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User avatar #988714 - whiteniggers (10/20/2012) [-]
Right, so I think it's time for me to say why I collect these gems. I've told people that I will explain, because there is a deeper meaning, but I've been delaying it, so I'm sorry about that. If you aren't interested, then that's fine. Also, it's quite long, so don't worry if you can't be assed to read it.

My mother died two months ago, of cancer. Exactly one week before my birthday. I'm 15 years old now. It's pretty hard for me. The thing is, she was a jeweler. She had all sorts of crystals and gemstones and made necklaces and bracelets for all of her friends and family, etc.

So, every since her passing away, I've been collecting these gems, as a sort of reminder of how kind she was, while I go around the site. Every time someone donates, trades, or gifts gems, it feels as if I'm helping her, like I'm giving her gems? You know? It's hard to explain.

But, I think I'm doing alright at the moment. It's difficult to tell people why I'm always after gems, and why I like to show it off, but the reason is really important and meaningful to me, so I have been keeping it a secret.

I hope that clears things up a bit.

Also, there's a similar meaning to why I make the avatars, but I'll probably explain that on another day.

Thanks for your time, and your trades!
User avatar #3339580 to #988714 - pyrain (03/20/2013) [-]
at least she's not hurting anymore.
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User avatar #1454625 to #988714 - GeorgeBush (11/09/2012) [-]
tl;dr mach 3, super condensed version:

My life was pretty normal until my grandpa died when I was 5. My dad started to drink more, and when he drank he got violent. He wouldn't beat my mom, as she would have told, so he beat me whenever he got that way. Jesus, did he get drunk a lot. He'd practically throw me from room to room beating the shit out of me with whatever he found. Because I was a kid, I just thought I did something wrong... So I was the physical punching bad for my dad, and the emotional one for my mom. I guess she tried to vent the stress of having an alcoholic husband to me, but it got twisted somewhere along the way and turned into her making me feel useless in order to make her feel good. That went on for the next 5 years until when I was 10 my dad got killed in a drunk driving accident. It was the happiest day of my childhood by far. After that my mom continued to abuse me, made even easier now because she had worn me down to a point over the last five years that I thought I really wasn't worth anything to anyone. I live with my Mom's parents now, far enough away where she can't abuse me. But after all that time it really wears on you, y'know? I still really struggle with being depressed, and finding value in myself. I tried to kill myself in February, which was quite obviously unsuccessful, and now here I am, still depressed and junk..
User avatar #1454189 to #988714 - WindblownRebel (11/09/2012) [-]
As a baby, I was treated like a misbehaving pet when I cried - sprayed with a water bottle, air blown into my face, and time-outs at 18mos old. Then my mom committed suicide when I was two, leaving me alone with my Dad and Gramma. I dealt with a lot of abuse from dad as well, because like my mom, he was heavily addicted to drugs. Gramma could do nothing to save me from him until I was 7, when he died from a motorcycle wreck. From then on, she fought to get permanent custody of me, and succeeded. No other family members wanted me, and barely talked to me because they had hated my parents - two black sheep breed even more black sheep, they reasoned.

Gramma raised me up as best she could, even though there was a 60+ year age gap between us. We slowly made our way along in life, and she always held me when I cried. She always crocheted and cross-stitched the projects I liked in her little books, and always took me to the places I needed to go. With fierce determination, she saved me from suicide when my depression would dip too low, then she would champion for the best counselor my insurance could give me.

Two winters ago, she got sick. She started acting really unhealthy, and was losing more weight than she could afford. At 80, she was barely managing to weigh 80 pounds, but she started to dip even lower than that. One day she drove to highschool to pick me up, since I had an appointment with my counselor. She couldn't think clearly, and she was obviously sicker than before. She'd started having difficulty writing and speaking properly, and she had a huge fever. The principal called an ambulance, and Gramma spent the next few weeks in the hospital with pneumonia. Within 3 weeks, she had recovered, while I had been looked after by a friend of the family at home.

To be continued in my next message.
User avatar #1454291 to #1454189 - WindblownRebel (11/09/2012) [-]
When I turned 16, we had started to fight regularly, and it wasn't normal - yes, there had been times where we had fought, but not every day on such a regular basis and over such a wide range of topics. The symptoms from the year before started showing again, but with more regularity. She stopped her medicines, everything. Eventually I had had enough of seeing her hurting, and waited until I had a good time to call 911.

