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#28510 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
I fucking hate myself lately. For some reason, the other day, I got really fucking depressed and still am, I'm not eating right and sleeping a lot. It's fucking annoying, and along with that I get this constant weird feeling in my head, which I can describe I guess as a cloud in my head. But a pissed off one thats trying to rip its dick off. Because of this, I also feel like i'm perpetually about to cry, which is a fucking annoying feeling. I don't want to, and I seemingly can't. So what the fuck? My mother doesn't seem to notice the sad part though, she just thinks I'm sick and is probably going to make me get a blood test. And I fucking despise blood tests. "It won't be painful" BECAUSE A FUCKING SHARP ASS STICK OF METAL IN MY ARM SUCKING OUT THE BLOOD ISN'T PAINFUL AT ALL.   
   
See, I WANT to talk to my mother about it, but I don't know how I'd fucking start that kind of conversation, because I'm fucking retarded. So here I sit, feeling like shit and I can't fucking do anything because I'm a fucking idiot. Thanks, brain, you worthless fucking shit.
I fucking hate myself lately. For some reason, the other day, I got really fucking depressed and still am, I'm not eating right and sleeping a lot. It's fucking annoying, and along with that I get this constant weird feeling in my head, which I can describe I guess as a cloud in my head. But a pissed off one thats trying to rip its dick off. Because of this, I also feel like i'm perpetually about to cry, which is a fucking annoying feeling. I don't want to, and I seemingly can't. So what the fuck? My mother doesn't seem to notice the sad part though, she just thinks I'm sick and is probably going to make me get a blood test. And I fucking despise blood tests. "It won't be painful" BECAUSE A FUCKING SHARP ASS STICK OF METAL IN MY ARM SUCKING OUT THE BLOOD ISN'T PAINFUL AT ALL.

See, I WANT to talk to my mother about it, but I don't know how I'd fucking start that kind of conversation, because I'm fucking retarded. So here I sit, feeling like shit and I can't fucking do anything because I'm a fucking idiot. Thanks, brain, you worthless fucking shit.
User avatar #28588 to #28510 - everheat ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
Sounds like teenage angst, just live through it, it'll all b k.
User avatar #28584 to #28510 - fapdu (01/31/2013) [-]
bro
http:// www.omfgdogs. com/
let the dogs heal
really it will help
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#28513 to #28510 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
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#28514 to #28513 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
Thats precisely it.

I don't know how or who to talk to.
So...fuck.
User avatar #28515 to #28514 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
Just open your mouth and say something its that easy
User avatar #28516 to #28515 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
If it was that easy for me, I'd have fucking done it.

I can't fucking communicate with people properly, I haven't been able to since I was fucking born, don't pull that "Just talk" shit. No matter who I talk to, I never know what exactly to say and I fuck up every other sentence.
#28532 to #28516 - anonymous (01/31/2013) [-]
Don't worry, it's normal for autistic children to become depressed.
You say exactly this: "I fucking hate myself lately. For some reason, the other day, I got really fucking depressed and still am, I'm not eating right and sleeping a lot. It's fucking annoying, and along with that I get this constant weird feeling in my head, which I can describe I guess as a cloud in my head. But a pissed off one thats trying to rip its dick off. Because of this, I also feel like i'm perpetually about to cry, which is a fucking annoying feeling. I don't want to, and I seemingly can't. So what the fuck? My mother doesn't seem to notice the sad part though, she just thinks I'm sick and is probably going to make me get a blood test. And I fucking despise blood tests. "It won't be painful" BECAUSE A FUCKING SHARP ASS STICK OF METAL IN MY ARM SUCKING OUT THE BLOOD ISN'T PAINFUL AT ALL.

See, I WANT to talk to my mother about it, but I don't know how I'd fucking start that kind of conversation, because I'm fucking retarded. So here I sit, feeling like shit and I can't fucking do anything because I'm a fucking idiot. Thanks, brain, you worthless fucking shit."
User avatar #28535 to #28532 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
I don't understand what you're driving at here.
#28537 to #28535 - anonymous (01/31/2013) [-]
You've already said to us what you need to say to someone who can actually help you. Depression is a serious issue, and if it takes writing down that paragraph and reading it like a script to your mother or a psychiatrist, that is what you need to do.
#28538 to #28537 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
Thats all well and good but I don't think saying to my mother "I want to talk to my mother about it" will make much sense.

Alright, bad jokes out of the way, makes...sense. I just need to actually be able to have any sort of courage.
User avatar #28589 to #28538 - everheat ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
You can do anything if your mind and/or body requires it, you can. Just write it down, and read it. Force yourself if neccessary.
User avatar #28518 to #28516 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
Well then I did what I could the only advice I can give you know is grow a fucking pair of balls and tell someone your issue. You are more than willing to talk about it on a internet forum with complete strangers your feelings but you can't talk about it with some one whose job it is to take care of you right now you are like those facebook losers that post they are upset then don't want to talk about it. In short grow a pair speak up don't like what I had to say well deal with it because coddling isn't always the answer.
User avatar #28520 to #28518 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
"Lets tell the clearly depressed guy hes pathetic!"

You see this? You see that right there? Thats not FUCKING helpful to anyone. I can't fucking get over my social anxiety willy fucking nilly, I can't look any living being in the fucking eyes, I keep to myself, I don't talk to anyone about this shit, I want to, but simply can't find the words, If I try I can guarantee I would freak the fuck out, I wouldn't be able to get a word out. It's easy to talk through text to people I don't know and will never meet, actually talking to people I've known since I was born who's reactions may get way the fuck out of hand and possibly outright end bad, thats another fucking story.
User avatar #28522 to #28520 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
Im sorry maybe I should coddle you, look I told you what you should do you claim it is to hard we listen up sunny jim the real world ain't sunshine and roses and it will beat you down again and again if you let it but you need to man up and continue to get back up and spit in its the face and tell it you won't give in and by you not wanting to talk about your problem now then you are giving in and letting the real world win
User avatar #28523 to #28522 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
The real world wins either way, so fuck it. Whats the fucking point?

Usually I DO feel better, I fucking USUALLY man up, without talking about it, but I'm DONE, I'm fucking drained at this point, I give. the fuck. up. We get born and we die. Rarely is anyone remembered. If they are, it won't matter eventually. So. Fuck. It. Why bother trying?
User avatar #28524 to #28523 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
How old are you
User avatar #28527 to #28524 - zoidbergxxv (01/31/2013) [-]
dude you clearly dont understand so just shut your moutth
User avatar #28531 to #28527 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
Oh Im sorry is it wrong to be tough on him is life going to be a little easier on him, I told him not to let life beat him down and keep him there but he already is willing to let that happen
User avatar #28533 to #28531 - zoidbergxxv (01/31/2013) [-]
you obviously don't understand what it's like to be depressed so just shut the fuck up
User avatar #28534 to #28533 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
You are right I don't so lets do the easy way and give him some medication instead of talking about it
User avatar #28536 to #28534 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
No, fuck medication.
User avatar #28539 to #28536 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
Good thats a start

watch this video starting at 1:38
www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Z5OookwOoY

User avatar #28540 to #28539 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
No, piss off.
User avatar #28541 to #28540 - defender (01/31/2013) [-]
Fine, all it is some inspirational videos which would help since you say fuck medication but hey you can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink
#28528 to #28527 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
Someone fucking agrees with me about this for once.
User avatar #28525 to #28524 - EdwardNigma ONLINE (01/31/2013) [-]
How is that relevant?
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