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#1 - sheepyhead (01/06/2013) [-]
ITT: Crippled pirates
#187 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/14/2013) [-]
by putting yourself out there with a thick enough suit of armor to take what the uninformed masses spew your way
User avatar #188 to #187 - Kairyuka (01/15/2013) [-]
You don't understand man. I'm disappointing myself with what I do. I have no confidence that I'm doing anything right, and I don't have anyone I trust enough to convince me that I'm right. So I'm just wrong. I know life has no right answers, but it has plenty of wrong ones.
User avatar #569 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/11/2013) [-]
anything else you wana throw out there before i go to bed? i gotta be up in five hours and am about to call it
User avatar #570 to #569 - Kairyuka (02/11/2013) [-]
Goodnight bro.
User avatar #571 to #570 - facetiousrunner (02/11/2013) [-]
cheers, see you around
User avatar #550 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
i see nothing wrong with that taste. It overlaps with mine in someways
User avatar #551 to #550 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
Yup, but no one wants to hear it :D
I'm completely unlikable, even my taste in music is horrible and wrong :D
User avatar #552 to #551 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
then why does my slight approval happen
User avatar #553 to #552 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
Most likely because you're talking to me :D
You can't just say "your taste sucks", that would be impolite.
User avatar #554 to #553 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
I'm kinda a douche so I feel no harm in doing that when it comes to rap and most country.
User avatar #555 to #554 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
I can respect the good aspects of rap and country. Country utilizes some great guitar and banjo some times, and the lyrical focus in good rap can be completely amazing.
User avatar #556 to #555 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
when i say rap, I mean the garbage that really isn't anything musically. I appreciate people like eminem. Most country. Johnny Cash has my heart forever
User avatar #557 to #556 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
I don't really listen to rap or country, but I like KoRn's use of rap.
User avatar #558 to #557 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
fun fact, first recorded rap to be released was Blondie in Rapture. so a white girl started rap basically lolz
User avatar #559 to #558 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
I see.
User avatar #560 to #559 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
but moving on, i went on a tangent there.
User avatar #561 to #560 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
What were we talking about again?
User avatar #562 to #561 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
i dont really feel like scrolling up and checking through the storm of purple lines
User avatar #563 to #562 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
Oh well
User avatar #565 to #563 - facetiousrunner (02/11/2013) [-]
uhhhhh got anything?
User avatar #566 to #565 - Kairyuka (02/11/2013) [-]
How about talking about my increasing depression? :D
User avatar #567 to #566 - facetiousrunner (02/11/2013) [-]
whatver floats your boat, i'm here to listen
User avatar #568 to #567 - Kairyuka (02/11/2013) [-]
Well I'm feeling like I'm too late to the party. That no one could ever want me around, and that feeling is becoming so strong that I'm actually feeling sick. Every time I think about it, I want to throw up. I didn't sleep well tonight because of what I've come to realize. I'm not a guy who'll ever encounter mutual love. That's how it is.
User avatar #532 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/09/2013) [-]
a lotta people did about 18ish years ago
User avatar #533 to #532 - Kairyuka (02/09/2013) [-]
That wasn't me, every molecule in my body has been replaced since then
User avatar #534 to #533 - facetiousrunner (02/09/2013) [-]
your neurons havent been replaced
User avatar #535 to #534 - Kairyuka (02/09/2013) [-]
Jup they have. That's how it works, the body keeps replacing cells. Even in the brain.
User avatar #536 to #535 - facetiousrunner (02/09/2013) [-]
It has been demonstrated that neurogenesis can sometimes occur in the adult vertebrate brain, a finding that led to controversy in 1999.[27] However, more recent studies of the age of human neurons suggest that this process occurs only for a minority of cells, and the overwhelming majority of neurons comprising the neocortex were formed before birth and persist without replacement.
User avatar #537 to #536 - Kairyuka (02/09/2013) [-]
Still, people won't see me naked though xD
User avatar #538 to #537 - facetiousrunner (02/09/2013) [-]
and redirected.........
User avatar #539 to #538 - Kairyuka (02/09/2013) [-]
www.youtube.com/watch?v=GDyck4ZotSE
I love the lyrics to this song. Songs like those place me in that dream world where my ideals aren't ridiculous :D
User avatar #541 to #540 - Kairyuka (02/09/2013) [-]
Rammstein ain't my cup of tea. They've said themselves that they're in it for the shows, not as much for the music. Also, industrial rock is kinda boring :\
User avatar #542 to #541 - facetiousrunner (02/09/2013) [-]
so sad for you. I have an odd taste so things liek this pop up
User avatar #543 to #542 - Kairyuka (02/09/2013) [-]
Well, I do happen to have the best taste in the world xD
User avatar #544 to #543 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
mister confident, and sorry had another meet. So i was outta contact with the world for a bit again.
User avatar #545 to #544 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
It's not confidence, it's truth. It's subjective taste, so to me, it's the best taste in the world.
User avatar #546 to #545 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
unless you like rap and country, then I say no you're wrong.
User avatar #547 to #546 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
That's still your opinion on my taste. In my opinion, I have the best taste in the world. Sucks that no one else thinks that way.
User avatar #548 to #547 - facetiousrunner (02/10/2013) [-]
what do you listen to?
User avatar #549 to #548 - Kairyuka (02/10/2013) [-]
Metal and rock mostly, but not classical bands. I'm into new bands, and already there it's a mistake. Also, funk, disco and a capella are genres I like.
User avatar #514 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
you might not have your computer though!
User avatar #515 to #514 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
I do. I just live in my room, not much will change.
User avatar #516 to #515 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
na dude, full hermits go up a mountain and get a manly beard.
User avatar #517 to #516 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
AHAHAHAHA :,D
You haven't seen my face man. My beard is even more pathetic than the rest of me
User avatar #518 to #517 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
i dunno im sporting a pretty ****** mustache right now. ******* conference stache. i look straight pedo
User avatar #519 to #518 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
I just look like a fat neckbeard :D
User avatar #520 to #519 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
i can't even grow hair there. I sport a trashy blonde side burns and black mo/goatee thingy
User avatar #521 to #520 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
Haha, I look like a hobo, but with a pathetic beard c:
User avatar #522 to #521 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
im 20 years old and can't even grow a full beard that is all one color. mine is just pedo and trashy esque
User avatar #523 to #522 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
I'm 19 years old, and my beard looks like someone glued pubes to my face. Also, I've got completely no hair on my chest, and my body looks like some took 5 average-looking people and took all the worst body parts and glued them together c:
Fat legs, thin arms, crooked back, insane face, retarded body hair growth.
User avatar #524 to #523 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
at least im tone i guess. 140 at 6-1, skinny as **** though. Constant working out for six years now does that
User avatar #525 to #524 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
Yup, and people like that.
I just look like an abomination c:
Which I try to hide with baggy clothes. Poorly.
