4300 - novabird (01/22/2015) [-]
really wish i had a better way to fix that for everyone, seems like many are down for various reasons again lately.....    
anything you wanna talk about while i can still hold my head together?
really wish i had a better way to fix that for everyone, seems like many are down for various reasons again lately.....
anything you wanna talk about while i can still hold my head together?
#4302 to #4301 - cutietooniexx (01/22/2015) [-]
Cant think of anything, didn't have to go to club today cause the bus driver thought it was thursday. Gonna have a talk with my therapist on friday and see if we cant sort this crap out.
#4304 to #4302 - novabird (01/22/2015) [-]
ok... i just blacked out, i'm just gonna go to bed and hope everyone is doing better tomorrow.
night
#4303 to #4302 - novabird (01/22/2015) [-]
i really hope you do too, i really hate seeing my friends picked on and messed with like this as well as all the other 						****					 i see almost daily, it has you, me and everyone else effected upset, hell even moths failed to get their package thanks to stupid delivery people, i honestly don't know how much more i can take in this state though, i may be far more depressed then i thought and just mostly numb most of the time lately, would be really nice if we all just got a break from it all for once, hell i'm even on tethered internet again.....
i really hope you do too, i really hate seeing my friends picked on and messed with like this as well as all the other **** i see almost daily, it has you, me and everyone else effected upset, hell even moths failed to get their package thanks to stupid delivery people, i honestly don't know how much more i can take in this state though, i may be far more depressed then i thought and just mostly numb most of the time lately, would be really nice if we all just got a break from it all for once, hell i'm even on tethered internet again.....
#4293 - cya ONLINE (01/22/2015) [-]
hellow
hellow
#4405 to #4404 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
hey :3
hey :3
#4408 to #4407 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
was having tactile(always means i'm close to a break down and will slowly get worse) hallucinations yesterday
took antipsychotic and shower to calm, then i was pooped so i thought i would take a nap, slept for like 18 hours
feeling a bit better now

and yourself?
#4409 to #4408 - cutietooniexx (01/28/2015) [-]
Eh, diapered and a bit depressed.

So the usual with me. Haven't done much today, just played some games with friends and brother hardly feels like doing anything.
#4410 to #4409 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
aww, hope you feel better soon (do the doctors not give antidepressants?)

is brother atleast recovering? and games like what?
#4411 to #4410 - cutietooniexx (01/28/2015) [-]
They do, but it doesn't help completely. Eh, Im sure I will feel better sometime in the future.....maybe when things are more to my liking.

Yeah he is, a bit. Well only played PAYDAY 2 with friends, then had to go shopping.
#4412 to #4411 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
I understand that, my pills don't really help that much at all. Good then, like bigger room and more privacy?

Good then, hope he and you continue to get better. Get anything other than food?
#4413 to #4412 - cutietooniexx (01/28/2015) [-]
Yeah, pretty much.

No, just got food and drinks. Anything else I usually just order online.
#4414 to #4413 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
Alright, cool

Ah, alright. so what type of food?
#4415 to #4414 - cutietooniexx (01/28/2015) [-]
Just regular food, mainly breakfast stuff like donuts and poptarts
#4416 to #4415 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
aww, i want donuts
#4418 to #4417 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
*eats donut*
tasty :3
thanksies :3
#4420 to #4419 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
>v<

anyways, going to bed, g'night
#4377 to #4293 - cutietooniexx (01/26/2015) [-]
Well we are cancelling going to 'club' so yay.

and yeah, found it and thought you would like it.
#4378 to #4377 - cya ONLINE (01/26/2015) [-]
cool then :3

I did, thanksies!
#4379 to #4378 - cutietooniexx (01/26/2015) [-]
Also have the pink version

have you thought about getting diapers yourself?
#4380 to #4379 - cya ONLINE (01/26/2015) [-]
woot!
and sorry for breaks, school and such
yes i have, course there's problems currently...
mother is always suspicious of me and brother and has a good sense of smell (might be able to detect even newly arived diapers)
she's a religious/strict nutjob so probably wouldn't be ok with the whole diaper wearing thing "everything must be to god's liking" according to her. meaning a lot of things we as children have done (like apperently when i tried a wig when i was 3) are apperently evil/wicked, the demons trying to leech at our soul and "corrective actions" must be taken in order to fix that
the noise, riding up back, the smell, diaper bulge seen when wearing sweats/pants (seriously, i only wear jeans and such when going to places, so used to wearing sweats indoors), un marked boxes (rise for suspicion)
reuseable suddenly seen in the dryer (sometimes she goes through our clothes in suspician that we're buying something we shouldn't or stealing) or her seeing them in the trash if disposable

do i want to? hell yeah
is it feasible atm? ehh, don't think so :c

and seriously, no idea on where to or how to start searching
or if that egyptian reusable would be good enough or should go for disposable. what style i want cover and such to be?

hmph ):
#4381 to #4380 - cutietooniexx (01/26/2015) [-]
Oh well, guess we can order some for you when you move here.

