i know what that feeling of happiness is like. it was my first 4 digit paycheck that i recieved and i was in a bookstore my parents had allowed me leave from rent as they had just won a couple grand from the lotto.. i left that day with an armful of my favourite books filled with anticipation of indulging my mind between the covers of such fantastic tales.. that was the happiest 3 weeks of my life as i sunk from this world and into another within the pages of a book.
perhaps oneday you yourself will find something that enthrals you to the point where you fill with bliss. i hope you do