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#8 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
I made up the wierd as fuck story that i'm going to kill myself because of my past..
and that i didn't want to be friend with her when i died, because she's basicly the only person i care about in the world, and that i don't want her to get hurt when i do pass..
that i plan to join the military and do service abroad just so i get the chance to see some action and "misstakenly" get hit by a bullet..
or that i wished someone would stab me while i was working, or rob me at the kiosk.
or that someone would drive drunk and hit me with their car etc.. i made multiple examples..
i know now that it was stupid as fuck, because it didn't help either one of us..
all it did was make her sad, and me even more depressed then normally, luckily i had work at both the kiosk and the bar nearly every second of the christmas holiday, which made it easier to get my mind off of her.. because every single second i got free, i thought of Linda..
and on New years eve she sent me a snap asking what i was doing, and after asking her if she had sent to the wrong person she said she hadn't and wanted to know how i was doing etc.. i was working as a bouncer at the time so i had to put that shit on hold, cant mess up my pokerface while working the door you know..
but the whole time i was thinking of her and it really threw me off my rhytm..
luckily the night continued without any incident..
after work i messaged her and from then, 1.1.2014 we've been "friends" but more aqcuintances because we havent really talked irl except once shortly when she visited the bar im working with her friends..
Oh, the worst part?
Linda is trying to get another guy into bed while he is acting like a total fucking dick to everyone around him, doing drugs, drinking alot, fighting, sleeping around and just generally being a asshole without a job, living off of government support..
For the whole time i've known her she's liked this guy..


Now, i have a girl im madly in love with, a childhood worth jackshit.
no education. cant box because of my nose being fucked up, one clean hit can send it flying into my brain, killing me instantly. manic depression. too weak to commit suicide. military comming up in 6 months, and i dont think i can handle it in my current state of mind, i dont have a single friend, man i dont even know anyone here on funnyjunk really, im really.. really.. lonely..
send help..
#5 - May 2014, start volunteering at a kindergarden so i have somet…  [+] (2 new replies) 01/21/2015 on in response to "depressed?... +5
#7 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
After awhile i tell her something in the lines of "fuck it, you lied to me, you hinted all along the way that you liked me, and that you wanted something more then just friendship.."
and when she asked if we couldn't just be friends i replied with "sorry, that department is already filled" (lmao that lie..)
after some meaningless back and forth i replied that im going to break off all contact with her effective imidieatly..
which would've been the best thing i could've done..
but instead of leaving it at that, i felt that i should explain why to her, so i told her that i wanted to spare on my own feelings because i knew that if i continued to talk with her i would eventually really fall in love with her because she was the type i would fall in love it, kind, smart, funny, beautiful inside and out.. now for you she wouldn't most likely be over a 8/10 but in my eyes she was a perfect 10/10..
i dont remember what she replied but it ended with me deleting her from my facebook, unfollowed her on instagram and removed her from my contacts on snapchat and deleted the number from my phone book.. now i dont want to go over all the details and embarass myself as much as i would but this happened 3 times, at most i held of contacting her for 3 days..
because after the first time of telling her to piss off, i already loved this girl more than anything..
Even if she didn't like me back..
"After the third time i thought, well, shit.. she doesn't like me probbably never will, but she's the best friend i've had in 18 years of life.."
so after another 3 days of having her blocked from my facebook etc etc.. i asked her if she would forgive me yet again for being a dick, cutting her off like that from my life..
This time, instead of trying to patch things up again as best as i could for us to have even the slightest chance of becomming together in the future i decided to try to use her to cope with my issues instead, i told her EVERYTHING.. everything i've said here, + the things that i cant remember right now, more examples of how my dad beat me, how no one has ever liked me, bullied at school, teachers telling me i will never amount to anything aslong as i keep skipping school..
around this time i finished my security guard night school and started working, I now also work as a bouncer..
I try to kill myself again by going out with a rope into the woods to hang myself, walk a good 5km into the woods so no one would find me, find a suitable tree with a good strong branch and make the knot, sit underneath the tree and just to say goodbye, without telling her anything, i message linda and talk casually for 30 minutes
during all of this it somehow comes up that im feeling kinda depressed, i guess i wanted to stay alive even if the pain was excrutating inside my heart..
well, after she pryed a little i told her where i was, and what had in mind..
she called me and we talked for a long time before she made me change my mind..
after that i came home, got in my room and bawled my eyes out for 20-30 minutes before i fell asleep, when i woke up, i wrote her a poem, which i can give you guys after i've translated it to english, and after im done with this story..
now christmas was comming up and she had said she liked dogs more then anything so i did what anyone else would do, got her the biggest stuffed dog i could find in Finland..
she and her friend from day one got me a joint present which was a candle holder and some candle lights..
i got her friends some mugs..
i tried to act happy about the present but i think it was pretty clear that i wasn't that excited about it..
