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User avatar #176 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
same thing (basically) happened to me with my dad. tough **** , man. hope none of you ever have to go through it.
#185 to #176 - nobleknight ONLINE (02/15/2013) [-]
I came home from college, walked past my dad and used the restroom. Came out and he was dead. He died while I was in the bathroom...
User avatar #179 to #176 - fcukyourcouch (02/15/2013) [-]
It happened with me and my mom. **** scars you.
User avatar #181 to #179 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
**** yeah it does. its been 8 years but...it's still there. I'd tell you the whole story but you dont wanna hear that. I was only 10, man. I still cry so hard.
User avatar #194 to #181 - bigchilla (02/15/2013) [-]
my dad died when i was 10 aswell, i never seen him though so i guess its more devastating when you actually have a connection with someone, my father is just a void in my life.
User avatar #197 to #194 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
different people react in different ways, man.
User avatar #182 to #181 - fcukyourcouch (02/15/2013) [-]
You can tell me. I'll listen.
User avatar #193 to #182 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
alright man. thanks. I was 10 and basically the night before I had the choice to go to my dads house or go to a friends house. of course I choose to go over to my buds house because who wants to spend time with boring old dad, right? wrong. so I stayed the night at my friends house and the next morning they drove me to my dads house and I entered the house and went around the first floor calling out for him. didn't find him. I finally opened the door to the upstairs room where he sleeps and I got up there and saw a lump under the covers and knew it was him. As I approached I remember seeing him a little discolored but it was halloween in 2 days so I thought it was a joke. I called out dad it's time to get up and he didnt respond. I went over and grabbed his hand and I said dad get up again. he didn't get up. I dropped his hand and then I blacked out and the next thing I can remember is opening the door to say "he's not breathing" to my friends mom. blacked out again and the last thing I remember is sitting on my lawn with the neighbors as I watched them haul my dad out into the ambulance. I never got to say goodbye. I never got to spend alot of time with him as a kid. I never noticed how fun it was to hang out with him until he was gone. Most of the time it's when people or my sisters mention certain things about him then my mind gets carried to that one ******* morning and I start to re-live it. My heart rate goes up and I start to sweat. I can like see everything from that morning like its right it front of me. My left hand and forearm start to shake uncontrollably. I am shivering this whole time and the sorrow is just there and its coming on non-stop...and....I cry. hard. I will never forget what his hand felt like or what he looked like. I still wake up in a cold sweat and my left arm shaking.
User avatar #216 to #193 - mrastrozombie (02/15/2013) [-]
I know nothing I'd say would change how you feel, but you shouldn't feel guilt. How were you to know that tragedy would occur? I'm sure he wouldn't want you doing to yourself. I'm sorry that happened to ya, and to make this comment even gayer, I hope you feel better.
User avatar #346 to #216 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
I know I know. it's still hard man.
User avatar #201 to #193 - fcukyourcouch (02/15/2013) [-]
Gosh, dude. Now I'm crying. I'm so sorry that had to happen to you. No one deserves that kind of pain nor do they deserve to witness that.
User avatar #203 to #201 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
it is the single worst thing to have happened to me to this day. don't worry man im crying to. wanna share your story or would u like to keep it quiet. I'll listen, dude.
User avatar #214 to #203 - fcukyourcouch (02/15/2013) [-]
Sure, I'll tell. I've never had a chance to tell anyone.

This is gonna be a little long.