Well I only know of a few suppliers
#4382 to #4381 - cya ONLINE (01/27/2015) [-]
alright then :3

well, alright.

So, you feeling a bit better now since the stopping of the clubbings and such?
#4383 to #4382 - cutietooniexx (01/27/2015) [-]
Hell yeah Im better cause of that.....just wish I had more money though. So waiting for next month.
#4384 to #4383 - cya ONLINE (01/27/2015) [-]
yay.
the wait...
#4385 to #4384 - cutietooniexx (01/27/2015) [-]
The wait sucks but it will be worth it.

Though the wait til we have our own place is worse
#4386 to #4385 - cya ONLINE (01/27/2015) [-]
good point

yeh -_-

that reminds me, nova confused me
you did saythat you want me to live with you when you move to a different house, right?
Or did i imagine that : S
#4387 to #4386 - cutietooniexx (01/27/2015) [-]
Well Yeah, After we find a place we all can afford then we can have a place to ourselves with all the privacy we need.

and you can stay with us anytime cause I told my parents about your parents and they are ok with you staying here and attending school here.
#4406 to #4387 - cya ONLINE (01/28/2015) [-]
Alright then, that's good :3

Okie dokie
what about
the abusive/cruel nature
or nutcases refusing help?
#4351 to #4293 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Good news being parents said that when you get disability if you want to move here and do things in the meantime like school and whatnot you could stay with us.
#4354 to #4351 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
Hmm, alright then. Your'e parents are quite a bit better than mine...
Gonna have to try in the summer if i do though (semester already started)
gonna have to make sure they transfer me to cedar city universary. and all the grants and scholarships and such needed i need to actually find about out this time
and theres a swordsmanship or something over there, gonna see if i can get into that
and if i do it, gonna be after visit to bf for couple weeks

but yeah, that sounds cool. might do that till we get a house
couple questions
what's the job market up there? (each state is different on hours allowed work while on ssi, but all allow work and an earned income incentive) or would you rather i not work at aall?
will i have to pay for part of the rent (how much?)
#4355 to #4354 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Ok

Well not sure about the job market, never really got into that.....would love to have you take care of me but I guess we could use the money to save or spend on diapers and other baby stuff.

Not sure, would have to find all that out with my parents.
#4358 to #4355 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
well, need to check if it's total money earned or money earned by job that counts into "substantial gain". either way i would only be able to work part time. but do realize even if i don't get a job, still gonna want to go to school. that will take 2-3 days a week at min for school. but would definitely like taking car of you atleast some of free time

alright then
#4361 to #4358 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Yay~   
   
ALright and will try to find out the other stuff you need to know about you staying here.
Yay~

ALright and will try to find out the other stuff you need to know about you staying here.
#4364 to #4361 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
:3

thanks :3
#4350 to #4293 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
I would assume they would feel different. I prefer Disposables.

Well your brother could work too if everything would go well
#4352 to #4350 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
Well damn :c

Yep. Hope so
#4353 to #4352 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Yeah, kinda sucks. Could be some reusuable ones that I dont know about but the ones I've seen just wouldn't feel the same to me.
#4356 to #4353 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
Well I'll have to search some more
so far it's just "cloth diapers are healthier" with nothing about how any of them feel
#4357 to #4356 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Well they are healthier but I like the feel and everything of the disposables.
#4359 to #4357 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
yeh, not sure I'm gonna even like the feel of like egyptian cloth as much as the disposables

and awwh yeah, another gilda/gryphon in diapers. thanks :3
#4360 to #4359 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Yeah....


and no problem, found that one just now and thought I would share it.
#4362 to #4360 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
-_-

well I'm glad you did (:
where did you find it? (google brings up nothing)
#4363 to #4362 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Found it on Furaffinity, some pics there haven't been uploaded to derpibooru or anything.
#4365 to #4363 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
and already liking that site might have to make an account, saw a gilda pic i liked that required account for full good navigation and such
thanks
and going to bed now
g'night
#4367 to #4365 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Good!

still no more info from my parents about you staying here, they probably wont charge you rent since you will be in school but even if they do your disability should cover it.
#4368 to #4367 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
mhm :3

well then
and okie dokie then
#4369 to #4368 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Any idea of when you will be able to come over?
#4370 to #4369 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
well i do wanna visit bf over summer for a couple weeks. and he gets out june 26ths
but maybe i can take a trip to bf after already living with you though i suppose
i get done with school for summer a little more than a month before him
but need to make sure transfer to your school
need to actually figure out how to apply to schools/scholarships and such...

