Hi hiiiii~! What's up buttercup?

Sadness and depression.

Why's that?

Can I ask you something?
[4:15:32 PM] Marcus <3: Sure.
[4:16:30 PM] Senile Pyro: What am I to you? Do I still rank up high as a crush, or have I been demoted down a friend?
[4:17:34 PM] Marcus <3: I don't really think of you as a crush, but I do not do rankings. I don't know about you.
[4:17:50 PM] Marcus <3: You are my best friend, one of the closest people to me.
[4:17:55 PM] Marcus <3: I find that better than a crush.
[4:18:50 PM] Senile Pyro: Hm. Let me ask this then: Should I continue to hope and pray that someday we'll be together?
[4:21:01 PM] Marcus <3: In all honesty. I think you shouldn't. Because clinging onto something isn't the way to go. I think you need to find someone close to you. Someone who you truly like and love being close with.

So basically you've been rejected

And I should've known it back in March.

Yea. Just been clinging on to nothing. Or at least that's what it feels like.

That's not just what it feels like, that's what is happening. It's not what you want to hear and it's not going to make you feel better. In fact it's probably going to make you feel worse. But you have to set yourself in motion forward instead of standing still.

I know.

I just figured I'd let you know this in case you see me being depressed for a while.

I'm glad you told me, and I hope you'll come to me whenever you feel low. Even if you just want to vent and it's always the same thing. It doesn't take just one rant and a good nights sleep to get over something this big. But of course you know that

I know. Thank you sweetie.

What about you?

Anyone special enough to get into your shower?

There is I suppose.
My girlfriend. But she lives far away as well so, yeah.

Long distance is kind of hard, isn't it?

Yeah, it can be at times.

Oh well I'm being silly.

What are you up too?

Going through content, really
Reading

I think I'll go and do that for a bit
I hope the rest of your day is fun :3

Right back at ya.

Have fun.

How awkward would it be if I knew someone who died in those attacks?

I don't, but I think it would be kind of funny

I'd probably go full throttle backwards knowing myself. Apologize and such.

How are you feeling?

Pretty neat, a little upset Shady is about to go to basic

I might lose my mind if I don't find something to do this summer

You?

Shady + Basic = Confused micro looking for an explanation.

I think I might go insane as well.
Hmm I might pick up my violin again.
I just have to make sure i remember how to make it sound... not to mention play it.

But I'm feeling pretty good, just relaxing before my math exam on friday.

Lonesome = Shady, Basic is training before you go into the military, kind of
Like 8 weeks of hard physical tests, bad food, and being yelled at
Kind of exciting

You play violin?

Oh, well damn I'll miss his butt. He's a nice fella.

I used to. I haven't played in a couple of years though.

You play anything?

Only a tiny bit of piano, but the only thing I have to play with is an ancient semi-broken one out in the back house.

It's close enough.

Let's annoy the neighbors by playing the same tune 18 times!

I was planning to do exactly that with my violin.

I would really enjoy hearing a violin, no matter what it was playing

A violin played badly is like a cat being strangled.
Like if you don't hit the note right.

I like that sound too

You're a silly person, you know that right?

I've been told :3

What kind of music do you like?

^^ good

Hmm I'm not picky with genres I guess I just like music I enjoy.
But with genres I guess I like Rock the most.

You?

I guess I'm more of an indie fan, but I listen to pop on the radio in cars or in the shower

I kind of like everything, except for screamo. I liked screamo once, in a phase

Screamo seems silly to me.
If I wanted to listen to a man scream I'd put a nail in a lego brick.

Oh my someone gets to enjoy your company in the shower? :3

Maybe if I lived closer to my boyfriend

I liked the screaming

You'll both get your chance eventually.

each to their own I suppose.

What do you like to drink?

I don't really know.

Milkshakes I guess.

I really love chocolate milkshakes.

Chocolate is the worst ice cream flavor!

Excuse you?

Worst flavor

Time to make my escape, byebye Nii-chan :3

I'll get you for that

You sound so homophobic~

I use to be

And now?

Well, I guess I can't say I am for reasons you know...

gay is really nice

I like gay a lot

But you're dating a dude.

That makes you straight.

It just makes my relationship straight

I still like girls
He still likes penis

3some?

We aren't against the idea
in the future

I remember when I was younger I use to be really turned on by the idea of having a 3some with married couples.