Four years ago, my mom got really sick. She couldn't keep any food or water down. So my dad took her to the ER. They said her liver was failing and there was something wrong with her pancreas. She stayed in there for like three months. I went to visit her everyday because we were really close. She was literally my best friend. In early March of 09, they told her she could go home. She said she was getting better and could finally eat without throwing up. She lied. She didn't tell us because she didn't want us to worry. (I found out she was still throwing up because she started writing in a journal that we found later on.) While my dad would be at work, she would stay at my sister's because she didn't want to be alone. She got really depressed from being in the hospital for so long. But that last day, my dad tried to wake her up to go to my sister's, but she kept groaning, so he just let her stay in bed. When I got home from school, i saw my sister's car in the driveway. I knew something was wrong because the door was wide open. I walked in and my mom was laying in the middle of the living room floor and my dad was trying to give her CPR while my sister was on the phone with the ambulance. I felt her face and she was still kind of warm. So finally the ambulance got there and my sister and dad went outside to give the guys space, but I got trapped in a corner so I had to sit there and watch the emts try to revive her. I still have nightmares about that. Eventually, the main emt said to put her on the stretcher. So we followed the ambulance to the hospital. When we got there, we all sat in the waiting room, then the doctor called us into the conference room, which was this small little room with a few chairs. I immediately knew. He told us there was nothing else they could do and that they tried everything. My last words to her were, "see you tomorrow."
User avatar #344 to #214 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
**** . sorry man. I fell asleep last night. you got trapped in the corner? that's ******* terrible! why didn't they let you out! I suppose they were busy but get the kid out of there first. did they every give you a reason for why her liver failed? I demanded to know what happened to my dad and they said he had one of the biggest hearts they had ever seen. It literally got so big that the electrical pulses couldnt cross over the whole thing to keep it pumping. from that day I vowed to always stay healthy. for the rest of my life. it's been good so far.
User avatar #353 to #344 - fcukyourcouch (02/16/2013) [-]
Well, she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in '02 and between the pain and depression, she got addicted to pain killers, which eventually started killing her liver.
User avatar #354 to #353 - JohnTheRipper (02/16/2013) [-]
**** man. that blows ass. I'm sorry.
User avatar #355 to #354 - fcukyourcouch (02/16/2013) [-]
At least she's not in pain anymore. That's all I keep thinking.
User avatar #356 to #355 - JohnTheRipper (02/16/2013) [-]
User avatar #228 to #214 - ichtudirweh (02/15/2013) [-]
Stop giving me feels please.
User avatar #347 to #228 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
feels the feels. it's alright.
#177 to #176 - xxxfaiaokamixxx (02/15/2013) [-]
I have with my grandpa :c
Was woken up from my sleep after staying up all night, taking care of him and being told that he has passed away :c
I tried my best TT^TT
User avatar #183 to #177 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
You didn't try. You DID your best. Don't ever think less, man. when my dad died, the night before I had the choice to go to my dads for the weekend or stay at a friends house. of course being 10 im gonna go to my pals house. I still think if I had gone to my dads house. maybe. just maybe. I could've done something.
#184 to #183 - xxxfaiaokamixxx (02/15/2013) [-]
I know..... I just... Wish I could've done more for him to be here...
I promised him that I was going to graduate for him and that he promised me that he would come to my graduation ceremony... And now....
User avatar #186 to #184 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
he's watching you from above (if you believe in that sort of thing). He was there in spirit. Even if you don't believe that just when you get up in the morning have a look in the mirror and think "what can I do to make him proud" and give it some good thought then do those things. It helps knowing. That's what I do every morning.
#192 to #186 - xxxfaiaokamixxx (02/15/2013) [-]
My family got him cremated, so he can stay with us still.
I havent graduated yet..
And I know... I still go to school for him...
User avatar #196 to #192 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
It will all be worth it man. We didnt get a cremation but I've got a few of my dads things that (from what I know) only I know about. I always keep one of them on me.
#198 to #196 - xxxfaiaokamixxx (02/15/2013) [-]
I want to have either a vial of my grandfather's ashes and have it wrapped around my neck, like a necklace, or have his ashes in ink and have a special tattoo in his name... But... I dont want to open his urn or anything....
User avatar #199 to #198 - JohnTheRipper (02/15/2013) [-]
best not man. Im getting a tattoo for my dad here pretty soon. just havent had a whole lot of time to get it.
#200 to #199 - xxxfaiaokamixxx (02/15/2013) [-]
YEah.... I have a tattoo all planned out for my grandfather, just havent found a tattooist who would do it for me. Dont have the money to get one myself
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