...no
hopefully begining of summer
#4371 to #4370 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Alright.

Also how are you today?
#4372 to #4371 - cya ONLINE (01/26/2015) [-]
mom showing often the typical that she needs severe mental help. she might get fired again soon
not ready for school tomorrow
playing skyrim right now

and you?
#4373 to #4372 - cutietooniexx (01/26/2015) [-]
Pretty tired and bored, was playing games with friends earlier but friend has a problem with his computer so we had to stop.

Would be wearing diapers to sleep tonight but I have to get up super early and call my therapist to tell him Im not going to 'club' because we literally do nothing but sit there....and it drives my brother crazy
#4374 to #4373 - cya ONLINE (01/26/2015) [-]
get some sleep. I hope he no longer has problem soon

lame. and seriously? nothing? how many hours is it again? brother having more panic attacks? and i hope therapist understands
#4375 to #4374 - cutietooniexx (01/26/2015) [-]
Hopefully.

and yeah he's having more
#4376 to #4375 - cya ONLINE (01/26/2015) [-]
mhm

well ****

so, they canceling it?

and oh my gosh, a diaper edit of that pic? :3
#4325 to #4293 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
So, what you wanna talk about?
#4326 to #4325 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
i guess about the housi ng things
#4327 to #4326 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
I was just thinking about my room and the stuff I was gonna tell you some time.....their kinda related
#4328 to #4327 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
Alright then
what's it about?
related?
#4329 to #4328 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
I'll tell you everything in a PM tomorrow, right now I need to get some sleep.
#4330 to #4329 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
okie dokie :3
sleep well
#4332 to #4330 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
Also they stuff I was talking about is related to how I want my room in the house when we eventually find one.....just not sure how you would feel about it.
#4333 to #4332 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
Okie dokie :3
Do remember I'm much more open minded than most. Course i can be against things for practical reasons (like don't expect a mansion with our pay)...
Seriously though, just tell me. Not gonna find out till too late if you wait (and often times ideas one will be against at first, but warm up in time even after the mere suggestion of it)
#4335 to #4334 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
Yeah, that will be fine :3
#4336 to #4335 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
Yay ^^

Now I Cant wait til we find a place and able to get everything. Just need til you start getting disability then we can start looking at things.
#4337 to #4336 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
mhm :3

Yep, gonna be lovely.
The first check should be coming in within a week, then gonna get router number and stuff to send the rest to my bank.
So, in the mean time. Do you have in mind other things (like possible location and why)
#4338 to #4337 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
Well Therapist recommended Cedar City since the prices here are low.

Can you think of a place?
#4339 to #4338 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
ugh, i don't like the sound of that, just cause therapist might be catering to there own business...
shoot if you really wanna go for prices where i live i can find better mortgage and rental prices (by a bit) then cedar city. but in here it's mostly forest, lake, and food. where you are is other stuff (is there a place to buy clothes and such? what else is there?). and i know places even better for price per stuff inside (though even less stuff in those towns, might have to order most stuff online)
So, what are you looking for, prices, places to buy stuff, scenery, people, nearby college/university (i might have to look for that if i wanna keep going to eventually get dream job. and nearby as in biking distance to a bus to there i suppose), temperature/weather, etc?
what?
#4341 to #4339 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
Going out to lunch so I will be back soon to continue this conversation
#4342 to #4341 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
okie dokie, hope it's tasty
#4340 to #4339 - cutietooniexx (01/24/2015) [-]
Eh just a thing to note is I cant travel through airlines because Im petrified with flying.

Well a more populated area would be nice, mostly I just care about getting the place and it being good enough to have my room and stuff for now
#4343 to #4340 - cya ONLINE (01/24/2015) [-]
Oh, alright then. If we move too far (even to like salt lake city) might have to get someone (nova?) to take us

okie dokie. Understood :3
how big do you think the dimensions of your room do you want?
#4344 to #4343 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
If he would be ok with that.