User avatar #526 to #525 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
well im quite pale so i stand out when im out running. Lack of sun early in life does that to you
User avatar #527 to #526 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
Ahaha, you think you're pale? You haven't seen my stomach!
User avatar #528 to #527 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
although i live in the south now, I don't tan. I just burn. I was born pretty damn far up north and saw no sun fro a while
User avatar #529 to #528 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
I'm just a ball of dough though. Hairy in all the wrong places, white and floppy. It's no wonder no one has ever been attracted to me (._.)
User avatar #530 to #529 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
you could have the awkard thin patchy hair i have. its quite a panty dropper.
User avatar #531 to #530 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
Haha. Not like anyone is gonna see me naked anyways xD
User avatar #496 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
that all depends on your outlook on religion and that now, doesnt it
User avatar #497 to #496 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
I depends only on my outlook on the supposed afterlife. And I have no reason to assume that it continues after that.
User avatar #498 to #497 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
thats why its called faith
User avatar #499 to #498 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
Yup. And I have faith that nothing happens. So why waste my time hoping for that?
User avatar #500 to #499 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
because hope is one of the few things in this world someone can have for sure
User avatar #501 to #500 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
Well I don't waste my time hoping for impossibilities. Also why I've chosen to push my feelings down for now.
User avatar #502 to #501 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
and they will eventually come bursting to the surface
User avatar #503 to #502 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
That'll be the future me's problem. It won't serve me any good to emote my feelings when I can't change anything. So I'll just ignore them. **** my feelings, they can go to hell.
User avatar #504 to #503 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
i think everyone feels the same about feelings.
User avatar #505 to #504 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
But I'm not good at ignoring them. I choose to, anyways though. They haven't served me in the past, they won't serve me now.
User avatar #506 to #505 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
who knows, also on a side note comments from this have already been rolled three times for me
User avatar #507 to #506 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
I don't get these comments rolled though.
Some times I wonder if I'm wrong. Again.
That I should feel these emotions. That I should communicate them. Tell people how I feel. But nah. That will only scare everyone away.
User avatar #508 to #507 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
love is finding the person who take everything wrong with you and stride and loves you all the same. nobody is perfect.
User avatar #509 to #508 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
Haha, but I'm compatible with no one c:
User avatar #510 to #509 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
again crazier/ worse people have found someone. I have faith in you. If you don't have faith in yourself. have faith in me, the guy who has faith in you.
User avatar #511 to #510 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
I won't say that I don't have faith in myself, because I kinda think I'm subconsciously still hanging on to a little shred of hope, but I've chosen to not care. It doesn't matter at all. I can always just imagine that I'm curling up with one of my fictional love interests, that is something. It doesn't matter that no one likes me. I can live without people.
User avatar #512 to #511 - facetiousrunner (02/08/2013) [-]
although sad, a lot of people do go hermit style
User avatar #513 to #512 - Kairyuka (02/08/2013) [-]
Yup. I guess it won't change much anyways.
User avatar #477 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
why is that? There is so much out there any taste can be satisfied. I'm out for a bit practice calls!
User avatar #478 to #477 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
Well I can't seem to focus on it. I've taken to watching the show Fact or Faked though. Very interesting to an /x/phile as myself.
User avatar #480 to #478 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
i finally got around to reading your fan fic. I like it so far. Is there more than just this first chapter? I'd like to read more for sure.
User avatar #481 to #480 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
I haven't written anymore yet, although I have some ideas in the back of my head. Dunno when I'll realize them though, maybe if I get some time next week.
User avatar #482 to #481 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
you should get right on that
User avatar #483 to #482 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
I really should. I'm kinda busy lately though :\
User avatar #484 to #483 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
but my stupid wants and needs that really don't matter
User avatar #485 to #484 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
Haha, don't worry, I'll definitely write more. Writing about a self-insert is a great way to vent and dream of a better life.
User avatar #486 to #485 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
everyone has that thing that is a release for them
User avatar #487 to #486 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
Yeah. Also, it feels good to remove myself from reality, because my reality is sad.
User avatar #488 to #487 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
the world is quite a sad place, sadly
User avatar #489 to #488 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
But there are so many happy people in it. That's what I can't have. But at least I can do other things, happiness is not required for education.
User avatar #490 to #489 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
overall though life really isnt fair, its just how positive can you stay
User avatar #491 to #490 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
Exactly, life isn't fair. Life is not fair at all. Hence why I'm certain that I'll always be alone.
User avatar #492 to #491 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
no but it has this funny of making things alright
User avatar #493 to #492 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
Well it sure as hell is taking its sweet time. But oh well, the longing doesn't matter when you've given up.
User avatar #494 to #493 - facetiousrunner (02/07/2013) [-]
again not fair but it all ends up working out
User avatar #495 to #494 - Kairyuka (02/07/2013) [-]
Yeah. Because when I'm dead, I won't care anymore.
User avatar #479 to #478 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
it takes a lot for one to hook me. So it is quite the uphill battle.
User avatar #459 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
nothing much just going through classes and running
User avatar #460 to #459 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
As long as you're not running through class, that sounds fine c:
User avatar #461 to #460 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
true that. I just sit there and sometimes listen. Now I'm out looking for a new anime. I just finished Sword Art Online, amazing btw.
User avatar #462 to #461 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
I've heard mixed opinions on it. You watched Soul Eater?
User avatar #463 to #462 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
No I have yet to, my only concern is I don't want to get sucked into another series that has like a hundred episodes. Fairy Tail damn near ruined my last semester of college. So many episodes watched in such a short time
User avatar #464 to #463 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
Soul Eater has only about 50 though. Also, I recommend Bakemonogatari/Nisemonogatari. That's an awesome series.
User avatar #465 to #464 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
Well I have some to try out now. My list right now is naruto, just ******* end god, Fairy Tail, and Sakura-sō no Pet na Kanojo. All on going which is alright I guess. Which do you more highly recommend?
User avatar #466 to #465 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
Of those three? Or of others I've watched?
User avatar #467 to #466 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
i mean of the ones you recommended or have watched. The three I put I've committed to. Even ******* Naruto that refuses to ******* end.
User avatar #468 to #467 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
Hm. Well I really liked Shijou Saikyo no Deshi Kenichi, but the anime was sadly sub-par to the manga. It's really sad to see such a good martial arts-series with such bad animation, when things with no movement whatsoever has great animation. It really annoys me.
User avatar #469 to #468 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
so watch it?
User avatar #470 to #469 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
I'd say, give it a try. The message is really good, although the anime doesn't get that far into the plot yet.
User avatar #471 to #470 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
so its ongoing?
User avatar #472 to #471 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
Not really, but I think a season two is planned.
User avatar #473 to #472 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
hmmm maybe i got it saved in a word document so i don't forget, cause i will forget especially with a non English esque title
User avatar #474 to #473 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
Well in English it's called History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi
User avatar #475 to #474 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
ill put that in the document also. helpful **** there
User avatar #476 to #475 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
No prob bro c:
I'm pretty much behind on the new seasons of anime though. I can't really watch anime any more.
