No funny, Need advice

First, there is no funny here and if you were looking for it you might as well skip. Guys, my life has basically been in the shitter for the past year and I really could use some advice. My parents have been divorced for about 6 years and I'm fine with that, but my mom got with a really physically and mentally abusing boyfriend. After the divorce, I lived with my dad who beat me ofter(and I believe it's because I'm so much like my mom) and I just took it. About 3 years after the divorce happened I finally snapped at my dad and attacked him for the years of abuse and he disowned me and forced me to move out which is when I moved in with my mom and the said abusive "boyfriend". I don't consider him a boyfriend because they fought and "broke up" more than once a week(and I assure you this is no exaggeration) and I'd estimate about 80% of the time it got extremely violent. After another two years someone finally noticed the constant black eyes and broken noses my mom was getting and finally called CPS (child protection services)and they forced her to get a restraining order. She and him have already violated that restraining order multiple times, which risks me being allowed by the court to live with my mom. She really does care for me, but I feel she loves him more than me. I'm not jealous of her love for him, it just bothers me that she is risking my life's stability just to send a drunk text to that asshole. If my mom is caught, which will most likely happen, I will be forced in an orphanage or foster care as I've already said, my dad disowned me. I doubt I ever would follow through, but suicide has constantly been on my mind and I need to release some stress. So now, I have no one to talk to, so I thought, "Fuck it, I've already been beat and cussed out like a dog by multiple people. What's the worst a couple of lifeless trolls could do?" So now I'm sharing this with you all hoping someone could throw in their own opinions or advice on what I could do. Thanks I love you all.