Well I dunno, big enough to be able to have everything and still have room to play in.
#4345 to #4344 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
yeh, gonna have to ask him (unless you know of anyone else capable you would want

alright then (unless can give dimensions might have to visit these houses before hand)

this picture reminded me cause he posts cheeerilee a lot i wonder if i should have bf try out diapers. I actually didn't expect to like wearing them but i really did sorry, got distracted
#4347 to #4345 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Oh and also I have some good news.....I think
#4349 to #4347 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
Hmm, what?
#4346 to #4345 - cutietooniexx (01/25/2015) [-]
Dunno anyone else really.

Well anything that can fit an adult sized crib, changing table and maybe a few other baby things like a rocking horse and still have room to play in. So I guess if we had those dimensions we could find something.

Well glad you like them, I prefer them way more than normal underwear.....but dont have the money myself to keep a constant supply of them
#4348 to #4346 - cya ONLINE (01/25/2015) [-]
I mean, I could ask my brother. We never had any sibling rivalry and always protected each other. So he could help take us (Though he might ask some questions. And he literally has Antisocial personality disorder...it should be fine if i say your a friend of mine though)

alright then, gonna have to figure that out

Same...I wonder if reuseable(washable?) diapers would feel too different
#4294 to #4293 - cutietooniexx (01/22/2015) [-]
Well parents right now are getting the money.

And would prefer stuff like more diapers or something
#4295 to #4294 - cya ONLINE (01/22/2015) [-]
*sigh* i figured i missed a comment somewhere. figured i'd look before i sleep. looked and wouldn't you know
yeh...not sure i like the sound of that (especially as far as the get away/live with better people/mlore privacy)

heh, alright (do you have washable/reuseable diapers right now). something? like other baby stuff?
#4306 to #4295 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
How are you Today?
#4309 to #4306 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
somehow slept for 18 hours today   
missing my psychiatrist appointment...this is third time (and now have to schedule for a group, uhg)   
and need to figure out how to get router number
somehow slept for 18 hours today
missing my psychiatrist appointment...this is third time (and now have to schedule for a group, uhg)
and need to figure out how to get router number
#4296 to #4295 - cutietooniexx (01/22/2015) [-]
Well I dont have anything re-useable. Yeah, more baby stuff....will probably tell you what I mean exactly sometime.
#4307 to #4296 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
alright then
okie dokie
oh, and disability thingy would apperently be raised for me if I am paying for part of rent of mortgage. and if living with other people on disability
#4308 to #4307 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
Also gonna try and save for a different diaper design from the place where I usually get them.

And that is interesting.
#4310 to #4308 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
ooh, which design?

yes it is. atm it's only 488.6 a month though
#4311 to #4310 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
Look up ABU Cushie

and would be nice if we could all find a place we can afford.
#4312 to #4311 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
well first look was rather cute. and the reviews were good too. i say yesh :3

yeh, that would be real nice.
of course, i wouldn't be able to pay for the rent entirely myself (for 3+ people), that's why before i asked about your parents having control over the money
but yeah, I'm looking forward to sometime in future (hopefully soon) for us to be in a decent place we can afford
#4313 to #4312 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
I know :3
and we can hopefully find something soon
#4314 to #4313 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
heh
yeh, that sounds good
#4315 to #4314 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
I know, its gonna be so awesome if we can find a place
#4316 to #4315 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
Mhm, so excited for that :3
and hopefully get a decent increase in space for the baby stuff
User avatar #4319 to #4316 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
Just for when you get on, how are you today?
User avatar #4321 to #4319 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
well since for brothers birthday he got bioshock infinite
played that last night. got stuck on some bitch that could raise the dead (rpg's, gattle gun, shotgun only got her health down by 10%, later she glitched/was stuck in an area so shot her with my standard pistol, which i found does a lot of damage to her, but now low on ammo. and apperently i have to kill this ghost 2 more times)
woke up, worked around on creating the ceiling to bathroom with grandfather
played some league, specifically ARAM (all random all mid), the normal is fun but really hard and got to be observant, it's good to take a break everyonce in a while and do aram. went positive both times. both times played people on chat were like (said character i'm playing) is too OP, followed by people saying ussually the people that play that character go negative/get powned
anyways, think i'm gonna play few more games then go back to infinite.
oh, and brother used my phone (cant find home phone) to call for help setting up his new phone. he got his new phone in order to call his now girlfriend in canada (and i talked to her, she real. but mostly surprised cause he's a slut and his relationship with canada chick has lasted 3 months)

other than that, certain things i was thinking about myself that were bothering me i stopped thinking about (and can't remember what they were) so a bit more stable now