User avatar #441 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
if you know you don't know how to treat someone, then wouldnt you inversely know how to treat them
User avatar #442 to #441 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
No. If I know I'm wrong, that doesn't tell me how I become right.
User avatar #443 to #442 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
thomas edison always said he didnt fail 100 times, just figured out 100 ways that don't work. Process of elimination.
User avatar #444 to #443 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
And I've tried and failed once. I'm way behind. But I've philosophized to come to the conclusion I've come to, instead of building it up on actual experience. So now I'm alone, and I have nothing to offer.
User avatar #445 to #444 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
so you get knocked down once and call ti quits?
User avatar #446 to #445 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
I didn't call it quits, everyone else did that for me. That's the thing with socializing, my effort doesn't matter at all, people still don't like me.
User avatar #447 to #446 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
saying the world is against you is admitting defeat.
User avatar #448 to #447 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
Then I'm defeated. I'm crushed. There's nothing left for me.
User avatar #449 to #448 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
as long as youre living you havent lost.
User avatar #450 to #449 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
It's the worst kind of defeat. The living dead.
User avatar #451 to #450 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
then stand up again.
User avatar #452 to #451 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
I am already standing. And walking. Flowing with the stream because I can't do anything extreme that could actually convince people that I have problems.
User avatar #453 to #452 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
everyone has problems, its how they deal with them. also cheers to over one month on this random dudes thread.
User avatar #454 to #453 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
Everyone has problems indeed. Real problems out in the real life. I'm the only one who doesn't have problems, and yet I'm sitting here, whining like a teenage girl because I've read some romance stories. Ahaha, how pathetic.
User avatar #455 to #454 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
the teenage girl analogy made me chuckle in class, jerk
User avatar #456 to #455 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
It wasn't even a joke, it's true.
User avatar #457 to #456 - facetiousrunner (02/06/2013) [-]
i just got an over the top image in my head from your description. happens
User avatar #458 to #457 - Kairyuka (02/06/2013) [-]
It sure does. So, what's up in your life?
User avatar #423 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/04/2013) [-]
and what will you do to change that?
User avatar #424 to #423 - Kairyuka (02/04/2013) [-]
Try to forget my dreams. Try to not feel.
User avatar #425 to #424 - facetiousrunner (02/04/2013) [-]
to bad that doesnt work though
User avatar #426 to #425 - Kairyuka (02/04/2013) [-]
Sadly. Only thing that could help me is a lobotomy
User avatar #427 to #426 - facetiousrunner (02/04/2013) [-]
if you just want to droll on yourself the rest of your life, sure
User avatar #428 to #427 - Kairyuka (02/04/2013) [-]
Better than this.
User avatar #429 to #428 - facetiousrunner (02/04/2013) [-]
ill disagree kindly on that point
User avatar #430 to #429 - Kairyuka (02/04/2013) [-]
Well I can't make my dreams come true. And then they only cause me pain. Better off without them.
User avatar #431 to #430 - facetiousrunner (02/04/2013) [-]
nothing is impossible.
User avatar #432 to #431 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
That's a stupid saying, lots of things are impossible.
User avatar #433 to #432 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
hit me with your best shot
User avatar #434 to #433 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
Me being genuinely loved. That's impossible.
User avatar #435 to #434 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
crazier things have happened. im not much of a betting man, against ncaa rules, but id bet against that
User avatar #436 to #435 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
Because you're not me. You don't see what I see.
User avatar #437 to #436 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
no but i have a decent understanding of the world
User avatar #438 to #437 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
So do I. Sadly.
User avatar #439 to #438 - facetiousrunner (02/05/2013) [-]
and they are crazier things happening in the world
User avatar #440 to #439 - Kairyuka (02/05/2013) [-]
Doesn't matter. It doesn't change how I feel when I'm outside. It's very obvious that I couldn't possibly treat a woman right. It's not like love is the only requirement for a relationship, sadly it is not enough to just be me.
User avatar #405 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
and that is why the human body is so interesting.
User avatar #406 to #405 - Kairyuka (02/02/2013) [-]
And warm. And soft.
User avatar #407 to #406 - facetiousrunner (02/02/2013) [-]
actually one of the most durable things ever, far from "soft"
User avatar #408 to #407 - Kairyuka (02/02/2013) [-]
Still. Warm and soft. I can't remember the warmth anymore though.
User avatar #409 to #408 - facetiousrunner (02/02/2013) [-]
actually technically bodies are quite cold. 98.6 is a lower end temp for mammals.
User avatar #410 to #409 - Kairyuka (02/03/2013) [-]
I'm not talking science here.
User avatar #411 to #410 - facetiousrunner (02/03/2013) [-]
im a facetious man.........
User avatar #412 to #411 - Kairyuka (02/03/2013) [-]
I noticed.
User avatar #413 to #412 - facetiousrunner (02/03/2013) [-]
seething with sarcasm
User avatar #414 to #413 - Kairyuka (02/03/2013) [-]
Yeah well I'm not in the best of moods.
User avatar #415 to #414 - facetiousrunner (02/03/2013) [-]
sorry if my sarcasm hits a rough spot. Sometimes its rough to try to read in over simple text, I also go to far sometimes. But those are just excuses, my bad.
User avatar #416 to #415 - Kairyuka (02/03/2013) [-]
Nah I'm sorry for being like this constantly. I swear, when I'm not sitting alone in my room, I'm actually pretty good at faking good mood.
User avatar #417 to #416 - facetiousrunner (02/03/2013) [-]
i feel no need to tell you to curb it. if it means anything im sad now because of freaking clannad after story. Holy ****
User avatar #418 to #417 - Kairyuka (02/03/2013) [-]
Yeah. I didn't like Nagisa, but Kyou's single episode after story hit me hard. I really wanted to hug her as she stood there in the rain. No way I could bring comfort and safety to anyone though.
User avatar #419 to #418 - facetiousrunner (02/03/2013) [-]
i only got three hours of sleep last night because i just couldnt stop. it was like a drug of feels
User avatar #420 to #419 - Kairyuka (02/03/2013) [-]
I hate it. I wish I'd never watched a single romance story.
User avatar #421 to #420 - facetiousrunner (02/03/2013) [-]
as a son of a romance novelist, that makes me sad
User avatar #422 to #421 - Kairyuka (02/03/2013) [-]
Don't you think it makes me sad? I can't just take all these stupid and ridiculous dreams out of my head now! I'm just ****** . Completely and utterly ****** . Alone.
User avatar #387 to #188 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
i seriously doubt there is literally no one or anything
User avatar #388 to #387 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
It's true. I had someone I thought I could trust. Turns out she didn't care either. I don't blame her, she didn't owe me anything. It would just be nice to be proven wrong some time.
