Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

It'll be tomorrow then, I guess. I'm just not really up for thinking right now. But, in a nutshell, this whole Hanako ordeal.. Ah crap, I'll try
I don't quite understand. I've always been so dependent, so hung up over someone else. Alone is a word quite fit for how I've been feeling. My mind's always been such aa screwball, always tomorrow and never today. Always what wil be.
Will I be happy? What about when I die?
I've never trusted myself. I've alwas thought it'd be better to have someone to calm me down when I had anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I'm weak by myself, always wondering what will be. I need someone to choke it out of me, to keep all the thoughts at bay, and when they come out, help me. I've just never had a control over what I think. Falling "in love" too quickly, immediately thinking someone is ignoring me if they don't answer in a few minutes, thinking my parents died if they take too long..
I'm paranoid, obsessive, deppressive and i've really got a poor image of myself.
I just need someone to bare with me, to show me once and for all if all the nice thigns people say are sugar.coated lies or raw truth

I can relate pretty well to the end there. I won't get into it too much since it is a long story itself. The falling "in love" too quickly is something I know too well. Quick sum up; met her in 1st or 2nd grade. First day I saw her, i immediately liked her. Blah, blah,blah school closes down and we both end up at the same school. Still like her, blah, blah, blah, I never get anywhere with her. Still to this day I'm pretty sure if I ran into her again I would feel the same way as I used to even after all that was said and done.

I am like that as well if someone doesn't answer immediately. The best way I've come to deal with it is realizing sometimes stuff just comes up. My best mate and I play game and chat for a good part of the day, every day. Even though I know he wouldn't try and go out of his way to avoid me, I still sometimes panic when he doesn't respond for awhile. I think, maybe he is done being my friend or was it something I said, etc. Then I just remember that people have their own lives that can't be or at least shouldn't be halted because of my own needs.

Parent thing, yup. When my parents go out for the night to drink or hang out with friends I always get worried. When it hits 3 a.m. and I haven't heard or seen them I panic. I run all of the worst possible scenarios through my head about what could have happened. Then I just remember that they always come back no matter what. And God forbid they didn't, I know everything must happen for a reason even if I can't seem to understand it at the current moment.

Poor image of yourself? Having confidence is yourself is no easy matter. I am always judging myself for not being the right weight or not looking like this or that. It's how I am though and no amount of complaining or self loathing will change how I look.

People 99% want to be nice to people. The things they say are more then likely honest truths. It may be hard to believe at times, but it is easier to just accept a compliment. Word limit, damnit

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

I've heard worse, I think it is safe to say that. she's really pretty though
Yeah.. I know. But I don't trust myself in all honesty, not anymore

Sorry for how it sounded though. I couldn't think of a way to tone it down without trying to get the point across. It's always the pretty ones.

I don't want to pry at you by any means so if you don't want to answer I understand. That being said though, I would be willing to listen if you would maybe care to explain why or how you lost your trust for yourself.

It'll be tomorrow then, I guess. I'm just not really up for thinking right now. But, in a nutshell, this whole Hanako ordeal.. Ah crap, I'll try
I don't quite understand. I've always been so dependent, so hung up over someone else. Alone is a word quite fit for how I've been feeling. My mind's always been such aa screwball, always tomorrow and never today. Always what wil be.
Will I be happy? What about when I die?
I've never trusted myself. I've alwas thought it'd be better to have someone to calm me down when I had anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I'm weak by myself, always wondering what will be. I need someone to choke it out of me, to keep all the thoughts at bay, and when they come out, help me. I've just never had a control over what I think. Falling "in love" too quickly, immediately thinking someone is ignoring me if they don't answer in a few minutes, thinking my parents died if they take too long..
I'm paranoid, obsessive, deppressive and i've really got a poor image of myself.
I just need someone to bare with me, to show me once and for all if all the nice thigns people say are sugar.coated lies or raw truth

I can relate pretty well to the end there. I won't get into it too much since it is a long story itself. The falling "in love" too quickly is something I know too well. Quick sum up; met her in 1st or 2nd grade. First day I saw her, i immediately liked her. Blah, blah,blah school closes down and we both end up at the same school. Still like her, blah, blah, blah, I never get anywhere with her. Still to this day I'm pretty sure if I ran into her again I would feel the same way as I used to even after all that was said and done.