Linda was about hers though..
sometime after christmas i decided that if i let things continue like this it's going to hurt like a motherfucker when i finally realize that we're never gonna be together..
#8 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
I made up the wierd as fuck story that i'm going to kill myself because of my past..
and that i didn't want to be friend with her when i died, because she's basicly the only person i care about in the world, and that i don't want her to get hurt when i do pass..
that i plan to join the military and do service abroad just so i get the chance to see some action and "misstakenly" get hit by a bullet..
or that i wished someone would stab me while i was working, or rob me at the kiosk.
or that someone would drive drunk and hit me with their car etc.. i made multiple examples..
i know now that it was stupid as fuck, because it didn't help either one of us..
all it did was make her sad, and me even more depressed then normally, luckily i had work at both the kiosk and the bar nearly every second of the christmas holiday, which made it easier to get my mind off of her.. because every single second i got free, i thought of Linda..
and on New years eve she sent me a snap asking what i was doing, and after asking her if she had sent to the wrong person she said she hadn't and wanted to know how i was doing etc.. i was working as a bouncer at the time so i had to put that shit on hold, cant mess up my pokerface while working the door you know..
but the whole time i was thinking of her and it really threw me off my rhytm..
luckily the night continued without any incident..
after work i messaged her and from then, 1.1.2014 we've been "friends" but more aqcuintances because we havent really talked irl except once shortly when she visited the bar im working with her friends..
Oh, the worst part?
Linda is trying to get another guy into bed while he is acting like a total fucking dick to everyone around him, doing drugs, drinking alot, fighting, sleeping around and just generally being a asshole without a job, living off of government support..
For the whole time i've known her she's liked this guy..


Now, i have a girl im madly in love with, a childhood worth jackshit.
no education. cant box because of my nose being fucked up, one clean hit can send it flying into my brain, killing me instantly. manic depression. too weak to commit suicide. military comming up in 6 months, and i dont think i can handle it in my current state of mind, i dont have a single friend, man i dont even know anyone here on funnyjunk really, im really.. really.. lonely..
send help..
#4 - I fell madly in love with her. blonde, tall, blue eyes, gr…  [+] (3 new replies) 01/21/2015 on in response to "depressed?... +6
#5 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
May 2014, start volunteering at a kindergarden so i have something to do instead of rolling my thumbs or masturbating at home..
MY.FUCKING.GOD.
Ever been in a room with a bunch of 50-ish aged woman?
they talk more shit about the kids than teenagers do.. holy fuck.
They were commenting on the clothes of the parents, the behaviour of the kids,
etc. etc.
Fucking cunts.
i quit.
August, i start working at a local kiosk inside the city i live
pay is great, not that many hours a week, but i make do, still live with mom so..
work for 2 months before i start taking night class to become a bouncer aswell, i mean, i've got the physical strenght and fighting background, seemed like a perfect fit for me..
Now, on november the 7th 2014, is when i met Linda (name changed for privacy reasons..)
4 days after my 18th birthday, she likes one of my instagram pictures.. from 24 weeks back...
Now, this is where FJ will call me a beta and you might even cringe.. remember i >inb4'ed, and i've never had a gf, never felt loved, no love i've ever felt for anyone has ever worked out..
I find her on facebook and send her a message asking her if i know her..
she says that i probbably dont and that she lives 25km away from where i live.
im at work at the kiosk and its a thursday evening if i remember correctly so there arent any customers.
chat for nearly 3 hours, we decide that she would come to my city on Friday and come to the one and only nightclub that exists in this dead beat city of our..
I decided to go a little early and wouldn't you know im denied entry by the bouncer because i tried to get in to the bar too many times with my fake ID when i was still a minor..