User avatar #389 to #388 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
and now youre saying there is no one at all, period
User avatar #390 to #389 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
Yup. That's how it is. Everyone I meet only serve to confirm that.
User avatar #391 to #390 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
my mind is straight up farting out on me right now, to many tests. so you live in demark?
User avatar #392 to #391 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
I live in Denmark, yes.
User avatar #393 to #392 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
thats cool, although not to close, I have three European teammates. Britain, Switzerland, France. I don't know a ton bout Denmark though
User avatar #394 to #393 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
It's a pretty safe and rich country. Only youth that drinks more alcohol than our are the Irish, last I checked. I'm completely left behind because I don't drink, and I didn't get any friends while most people still didn't drink (at the age of 12-13)
User avatar #395 to #394 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
whats the age to start drinking there, legally of course
User avatar #396 to #395 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
There's no age at when it's illegal to drink, it's only illegal to buy alcohol before you're 16. In comparison, you can get a driver's license when you're 18. You are allowed to buy alcohol before you're an adult. It's stupid. But it's our culture.
User avatar #397 to #396 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
license at 16 for me. alcohol is still outside my reach at 19
User avatar #398 to #397 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
See? We have it completely backwards.
User avatar #399 to #398 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
i dunno 16 year olds should not be driving, i was such a bad driver
User avatar #400 to #399 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
And 14 year olds should not be drinking alcohol, in fact it causes even more damage to the brain if you're below about 21 years of age.
User avatar #401 to #400 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
for some people the brain develops after 21
User avatar #402 to #401 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
It's about 21 that it's supposed to be fully developed though. And in any case, alcohol before you're 21 is insane enough as it is. I just get so disappointed, it's like everyone is doing it. Drinking alcohol, smoking weed, having sex with random people. I don't want that, and I don't want this life I'm leading right now. There doesn't seem to be a middle way.
User avatar #403 to #402 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
take the robert frost path, the road less taken. And i was saying in some cases the brain does continue developing for a while. 21 isnt concrete
User avatar #404 to #403 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
I know, but it's a general estimate because you can't just evaluate everyone individually.
User avatar #369 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
isnt that all life really is?
User avatar #370 to #369 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
That's what I've come to realize. Romance? Love? True friendship? All absurd ideals dreamt up by a mind that reads too much fiction.
User avatar #371 to #370 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
fiction is what you make it, what you want to believe
User avatar #372 to #371 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
Yup. A fictional dream world to make up for how the real world isn't.
User avatar #373 to #372 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
the world is as real as you make it
User avatar #374 to #373 - Kairyuka (01/29/2013) [-]
Nah. The world is as real as the world allows.
User avatar #375 to #374 - facetiousrunner (01/30/2013) [-]
huh thought i replied to this, my bad. you can choose to fight or lay down
User avatar #376 to #375 - Kairyuka (01/30/2013) [-]
I've been fighting for 19 years to be able to live like I want to. Now I realize that that has changed nothing.
User avatar #377 to #376 - facetiousrunner (01/30/2013) [-]
i dunno, youve gone to school. learned new things. sounds like some change to me
User avatar #378 to #377 - Kairyuka (01/30/2013) [-]
It's not. It doesn't matter what I've learned in school, everyone who is not a retard could learn that. I just know that there is no one out there for me, no woman who would share my ideal of love with me. It's all just realism and cynicism.
User avatar #379 to #378 - facetiousrunner (01/30/2013) [-]
isnt the first step always a positive attitude?
User avatar #380 to #379 - Kairyuka (01/30/2013) [-]
I sure don't hope so, because then I'm screwed.
User avatar #381 to #380 - facetiousrunner (01/30/2013) [-]
then make the small steps towards a upwards attitude
User avatar #382 to #381 - Kairyuka (01/30/2013) [-]
Closest thing I come to a positive attitude is the optimistic pessimist: "It can't get any worse, might as well be reckless"
User avatar #383 to #382 - facetiousrunner (01/30/2013) [-]
a start is a start
User avatar #384 to #383 - Kairyuka (01/31/2013) [-]
I've started so many times. For once, I'd like to have a good end.
User avatar #385 to #384 - facetiousrunner (02/01/2013) [-]
all bout that perspective thing. didnt tell me you responded this time, stupid stupid
User avatar #386 to #385 - Kairyuka (02/01/2013) [-]
It's not about perspective. No matter the perspective, I'm still alone, I've always been.
#351 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
just gotta look into yourself and just figure it out. lots of searching
just gotta look into yourself and just figure it out. lots of searching
User avatar #352 to #351 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
I always feel I'm doing right until it all breaks down. I couldn't even be in a relationship because I'd know it wouldn't last. I couldn't hold anyone, because no one would want me to. I couldn't love anyone because no one could ever share that privilege with me. I'll just stand here and look at the people who can live.
#353 to #352 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
even hitler had a lover, nothing is impossible
even hitler had a lover, nothing is impossible
User avatar #354 to #353 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
Hitler was a passionate man with a dream, who turned Germany's economy good in just a few years. He was much more than I'll ever be, even with all the people he slaughtered. I'm pretty much worse off socially than Hitler.
#355 to #354 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
thats rather grim. Castro is another who had a wife.
thats rather grim. Castro is another who had a wife.
User avatar #356 to #355 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
Again, dictators had passions. They might also have been small, insecure men, but so am I, and I'm not out there conquering anything. That might give me the moral high grounds, but it doesn't change the fact that I'll never share love with anyone.
User avatar #357 to #356 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
no but if small men like them can come out with someone. It provides hope for everyone else. And to me you seem like a chill dude
User avatar #358 to #357 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
Only because you don't have me on Skype. When I get down, everyone of my online friends gets to know. And in detail. It's not like I understand why they want to talk to me in the first place anyways.
User avatar #359 to #358 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
do you need a reason to talk to someone. mine is just simple as cause i feel like it
User avatar #360 to #359 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
That doesn't work. It feels awkward, forced and ends very quickly again. And never picks up. Those brief encounters, I've tried more times than I can remember. Never worked. Never. I guess I'm just a ******* retard.
User avatar #361 to #360 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
such highs and lows bro, nostalgia critic needs to make more appearances.
User avatar #362 to #361 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
He's doing it monthly now.
User avatar #363 to #362 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
i miss weekly =(
User avatar #364 to #363 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
Better than him stopping I guess. Not like it ******* matters, it's only more distraction. Some times I wish I never existed.
User avatar #365 to #364 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
your a fan of flipping back to depression huh? we can go onto the butterfly effect, both the bad and good ends
User avatar #366 to #365 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
I don't think it's depression though. I'm not being pessimistic, I'm being realistic. I will always be completely alone. Always.