I am like that as well if someone doesn't answer immediately. The best way I've come to deal with it is realizing sometimes stuff just comes up. My best mate and I play game and chat for a good part of the day, every day. Even though I know he wouldn't try and go out of his way to avoid me, I still sometimes panic when he doesn't respond for awhile. I think, maybe he is done being my friend or was it something I said, etc. Then I just remember that people have their own lives that can't be or at least shouldn't be halted because of my own needs.

Parent thing, yup. When my parents go out for the night to drink or hang out with friends I always get worried. When it hits 3 a.m. and I haven't heard or seen them I panic. I run all of the worst possible scenarios through my head about what could have happened. Then I just remember that they always come back no matter what. And God forbid they didn't, I know everything must happen for a reason even if I can't seem to understand it at the current moment.

Poor image of yourself? Having confidence is yourself is no easy matter. I am always judging myself for not being the right weight or not looking like this or that. It's how I am though and no amount of complaining or self loathing will change how I look.

People 99% want to be nice to people. The things they say are more then likely honest truths. It may be hard to believe at times, but it is easier to just accept a compliment. Word limit, damnit

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

It's shameful because I don't know her. I built her flesh out of sorrows and her mind out of expectations, just like I did with her. and it didn't turn out well
And not really...
She's... wow.
She likes writing, she likes videogames too
She even has self-esteem problems, just like I do.
Maybe we can fix each other

It's not shameful to like someone even if you haven't met them in person. Although it may be safer to say you like what you know about them, since you don't know how they would act in a real encounter. Hopefully that didn't sound harsh. I'm just saying things as they come to me.

Maybe she can help, but in the end it will be you who has to face your problems. Support can only take you so far, mate.

That doesn't mean you should try for her though. Take a shot at it because you never know what may happen.

I've heard worse, I think it is safe to say that. she's really pretty though
Yeah.. I know. But I don't trust myself in all honesty, not anymore

Sorry for how it sounded though. I couldn't think of a way to tone it down without trying to get the point across. It's always the pretty ones.

I don't want to pry at you by any means so if you don't want to answer I understand. That being said though, I would be willing to listen if you would maybe care to explain why or how you lost your trust for yourself.

It'll be tomorrow then, I guess. I'm just not really up for thinking right now. But, in a nutshell, this whole Hanako ordeal.. Ah crap, I'll try
I don't quite understand. I've always been so dependent, so hung up over someone else. Alone is a word quite fit for how I've been feeling. My mind's always been such aa screwball, always tomorrow and never today. Always what wil be.
Will I be happy? What about when I die?
I've never trusted myself. I've alwas thought it'd be better to have someone to calm me down when I had anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I'm weak by myself, always wondering what will be. I need someone to choke it out of me, to keep all the thoughts at bay, and when they come out, help me. I've just never had a control over what I think. Falling "in love" too quickly, immediately thinking someone is ignoring me if they don't answer in a few minutes, thinking my parents died if they take too long..
I'm paranoid, obsessive, deppressive and i've really got a poor image of myself.
I just need someone to bare with me, to show me once and for all if all the nice thigns people say are sugar.coated lies or raw truth

I can relate pretty well to the end there. I won't get into it too much since it is a long story itself. The falling "in love" too quickly is something I know too well. Quick sum up; met her in 1st or 2nd grade. First day I saw her, i immediately liked her. Blah, blah,blah school closes down and we both end up at the same school. Still like her, blah, blah, blah, I never get anywhere with her. Still to this day I'm pretty sure if I ran into her again I would feel the same way as I used to even after all that was said and done.