Linda looks like a frikkin 14 year old so i cant imagine anyone thinking that her ID is real even after they see it..
anyway, i go to another bar in town and start drinking, message Linda and she's a bit saddened, it would've been quite easy to get her that evening into bed because earlier she had said that when we were chatting that "you're going to buy me a drink, wink wink ;)"
i texted her a big message about how they could come to the bar i was at instead of the nightclub and she just replied with "K, ill ask my friend"
and then replied with "No, sry"
now, normally she writes without the bitching attitude like this
but when she's with her friends or something she types fast and like a teenage girl..
anyway i got dissed that night and went home, chatted with her on phone for the rest of the week untill next thursday when i asked if she wanted to "come over for coffee" on friday, she wanted to and came with her friend and we watched a movie and drank coffee and just had a relaxing time at my house.. (im a singer, not a professional one but im not bad www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0UZAsBO118 )
when i told her she made a request that i sing "Enrique iglesias - hero" for her, which i did. and i nailed every tone..
and everything seemed to go smoothly..
next week we drank coffee at my place, and then we went out driving with some friends through town, i had to go home early (02.00 AM) because i had work in the morning they drove me home, and when i asked her to hug me it was the most awkward piece of shit hug i've ever experienced.. it was like she was hugging a freakin molester/rapist.. her whole body was out of it, her nack was sticking out and her arms were loosly wrapped around my neck.. it felt horrible, good thing is that it didn't last for longer then 2-3 seconds..
next day at work i texted her asking wtf last night was about and after some explaining that i thought that she liked me she said she didn't in the same way i did, and that because she had just gotten out of a relationship she wasn't ready to get into another one..
#7 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
After awhile i tell her something in the lines of "fuck it, you lied to me, you hinted all along the way that you liked me, and that you wanted something more then just friendship.."
and when she asked if we couldn't just be friends i replied with "sorry, that department is already filled" (lmao that lie..)
after some meaningless back and forth i replied that im going to break off all contact with her effective imidieatly..
which would've been the best thing i could've done..
but instead of leaving it at that, i felt that i should explain why to her, so i told her that i wanted to spare on my own feelings because i knew that if i continued to talk with her i would eventually really fall in love with her because she was the type i would fall in love it, kind, smart, funny, beautiful inside and out.. now for you she wouldn't most likely be over a 8/10 but in my eyes she was a perfect 10/10..
i dont remember what she replied but it ended with me deleting her from my facebook, unfollowed her on instagram and removed her from my contacts on snapchat and deleted the number from my phone book.. now i dont want to go over all the details and embarass myself as much as i would but this happened 3 times, at most i held of contacting her for 3 days..
because after the first time of telling her to piss off, i already loved this girl more than anything..
Even if she didn't like me back..
"After the third time i thought, well, shit.. she doesn't like me probbably never will, but she's the best friend i've had in 18 years of life.."
so after another 3 days of having her blocked from my facebook etc etc.. i asked her if she would forgive me yet again for being a dick, cutting her off like that from my life..
This time, instead of trying to patch things up again as best as i could for us to have even the slightest chance of becomming together in the future i decided to try to use her to cope with my issues instead, i told her EVERYTHING.. everything i've said here, + the things that i cant remember right now, more examples of how my dad beat me, how no one has ever liked me, bullied at school, teachers telling me i will never amount to anything aslong as i keep skipping school..
around this time i finished my security guard night school and started working, I now also work as a bouncer..
I try to kill myself again by going out with a rope into the woods to hang myself, walk a good 5km into the woods so no one would find me, find a suitable tree with a good strong branch and make the knot, sit underneath the tree and just to say goodbye, without telling her anything, i message linda and talk casually for 30 minutes
during all of this it somehow comes up that im feeling kinda depressed, i guess i wanted to stay alive even if the pain was excrutating inside my heart..
well, after she pryed a little i told her where i was, and what had in mind..
she called me and we talked for a long time before she made me change my mind..
after that i came home, got in my room and bawled my eyes out for 20-30 minutes before i fell asleep, when i woke up, i wrote her a poem, which i can give you guys after i've translated it to english, and after im done with this story..
now christmas was comming up and she had said she liked dogs more then anything so i did what anyone else would do, got her the biggest stuffed dog i could find in Finland..
she and her friend from day one got me a joint present which was a candle holder and some candle lights..
i got her friends some mugs..
i tried to act happy about the present but i think it was pretty clear that i wasn't that excited about it..
Linda was about hers though..
sometime after christmas i decided that if i let things continue like this it's going to hurt like a motherfucker when i finally realize that we're never gonna be together..