The opportunity didn't come long after the decision. On a Sunday, she packed some water bottles and random papers into a bag and said that the invisible Indian bus was waiting to pick us up and take us to my doctor's appointment. She went out onto the sidewalk, yelling my name and calling me out to see the bus, and that it was circling the block. I had to call 911.

After packing up her medicines into a bag for the paramedics, I sat down to sob. I slept fitfully that night, and when I woke up I went to shower. When I came out of the bathroom, the doorbell was ringing. Outside, there were two DHS ladies and the police officer that had been called over with the paramedics. He said sorry, and the ladies told me to pack up. I was going into foster care.

I was in that cramped home for three weeks, each day emailing and calling anyone I could to tell my story, as well as to beg to get me out. I went to the DHS court meetings, everything. I was hands on. After the court found Gramma's will, they put me with family friends. By now it was June, and I still stayed in school.

By August, I had still been busy. Gramma had been in and out of hospital and care centers for elderly, and she was stationed for basically the rest of her life in a life center 30 minutes away. I was ready to fight for myself, now that she was safe. So, I went to court for emancipation. I had countless hours of research and preparation, and the judge made me do even more research. Social Security, housing, schooling. All were evaluated. In the end, I succeeded. And here I am...
#1454693 to #1454291 - chewythewolftwo ONLINE (11/09/2012) [-]
This is about as good of a reaction as I can give. Provided yeah it's me and you from a different time, but still, I want to hug you ;w;
User avatar #1454361 to #1454291 - whiteniggers (11/09/2012) [-]
I'm really sorry about all that's happened to you. Made me cry. Stay strong. Well done for keeping sane, at least. I would have gone crazy within the first week or two...
User avatar #1454478 to #1454361 - WindblownRebel (11/09/2012) [-]
Some think I HAVE gone crazy... But I'm here for people like you, who have such things going on. Live long, laugh hard, love deeply.
User avatar #1454224 to #1454189 - whiteniggers (11/09/2012) [-]
Items board. Making you cry at least all the time.
User avatar #1454308 to #1454224 - WindblownRebel (11/09/2012) [-]
Yeah. It's okay though, in the end. Right?
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#1401436 to #988714 - ronkfjoll (11/07/2012) [-]
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Now i look like an idiot!
User avatar #1207443 to #988714 - yoh **User deleted account** (10/28/2012) [-]
I never knew :<
User avatar #1207468 to #1207443 - whiteniggers (10/28/2012) [-]
Oh, really? I'm sorry you didn't understand all of the spamming beforehand...
User avatar #1207497 to #1207468 - yoh **User deleted account** (10/28/2012) [-]
No no.. I understand, but I never knew that was the reason :<. I'm sorry for your loss.
User avatar #1207499 to #1207497 - whiteniggers (10/28/2012) [-]
It's fine. Thanks for reading.
User avatar #1032033 to #988714 - bonjangles (10/21/2012) [-]
From a 15 year old to another.

I know how hard these years can be.

My childhood has been ruined by a divorce and a lot of moving. =S
#1017920 to #988714 - cooltrainergill (10/21/2012) [-]
Dude, I had to give you that diamond recipe. I couldn't say no. Hang in there man, from one 15 year old to another.
User avatar #1017929 to #1017920 - whiteniggers (10/21/2012) [-]
Thanks so much, man.
User avatar #1014962 to #988714 - dogfat (10/21/2012) [-]
i now feel like such a dick not trading you that diamond recipe, next time i get 1 you get it for free.
User avatar #1015004 to #1014962 - whiteniggers (10/21/2012) [-]
Oh my god, thanks so much!
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User avatar #1006427 to #1006397 - whiteniggers (10/20/2012) [-]
This is seriously not bullshit. For fuck's sake, she seriously died. Do you really think I just made up this entire story?
User avatar #988773 to #988755 - brownieshivers (10/20/2012) [-]
damn dude, that really sucks. I hope you feel alright soon.
User avatar #988789 to #988773 - whiteniggers (10/20/2012) [-]
User avatar #988750 to #988714 - themabymaby (10/20/2012) [-]
Oh. Okay. :(
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User avatar #988758 to #988747 - whiteniggers (10/20/2012) [-]
No, seriously. This isn't bullshit.
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User avatar #988726 to #988720 - whiteniggers (10/20/2012) [-]
Yeah, thanks man.
User avatar #988753 to #988726 - phanact (10/20/2012) [-]
never thought I'd see a TL:DR get thumbed down
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