I am like that as well if someone doesn't answer immediately. The best way I've come to deal with it is realizing sometimes stuff just comes up. My best mate and I play game and chat for a good part of the day, every day. Even though I know he wouldn't try and go out of his way to avoid me, I still sometimes panic when he doesn't respond for awhile. I think, maybe he is done being my friend or was it something I said, etc. Then I just remember that people have their own lives that can't be or at least shouldn't be halted because of my own needs.

Parent thing, yup. When my parents go out for the night to drink or hang out with friends I always get worried. When it hits 3 a.m. and I haven't heard or seen them I panic. I run all of the worst possible scenarios through my head about what could have happened. Then I just remember that they always come back no matter what. And God forbid they didn't, I know everything must happen for a reason even if I can't seem to understand it at the current moment.

Poor image of yourself? Having confidence is yourself is no easy matter. I am always judging myself for not being the right weight or not looking like this or that. It's how I am though and no amount of complaining or self loathing will change how I look.

People 99% want to be nice to people. The things they say are more then likely honest truths. It may be hard to believe at times, but it is easier to just accept a compliment. Word limit, damnit

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

Well, it's shameful to admit so, but yes. The thing is, i've neve rmet her, I've only heard about her thanks to my cousin, and because we've been chatting.
But she lives so far away and we never met. And well, she obviously has her own life. She's been ignoring me today, and she'll date someone new soon

Why is it shameful? Liking someone shouldn't be something you are ashamed of.
So you've never actually met her? Would it be safe to say you are more infatuated with the idea of having a relationship or actually being with her?

It's shameful because I don't know her. I built her flesh out of sorrows and her mind out of expectations, just like I did with her. and it didn't turn out well
And not really...
She's... wow.
She likes writing, she likes videogames too
She even has self-esteem problems, just like I do.
Maybe we can fix each other

It's not shameful to like someone even if you haven't met them in person. Although it may be safer to say you like what you know about them, since you don't know how they would act in a real encounter. Hopefully that didn't sound harsh. I'm just saying things as they come to me.

Maybe she can help, but in the end it will be you who has to face your problems. Support can only take you so far, mate.

That doesn't mean you should try for her though. Take a shot at it because you never know what may happen.

I've heard worse, I think it is safe to say that. she's really pretty though
Yeah.. I know. But I don't trust myself in all honesty, not anymore

Sorry for how it sounded though. I couldn't think of a way to tone it down without trying to get the point across. It's always the pretty ones.

I don't want to pry at you by any means so if you don't want to answer I understand. That being said though, I would be willing to listen if you would maybe care to explain why or how you lost your trust for yourself.

It'll be tomorrow then, I guess. I'm just not really up for thinking right now. But, in a nutshell, this whole Hanako ordeal.. Ah crap, I'll try
I don't quite understand. I've always been so dependent, so hung up over someone else. Alone is a word quite fit for how I've been feeling. My mind's always been such aa screwball, always tomorrow and never today. Always what wil be.
Will I be happy? What about when I die?
I've never trusted myself. I've alwas thought it'd be better to have someone to calm me down when I had anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I'm weak by myself, always wondering what will be. I need someone to choke it out of me, to keep all the thoughts at bay, and when they come out, help me. I've just never had a control over what I think. Falling "in love" too quickly, immediately thinking someone is ignoring me if they don't answer in a few minutes, thinking my parents died if they take too long..
I'm paranoid, obsessive, deppressive and i've really got a poor image of myself.
I just need someone to bare with me, to show me once and for all if all the nice thigns people say are sugar.coated lies or raw truth

I can relate pretty well to the end there. I won't get into it too much since it is a long story itself. The falling "in love" too quickly is something I know too well. Quick sum up; met her in 1st or 2nd grade. First day I saw her, i immediately liked her. Blah, blah,blah school closes down and we both end up at the same school. Still like her, blah, blah, blah, I never get anywhere with her. Still to this day I'm pretty sure if I ran into her again I would feel the same way as I used to even after all that was said and done.

