rip dentist

be about 7 years old or something
have to go to the dentist
scared as fuck
cry for an hour and screaming I don't want to go
doesn't work, still have to go
sit in the waiting room for an hour, being extremely nervous
dentist finally ask me to come
kinda old man, about 60 years old
didn't calm me down, still scared
with my eyes closed waiting for the dentist to torture me
before I know he told he I'm allowed to go
feeling badass because it didn't hurt at all
not scared of the dentist anymore
years pass, going often to the dentist
always have a nice chat with him, kinda friends
once I told him how scared I was, he bursted in laughter
after that visits he was trying to scare me up, like saying he did something wrong or that my teeth will fall out
a visit to the dentist became a favourite thing
feeling proud about the friendship because everyone always complains about dentists

so on a christmas evening I was sitting with my friends in a local pub
dentist walks in, he's looking very ill
I walk to him to have a chat
ask him how it goes
his son has died in a car accident
feeling really bad for him

life goes on, so goes the visits to the dentist
first months he was really sad
than he was the funny dentist again
years pass again
I'm leaving the country
going to my last visit
talked about an hour about my life and his
enjoying the moment we spent together
time to say goodbye
brohug the good man and wish each other very much happiness in the life

years pass and I came back in my own country
few weeks pass and I decide to look him up
found out he died 2 years before I came back
going for a walk, feeling really depressed
walk in front of his house where he worked
decide to take a look inside
nothing changed
the old lady who workes at the counter recognised me
'I got somehting for you'
she hands me a package
it's a picture

a picture of me when I was seven years old with a tears rolling down my face, with my eyes closed. and with the dentist smiling next to me. On the back of the picture is written: 'You were Gods miracle, bringing me the son I lost'

Die of feelings