so, how are you?
#4322 to #4321 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
Well doing a bit better. Still thinking up of ideas for housing when we have all the disability stuff settled. So if you want we can talk more about that sometime tonight.
#4323 to #4322 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
Well that's good then :3 hope you continually do a bit better
hmm sure :3 (unless you wanna talk about anytjhing else)
and god damn, computewrs really messin with me, hopefully a restart can change that
#4324 to #4323 - cutietooniexx (01/23/2015) [-]
Well I cant think of anything else, but whatever you wanna talk about is ok with me
#4320 to #4318 - cya ONLINE (01/23/2015) [-]
agreed :3
User avatar #4292 - novabird (01/21/2015) [-]
www.funnyjunk.com/Nero+s+laboratory+ep4+and+5/funny-pictures/5428750/
this artist is rather neat in their comics...
#4285 to #4284 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
Feeling pretty terrible.
#4286 to #4285 - greedtheavaricious (01/20/2015) [-]
What's on your mind?
#4287 to #4286 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
Feeling really down, been looking for something sharp enough to cut myself with but cant find anything here downstairs. Parents and even therapist are making some pretty poor decisions because they are refusing to take my problems seriously which is only making things worse.
#4288 to #4287 - greedtheavaricious (01/20/2015) [-]
let me stop you right there. Cutting? ******* cutting? Seriously?

Look. I can't help you with your problems. What I can do, however, is giving you a few examples on how to vent without harming yourself or others.

Go kick a tree. Go outside and scream your soul out. Wood cutting. Go for a run. Exercise. Go outside and talk to people who seem to want to engage in a conversation (you'd be surprised)

But definitely not ******* cutting yourself. We both know how bad it is and how addictive it can be.
#4289 to #4288 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
Venting is not what I intend to do, its to give my parents and even my therapist a clear message that will HOPEFULLY get them to change their ways and stick with them so as to not repeat it like they have been doing my whole life. They care more about the cleanliness of the house more than their own children who are struggling with depression, they do not think things through before making a decisions and following through with it and they are ignoring the fact that I as an introvert hate being with a group of random ass people and enjoy the time I spend in my room chatting with my friends, helping them with their problems and spending time with them even going as far as scheduling times so they can visit me. With all of that information they say the logical thing to do is tell me all my friends online are not REAL friends and I should make friends in the small ass town that has nothing to do, get out of the house more to do absolutely nothing, and schedule me to go to a club 3 days a week to be with a group of random ass people with mental problems and expecting me to socialize with people I cant even relate to let alone talk to because as we clearly established with them already I have a HUGE issue with talking to people face to face and yet they have done nothing to work around that.

So to recap, everything that makes me happy is wrong, my friends who have supported more than my parents and therapist have are not REAL friends and immediately putting me on a schedule where I have to be at a place I feel VERY uncomfortable at is the right thing where honestly I'd rather be in the hospital than put up with this amount of **** .
#4290 to #4289 - greedtheavaricious (01/21/2015) [-]
Late reply is late.

Listen, we've been over this before. Your parents are doing it wrong, yeah. You do have some serious issues that need to be worked on, and your therapist is a bloody idiot.

But cutting doesn't solve anything, and if they didn't notice by now, they sure as hell ain't noticing this way.

If talking doesn't work, trying to get some sense into them, then.. probably nothing will.