I am like that as well if someone doesn't answer immediately. The best way I've come to deal with it is realizing sometimes stuff just comes up. My best mate and I play game and chat for a good part of the day, every day. Even though I know he wouldn't try and go out of his way to avoid me, I still sometimes panic when he doesn't respond for awhile. I think, maybe he is done being my friend or was it something I said, etc. Then I just remember that people have their own lives that can't be or at least shouldn't be halted because of my own needs.

Parent thing, yup. When my parents go out for the night to drink or hang out with friends I always get worried. When it hits 3 a.m. and I haven't heard or seen them I panic. I run all of the worst possible scenarios through my head about what could have happened. Then I just remember that they always come back no matter what. And God forbid they didn't, I know everything must happen for a reason even if I can't seem to understand it at the current moment.

Poor image of yourself? Having confidence is yourself is no easy matter. I am always judging myself for not being the right weight or not looking like this or that. It's how I am though and no amount of complaining or self loathing will change how I look.

People 99% want to be nice to people. The things they say are more then likely honest truths. It may be hard to believe at times, but it is easier to just accept a compliment. Word limit, damnit

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

The same goes to you chummy, I still think yuo guve me too much credit, but it's nice to talk to you
YEah... that's just it... we're not really...together

Thanks. Too much? Nah.
Is this person someone you would want to be with?

Well, it's shameful to admit so, but yes. The thing is, i've neve rmet her, I've only heard about her thanks to my cousin, and because we've been chatting.
But she lives so far away and we never met. And well, she obviously has her own life. She's been ignoring me today, and she'll date someone new soon

Why is it shameful? Liking someone shouldn't be something you are ashamed of.
So you've never actually met her? Would it be safe to say you are more infatuated with the idea of having a relationship or actually being with her?

It's shameful because I don't know her. I built her flesh out of sorrows and her mind out of expectations, just like I did with her. and it didn't turn out well
And not really...
She's... wow.
She likes writing, she likes videogames too
She even has self-esteem problems, just like I do.
Maybe we can fix each other

It's not shameful to like someone even if you haven't met them in person. Although it may be safer to say you like what you know about them, since you don't know how they would act in a real encounter. Hopefully that didn't sound harsh. I'm just saying things as they come to me.

Maybe she can help, but in the end it will be you who has to face your problems. Support can only take you so far, mate.

That doesn't mean you should try for her though. Take a shot at it because you never know what may happen.

I've heard worse, I think it is safe to say that. she's really pretty though
Yeah.. I know. But I don't trust myself in all honesty, not anymore

Sorry for how it sounded though. I couldn't think of a way to tone it down without trying to get the point across. It's always the pretty ones.

I don't want to pry at you by any means so if you don't want to answer I understand. That being said though, I would be willing to listen if you would maybe care to explain why or how you lost your trust for yourself.

It'll be tomorrow then, I guess. I'm just not really up for thinking right now. But, in a nutshell, this whole Hanako ordeal.. Ah crap, I'll try
I don't quite understand. I've always been so dependent, so hung up over someone else. Alone is a word quite fit for how I've been feeling. My mind's always been such aa screwball, always tomorrow and never today. Always what wil be.
Will I be happy? What about when I die?
I've never trusted myself. I've alwas thought it'd be better to have someone to calm me down when I had anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I'm weak by myself, always wondering what will be. I need someone to choke it out of me, to keep all the thoughts at bay, and when they come out, help me. I've just never had a control over what I think. Falling "in love" too quickly, immediately thinking someone is ignoring me if they don't answer in a few minutes, thinking my parents died if they take too long..
I'm paranoid, obsessive, deppressive and i've really got a poor image of myself.
I just need someone to bare with me, to show me once and for all if all the nice thigns people say are sugar.coated lies or raw truth

I can relate pretty well to the end there. I won't get into it too much since it is a long story itself. The falling "in love" too quickly is something I know too well. Quick sum up; met her in 1st or 2nd grade. First day I saw her, i immediately liked her. Blah, blah,blah school closes down and we both end up at the same school. Still like her, blah, blah, blah, I never get anywhere with her. Still to this day I'm pretty sure if I ran into her again I would feel the same way as I used to even after all that was said and done.