We'll be a married couple one day~
You should come over for tea

Come over for tea, or come over for "tea"?

No matter what, there will be tea and snacks, even if it's not the intent of your visit~

Just because I have a list of people I want to visit, doesn't mean I want to bang all of them.

>rejected

I'd still like you over for tea often

Not necessarily. Would just have to wait and see >.>

And did say I would visit you when I had money and time.

Drinks all around!

Sadly I don't like tea, so I'd just drink coffee. Or water. Or something else.

If you want a drink I'm sure I'll have bailey's, Austrian egg nog, disaronno, and wine.
Or soda, because you're never too old more Mt Dew

Not even sweet tea?

>Mt Dew

lolno

And nope, not even sweet tea.

Did you have sex with the big breasted girl?

Nope.

I'm going to be leaving next month for boot camp.

Where at? For how long?

Great Lakes, Illinois for 8 weeks of boot camp.

Have fun and don't give up

And come back to thread asap

To be honest I'm really scared.

What scares you?

Everyone forgetting about me..

That's silly
I thought you would forget about us
Or leave us behind
Or forget about me

>Thinking I would forget about my adorable and silly imouto

I'm gonna miss you

I'm gonna miss you too.

What day do you leave?

Can you get on the internet every so often?

I don't have an exact date.

And no. Communications will be letters only until A school.

Isn't it a little exciting? New people, possibly interesting food, a ton of harsh physical stuff?

>New people

But I'm shy and generally don't like people

>Interesting food

I'm the cook, I'll decide what's interesting food =P

>Tons of physical workouts

pls no

You're the cook! That's kind of awesome

Cooking for a lot of people is hard, I bet you'll do great :3

Don't mind the people thing, when everyone else is suffering with you it'll be bonding

But bonding sounds kinda gay

Time for a reply!

I'm going to go get a cookie and wait for the courage to check my inbox

Be sure to get a big cup of milk too

I don;t want milk

Milk is good for you
Also cookies

hehe
off to hide in my room

Hiya, what brings ya here?

I haven't talked to you in a while

Thought you were interested in Ren's banning

So what's up with your life lately?

I just got back from work and it was over when I just got on and I will admit I was concerned. Haw ke is a childish asshole that got his mod position on popularity alone not evening going to hide it but, it's over so I won't stick my nose in too deep.

And I've been working 40+ hours a week at my job and when I'm not at my job I'm either here or working out for the Marines. I was told yesterday that there is a chance I might be able to ship in July instead of October for boot camp and that got me excited

Eh, He did well dealing with it

You want to go to bootcamp earlier?

I would honestly leave tonight if I could

Why so eager to leave?

All what I'm doing is just working at a dead end job with no hope of getting above minimum wage. When I'm not there I'm just on the thread or playing a video game

I'm literally just waiting to ship

Seems like a good reason to want to ship out :3

I hope they ship you soon, as you wish for

How do you feel bootcamp will be?

My brother who has already gone through the training told me it was like being babysat by hitler for 12 weeks

I've heard it was hell and I've heard it wasn't really that bad so I think it depends on who's running the place. Where's your boot camp again? Fort Jackson?

MCRD in San Diego

Oh wow, I was off
I hope you get there safely and quickly :3
I'm off for now, have a good night

night

Ohai

Good morning :3

Is it?

Is it really a good morning?

Is something upsetting you?

Nah I'm just tired and sore.

And was making sure you really were having a good morning.

I ate way too much and now I want to masturbate but I don't think I'll get permission

Why tired and sore?

PT yesterday with the Navy Diver that's spending 7 months here.

He's gonna kick your butt! :3

He's actually a really chill dude.

You'd think since he's Spec Ops and works with like Seals sometimes he'd be a hardass. But he really doesn't give a shit as long as we're working out and I'm trying my best.

I'm glad he's not mean~

That's good, regret is never fun

I take it you're very well received?

yes

Confidence boosting?

again yes

How often do you post?

rarely

What else do you do on the site?

Post on front page, and chat with friends.

You should join the friendly board
Everyone's nice and everything homo and brony sexual
Though not brony as much as it used to be

NEVER AGAIN WILL I EVE COME BACK TO THAT SHIT

OH GOD WHY

No reason

Thinking....

thinking harder.....

I got nothin
I think I remember you leaving though

Yes i did leave

but I didn't say nothing

No regrets, I hope

At first there was some, but now i don't.