As for social anxiety, and you will hate me for saying that, but try to go out more. Yeah, you can't relate to them, so what? Doesn't mean you can't have a good time. I've been there, otherwise I wouldn't say it.
#4267 to #4246 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
I just dont know......
User avatar #4268 to #4267 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
we honestly don't know what we want till we actually find it, sucks but most people don't know what they really ever truly want... :\
#4269 to #4268 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
I just dont know if I can take all of this....
User avatar #4270 to #4269 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
then hopefully you get more breaks soon so you can, rather not see anything happen to you at all..... :\
#4271 to #4270 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
I just dont think that even if I do get a break it wont be enough to actually fix anything.
User avatar #4272 to #4271 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
i don't see why not, most of the stuff that bothers you most is the effect of your depression messing with your head and the schizo is only amplifying that further, you get your own place away from the poking and prodding of your family and things will likely improve greatly, you get a place close enuf to friends and you can have a social life again as well and maybe even find a gf etc to make you really happy again, just takes a little time but things should improve.
#4273 to #4272 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
I just dont think I can handle all the stress and stuff that is expected of me even if I do somehow move to my own place
#4277 to #4273 - cya ONLINE (01/20/2015) [-]
in the beginning get years worth of stuff that will last (canned food, oatmeal, suchnaught) make it so monthly deliveries happen to you of disposable cups and bowls and plates and such. laundry once every 3 weeks, always on cold   
not sure if anything other than that...
in the beginning get years worth of stuff that will last (canned food, oatmeal, suchnaught) make it so monthly deliveries happen to you of disposable cups and bowls and plates and such. laundry once every 3 weeks, always on cold
not sure if anything other than that...
User avatar #4274 to #4273 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
there will be even less to be expected honestly, hell i do so little here as it is i kinda go mad from boredom, you know it's bad when you start cleaning and doing dishes etc because you're that bored...-_-
#4275 to #4274 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
Could possibly be that I am not thinking clearly right now and most of my thoughts are of that of self harm......
#4276 to #4275 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
yeah, very likely, your energy doesn't feel well to me at all right now....go sleep maybe and use that stuff i gave you this time?   
maybe some ice cream or a hot beverage as well?   
do what you can to take care of yourself....
yeah, very likely, your energy doesn't feel well to me at all right now....go sleep maybe and use that stuff i gave you this time?
maybe some ice cream or a hot beverage as well?
do what you can to take care of yourself....
#4278 to #4276 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
Still feeling terrible, tried to sleep but my body likes to wake up on midnight on the dot.

Have a doctor's appointment today and if its the kind of visit I am expecting then I can hopefully explain my problems with the doctor and see if they cant have a chat with my parents and what not.
#4279 to #4278 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
irony, here you are waking up at 2pm my time and i don't even go to bed till like 3-4am lately then sleep till 9am for work, you try the melatonin i gave you by chance? i think you should use it, eating 1 pill helped me greatly so it may help you as well, it will also reduce anxiety as well.
i really hope your doctor talks some sense into them all, i feel they have gone way the hell too damn far with their **** lately and i don't like that internal screaming you're giving off either......
go take the valerian root or melatonin and you should calm down a little hopefully though, you could really use a good nights sleep for once, even if i can't with my genetic **** blocking me you should at least, it would help a lot i think.....
#4248 to #4247 - novabird (01/19/2015) [-]
hows it going?
figured i'd check on ya, especially after last night.....
#4249 to #4248 - cutietooniexx (01/19/2015) [-]
Still terrible and still looking for something sharp.....seriously **** this household.
#4250 to #4249 - novabird (01/19/2015) [-]
that's what i was afraid of.....    
i hope they drop their 						********					 asap, i really hate seeing you like this......
that's what i was afraid of.....
i hope they drop their ******** asap, i really hate seeing you like this......
#4251 to #4250 - cutietooniexx (01/19/2015) [-]
Well unless someone can somehow convince my parents and therapist to lay off then I see no other real option.....and again I dont care if we are renting a house from someone its their own fault for that, not mine.
#4252 to #4251 - novabird (01/19/2015) [-]
really wish i lived far closer so you had a place to escape to for a few hours a day so they at least think you're out doing stuff so they would leave you alone.....   
you can always write notes and mail them if they are being stupid about emails, that and print stuff out if you can't say it directly...   
meantime you can always join me and moths in skype chat if you want as a distraction from this 						********					.
really wish i lived far closer so you had a place to escape to for a few hours a day so they at least think you're out doing stuff so they would leave you alone.....
you can always write notes and mail them if they are being stupid about emails, that and print stuff out if you can't say it directly...
meantime you can always join me and moths in skype chat if you want as a distraction from this ******** .
#4253 to #4252 - cutietooniexx (01/19/2015) [-]
Cant even do that cause now I get the to spend the whole day cleaning my room and every room downstairs spotless.....
User avatar #4254 to #4253 - novabird (01/19/2015) [-]
why are the rooms supposedly dirty to begin with?
frankly a little dust isn't the landlords business and didn't your family own a house?
between your whole family on disability you could all buy a bigger house and say **** paying rent and do as you all please.
#4255 to #4254 - cutietooniexx (01/19/2015) [-]
Because its one of the problems I have that again, my parents dont recognize as a problem and more of Im just stupid.

We used to own a house before some stupid financial decisions made us lose just about everything.

We COULD but our parents would rather buy something stupid like better furniture.
User avatar #4256 to #4255 - novabird (01/19/2015) [-]
tell them to buy a house and **** everything else, they lost it all to begin with so it's high time they fixed what was broken instead of buying junk they already have.
makes me wonder if you could get into stocks and bonds, manipulate the economy to make you rich so you can escape your household and do as you please.....
#4257 to #4256 - cutietooniexx (01/19/2015) [-]
its pointless trying to argue with them, they just dont give two ***** about my problems....they just care about the ******* house.