I am like that as well if someone doesn't answer immediately. The best way I've come to deal with it is realizing sometimes stuff just comes up. My best mate and I play game and chat for a good part of the day, every day. Even though I know he wouldn't try and go out of his way to avoid me, I still sometimes panic when he doesn't respond for awhile. I think, maybe he is done being my friend or was it something I said, etc. Then I just remember that people have their own lives that can't be or at least shouldn't be halted because of my own needs.

Parent thing, yup. When my parents go out for the night to drink or hang out with friends I always get worried. When it hits 3 a.m. and I haven't heard or seen them I panic. I run all of the worst possible scenarios through my head about what could have happened. Then I just remember that they always come back no matter what. And God forbid they didn't, I know everything must happen for a reason even if I can't seem to understand it at the current moment.

Poor image of yourself? Having confidence is yourself is no easy matter. I am always judging myself for not being the right weight or not looking like this or that. It's how I am though and no amount of complaining or self loathing will change how I look.

People 99% want to be nice to people. The things they say are more then likely honest truths. It may be hard to believe at times, but it is easier to just accept a compliment. Word limit, damnit

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

Thank you so much chummy. I met you on the long road and you stuck with me till the end. Thanks a lot for your support and your continous attention.
I do hope there will be more projects. I just met someone right now... so I just want to lay back for a while try to get my messed up head clear

No need to thank me, mate. I stuck around because you were not only talented, but such a nice person to chat with. I'll keep on supporting you in whatever you do. I'm sure there will be more projects, but if not it's all good.

Sounds good, mate. Take a break and spend some time with this new person. See you around mate.

The same goes to you chummy, I still think yuo guve me too much credit, but it's nice to talk to you
YEah... that's just it... we're not really...together

Thanks. Too much? Nah.
Is this person someone you would want to be with?

Well, it's shameful to admit so, but yes. The thing is, i've neve rmet her, I've only heard about her thanks to my cousin, and because we've been chatting.
But she lives so far away and we never met. And well, she obviously has her own life. She's been ignoring me today, and she'll date someone new soon

Why is it shameful? Liking someone shouldn't be something you are ashamed of.
So you've never actually met her? Would it be safe to say you are more infatuated with the idea of having a relationship or actually being with her?

It's shameful because I don't know her. I built her flesh out of sorrows and her mind out of expectations, just like I did with her. and it didn't turn out well
And not really...
She's... wow.
She likes writing, she likes videogames too
She even has self-esteem problems, just like I do.
Maybe we can fix each other

It's not shameful to like someone even if you haven't met them in person. Although it may be safer to say you like what you know about them, since you don't know how they would act in a real encounter. Hopefully that didn't sound harsh. I'm just saying things as they come to me.

Maybe she can help, but in the end it will be you who has to face your problems. Support can only take you so far, mate.

That doesn't mean you should try for her though. Take a shot at it because you never know what may happen.

I've heard worse, I think it is safe to say that. she's really pretty though
Yeah.. I know. But I don't trust myself in all honesty, not anymore

Sorry for how it sounded though. I couldn't think of a way to tone it down without trying to get the point across. It's always the pretty ones.

I don't want to pry at you by any means so if you don't want to answer I understand. That being said though, I would be willing to listen if you would maybe care to explain why or how you lost your trust for yourself.

It'll be tomorrow then, I guess. I'm just not really up for thinking right now. But, in a nutshell, this whole Hanako ordeal.. Ah crap, I'll try
I don't quite understand. I've always been so dependent, so hung up over someone else. Alone is a word quite fit for how I've been feeling. My mind's always been such aa screwball, always tomorrow and never today. Always what wil be.
Will I be happy? What about when I die?
I've never trusted myself. I've alwas thought it'd be better to have someone to calm me down when I had anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I'm weak by myself, always wondering what will be. I need someone to choke it out of me, to keep all the thoughts at bay, and when they come out, help me. I've just never had a control over what I think. Falling "in love" too quickly, immediately thinking someone is ignoring me if they don't answer in a few minutes, thinking my parents died if they take too long..
I'm paranoid, obsessive, deppressive and i've really got a poor image of myself.
I just need someone to bare with me, to show me once and for all if all the nice thigns people say are sugar.coated lies or raw truth