I feel a lot better actually.

I'm glad you're better!

Thanks

Haven't we met before?

I'm not so sure

Where are the places we have been likely to meet?
I used to frequent the gay board
Now I'm on Friendly pretty much all the time

the gay board I think

Well hello :3
Haven't been there in quite some time

How are you?

what do you remember seeing of me, exactly

I'm good, you?

I saved a gif of someone masturbating once from the board.
Think it would be yours?

I'm bored, but I don't feel like doing much. So basically I'm just lazing around.

Was it in a bathroom?

take a nap

Oh goodie I named it according to the user
Has this always been your account or have you had others?

I wouldn't want to throw off my sleep schedule

What was the user's name

Un.chartedfan

Though I think he regretted doing all of it

Well you're talking to him.

about that?

yeah, it was with the threads, That's why i left

another reason is it's not the same anymore.

Still weird that I have them saved though
In my defense they're in my "Real gays" folder which I never touch

Have you gone back to the threads since?

Oh, it's fine.

I am good fap material in my opinion.

Nope.

I'm actually a bit surprised I was remembered

I'm glad you're well, what's going on in your life that's interesting?

I know everyone, just kidding.


Eh, nothing at the moment.

If anything I'm thinking about not showing off my damn butt all the time in the gay board.

Have you been showing it off lately?

Or just back then?

I think I'll shower quickly, I'll be back in a bit

Showed off yesterday.

But boy, do they like it

Don't you regret it afterwards every time you show it off?

Used to, but not anymore.

No point in drinking if you don't want to
It tastes awful

I wonder when my first drink will be?

Will it be such a big deal to you?

um...I'm not sure
maybe....because it's like
all these kids just go out and do it so young and go crazy
I would much rather stay at home and maybe do it with a friend
....I don't know

I've never had a drink out with friends, it's all been with family

I guess I could wait 3 more years

The only alcohol I like is Austrian Egg Nog and Bailey's Irish Cream

Which are both ridiculously sweet and creamy

I'll stick with Root Beer

Now I want a root beer float

I'm messing around with this audio program, with my own voice and singing
It's fun~

I want one too
I would hate doing that
you have to yell the line right?

https://www.dropbox.com/s/ysc2xaiz5hedurh/WhereisSimon2.mp3
https://www.dropbox.com/s/dr3mwcv6lvjgmge/WhereisSimon3.mp3
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ufmkqpcab7q59v7/WhereisSimon.mp3

Well, just a little. You'll have to download these to hear them
I'm not sure if I want to/can work on the line more

Hate doing what?

doing the line

Oh hate the voice messing-with thing

Also you can just click the purple parts of the link

I kinda want ice cream now....but we have none

I'm a bit sleepy

I think I'll spend some time with James trying to mod minecraft as much as I can

do that ^^

Won't that run your battery down faster?

I'm on the computer silly

that's ok
we all make mistakes like that
I did today

What did you do?

I was asking my friend how much money I would have after taxes were taking out if I got the job
and he said they would take about 1/4
so I divided 144 by 4
and was like
"I only get 36 dollars"

It took me a second to figure out what was wrong with that

hehe
me too

Are you going to try staying up tonight?

mhm
24 hours...or so

Maybe I should stay up with you :3

I have to voice act to help a friend
Yelling the line might be a little nerve-wracking

nerve wracking for you?
...or?
like...your gonna let me listen so the yelling keeps me up hehe

Much too shy for anyone to listen to me trying to do this
I'm still bothered by my brother hearing it, even though I told him what I was doing

well....I could never do it
so there is that
I'm sure you'll do great

Thank you

I hope I can do my best

why did she chose you by the way?

also...my sisters are drinking....with my mom
I don;t know what to think of this

I volunteered, because people seem to like my voice

I drink with my mom sometimes

you do?
I kinda want my first drink to be special
I'm not really sure how that works...but...

My family is German so drinking is just something everyone does

I don't like alcohol so I don't drink often anyway

I wonder how it taste?
...no...Ren...stay strong
what are you going to do? ask them for a drink?
you are much too shy for that anyways

Depends on when James and I get to meet

....still

I want you to lose all of your first before I do

I am and will be too shy and insecure to

Oh yeah


Insecurities aren't worth anyone's time
but sometimes they're hard to get rid of

I really only have one big one and then I guess a few small ones

maybe.....I just won't focus on relationships for now
and just on friends
and by for now....I mean forever

That sounds like a good plan :3

sometimes...I don;t know what to do
I mean.....sometimes I want those things
a bf or gf.....like....kissing and that stuff
but.....it seems so nerve racking
and then I feel like I couldn;t balance a relationship and friends very well

Do you always miss the ' when you type ; ?

