feels

>be me
>have only 1 grandpa left
>a pastor on his province, strict, always giving advice and wants only the best for us
>fast forward
>almost finishing high school
>grandpa suddenly visited us
>learned he has fever, mom urged him to stay and go for his church services once he's fine
>next morning
>playing on my computer
>heard my grandpa
>sounds like he's in terrible pain
>rush up to him
>ran past the bathroom, shower still on
>he's shivering
>rush him to the hospital
>at emergency room
>clinically dead
>miraculously revived
>fast forward
>he woke up, im beside him in his private room
>he's very thankful for my deed
>spend several days with him til he got discharged
>fast forward again
>New Year's Eve
>at midnight, hear him vomiting on bathroom
>his vomit is black, don't know why, food is fine
>at the hospital, doctor said his organs are starting to fail
>during vacation and the following months, I always accompany him at the weekend for his doctor visits
>we spend time together
>gives advice for me who's about to enter college
>"When you pass that exam, be sure that I'm the first one to know alright?"
>deal
>fast forward
>at university, got the results
>passed the test like a motherfucker
>happy as fuck
>call his phone
>no answer
>go back to high school, still has class for the day, skipped first period to get exam results
>our maid out of fucking nowhere
>gramps died the day before

>present time
>only a year away from graduating college
>up to now, never got a chance to fulfill my promise to him
>always lighting a candle at his grave whenever I do good on exams