Sorry bro. I've been so goddamn busy the past few weeks it's crazy. I haven't really had much time to look at the internet, and I've not really had much to discuss either. But I think that's all going to break apart here pretty quick. I'll have free time again! Yay!

Not sure what we could talk about though. Any ideas? I hate always going to my writing, but it's been pretty much consuming all my thoughts lately. Like this map I "made" after finding a pretty good one on EqD and deciding to color in borders to explain where stuff is taking place. Took about 30 minutes total.

...It's also too big to upload to the site, so I have to link you to GoogleDocks. Sweet.
https:// docs.google . com/open?id=0ByxTPs43ondtSGMyOE5qVnQzdEk

That's really all I got. Chapter 3 has been a holy god bitch to write because I can't ship for shit, and in order to make it good I have to make it "bad" (as in cheesy as fuck) and that causes a violent rebellious instinct where I try writing it, make it "good", which I read over again and see is bad. Then I try writing it "bad" and that makes my mind freak out too because it's cheesy and wrong. No me gusta. I like the scene, but I'm glad to have it off my hands. Now it's a quick and easy action sequence and I'm ready to upload it. After that, Ch 4 is going to be another bit of a bear, and then things are going to get easy. I hope. I'm way behind schedule again and I feel terrible.

But how's your life? Any wild and crazy excitement to report? I'm interested in talking again, I've just been very busy with a whole bunch of family drama and miscellaneous hell.

Oh I've been rather stressed as well. Been helping a lot of FJ Bronies with trying to not get them to kill themselves. It's been getting to me a lot. Ugh, there was a case last night that didn't go as well as I wanted, between two people, they are friends and prior roomates. First one of them was threatening to hang himself and/or drink himself to death(basically his whole family was dead and his daughter died last January and he finally snapped). It seemed that he was going to do it, so I writ him a death memorium, using poetic elements. I was talking to his friend the whole time trying to gather info, it seemed to be useless from the start, she said she was fine but needed to lay down. Then an hour later, it turned out he was still alive, and she deleted her account. He had her phone number and said that she snapped and was going through a Painful Psychological breakdown of some sort. It was the same type of thing he was going through just an hour ago, and he knew she couldn't cope. He became very unresourceful and wouldn't answer what was happening at all, of course I understand it probably wasn't my place to stick my head into business that wasn't mine, but I wanted to see this thing to the end, whatever it may be. I'm still awaiting an answer if any. I don't know her state, but I'll take a guess and say she is alive, although she wasn't answering her phone and he never got a hold of her so that could go either way.

As you see I'm kind of stressed as well, and just needed someone to talk to. Of course I'll never kill myself in a million years, as it is against my Religious belief, but it can get to you, ya' know? Some of these cases have really tragic ends and backstories altogether. Oh well, I don't want to worry you. I'm fine now.

And by the way the URL wasn't correct or something. I took all the spaces out.

Your problems definitely surpass mine. And honestly I'd prefer to have that workload. All my stress has been so undeserved, dealing with stupid idiots in my school who need to shut the fuck up and stop creating so much drama before I rip their throats out and beat them to death with them. It's sooooo immature it feels like we're in kindergarten or something. The sense of entitlement that people get once they become high school seniors (myself and a few select friends excluded, apparently) is downright sickening. "Why don't we get a senior skip day? Why can't we just be out of here already? I don't see a point to even being here. I can't wait for this to be over. Are you going to the honors brunch? I wish we got out of class for that. Why don't we get out of class more? I'm so stressed out I wish we would just graduate already. Waaa waaa waaa change my diapers!"

I hate every single one of them. People I once counted as very close friends are now pissing me off so much that I'm actually *happy* we're going to different colleges so I never have to see them again. Ugh. Why can't I get some *REAL* problems to deal with instead of having to walk the line between not becoming one of them by saying "yeah, the utter lack of any real work to do is REALLY starting to get old" but also not being a giant douche and calling them the immature faggots they all are. Actually, I've done that a few times already :D it was glorious.