I'm not very good at balancing time myself, but I'm decent at it
I don't know what kissing or sex is like so I'm not missing it
I'm with James for the emotional relationship

yeah....I guess
I'm just nervous it will never happen
but then I'm nervous that it is going to happen

You're nervous about everything

um.....mhm

So how's your summer going?

not that great
the first week....was terrible
I think I told you some about that....and it's just kinda been not very fun since

Won't you go out and do things at some point?

um....I don;t know
maybe with the family...but I don;t really have any friends
so...yeah

Really though, the apostrophe and semi-colon aren't even on the same key

You could always go somewhere by yourself

sorry

um...like where?

Go to the park and chase ducks
Go to a pool and swim
Go to a library and read
Hang out at a mall for no reason

Teenage stuff

well....ok

Hiya Micro

What's up?

Nothing really chatting with a few people n such. :3

How about you?

Trying to find the height of the K-ON girls to see how I measure up

Any specific reason why?
Wonna know who's height you're on?

Yeah!

I want to be Azusa's height

But why?

If I'm her height maybe I'll be cuter

I am 7 cm taller

But being too short isn't cute either.

how tall are you?

I am 5'2"

You're a head or so shorter than me.

I dunno it sounds like a height with cute potential

You can't be too short to be cute

I dunno maybe cute comes more from the personality.

Do you have a cute personality?

I've been told I do

Well then you shouldn't worry about being cute.
You seem pretty cute to me and I don't know you that well. :3

Thank you :3

You seem pretty nice

hehe, thanks. ^^

How are you feeling?

A little sick, but almost done being sick
I just need more rest and fluids

How about yourself?

Stay in bed n drink a bunch of water, you'll be up n about in no time. :3

I'm feeling alright. ^^

That's good, I'm glad you're well

I think I'll do just that and rest for a while

Byebye, it was nice talking to you

You too.

Sleep tight.

Why do you think that is?

I don;t know

What have you tried to solve your own frustrations?

um...I don;t really know what you just said

What have you done to solve your problems?

um....I picked up my room

You have to do more to solve your problems, so you aren't stuck on them forever

I'll be a bit busy today, as always, so my replies will be few and far between
I am sorry about that

You didn't waste my time, why would you think that?

Because I tend to be a pest

I don't find you to be a pest :3

**supermilk hugs WhattheNorris**

**WhattheNorris hugs supermilk**

thank you

:3 Sorry I went to bed

is k

Do that then
Whatever makes you feel better

I...I...
(sigh)

why is everything so terrible

Not everything is terrible
There are still good things :3

.....sorry

It's alright
I just don't think of anything to respond with to that

me too :/
um..........I'm depressed
that's all I can think of

Yeah, you are depressed
Tell your mother you need help

I=/

she should just fucking know!

People can't just read minds >:I

like it's not obvious!!!!

oh gee Ren has had tantrums before
and she just had another
she has been moody and isolates herself
she has sent me links to such things

no she TOTALLY DOESN;T NEED TOO SEE ONE
I SHOULD JUST IGNORE THOSE THINGS I HAVE TOO MUCH OTHER STUFF GOING ON AND SHE DOESN;T MATTER TO ME AT ALL!!!

I'm sorry, I have to be in bed

I hope you feel better Ren
I hope your mom gets a clue

Ninight :3

fine

no

Why?

just....today has been the worst day ever

Tell me about what sucked

everything

I mean...I stayed up really late last night....and I woke up at like 2
haven't showered or gotten out of old clothes
dad comes home and makes me go to Lowes
I have to go through all that...he tries to talk to me about stuff I don't want to ect....
he yells at me when when I do something wrong in the store
then I have to talk to people
all the time trying to hide from all the mirrors there
I almost had to get a haircut, with him of all people
I was just completely done...I just wanted to go lie in my room.....
but then my mom wants me to try on some clothes that I really don;t want to
and then after that my dad was gonna make me help him with more stuff
I couldn't handle it...and I couldn;t just stay in my room
they would keep harassing me
so I left on a walk....in sandals...bad idea
I couldn;t find shelter in the church...so I walked all the way to the library
which closed an hour ago.....my feet are numb now and I end up walking back home
only to find that my phone is now gone...and I can;t find it anywhere
my mom took it...and she just started acting like a bitch
I lost it
I went up stairs and completely trashed my room and started banging my head against the floor
my mom comes up and yells at me again....just.....egpjosjolaejl
I was so frustrated I was shaking
I should of just ran away I can;t live with these people