....I have to go now, not sure when I will be back.
#4258 to #4257 - novabird (01/19/2015) [-]
they should care when they buy their own, the amount of ass kissing they are doing is excessive.    
alright, i hope it's over with quickly so you can relax again...-_-
they should care when they buy their own, the amount of ass kissing they are doing is excessive.
alright, i hope it's over with quickly so you can relax again...-_-
#4261 to #4260 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
I just wish I had my own place, so I wouldn't have to put up with this **** .

Honestly makes me wonder if they are just TRYING to make me want to kill myself.
#4262 to #4261 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
maybe you should ask them somehow so they know how you really feel about the 						****					 they are doing...
maybe you should ask them somehow so they know how you really feel about the **** they are doing...
#4263 to #4262 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
I dont even see the point of even trying to reason with them, so I manage to get them to lay off a bit...its only a matter of time before they try **** like this again. As long as I am living with them I cant really have my own space, if I move out then I have to deal with a bunch of government crap and **** just to keep my disability and as long as I am with my therapist they are just gonna keep trying to change who I am.

I just cant see a situation that will actually work out for me, so why even bother with anything.
User avatar #4264 to #4263 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
as i see it once everything is finalized and dealt with you won't need to worry about this **** anymore, even if the gov is dealing with you it would still give you more privacy then they do and i know people with schizophrenia who have their own places and they just have to check in with their case worker like once every other week if that so not as complex as they make it seem, only drawback is hud makes you keep your home clean for inspections every few months but that's about it really.
#4265 to #4264 - cutietooniexx (01/20/2015) [-]
Still doesn't really appeal to me......cant think of what exactly it is I want. All I know is right now I feel terrible and trying not to injure myself.
User avatar #4266 to #4265 - novabird (01/20/2015) [-]
still better then family drama though, at least you'd be free of them and others 90% of the time which is better then now as a case worker isn't there to make you do anything that isn't legally required... :\
plus you could move to anywhere you choose as well.
User avatar #4245 - novabird (01/17/2015) [-]
www.funnyjunk.com/user_pictures/lunargre enhouse/3976863/Ponyville/862566#862566
another chance to beta test an unreleased game a pv member is building.
#4236 - novabird (01/12/2015) [-]
greetings.
User avatar #4237 to #4236 - cutietooniexx (01/12/2015) [-]
Hey nova
#4238 to #4237 - novabird (01/12/2015) [-]
figured i'd check on ya, been rather quiet lately.
#4239 to #4238 - cutietooniexx (01/12/2015) [-]
Well Cya is over and things are going well so far
#4240 to #4239 - novabird (01/12/2015) [-]
ah, good to hear, was worried he'd get stuck with the tsa or lost or some 						****					, at least that was dealt with.
ah, good to hear, was worried he'd get stuck with the tsa or lost or some **** , at least that was dealt with.
#4241 to #4240 - cya ONLINE (01/12/2015) [-]
on a related note
things have been wonderful over here so far

his parents showed up a day earlier so that ruined some plans...
i was a bit stressed at times (worrying i would mess up/not know what to do) and at times i would not know what to do/mess up. but i'm learning :3
tried out diapers myself and they feel wonderful, so cozy (though it seems to be that not to the extent of toonie, just liking whereing them i suppose)

and oh, my, gosh. i've never felt so at peace, so calm, so collective (and i haven't taken any of my pills to help) so wonderful, so full of life, so happy i've actually had to wipe away/hide a lot of tears of happines)
it's been absolutely spectacular. this is the best i've ever felt in my whole life
User avatar #4242 to #4241 - novabird (01/12/2015) [-]
that's kinda how i felt visiting his household minus the tears part, his parents remind me of my grandparents to a scary alike level looks and all, even the pets are the same.
guessing being there makes you feel normal for once as well being you don't have to worry about the crazy **** your household is up to either.
#4243 to #4242 - cya ONLINE (01/13/2015) [-]
well damn. heh, maybe they are duplicated of your grandparents : P, 2 spoopy

hmm, yep. well, maybe not "normal" more like, accepted, belonging and stuff
and dad left for arizona same day i did, so the only source of sanity will be gone upon my return. i wouldn't be surprised if the vast difference between the 2 households leads me to a while of depression and stuff from the return -_-
though i think it will be worth it cause this week