I can relate pretty well to the end there. I won't get into it too much since it is a long story itself. The falling "in love" too quickly is something I know too well. Quick sum up; met her in 1st or 2nd grade. First day I saw her, i immediately liked her. Blah, blah,blah school closes down and we both end up at the same school. Still like her, blah, blah, blah, I never get anywhere with her. Still to this day I'm pretty sure if I ran into her again I would feel the same way as I used to even after all that was said and done.

I am like that as well if someone doesn't answer immediately. The best way I've come to deal with it is realizing sometimes stuff just comes up. My best mate and I play game and chat for a good part of the day, every day. Even though I know he wouldn't try and go out of his way to avoid me, I still sometimes panic when he doesn't respond for awhile. I think, maybe he is done being my friend or was it something I said, etc. Then I just remember that people have their own lives that can't be or at least shouldn't be halted because of my own needs.

Parent thing, yup. When my parents go out for the night to drink or hang out with friends I always get worried. When it hits 3 a.m. and I haven't heard or seen them I panic. I run all of the worst possible scenarios through my head about what could have happened. Then I just remember that they always come back no matter what. And God forbid they didn't, I know everything must happen for a reason even if I can't seem to understand it at the current moment.

Poor image of yourself? Having confidence is yourself is no easy matter. I am always judging myself for not being the right weight or not looking like this or that. It's how I am though and no amount of complaining or self loathing will change how I look.

People 99% want to be nice to people. The things they say are more then likely honest truths. It may be hard to believe at times, but it is easier to just accept a compliment. Word limit, damnit

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

That sounds great. Hopefully there are some videos up about it on youtube... Maybe an interview with him about it or something...

Maybe. Definitely worth a look.

That's awesome! Is he really into KS or did you just ask him to draw it because he knew about it?

It really is! I didn't ask him to draw it. He had a couple of them printed out and for sale at the con. Unfortunately he was kinda busy so me and my friend that are both into KS didn't really get to ask him about it.

That sounds great. Hopefully there are some videos up about it on youtube... Maybe an interview with him about it or something...

Maybe. Definitely worth a look.

We hit reply limit
again
steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198017135881/

We always seem to do so

I sent you a friend request on steam.

Eh... idk
I mean, it sounds really shallow, but red thumbs are growing more and more with each post. Besides, I used to write these fluidly, like water. And now I mostly can't, and I feel like I repeat the same and same. It makes me think this isn't a talent, but just a tragedy

I don't blame you for letting red thumbs have an impact on your drive to continue. I often refrain from posting a lot of things or commenting simply because I'm afraid it won't go over well.

And if they aren't coming to you like they used to then there is no need to force them. Doing that would only hurt what you've done so far. Sometimes you just need a break. All of your poems have a similar theme, but it works because they tell a continuing story. So you're not repeating yourself, but the style is the same. Maybe go for a different feel to your next project.

It is talent! Don't try and convince yourself otherwise.

Thank you so much chummy. I met you on the long road and you stuck with me till the end. Thanks a lot for your support and your continous attention.
I do hope there will be more projects. I just met someone right now... so I just want to lay back for a while try to get my messed up head clear

No need to thank me, mate. I stuck around because you were not only talented, but such a nice person to chat with. I'll keep on supporting you in whatever you do. I'm sure there will be more projects, but if not it's all good.

Sounds good, mate. Take a break and spend some time with this new person. See you around mate.

The same goes to you chummy, I still think yuo guve me too much credit, but it's nice to talk to you
YEah... that's just it... we're not really...together

Thanks. Too much? Nah.
Is this person someone you would want to be with?

