Feels Bro

>be me
>6/10 beta fag
>only have friends Grant and Carlos
>never have a dad
>never have a mom
>go about my life with no one
>meet this girl 10/10
>start talking to her and hanging out
>friendship grows
>i get feelings for her
>never felt like this
>keep it hidden for the sake of the friendship
>finally ask her out to the Valentine's Dance
>massive fail
>Ask her out a month later
>"friends can't date friends. It's weird"
>fml
>give into my failure and slowly die inside
>she starts dating alpha male
>he calls her a slut on a daily basis
>cheats constantly
>I beg him to leave him for her sake
>at least i got that part right
>fast foward 6 months
>Ultimate Friends
>Ultimate friendzone
>she comes over to hang out at my place
>start to get close
>starts to hug on couch
>starts to get frisky
>grabs cock
>holyfuck.jpeg
>pulls off shirt
>best breasts
>she thinks twince and stops
>i understand
>we dont talk about it but i still fap to it
>start hanging out more
>movies, imax, denver art museum, nature and science museum, parks, water world, elich gardens (six flags)
>"promise me you'll never leave"
>"I promise you"
>I think she likes me
>she starts dating a swag fag who cheats on her, insults her, sneeks around and pushes her into sex
>she doesn't do it
>keeps dating after my begging
>finally breaks up after 6 months
>now its my chance to win her
>take her to the museum
>buy her lunch, stuffed mammoth, and ice cream
>sneek off to the roof balcony at closing time all alone
>I start holding her hand and she starts leaning into me
>I ask her if she would like to be together
>she says yes
>HOLYFUCKWUT
>never had a girlfriend
>I starts smiling
>I hug her and kiss her on the cheek
>she starts laughing
>i play it off
>we walk down to the park holding hands
>her mom picks her up
>I wait for the bus in her moms car
>holding hands the entire time
>i cant stop smiling
>her mom winks at me
>bus is here, i kiss her goodbye
>I get a messege 5 minutes later on the bus
>"CBB, I can't date you. I'm sorry. I said yes because i didnt want to hurt you. i thought that if i let you have your moment you would feel good. I know youve been sad since your grandpa died and your mom moved away. but i really do love you in the friend way. I dont want to ruin it for us. Your the most amazing guy ive met and you have such a chuck of my heart."
>start to cry on bus, i dont give a fuck
>i still give her dating advice
>she still asks me for advice on guys
>still hope for us dating
>im dead inside