Here's the link again. https://docs.google. com/open?id=0ByxTPs43ondtSGMyOE5qVnQzdEk I have it set to share, so... it shouldn't let you preview it, only download. It's a pretty massive image. Apologies.

But yeah, that sums my life up right now. All kinds of time spent solving problems which shouldn't even be problems, and breaking apart friendships which can no longer exist because I cannot abide useless people who act like babies over such trivia. Goes against everything I believe in.

Hope you feel better. If you need a laugh, ask me for a story. :D

Oh ok. I was able to download it, very interesting I must say.

Oh, and don't worry, a problem is a problem no matter what it may be, or how small or useless it may seem. Nothing really defines a real problem, and personally I can see your frustration with dealing with such dumb shit. I've seen stupid shit like this before, and every time it happens it makes me just want to destroy Thousands and Thousands of Orphanages with napalm explosives.

And hell why not, tell me a story. After Tomorrow, unless they've fucked up the Exemption list, I should have all summer to do whatever the hell I want. School ends, hooray!

Lyra convinced me to try (and enjoy greatly) Dragon Age, and I convinced her to have a go at Mass Effect, which she subsequently became a MASSIVE RAGING FANGIRL over to the point of insanity. Meanwhile BonBon was pretty strapped for friends and we'd kind of bonded over a mutual enjoyment of fanfiction. Oh, also, she was pretty hardcore in love with me, although I had no interest in pursuing a relationship. Good person (or so I mistakenly thought back then) but DEFINITELY not even in the same ballpark as my time. Not even playing the same sport. But I digress. We were close.

So now, a few things happen of note. BonBon comments on how the school drama club typecasts its roles (it does) and Lyra disagrees. Apparently this happened in a conversation between BonBon and...say...Berry Punch. Lyra was in the room, but not part of the conversation. BonBon says "it's unfair they're typecast" or something, and Lyra butts in with a classic "OH HELL NAW" and throws a bitchfit. Typical Lyra. She does this sort of thing pretty often. Most people just let her go and have her moment and then continue on as if nothing happened. BonBon does the same, but then whines to me about it for roughly 23891236 centuries. I hear "I can't wait to graduate so I never have to see her again" and "I'm just going to be the bigger person" and "I can't believe she's acting this way" and "I hate high school and all the drama" roughly 32 times a day for an entire month.

More shit goes down between them. Someone tags them as lesbians in a facebook picture, and BonBon goes ABSOLUTELY APESHIT and pretty much nukes the universe. I"M NOT A LESBIAN RAWRRRRR. Oh, also, somewhere in there Lyra steals Berry Punch's boyfriend and this displeases BonBon. I hear the same slew of dramatic annoying comments for another month and a half.

New ones are also added. Chiefly "I'm just going to stay out of it" and (when I say "you should confront her about it) "I don't want to fight over it" and "that would be immature."

Valid arguments. And now we arrive at the present day, two years on, where I still have regular interaction with the two of them almost every day. We even sit near each other in two different classes. But here's where the annoying and bitchy turns into outright hypocrisy:

Me and, let's say Blues, are talking over some stuff, and end up blathering on about how religion shouldn't be included in government. As in, when you go "should this be a law?", nowhere in the lawmaking process should ANYONE say "what would Jesus/Allah/Shiva do?". It's not fair to the people who have differing beliefs. "Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion or prohibiting the free exercise thereof." The goddamn Constitution. Wall of Separation. Thomas "Motherfucker" Jefferson. All that good stuff. Anyway, BonBon was sitting a chair or two away and overhears this. Apparently she disagrees with this because, in the words of Zecora: "she's that stupid little Jesus girl that everyone hates and wants to kill." Pretty good summation. Highly intolerant of other beliefs. Which makes her friendship and oblique romantic fascination with me, a guy who fundamentally disagrees with the entire concept of organized religion, COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY INEXPLICABLE. One of the reasons I'd never go near her. I don't want a sermon or a conversion speech every time I get up to use the bathroom, which is what you'd get in a relationship with her.