Well, it's shameful to admit so, but yes. The thing is, i've neve rmet her, I've only heard about her thanks to my cousin, and because we've been chatting.
But she lives so far away and we never met. And well, she obviously has her own life. She's been ignoring me today, and she'll date someone new soon

Why is it shameful? Liking someone shouldn't be something you are ashamed of.
So you've never actually met her? Would it be safe to say you are more infatuated with the idea of having a relationship or actually being with her?

It's shameful because I don't know her. I built her flesh out of sorrows and her mind out of expectations, just like I did with her. and it didn't turn out well
And not really...
She's... wow.
She likes writing, she likes videogames too
She even has self-esteem problems, just like I do.
Maybe we can fix each other

It's not shameful to like someone even if you haven't met them in person. Although it may be safer to say you like what you know about them, since you don't know how they would act in a real encounter. Hopefully that didn't sound harsh. I'm just saying things as they come to me.

Maybe she can help, but in the end it will be you who has to face your problems. Support can only take you so far, mate.

That doesn't mean you should try for her though. Take a shot at it because you never know what may happen.

I've heard worse, I think it is safe to say that. she's really pretty though
Yeah.. I know. But I don't trust myself in all honesty, not anymore

Sorry for how it sounded though. I couldn't think of a way to tone it down without trying to get the point across. It's always the pretty ones.

I don't want to pry at you by any means so if you don't want to answer I understand. That being said though, I would be willing to listen if you would maybe care to explain why or how you lost your trust for yourself.

It'll be tomorrow then, I guess. I'm just not really up for thinking right now. But, in a nutshell, this whole Hanako ordeal.. Ah crap, I'll try
I don't quite understand. I've always been so dependent, so hung up over someone else. Alone is a word quite fit for how I've been feeling. My mind's always been such aa screwball, always tomorrow and never today. Always what wil be.
Will I be happy? What about when I die?
I've never trusted myself. I've alwas thought it'd be better to have someone to calm me down when I had anxiety attacks in the middle of the night. I'm weak by myself, always wondering what will be. I need someone to choke it out of me, to keep all the thoughts at bay, and when they come out, help me. I've just never had a control over what I think. Falling "in love" too quickly, immediately thinking someone is ignoring me if they don't answer in a few minutes, thinking my parents died if they take too long..
I'm paranoid, obsessive, deppressive and i've really got a poor image of myself.
I just need someone to bare with me, to show me once and for all if all the nice thigns people say are sugar.coated lies or raw truth

I can relate pretty well to the end there. I won't get into it too much since it is a long story itself. The falling "in love" too quickly is something I know too well. Quick sum up; met her in 1st or 2nd grade. First day I saw her, i immediately liked her. Blah, blah,blah school closes down and we both end up at the same school. Still like her, blah, blah, blah, I never get anywhere with her. Still to this day I'm pretty sure if I ran into her again I would feel the same way as I used to even after all that was said and done.

I am like that as well if someone doesn't answer immediately. The best way I've come to deal with it is realizing sometimes stuff just comes up. My best mate and I play game and chat for a good part of the day, every day. Even though I know he wouldn't try and go out of his way to avoid me, I still sometimes panic when he doesn't respond for awhile. I think, maybe he is done being my friend or was it something I said, etc. Then I just remember that people have their own lives that can't be or at least shouldn't be halted because of my own needs.

Parent thing, yup. When my parents go out for the night to drink or hang out with friends I always get worried. When it hits 3 a.m. and I haven't heard or seen them I panic. I run all of the worst possible scenarios through my head about what could have happened. Then I just remember that they always come back no matter what. And God forbid they didn't, I know everything must happen for a reason even if I can't seem to understand it at the current moment.

Poor image of yourself? Having confidence is yourself is no easy matter. I am always judging myself for not being the right weight or not looking like this or that. It's how I am though and no amount of complaining or self loathing will change how I look.