I'm sorry your day was so horrible

Is there anything that'll make you feel better?

death

Well don't do that

Maybe a good night's rest will make you feel better

I really...I just...can;t take it anymore

You won't try anything will you?

I've already slammed my head against the floor like 20 times
punched my legs
destroyed my room
scratched my self
gone out in the rain

....I'm not making any promises

Well, those things aren't life threatening, so it's alright to do them if it makes you feel better :3

....life is awful
and I want it to just end right now

I won't try to stop you if you're dead set on doing something

But there are other ways to make yourself feel better
ways that permanently stop you from ever feeling better again

What do you think happens after death?

I...I don;t know
I just want to cry

Cry! You'll feel better

I can;t
I'm downstairs
because my mom TOOK MY FUCKING PHONE

Go upstairs and cry in your room for a bit?

I can;t
everytime I feel like I should cry I only tear up a bit
maybe it's because I'm also kinda mad

but yet I'll cry at other really stupid things

Get sad over something stupid

I just want to stay here

How you darlin'?

Just got home from school :3
Now I have a sandwich and I'm relaxing

How about yourself?

Tired, kinda sore, looking for coffee to make.

And I bet my sandwich was better than your's =P

I bet it was too~
Mine is just a ton of shaved honeyed ham on white bread

Why sore?

>Ham

I want D:

And sore because I fell and scraped my elbow/arm while doing sprints and twisted my ankle while jogging

Sprints and jogging

and you hurt yourself =(

I can't help if I'm accident prone and have blonde moments.

*It's okay me too

Isn't that really bad for you?

Extremely, my heart is still beating really hard and really fast.

I hope you're okay

and that it knocks you out just so you'll get some sleep

Not a chance.

Hell I pissed green earlier today from the Monsters.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOUR OWN BODYYY

According to my doctors a few weeks ago, nothing bad.

According to my therapist this morning, I'm slowly destroying it and tormenting myself.

Listen to your therapist!

Maybe

that....is really good 0.0

Yell it at him

..no thank you

Ohgosh thank you :3

was it you hehe ^^

Yep~

dang that's creepy

reminds me of that guy from Courage the cowardly dog

That show scared me

I'm not weird to think that way about the second one, right?
www.funnyjunk.com/user_pictures/thevoiceoftruth/4362686/Friendly/2146076#2146076

The second one being the shower thing?

It's not that weird

ok good.....he made it sound like it was totally unreasonable

It's not unreasonable, it's about your comfort levels

I am actually kinda not ok with him being here
just because I'm just kinda sitting here and feel like a loser
and I have to sit next to him in class tomorrow

You're so negative, why would he think you're a loser?

and don;t all me negative :c

because I'm just sitting at the computer

That doesn't make you a loser

yeah...but...he is all...hanging out with his friends and stuff

You're hanging out with friends

but...he doesn;t know that

same

Awwwww thank you. <3

Ninight Nii~Chan

sleep well, when you do

Hiya

How're you?

I'm good~
Watching TV with my brother in his bed and relaxing from school

Yourself?

Glad to hear it ^^
That sounds pretty good. Do you get along well with your brother?

Im great thanks! Just finished packing my bags for tomorrow and watching tele.

I get along well with this brother, yeah :3
Packing for what?

I see, thats good to hear. I only really get along with my brothers.
I've been visiting my dad in sweden, Im flying back home to England tomorrow.

Oh! What's the traveling around been like? Tell me about it

Its been so-so. Im used to going in between and I always feel nervous flying, and get jet lag. I havent really been anywhere else but them two countries, I'd like to go to Canada one day.

I don't like flying very much either

Why Canada?

It seems interesting, it has anime conventions and pretty good cities,

Neat :3

Kawaii absol

Used to be the girl part of a pair of absol with Proximity before that account got banned

AAAAAAWWWWW DAS SO KAWAII!!!! :d

hehe

thank you