So as me and Blues are just sharing beliefs and discussing shit, agreeing with every word the other man says, she makes this big scoffing "humph" clearing-throat noise. Totally obvious she's making it clear she disagrees with us. I said something like "what, you disagree? What if Atheists ran the country and started stepping on YOUR beliefs?" She fought for about half a sentence, then backed out with "I'd rather just not discuss it."

THEN SHUT UP AND STAY OUT OF IT. YOU INVOLVED YOURSELF, BITCH!

(oh yes, there's still more!)

Oh my, hopefully your still on.

Oh, damn, I forgot to mention that when Lyra jumped down her throat about drama club (which, btw, Lyra is heavily involved in. I think that's why she jumped to its defense), one of the things I heard from spiteful BonBon was "heaven forbid I have my own opinion."

So...it's wrong for Lyra to get involved in a discussion where you're attacking the drama club, but then YOU getting involved in OUR discussion about the separation of church and state (which, btw, never once attacked any religious order or called religion at all flawed - as always, I believe your beliefs are your beliefs just as mine are mine, but that doesn't mean you can justify your anti-gay legislation as "because Jesus said so"), no, that's horribly horribly wrong. And then she won't even stand up for herself or debate with us. She backs out like a coward and sticks to her little marble pedestal of superiority.

Then I start looking back on everything else, and I see it goes EVEN DEEPER. "I hate high school drama, can't wait to be gone!" is one of the most common things that spews from that orifice on her face which used to formulate coherent thoughts, way back in the day. And yet SHE comes to ME with DAILY reports on Lyra's poor behavior and commentary on how Lyra is a horrible human being she can't wait to be rid of. Meanwhile, Lyra has not ever, not ONCE said a SINGLE WORD against BonBon to me. Not once. She keeps her business her business, and doesn't involve me. So BonBon is actually causing most of the drama, at least from what I've seen and heard from others.

Heaven forbid I have my own opinion, BonBon. If you want to make laws for Jesus, go the fuck ahead. But when me and Blues are talking, KEEP OUT OF IT. Or at least don't get upset when Lyra does the exact same thing to you.

THEN, there's the whole issue with Pony Joe, a subsitute teacher who came in this year for English. Cheerilee was with us for the first quarter, but then she adopted a baby and Joe came in.

(one more should do it)

Oh my.....

Cheerilee's methods are very work-intensive. Analyze this piece of literature (Hunters in the Snow?) and write 40 essays about it, then masturbate to it and rank the orgasm on a scale of 1-10. It got annoying. Now, she was a good teacher, don't get me wrong, but the constant do-this-now-this-here's-more-work approach has NEVER worked for me as well as a relaxed, laid-back, self-guided system. Joe brought this to the table, basically handing us the thing we were supposed to read along with the questions, then setting a due date and letting us go. He graded based on completion, not accuracy, and ALL class time was "do whatever the fuck you want" time.

Those who cared, learned shit. Those who didn't, didn't. It worked much better because it required me to take an interest in things to actually figure out what they meant, and a few of the things we did were actually interesting. Then the things I hated, I could slack off on without penalty. If you FORCE the classics down everyone's throat, including non-English-education majors like me and my eventual Psychology doctorate, then you're going to create an atmosphere of general dislike and apathy. Which is what ALMOST happened for me under Cheerilee. Joe let me see that some of the works "of literary merit" are actually quite interesting reads. So I liked him infinitely better.

BonBon, along with 90% of our class, felt differently. DAILY she put him down, insulted him behind his back, said he was a horrible teacher who shouldn't even be teaching elementary school, let alone high school AP English. The whole nine yards. Stuff I really don't like, because it was attacking HIM and not HIS METHODS, which is what I do whenever I discuss Cheerilee. She's great, no question about it. I just don't like her methods very much in comparison to Joe's.

But of course the second I try to say "he's not so bad" she backs out with "I'd just rather not discuss it."

