So, this feels like the appropriate place to give my similar feels story.
*Ahem*
>super betafag throughout high school, had insomnia and was depressed, never really found my clique
>freshman year, I get a crush on a femanon, but she's way more popular and good-looking than me, and I don't have the confidence to make a move
>fast forward three-ish years of not making any moves, but I've started to develop into the same group of friends as her. Get her number as part of a group project.
>we start talking. a lot. She'd even text me until she fell asleep several nights a week. I felt bad, because I knew she had a boyfriend, but she made me happy like nobody else did
>talking became hanging out, and soon enough there wasn't a single day where I didn't talk to her or see her.
>I think I love her
>she breaks up with her boyfriend, a few weeks before graduation. She seems distraught, and I try to comfort her the best I can, but I don't want to fuck it up by making a move at the wrong time. But I know I have to do it soon, because I was going to leave for a job in New Mexico (I am from far away from NM)
>Betafagness wins out, I never ask her cause the time never seemed right, and left for NM. She called me the night I left. She cried when she said goodbye to me
>Be angry at myself the entire three months I'm out in NM. I don't get any cell reception out there though, so I can't talk to her, or anyone else really
>decide to make it up when I get back. meet her with a big romantic gesture. I don't tell her the day I come back, and I go out and buy her white roses (her favorite flower) and a box of chocolates, dress up real nice. gonna surprise her at her door.
>go over to her place after building up all the confidence I could possibly muster
>knock on the door
>heart drops as she opens the door with my my best friend
>turns out that after I left, they got together.
>Insomnia came back
>felt betrayed
>forever beta, as they're still together, and I never said anything.