User avatar #367 to #366 - facetiousrunner (01/28/2013) [-]
"Severe despondency and dejection, accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy." sounds kinda spot on to me
User avatar #368 to #367 - Kairyuka (01/28/2013) [-]
Then I've had a depression my entire life. It's not like I can't do **** , I can still rip strings on my guitar and program some stupid **** . It just doesn't matter. I'll maybe find an alright job and make some pointless money to buy pointless **** and then I'll die.
User avatar #333 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
ive just got those numeric times staring at me, stupid child me
User avatar #334 to #333 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
Hehe. Well it's fairly obvious when you finally manage to beat it c:
User avatar #335 to #334 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
yeah, just a touch
User avatar #336 to #335 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
So what are you up to now?
User avatar #337 to #336 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
well im dead tired from getting back at four yesterday and ran 12 miles today. so im just sitting here in till im tired enough for a nap
User avatar #338 to #337 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
Sounds like you'll sleep well~
I just wrote a program that rotates a figure based on Cartesian coordinates by converting them to polar coordinates and increasing the angle by a value, then converting them back. It's quite great.
User avatar #339 to #338 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
my last math class was pre cal, first semester of college. you are speaking straight foreign language to me
User avatar #340 to #339 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
Wooo~
Remember, to divide two complex numbers, you need to multiply the division with the complex conjugation of the denominator divided with itself. It's easy~
#341 to #340 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
stop that.
stop that.
#342 to #341 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
U huehuehue bro?
#344 to #343 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
Oh man, I'll save that gif, I love realistic crying photos. I have lots of experience with crying, I can tell when crying is realistic. That gif looks just as pathetic as I feel
Oh man, I'll save that gif, I love realistic crying photos. I have lots of experience with crying, I can tell when crying is realistic. That gif looks just as pathetic as I feel
#345 to #344 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
oh well i have quiet a few of these!
oh well i have quiet a few of these!
#346 to #345 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
It's kinda like I've forgotten why I cry. It can't just be because I miss the warmth of another person, that would just be pathetic. Well I guess that's actually it then. Huh.
#347 to #346 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
being single for the past two years i feel the pain, if even slightly
being single for the past two years i feel the pain, if even slightly
User avatar #348 to #347 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
That's the worst thing, I've always been single. Every single shred of love I've ever felt has been one-sided. And I doubt that would ever change.
#349 to #348 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
i just dont have the time anymore to give enough
i just dont have the time anymore to give enough
User avatar #350 to #349 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
Well, you know what your issue is. I don't know. There must be something fundamentally wrong with what I do and how I feel. I'm just broken.
User avatar #315 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/24/2013) [-]
always do
User avatar #316 to #315 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
Well that's good c:
So are you there now?
User avatar #317 to #316 - facetiousrunner (01/25/2013) [-]
my bus had spotty wifi, im there now
User avatar #318 to #317 - Kairyuka (01/25/2013) [-]
Yay~
User avatar #319 to #318 - facetiousrunner (01/26/2013) [-]
and had no free time and am on my way back yay
User avatar #320 to #319 - Kairyuka (01/26/2013) [-]
How did it go?
User avatar #321 to #320 - facetiousrunner (01/26/2013) [-]
got second in the mile and third in my relay, but i handed it off in first.
User avatar #322 to #321 - Kairyuka (01/26/2013) [-]
That's awesome man!
User avatar #323 to #322 - facetiousrunner (01/26/2013) [-]
although place wise its fine, i needed to run about two seconds faster in the mile. but i getta try again in two weeks
User avatar #324 to #323 - Kairyuka (01/26/2013) [-]
You're a regular Sonic, man
User avatar #325 to #324 - facetiousrunner (01/26/2013) [-]
na the guy who beat me by eight seconds in that mile is.
User avatar #326 to #325 - Kairyuka (01/26/2013) [-]
Still, it's pretty cool
User avatar #327 to #326 - facetiousrunner (01/26/2013) [-]
sure lets go with that, i still havent touched my personal best from almost two years ago though.
User avatar #328 to #327 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
Well I can't really give you any help, since you're 1000 times better at that. I'll cheer you on~
User avatar #329 to #328 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
just got to get my twenty year old self faster than my 17/18 year old self.
User avatar #330 to #329 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
It's nice to have goals and ambitions~
User avatar #331 to #330 - facetiousrunner (01/27/2013) [-]
to beat your younger self =p
User avatar #332 to #331 - Kairyuka (01/27/2013) [-]
I've chosen to forget my younger self. Nothing really happened.
User avatar #297 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
seem nice to me, although i guess my view is pretty one sided.
User avatar #298 to #297 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
You know what would help me? If someone hugged me. Without me prompting or asking for it. A real hug. I've forgotten how warm it feels.
#299 to #298 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
ive got this, if it helps just a slight amount. I'm off to go run and stuff. peace.
User avatar #300 to #299 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Internet hugs just aren't the same. But I appreciate the gesture. Good luck with running~
Following Emi's schedule?
User avatar #301 to #300 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
no bro college running, im a touch beyond that now.
User avatar #302 to #301 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
Oh right, sorry.
I've never been fond of physical training, I just find it plain boring. Now I'm trying to work up my stamina a bit though~
User avatar #303 to #302 - facetiousrunner (01/24/2013) [-]
its a lot more fun than people make it out to be
User avatar #304 to #303 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
Well I don't really like it. I can't really train just for training's sake. At least not for long at a time. I did enjoy my old kung-fu practice, but I didn't like the methods or the teachers much. Too sports-oriented.
User avatar #305 to #304 - facetiousrunner (01/24/2013) [-]
i feel ya. it isnt for everyone. Also if i vanish for a bit or become spotty in my replies, it's because im traveling for a meet and not sure if we have wifi or not. I leave in four hours soooooo yeah.
User avatar #306 to #305 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
It's alright, I'm a patient man. In some aspects.
User avatar #307 to #306 - facetiousrunner (01/24/2013) [-]
yep yep gotta go run some races.
User avatar #308 to #307 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
Gotta go fast~
User avatar #309 to #308 - facetiousrunner (01/24/2013) [-]
yep one full mile and a quarter mile. fast and hold a fast pace
User avatar #310 to #309 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
Woah man. I can barely run for two minutes.
User avatar #311 to #310 - facetiousrunner (01/24/2013) [-]
in cross i run six point two for a race. so this is nice and short
User avatar #312 to #311 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
Awesome man. Sounds like you're really good at it
User avatar #313 to #312 - facetiousrunner (01/24/2013) [-]
good enough, i get my ass kicked pretty hard sometimes. I might this race depending on what teams show up. Well im going to the bus and im not sure if it will have wifi. peace!
User avatar #314 to #313 - Kairyuka (01/24/2013) [-]
Have fun~
User avatar #279 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
he must think he is super popular
User avatar #280 to #279 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Maybe. Hey datdoode, have you noticed how we've been spamming up your content?
#281 to #280 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
broooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
broooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
User avatar #282 to #281 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Whateva c:
So what are you up to?
User avatar #283 to #282 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
i have class in seven hours and from some reason am not going to sleep........