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(Ack I rambled. One more for real now)

This hits a culmination when Cheerilee comes back after six months of being away with her adopted baby. She asks what went on all year, and the class reacts predictably. "HE WAS HORRIBLE MS CHEERILEE I HATED HIM BLARGH BLARGH HE CAN'T TEACH WORTH FUCK IF I SUCK YOUR DICK WILL YOU GIVE ME AN 'A' MS CHEERILEE?"

I stood up in the center of the classroom, said "Hold on a minute, that's all a bit unfair," and then defended him. Methods were unfamiliar and not like anything we're used to, but more in line with college so it's actually helpful to us. Different strokes for different students, and I personally preferred Joe's way. Same basic things I said above. All in a mature, civilized manner without ONCE attacking Cheerilee or raising my voice. The whole time there's BonBon, rolling around in her desk rubbing her face with both palms and making scoffing noises as though I'm giving a Satanist sermon to the class and speaking the most unholy blasphemy that's ever been spoken by mortal man. It was comical. She's SO MATURE.

One more: She went on a field trip on a Monday, came back at the end of the day. Asked what we did in class, and the homework assignment slipped my mind (because I don't ever do them because they're worth 10pts and make NO DIFFERENCE to my grade). So she didn't do it. Teacher doesn't let her make it up because she missed for a field trip, not sickness. This policy is IN HER CLASS SYLLABUS AND THE SCHOOL HANDBOOK. But of course BonBon is in the right, because this trip wasn't scheduled like 6 months in advance or anything like that. No way she could have gone in after class on Friday and said "Yo teach, what we gon' do on Monday?"

She has a 97% in the class and is bitching about ONE ten-point homework grade.

I cussed her out over it and said "stop being a baby," she ragequit and left, and then came back the next day, best friends with me again. I think she's literally THAT LONELY.

Also she wants my dick.

Which is terrifying.

I love my life.

I hate sounding whiny but this has been going on for so long... and it comes on top of the general year-end drama, which is doubly annoying this year because we're graduating. Which is another thing BonBon needs to get cunt-punched for. She complains every single day about how she wants to graduate because high school is so horrible and her life is nonstop misery. Yeah, I agree - having one legitimate assignment every two weeks, sitting and staring into space for about 60-70% of each day, and NOT having to actually work for a living... THAT IS HELL IF I'VE EVER SEEN IT.

And it only makes less and less sense every single time she complains about something new. She doesn't even realize how annoying or hypocritical she is. Which is why I like and respect Lyra MUCH better as a human being - she's a bitch about a lot of things, but she's fearless. She's got something to say, she fucking says it. Someone tells her she's wrong, she fights for it. BonBon backs out of every goddamn thing and then acts all fakey and "polite." Which I cannot abide. With Lyra, what you see is exactly what you get, and I really respect that.

Anyway you wanted a gay rights debate, so I'll start that off:

How about a new comment string? Scroll back up to the top of my profile comments. I think if we get really rocking here we might run out of reply room.

"I love my life." lol

You've got a lot on your hands I can see.

You know, I totally agree. I like that teaching style way better. I feel so more at peace, than to constantly have to scramble and throw something together. And it's like Free Enterprise, the system works itself out. You can only hurt yourself if you slack off and don't do anything, in other words getting a bad grade is your fault. I seem to learn better that way anyways.

Also, when this is done with, and if you have time, I would like to have a Gay Laws debate if you don't mind. I noticed you seem to take that to heart in a lot of our discussions if it was brought up. I'm kind of curious on your thoughts.

And nice use of my image :D

Haha unfortunately I'm going to have to do a bit of role reversal and be the first one to go to bed. That's all I've really got to say about her. I've been typing for an hour and I'm not exactly feeling too well. I'm going to call it a night and retire, a good few hours earlier than usual.

I'll write up a good summation of my thoughts/beliefs tomorrow and post it when I get home. Although if I've got you even remotely figured out at all, I think this'll be less of a debate and more of a long string of comments amounting to "I agree with you so much right now."