Well for one, I am restricted from joining military service due to being a diabetic. Secondly, although I know that God has forgiven me, I can't forgive myself

May I ask what you did that's so unforgiveable?

Scroll down later into this comment and you'll find one

Hmm, so you didn't want to hang out with him, but he sort of clung to you and you felt bad that he fell into a bad life after you moved? Sounds like you did nothing at all, literally. Never blame yourself for other people's actions.

Its why he went into a bad life that gets me, I was the only person to look after him and keep him out of his parents kind of life

Once you moved you lost control of the situation anyway

Point, I feel terrible anyway

Never let something you have no control over get to you

Theres other things that I will take to my grave before admitting anywhere (not criminal, just hypocritical)

Everyone has stuff like that, but the trick is to focus on the good you've done.

I am 15, I have contributed nothing to the world, society, God, the church, or otherwise

Now is as good a time as any to start.

Idk where to start, and how

Find some community service, or just be there for your friends and family. As cheesy as it sounds the small things do add up to a huge difference.

Alright dude, thanks for the advice, also how do i stop said annoying suicidal voice in my head, cause he's really pissing me off

Talk to a doctor maybe. I normally just have mental conversations with my voices and that seems to calm them for a while. Although they aren't suicidal just homicidal.

Oh I have approximately 7 different voices in my head that I have conversations with

We've reached the reply limit so I'll talk here, and none of my voices do karaoke, but I wish they did. Anyway I have to go to bed but if you ever need something never hesitate to ask me. I'm on at least once a day, sometimes more depending on if I have something to do

Aright good on ya for being kind and offering advice

Is it just me or do mental conversations really do help calm the voices?

Most of the time, they can get lonely on occasion, being left in there with 6 other loud people, and one of the is ALWAYS DOING FUCKING KARAOKE!

Where was that?

(Sorry, I joined early this summer, so I don't remember)

I don't remember exactly but someone posted a picture of two planets meeting in the sky and someone else proved it was fake so they thumbed him into hell.

*-9

Well that didn't go as planned

At first I thought you were talking about the cat's butthole.
Then I realised I was retarded.

And until then I hadn't even thought of the butthole. Why would you look there?

Hahah, I see what you did there.

NOT SAFE FOR WORK.

The joke is that construction sites can be very dangerous work environments.

The Dark Hours? Hmm...

yessssssss

Winner!