User avatar #284 to #283 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Hahaha. Well that's how it is some times xD
What are you studying?
User avatar #285 to #284 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
my degree is in pre professional health studies with the hope to get into therapy school. Specifically for occupational therapy
User avatar #286 to #285 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Woah man, sounds useful!
User avatar #287 to #286 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
fasting growing job in america and its rewarding.
User avatar #288 to #287 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Well I'm planning on entering the IT business, that's a fast growing business too xD
User avatar #289 to #288 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
and you dont have to change diapers!
User avatar #290 to #289 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Yeah! :D
User avatar #291 to #290 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
so count yourself lucky
User avatar #292 to #291 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
My future me might be lucky. Not sure about this one though.
User avatar #293 to #292 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
look at that a positive remark
User avatar #294 to #293 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
I guess. I just wish... I wish that when I had a happy day like today, that it wasn't just caused by shallow values. It's not real happiness, it's just distraction.
User avatar #295 to #294 - facetiousrunner (01/23/2013) [-]
can't anything really be dubbed "shallow"
User avatar #296 to #295 - Kairyuka (01/23/2013) [-]
Something more than others. If it's just distractions, then it's shallow happiness. You know, I've been told before that it's surprising I'm as alone as I am, that I'm actually a pretty nice guy. I guess I just don't meet that many people.
User avatar #261 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
youll have to wait till i finish "The Rise of Silas Lapham" god screw that book
User avatar #262 to #261 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
Never heard of it.
User avatar #263 to #262 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
good, don't touch it. It's up there on my list of hate with "The Scarlet Letter" and "The Awakening"
User avatar #264 to #263 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
That's a lot of hate, I suppose?
User avatar #265 to #264 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
Oh Christ almighty. there is few things i truly hate, those three books are in that list
User avatar #266 to #265 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
Haha, sounds extreme xD
User avatar #267 to #266 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
im passionate about somethings
User avatar #268 to #267 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
Sounds like a fun thing to be~
User avatar #269 to #268 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
try it, not that hard.
User avatar #270 to #269 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
I try. It never seems genuine. So I'm the only one that feels the passion. It's okay.
User avatar #271 to #270 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
youre the only one that feels passion!?!?!?!?!?!?!
User avatar #272 to #271 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
I'm the only one that feels my own passion. No one else can sense when I'm genuinely passionate about something.
User avatar #273 to #272 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
ill see if i can see a passion for writing, once i get to your story. I'll probably read it on my trip to Arkansas this Thursday if things work out
User avatar #274 to #273 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
I guess I'm not passionate about writing as a whole. I was pretty passionate when I wrote that though, I just sat writing for almost two hours in a row.
User avatar #275 to #274 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
there is something right there.
User avatar #276 to #275 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
I'm not a very dedicated person though. I'm not motivated by competition and such, I'm just motivated by doing what I want to do. Mostly. I do feel duty and responsibility about some things.
User avatar #277 to #276 - facetiousrunner (01/22/2013) [-]
If I don't care for it I just don't do it. Simple as that. Unless it leads to something i want.
User avatar #278 to #277 - Kairyuka (01/22/2013) [-]
Yeah, sounds about right. Hey, you think OP has seen how many comments we've posted?
User avatar #243 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/20/2013) [-]
even simple reptiles?
User avatar #244 to #243 - Kairyuka (01/20/2013) [-]
I'm not that big a fan of reptiles. I mean, I think they're cute, but as far as pets go, I want something that I can cuddle. Only thing I can cuddle; animals and inanimate objects. Guess that's how it's going to be~
User avatar #245 to #244 - facetiousrunner (01/20/2013) [-]
you can cuddle a reptile or fish, its just odd.....
User avatar #246 to #245 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
It's not the same. Well, at least this pillow will never leave me.
User avatar #247 to #246 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
as long as its a comfy pillow all is well
User avatar #248 to #247 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
But if it's all I'll ever have. These material items are the only thing I'll always have. People just leave.
User avatar #249 to #248 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
and life goes on, its how it rolls
User avatar #250 to #249 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
Life goes on indeed. And before I know it I'm dead. Having lived alone.
User avatar #251 to #250 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
no one is truly ever alone, all depends on what you consider "company" also 251 so far, hot damn
User avatar #252 to #251 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
Haha, I truly am alone. I can write to people online, but no one wants to be with me in the end. No one stays after they have met me.
User avatar #253 to #252 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
in my overly optimistic way, i believe you will find someone
User avatar #254 to #253 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
It's getting harder and harder to believe that. For each person that leaves me, more of who I am is shattered and I can only be there to sweep the pieces under the rug.
User avatar #255 to #254 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
you should take up a career in writing on a side note. you make crazy visuals.
User avatar #256 to #255 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
Funny you should mention it, I just wrote a Katawa Shoujo fanfic that I uploaded in the channel. I wish I could use these skills to write good song lyrics though. Or maybe they are good too? I'unno.
User avatar #257 to #256 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
ill sneak a peak at it. Did you just put it up?
User avatar #258 to #257 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
It's here: www.funnyjunk.com/channel/katawashoujo/King+of+Fools+A+Katawa+Shoujo+fanfic/tvylGgi/
It's pretty much me inserting myself instead of Hisao, but I don't think it's half bad. And people agree with me.
User avatar #259 to #258 - facetiousrunner (01/21/2013) [-]
ill be the final judge of that! after i read this book for american lit =p. ill bookmark it
User avatar #260 to #259 - Kairyuka (01/21/2013) [-]
I'd love to get your opinion on it~
User avatar #225 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/18/2013) [-]
I'm not annoyed, sooo whats that mean
User avatar #226 to #225 - Kairyuka (01/18/2013) [-]
Believe me, it's not even that much with you. But I feel like I'm just burdening others with my sadness, and that's just a really bad thing to do.
User avatar #227 to #226 - facetiousrunner (01/18/2013) [-]
nothing cant be safely supported with one beam
User avatar #228 to #227 - Kairyuka (01/18/2013) [-]
That metaphor isn't really helping me though, because I can see what my actions cause. I make people turn away from me or ignore me.
User avatar #229 to #228 - facetiousrunner (01/18/2013) [-]
then the change must be started somewhere, right?
User avatar #230 to #229 - Kairyuka (01/18/2013) [-]
I don't know man. I can't figure this out. Maybe I should just follow the stream for a while, take things as they come.
User avatar #231 to #230 - facetiousrunner (01/18/2013) [-]
and you came to the answer yourself!
User avatar #232 to #231 - Kairyuka (01/18/2013) [-]
Problem is, that's what I've been doing most of my life, and look where it's led me! To a place where I've lost everyone else.
User avatar #233 to #232 - facetiousrunner (01/19/2013) [-]
then you need to find the answer that makes you the happiest, no one else has it
User avatar #234 to #233 - Kairyuka (01/19/2013) [-]
And I have no idea how to get that. Urgh. I wish I could just not care. Be motivated by regular sexual desire instead of all these feelings.