#8 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
I made up the wierd as fuck story that i'm going to kill myself because of my past..
and that i didn't want to be friend with her when i died, because she's basicly the only person i care about in the world, and that i don't want her to get hurt when i do pass..
that i plan to join the military and do service abroad just so i get the chance to see some action and "misstakenly" get hit by a bullet..
or that i wished someone would stab me while i was working, or rob me at the kiosk.
or that someone would drive drunk and hit me with their car etc.. i made multiple examples..
i know now that it was stupid as fuck, because it didn't help either one of us..
all it did was make her sad, and me even more depressed then normally, luckily i had work at both the kiosk and the bar nearly every second of the christmas holiday, which made it easier to get my mind off of her.. because every single second i got free, i thought of Linda..
and on New years eve she sent me a snap asking what i was doing, and after asking her if she had sent to the wrong person she said she hadn't and wanted to know how i was doing etc.. i was working as a bouncer at the time so i had to put that shit on hold, cant mess up my pokerface while working the door you know..
but the whole time i was thinking of her and it really threw me off my rhytm..
luckily the night continued without any incident..
after work i messaged her and from then, 1.1.2014 we've been "friends" but more aqcuintances because we havent really talked irl except once shortly when she visited the bar im working with her friends..
Oh, the worst part?
Linda is trying to get another guy into bed while he is acting like a total fucking dick to everyone around him, doing drugs, drinking alot, fighting, sleeping around and just generally being a asshole without a job, living off of government support..
For the whole time i've known her she's liked this guy..


Now, i have a girl im madly in love with, a childhood worth jackshit.
no education. cant box because of my nose being fucked up, one clean hit can send it flying into my brain, killing me instantly. manic depression. too weak to commit suicide. military comming up in 6 months, and i dont think i can handle it in my current state of mind, i dont have a single friend, man i dont even know anyone here on funnyjunk really, im really.. really.. lonely..
send help..
#3 - For the rest 4 months i try to go atleast 3-4 times a week to …  [+] (4 new replies) 01/21/2015 on in response to "depressed?... +5
#4 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
I fell madly in love with her.
blonde, tall, blue eyes, great ass, small-ish tits, overall 9/10
first couple of days it was just the simple, "hey, how are you"
and "what are you doing right now" messages, but after awhile it became more and more..
3 weeks into school there was a school party, that the second graders threw for all the school to join.. (there were a total of 120 students)
It was at a girls summer house some km's outside of Luleå
someguy shows up and wants to sell his drugs, he's clearly not invited, owner of house tells him to gtfo
doesnt listen and when a newly found friend in class tells him that he has to leave, he starts to wave his hand infront of his face jokingly, like he's about to punch him.
Me, being the drunk idiot i am at the moment think he's punching him in the face and come up from behind and suckerpunch him from behind with a right hook.. (mind i was a boxer for 2½ year prior to this)
he falls to the floor like the piece of shit he is
staggers right back up and when i try to go in to punch him again some guy pulls me away..
party continues and guy disappears

3 days later while im at home minding my buisness theres a knock on the door (this is where my life takes a turn for the more interesting, and the worse..)
4 guys all 190-ish cm tall, skinhead, bulky/fat tells me to come outside and join them for a car ride
im scared as shit, thinking im gonna die, imidieatly make the connection from when i punched that stoner..
We drive some few km's from Luleå to a place called Mjölkudden, roughly 2½km from the city to a gym, where they give me 2 alternatives
1) i get my ass beat worse then ever before for punching their dealer
2) i start boxing for them in an illegal ring

Nr.2 seems like the obvious choice, clearly..

First couple of week is fine, i go to school in the morning, then i take my bike over to the gym, workout, and do bike home, do my homework, sleep 8 hours and repeat..
after 1½ months of training they tell me i'm gonna have my first fight with some kid from Hell's Angels (the guys i worked for were Polish) kid's 165cm tall, and weights 71kg (5"8, 142 pound, not using a calculator, only from head, might be inaccurate) im 186cm, 85kg (6"11, 170pound)

fight day arrives, i fight first to rally the crowd, i win in the second round with a knock out..
20,000swedish krones as payment - 2,000 that i had to pay the doctor to patch my lip up after it started to bleed (doctor on set)
>tfw easy money

shit continues and i got 6/1/1 (6 win,1 knockout, 1 loss)
match is up again, think its a clear victory, some japanese guy fighting for bandidos, he's 170cm 65-70kg
in the ring the fucker is so fast i cant get more then 3 clean hits in him in 4 rounds, go down hard and dont wake up in time for the bell..
>tfw yellow piece of shit broke my nose, nose is busted up real bad, i dislocate my skeleton from inside my nose and shove it partly outside my nostril, as far as my skin stretches..