sorry, feel like saying this all out to someone and not holding it in (and bf is already asleep, he's caught the cold so he needs the sleep. also not sure he would be willing to listen to this, should i tell him?)
i gotta say, he decided not to do any baby stuff today and i was kinda bummed out about that i understand that he mainly? does that just as something to calm. so i know not all the times he's gonna want to do that. so i won't make or even ask him to do it any more time then he wants...though i would prefer to do it atleast 1 or 2 more times before i must depart... we still played video games, watched good youtube vids and such. so i did still have a fun time. just not nearly as much as last night...
i was able to get in the mindset of a caring, loving parent of a wonderful child a lot of the time. it was, uhm, really nice
i felt like i truely had a purpose (and not like a delusional "god's purpose/plan kinda way...i did do my daily check to see if i was still hallucinating last night after he went to bed the last time, for the first time in as long as i remember, i failed the test, i wasn't hallucinating. i did the test again today about 20 minutes ago, hallucinating again, though extremely minor compared to normal, and unlike most days where i was extremely relieved to be hallucinating, this time was different. today i was like meh, whatevs. not good, not bad, just nuetral)
and oh my gosh, so much cute and adorableness, gah, twas so wonderful
User avatar #4244 to #4243 - novabird (01/13/2015) [-]
well, the only reason he likely has an interest in that is because he has nothing keeping him happy, no friends or anything to do locally which as i recall is what made him regress to begin with, since a friend is there he's likely happy as well so will likely do far less of that.
i kinda figured you both needed a change of pace for a while as he has nothing to do nor anyone to do those things with and you were being torn down by your family which is why you got the problems you do now to begin with, stress is a massive factor there and if your household wasn't so bad neither would your conditions be.
as for telling your bf these things that's up to you, not sure about how he'd feel though as i don't know him as well since he hardly speaks.
User avatar #4232 to #4231 - cutietooniexx (01/10/2015) [-]
Hey Nova, how are you?
#4233 to #4232 - novabird (01/10/2015) [-]
really drained, sick feeling, sore as hell and my tower quit on me, wouldn't even get past the bios now and crashes randomly, so i attached a screen to my laptop and all the gear as well to use as a temp till tax season, hopefully i get new parts soon, not sure how long i can handle this mess...-_-   
and sorry bout not dropping by yesterday, with the mood i was in i figured i'd end up making us both worse...    
yourself?
really drained, sick feeling, sore as hell and my tower quit on me, wouldn't even get past the bios now and crashes randomly, so i attached a screen to my laptop and all the gear as well to use as a temp till tax season, hopefully i get new parts soon, not sure how long i can handle this mess...-_-
and sorry bout not dropping by yesterday, with the mood i was in i figured i'd end up making us both worse...
yourself?
#4234 to #4233 - cutietooniexx (01/10/2015) [-]
Pretty tired tonight, didn't get much sleep yesterday.
User avatar #4235 to #4234 - novabird (01/10/2015) [-]
guessing been distracted with the visitor coming and all that?
i know the feeling though, been running on about 3-4 hours of sleep lately and it's likely showing but my insomnia is getting worse still, hopefully my insurance gets worked out again soon so i can get the tests done and get my disability asap before i hurt myself again...-_-
#4225 to #4224 - novabird (01/07/2015) [-]
what's wrong?
what's wrong?
User avatar #4226 to #4225 - cutietooniexx (01/07/2015) [-]
A lot of things
#4227 to #4226 - novabird (01/07/2015) [-]
well, do you want to talk about it in detail?
getting it off your chest should help in some way, try not to bottle up how you're feeling as it may make things worse... :\
#4228 to #4227 - cutietooniexx (01/07/2015) [-]
I dunno, just nervous about C-ya visiting on the 11th, still have yet to tell my parents that.
#4230 to #4228 - novabird (01/07/2015) [-]
**** , 4:28am, i better get some sleep, advise you get some as well, sucks i work at 9am...-_-
just reply to this and i'll catch up tomorrow.
night.
User avatar #4229 to #4228 - novabird (01/07/2015) [-]
better let them know, if they aren't aware it could really mess up the visit for you both and cause problems, especially since airports can be tricky like that as well... :\
side note, i swear i'm gonna shoot that god damn tower, it keeps crashing on me...-_-
currently on laptop...
either way this should be interesting if he can pull thru, also you missed getting to talk to him over cam in the tinychat party on new years but we may be having another party on moths bday as well soon.
#4217 - novabird (01/04/2015) [-]
ug, someone get the number on that bus, last night sucked...-_-
feeling any better?
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