User avatar #235 to #234 - facetiousrunner (01/19/2013) [-]
is that what you really want? or what you want to believe? don't let society dictate who you are. That caring heart could mean a lot
User avatar #236 to #235 - Kairyuka (01/19/2013) [-]
Problem is, that might be what people say, but is that how people act? Could I start a relationship with ANYONE while having these thoughts? I doubt it, they're going to be misunderstood or hated very quickly
User avatar #237 to #236 - facetiousrunner (01/19/2013) [-]
there is always someone more ****** up or someone who will take you for what you are
User avatar #238 to #237 - Kairyuka (01/20/2013) [-]
I wish I could see that, but that's not how it is in real life.
User avatar #239 to #238 - facetiousrunner (01/20/2013) [-]
no thats how it is. just gotta look from different perspectives.
User avatar #240 to #239 - Kairyuka (01/20/2013) [-]
Nothing matters. There's nothing left for me out there. These dreams and beliefs I can't let go of are causing me to be less and less attached to this world.
User avatar #241 to #240 - facetiousrunner (01/20/2013) [-]
ever think of getting a cat or dog?
User avatar #242 to #241 - Kairyuka (01/20/2013) [-]
We can't have pets in this apartment. Also I'm allergic to almost every animal.
User avatar #207 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/16/2013) [-]
then you are on the right track and just have to have perseverance and patience.
User avatar #208 to #207 - Kairyuka (01/16/2013) [-]
Just having the hope to continue existing is sadly not that much of a quality. And I can't just be myself, in this world, who I am is not good. No one could like that. So I have to change myself to someone else, or I will live a lonely life.
User avatar #209 to #208 - facetiousrunner (01/16/2013) [-]
there is someone out there for everyone, just gotta look everywhere.
User avatar #210 to #209 - Kairyuka (01/17/2013) [-]
Yeah, I'm having my doubts about that
User avatar #211 to #210 - facetiousrunner (01/17/2013) [-]
you are a math man right?
User avatar #212 to #211 - Kairyuka (01/17/2013) [-]
I am, and don't start spout statistics at me, it doesn't work. People have tried that before. Just because it's a statistic doesn't mean that it holds true. I know enough about statistics to realize this.
User avatar #213 to #212 - facetiousrunner (01/17/2013) [-]
but the chances do point to a certain answers, the numbers never lie
User avatar #214 to #213 - Kairyuka (01/17/2013) [-]
They do lie, in fact. Especially when you try to push numbers onto something that really has too many variables to be measurable. All I know is that who I am is not someone who could be loved or share a stable relationship. I'm not good enough.
User avatar #215 to #214 - facetiousrunner (01/17/2013) [-]
im just saying there is someone out there for you. No one is doomed to eternal lonelyness
User avatar #216 to #215 - Kairyuka (01/17/2013) [-]
I'm glad you think so. I wish I could believe the same.
User avatar #217 to #216 - facetiousrunner (01/17/2013) [-]
all it takes is some hope
User avatar #218 to #217 - Kairyuka (01/17/2013) [-]
I've hoped long enough. I've been betrayed often enough. My hope is running out.
User avatar #219 to #218 - facetiousrunner (01/17/2013) [-]
but hope remains.
User avatar #220 to #219 - Kairyuka (01/17/2013) [-]
Does it? Maybe I only keep existing because I'm too weak to even end myself.
User avatar #221 to #220 - facetiousrunner (01/17/2013) [-]
ending yourself is the weakest solution. period.
User avatar #222 to #221 - Kairyuka (01/18/2013) [-]
Maybe. Maybe just existing while still giving up is the weakest solution.
User avatar #223 to #222 - facetiousrunner (01/18/2013) [-]
no because you have made the choice to live and deal with the problems. ending it, is saying im throwing my issues onto other people.
User avatar #224 to #223 - Kairyuka (01/18/2013) [-]
Haha, sadly, throwing my issues onto other people is what I'm best at. Like this discussion I'm having with you. Or the people I chat with on Skype. I just end up bothering them with my sadness, so the best choice is to just lie here alone, crying without annoying anyone.
#189 to #188 - facetiousrunner (01/15/2013) [-]
thought you ditched out on me for a bit there, long reply time. Then its just finding something that makes you happy despite the results. For me thats running. As long as i give it all I can't be angry with myself
thought you ditched out on me for a bit there, long reply time. Then its just finding something that makes you happy despite the results. For me thats running. As long as i give it all I can't be angry with myself
User avatar #190 to #189 - Kairyuka (01/15/2013) [-]
But I don't know if I'm giving it my all. Others become much better in much shorter time.
And sorry for the long reply time, but you replied to Sheepyhead, and I'm back on Kairyuka now
User avatar #191 to #190 - facetiousrunner (01/15/2013) [-]
oh makes sense, my bad. Equal opportunity doesnt equal, equal effort
User avatar #192 to #191 - Kairyuka (01/15/2013) [-]
Nah, but I guess it shows the limits of my talent. Oh well, it's not like being good at something would just make my issues go away. Unless I was good at being a likable person.
User avatar #193 to #192 - facetiousrunner (01/15/2013) [-]
no one is good at being likable, sad fact there
User avatar #194 to #193 - Kairyuka (01/15/2013) [-]
Then how come some people are so easily loved, and others like me are scorned?
User avatar #195 to #194 - facetiousrunner (01/15/2013) [-]
would you prefer false love from a false pretence?
User avatar #196 to #195 - Kairyuka (01/15/2013) [-]
I wouldn't. Some people just seem to find true love easily. And I'm just left behind.
User avatar #197 to #196 - facetiousrunner (01/15/2013) [-]
if it makes you feel better im flying the single plane
User avatar #198 to #197 - Kairyuka (01/15/2013) [-]
It doesn't really help me that others are in the same position as me. That only reinforces my belief that I couldn't share love with anyone to begin with. Despite all my romantic ideals, I've got no experience, so all those ideals are just dreams. Egoistic illusions from some fake world.
User avatar #199 to #198 - facetiousrunner (01/15/2013) [-]
everyone starts from somewhere
User avatar #200 to #199 - Kairyuka (01/15/2013) [-]
Everyone has already started. Except me.
User avatar #201 to #200 - facetiousrunner (01/15/2013) [-]
i dunno youre alive, so you started
User avatar #202 to #201 - Kairyuka (01/16/2013) [-]
No I didn't. I got thrown into the world and have consequently ignored it until just recently. And now it's too late.
User avatar #203 to #202 - facetiousrunner (01/16/2013) [-]
being alive is part of the battle
User avatar #204 to #203 - Kairyuka (01/16/2013) [-]
Existing is part of the battle, but not something I started. And now I've lost everyone else, more or less, so I have to try from the beginning. That makes it difficult to be with anyone else, because I have to constantly run to even be around others. I wish I could relax more with it.