>boxing career over, still i made almost 120,000;- during my short career here..
grandmother dies, October 19th, 2013
funeral 27th
28th i move back to Finland
NEET again untill febuary untill i start working at a meat refining factory..
get a lumbago after lifting some box filled with pigfeet 2 weeks into the job
>boss tells me if i cant work there's no need for them to have me as an employee (i had a 3 month testing period before i was hired permanently)
NEET
#5 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
May 2014, start volunteering at a kindergarden so i have something to do instead of rolling my thumbs or masturbating at home..
MY.FUCKING.GOD.
Ever been in a room with a bunch of 50-ish aged woman?
they talk more shit about the kids than teenagers do.. holy fuck.
They were commenting on the clothes of the parents, the behaviour of the kids,
etc. etc.
Fucking cunts.
i quit.
August, i start working at a local kiosk inside the city i live
pay is great, not that many hours a week, but i make do, still live with mom so..
work for 2 months before i start taking night class to become a bouncer aswell, i mean, i've got the physical strenght and fighting background, seemed like a perfect fit for me..
Now, on november the 7th 2014, is when i met Linda (name changed for privacy reasons..)
4 days after my 18th birthday, she likes one of my instagram pictures.. from 24 weeks back...
Now, this is where FJ will call me a beta and you might even cringe.. remember i >inb4'ed, and i've never had a gf, never felt loved, no love i've ever felt for anyone has ever worked out..
I find her on facebook and send her a message asking her if i know her..
she says that i probbably dont and that she lives 25km away from where i live.
im at work at the kiosk and its a thursday evening if i remember correctly so there arent any customers.
chat for nearly 3 hours, we decide that she would come to my city on Friday and come to the one and only nightclub that exists in this dead beat city of our..
I decided to go a little early and wouldn't you know im denied entry by the bouncer because i tried to get in to the bar too many times with my fake ID when i was still a minor..
Linda looks like a frikkin 14 year old so i cant imagine anyone thinking that her ID is real even after they see it..
anyway, i go to another bar in town and start drinking, message Linda and she's a bit saddened, it would've been quite easy to get her that evening into bed because earlier she had said that when we were chatting that "you're going to buy me a drink, wink wink ;)"
i texted her a big message about how they could come to the bar i was at instead of the nightclub and she just replied with "K, ill ask my friend"
and then replied with "No, sry"
now, normally she writes without the bitching attitude like this
but when she's with her friends or something she types fast and like a teenage girl..
anyway i got dissed that night and went home, chatted with her on phone for the rest of the week untill next thursday when i asked if she wanted to "come over for coffee" on friday, she wanted to and came with her friend and we watched a movie and drank coffee and just had a relaxing time at my house.. (im a singer, not a professional one but im not bad www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0UZAsBO118 )
when i told her she made a request that i sing "Enrique iglesias - hero" for her, which i did. and i nailed every tone..
and everything seemed to go smoothly..
next week we drank coffee at my place, and then we went out driving with some friends through town, i had to go home early (02.00 AM) because i had work in the morning they drove me home, and when i asked her to hug me it was the most awkward piece of shit hug i've ever experienced.. it was like she was hugging a freakin molester/rapist.. her whole body was out of it, her nack was sticking out and her arms were loosly wrapped around my neck.. it felt horrible, good thing is that it didn't last for longer then 2-3 seconds..
next day at work i texted her asking wtf last night was about and after some explaining that i thought that she liked me she said she didn't in the same way i did, and that because she had just gotten out of a relationship she wasn't ready to get into another one..
#7 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
After awhile i tell her something in the lines of "fuck it, you lied to me, you hinted all along the way that you liked me, and that you wanted something more then just friendship.."
and when she asked if we couldn't just be friends i replied with "sorry, that department is already filled" (lmao that lie..)
after some meaningless back and forth i replied that im going to break off all contact with her effective imidieatly..
which would've been the best thing i could've done..
but instead of leaving it at that, i felt that i should explain why to her, so i told her that i wanted to spare on my own feelings because i knew that if i continued to talk with her i would eventually really fall in love with her because she was the type i would fall in love it, kind, smart, funny, beautiful inside and out.. now for you she wouldn't most likely be over a 8/10 but in my eyes she was a perfect 10/10..
i dont remember what she replied but it ended with me deleting her from my facebook, unfollowed her on instagram and removed her from my contacts on snapchat and deleted the number from my phone book.. now i dont want to go over all the details and embarass myself as much as i would but this happened 3 times, at most i held of contacting her for 3 days..
because after the first time of telling her to piss off, i already loved this girl more than anything..