People 99% want to be nice to people. The things they say are more then likely honest truths. It may be hard to believe at times, but it is easier to just accept a compliment. Word limit, damnit

Sorry it took me so long to answer. Had to do something quickly.
I know, I know, but after so many people just sending me down a gutter...
Back when I was a bit more socially active, I met a lot of new people. Yet none of them were able to talk with me for more than a week. I mean, am I really so worthless?
People compliment my looks from time to time, but I hate bringing it up because I still don't have any girlfriends. Hell, any female friends
So, it's something I do. I'm despicable, obsessive.
And people say my writing's so great. Yet people barely mind it, yet when I tried to write for the girl she said "wow" and that was it
Why? What have I done that pushes people away from me so quickly?

No need to apologize. Things come up.
What do you mean they weren't able to talk with you for more then a week? Like they just stopped or what?
No one is worthless (well maybe some people, but definitely not you).
Take those compliments, you deserve it. When you get that compliment instead of pushing it aside take some pride in it. It probably wasn't easy for that person to just come right out and say that they think you look good.
Don't measure your success on your number of girlfriends. Sure you should have some fun while your young, but your goal through dating should be to find a special someone. Not any ordinary person, but your special someone. Someone you know will be there for you when times are tough and won't bail on you. Someone whose strengths may be your weaknesses. A person to make your life complete, not just another girl to add to a list of girlfriends.
Concerning the girl that you wrote to, some people don't see what's right in front of them. It's no ones loss, but their own.

Yeah, they just ignored me.
And yes... that's what I need and can't get. What I write every day to get
Dangit, I'm sad again
And then again, are they blind? Or am I?

If they just ignored you then forget it. Don't waste your time thinking what if they hadn't ignored you. Obviously that person isn't worth your time. Good friends, best friends should people you should be able to go to at anytime for something. Those people you tried to connect with couldn't even be bothered for some of their time.

Your writing in time can and will bring a wave of compliments your way as long as you continue to strive at it.

It's alright to be sad, it happens. Take some comfort in the positive things in your life and your past. Remember the compliments you received and the support you already have. Let that be on your mind rather then those sad thoughts.

Who knows, mate. That's something that none of us will ever know. It's all a matter of opinion if anything.

Nighty night

Night

Yaawn. Kinda tired, we'll continue this tomorrow.
If you want to, add me on steam. I'm there all day...
all day...

Same here . I'd be happy to continue tomorrow.

What's your steam name?

Yes, it also amazes me! Hahaha! Also, yes, I'm in a jazz group.

Yeah, I'll peruse a list of the classics to see if I can remember any connection they might have to MLP.

I'm trying to think of other movies to profane in the same way, but other than Ghostbusters I've got nothing.

Good luck with that. I'm sure you'll figure something out.

Yeah, I'll peruse a list of the classics to see if I can remember any connection they might have to MLP.

Yeah! So I went on vacation with my jazz group and we went out of state, some people asked us where we ere from and I said Iowa. They looked confused and asked "Don't you mean Ohio? Iowa doesn't sound like a state..." I was shocked and said, "No, Iowa, like in corn and pigs and farms?" They then thought "OH! That place! You must live right on a farm right? How do you get to school?!" Etc... But yeah, also during football season we aren't really loved either... XD

You're are in a jazz group? That's pretty awesome.

People man, they never cease to amaze me. Also, lol.

Yes, it also amazes me! Hahaha! Also, yes, I'm in a jazz group.

Yeah? At least people don't ask you if you mean Ohio and if you live on a farm when you visit people. I know the feeling, hahaha!

Damn! Ohio? No love for the Iowa I guess (Especially during football season)

Yeah! So I went on vacation with my jazz group and we went out of state, some people asked us where we ere from and I said Iowa. They looked confused and asked "Don't you mean Ohio? Iowa doesn't sound like a state..." I was shocked and said, "No, Iowa, like in corn and pigs and farms?" They then thought "OH! That place! You must live right on a farm right? How do you get to school?!" Etc... But yeah, also during football season we aren't really loved either... XD

You're are in a jazz group? That's pretty awesome.

People man, they never cease to amaze me. Also, lol.

Yes, it also amazes me! Hahaha! Also, yes, I'm in a jazz group.