Even if she didn't like me back..
"After the third time i thought, well, shit.. she doesn't like me probbably never will, but she's the best friend i've had in 18 years of life.."
so after another 3 days of having her blocked from my facebook etc etc.. i asked her if she would forgive me yet again for being a dick, cutting her off like that from my life..
This time, instead of trying to patch things up again as best as i could for us to have even the slightest chance of becomming together in the future i decided to try to use her to cope with my issues instead, i told her EVERYTHING.. everything i've said here, + the things that i cant remember right now, more examples of how my dad beat me, how no one has ever liked me, bullied at school, teachers telling me i will never amount to anything aslong as i keep skipping school..
around this time i finished my security guard night school and started working, I now also work as a bouncer..
I try to kill myself again by going out with a rope into the woods to hang myself, walk a good 5km into the woods so no one would find me, find a suitable tree with a good strong branch and make the knot, sit underneath the tree and just to say goodbye, without telling her anything, i message linda and talk casually for 30 minutes
during all of this it somehow comes up that im feeling kinda depressed, i guess i wanted to stay alive even if the pain was excrutating inside my heart..
well, after she pryed a little i told her where i was, and what had in mind..
she called me and we talked for a long time before she made me change my mind..
after that i came home, got in my room and bawled my eyes out for 20-30 minutes before i fell asleep, when i woke up, i wrote her a poem, which i can give you guys after i've translated it to english, and after im done with this story..
now christmas was comming up and she had said she liked dogs more then anything so i did what anyone else would do, got her the biggest stuffed dog i could find in Finland..
she and her friend from day one got me a joint present which was a candle holder and some candle lights..
i got her friends some mugs..
i tried to act happy about the present but i think it was pretty clear that i wasn't that excited about it..
Linda was about hers though..
sometime after christmas i decided that if i let things continue like this it's going to hurt like a motherfucker when i finally realize that we're never gonna be together..
#8 - andreasl (01/21/2015) [-]
I made up the wierd as fuck story that i'm going to kill myself because of my past..
and that i didn't want to be friend with her when i died, because she's basicly the only person i care about in the world, and that i don't want her to get hurt when i do pass..
that i plan to join the military and do service abroad just so i get the chance to see some action and "misstakenly" get hit by a bullet..
or that i wished someone would stab me while i was working, or rob me at the kiosk.
or that someone would drive drunk and hit me with their car etc.. i made multiple examples..
i know now that it was stupid as fuck, because it didn't help either one of us..
all it did was make her sad, and me even more depressed then normally, luckily i had work at both the kiosk and the bar nearly every second of the christmas holiday, which made it easier to get my mind off of her.. because every single second i got free, i thought of Linda..
and on New years eve she sent me a snap asking what i was doing, and after asking her if she had sent to the wrong person she said she hadn't and wanted to know how i was doing etc.. i was working as a bouncer at the time so i had to put that shit on hold, cant mess up my pokerface while working the door you know..
but the whole time i was thinking of her and it really threw me off my rhytm..
luckily the night continued without any incident..
after work i messaged her and from then, 1.1.2014 we've been "friends" but more aqcuintances because we havent really talked irl except once shortly when she visited the bar im working with her friends..
Oh, the worst part?
Linda is trying to get another guy into bed while he is acting like a total fucking dick to everyone around him, doing drugs, drinking alot, fighting, sleeping around and just generally being a asshole without a job, living off of government support..
For the whole time i've known her she's liked this guy..


Now, i have a girl im madly in love with, a childhood worth jackshit.
no education. cant box because of my nose being fucked up, one clean hit can send it flying into my brain, killing me instantly. manic depression. too weak to commit suicide. military comming up in 6 months, and i dont think i can handle it in my current state of mind, i dont have a single friend, man i dont even know anyone here on funnyjunk really, im really.. really.. lonely..
send help..
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User avatar #1 - blobbanned (09/14/2013) [-]
Hello sir, I see you thumbed down my content, no harm intended.
But of course would you mind telling me why?
#2 to #1 - andreasl (09/14/2013) [-]
I just didn't find it that funny, but did i thumb it down? haha
i thought i was just skipping, will fix it :p
User avatar #3 to #2 - blobbanned (09/14/2013) [-]
Thanks matey : D
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