User avatar #205 to #204 - facetiousrunner (01/16/2013) [-]
but you choose to continue to exist.
User avatar #206 to #205 - Kairyuka (01/16/2013) [-]
That I do. Sometimes I baffle myself, but I can't give up. Not like that.
#167 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
im actually sitting at this moment
im actually sitting at this moment
User avatar #168 to #167 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
You know what I mean. I am me, and I long for things that the me that is me could never have. So these contradicting feelings are just stuck inside me. It's a neverending debate on whether to change myself to be acceptable, or stay the same and never reach what I want.
#169 to #168 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
isnt that the question everyone must deal with
isnt that the question everyone must deal with
User avatar #170 to #169 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Really? I think it's just me though.
User avatar #172 to #171 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Then how do others cope? I don't think a grown man should cry himself to sleep as often as I do.
#173 to #172 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
just because gender stereotypes dictate men shouldnt cry, doesnt mean its wrong to. everyone is different
just because gender stereotypes dictate men shouldnt cry, doesnt mean its wrong to. everyone is different
User avatar #174 to #173 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Ah, but it's not just about gender roles, it's a general rule. I can't be like this. Who I am and what I long for, automatically exclude each other. I need to be confident and secure if I ever want to find one to share my life with.
#175 to #174 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
if you know that, then the change starts with yourself
if you know that, then the change starts with yourself
User avatar #176 to #175 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
My problem is, that to change myself, I need to get out and meet new people. For that I need some excuse. And I'm going out there. Sadly, right now I'm stuck, it's all in the future. Not too far away, but during the wait, I reserve the right to feel like I'm left alone here.
#177 to #176 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
sounds like you need a hobby
sounds like you need a hobby
User avatar #178 to #177 - Kairyuka (01/14/2013) [-]
I have lots, of which I'm decent at most and good at none. (Don't mind the account change, this is my main account that got banned)
User avatar #179 to #178 - facetiousrunner (01/14/2013) [-]
oh okay. practice makes perfect, right?
User avatar #180 to #179 - Kairyuka (01/14/2013) [-]
Some say that. I just don't seem to progress at all.
#181 to #180 - facetiousrunner (01/14/2013) [-]
that you can measure. some things cant be measured
User avatar #182 to #181 - Kairyuka (01/14/2013) [-]
Indeed.
User avatar #183 to #182 - facetiousrunner (01/14/2013) [-]
so dont attempt to measure, if it brings you a sense of fulfillment then who cares
User avatar #184 to #183 - Kairyuka (01/14/2013) [-]
I guess. It's just unfulfilling that I suck at what I do though.
User avatar #185 to #184 - facetiousrunner (01/14/2013) [-]
who cares if you suck though. its not a competition.
User avatar #186 to #185 - Kairyuka (01/14/2013) [-]
I care. I want to be able to express myself and I can't. And I have no idea how to become good enough to be able to.
#147 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
na your not a patient, pysch is just tedious to study because its one of the fasting evolving sciences out there. Just shows my level of patience thats all. If I wanted you to be a patient I'd charge
na your not a patient, pysch is just tedious to study because its one of the fasting evolving sciences out there. Just shows my level of patience thats all. If I wanted you to be a patient I'd charge
User avatar #148 to #147 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Haha, internet therapy, is it? I guess maybe that's what I need. Therapy. Somehow I doubt it, though.
#149 to #148 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
therapy, although horrible to say, implies id get money. I'm not. Just friends having a conversation.
therapy, although horrible to say, implies id get money. I'm not. Just friends having a conversation.
User avatar #150 to #149 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Hehe. I doubt that therapy could help me as much as finding some good friends c:
#151 to #150 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
cant get to the finish without a start
cant get to the finish without a start
User avatar #152 to #151 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
As spoken by a true runner~
#153 to #152 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
applies to all things
applies to all things
User avatar #154 to #153 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Indeed it does. Sometimes it's not that black and white though.
#155 to #154 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
things can be black and white if you look at them the right way
User avatar #156 to #155 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Not in real life, I'm afraid.
#157 to #156 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
again perspective.
again perspective.
User avatar #158 to #157 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
I don't want things to be black and white. I just want things to show that it's okay to be who I am.
#159 to #158 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
that is and shouldnt be a problem regardless. unless you have a knack for genocide or other illegal activities, nothing is to bad
that is and shouldnt be a problem regardless. unless you have a knack for genocide or other illegal activities, nothing is to bad
User avatar #160 to #159 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
I'm afraid it's nothing extreme, some times it's way too subtle. I just keep being reminded that I'm in the wrong.
#161 to #160 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
couldnt anybody be in the wrong depending on the perspective of things
User avatar #162 to #161 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Yeah, but everything still seems to be against me.
#163 to #162 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
welcome to everyone, it always seems the world wants to stop you
User avatar #164 to #163 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
I guess others are just strong enough to ignore it~
#165 to #164 - facetiousrunner (01/13/2013) [-]
then rise up
then rise up
User avatar #166 to #165 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Haha, that's an easy thing to say for someone already standing~
#126 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/10/2013) [-]
in till you realize that we area group of awkward tall skinny white dudes who thrive on pain of running
in till you realize that we area group of awkward tall skinny white dudes who thrive on pain of running
User avatar #127 to #126 - sheepyhead (01/10/2013) [-]
But yet you develop. You can measure your progress in 1/100th of a second. You can tell people your record. You can show people how good you are.
#128 to #127 - facetiousrunner (01/10/2013) [-]
1/100th thats sprinter grounds, we work in full seconds
1/100th thats sprinter grounds, we work in full seconds
User avatar #129 to #128 - sheepyhead (01/10/2013) [-]
I see. Doesn't change my point though.
#130 to #129 - facetiousrunner (01/11/2013) [-]
so you are telling me that you do nothing that shows results
so you are telling me that you do nothing that shows results
User avatar #131 to #130 - sheepyhead (01/11/2013) [-]
Indeed. And even if there are results I don't see, those results are easily ignored, so it doesn't matter.
#132 to #131 - facetiousrunner (01/11/2013) [-]
if you ignore them, no one needs the approval of others to succeed.
if you ignore them, no one needs the approval of others to succeed.
User avatar #133 to #132 - sheepyhead (01/11/2013) [-]
I can't ignore other people. Not when I long for romance. It takes two to tango, I'm afraid.
#134 to #133 - facetiousrunner (01/12/2013) [-]
no just those who say the spiteful things
no just those who say the spiteful things
User avatar #135 to #134 - sheepyhead (01/12/2013) [-]
I'm afraid when I know that much about them, it's already too late.
#136 to #135 - facetiousrunner (01/12/2013) [-]
its never to late
its never to late
User avatar #138 to #136 - sheepyhead (01/12/2013) [-]
It is. And then I assume that everyone else would act like that.
#139 to #138 - facetiousrunner (01/12/2013) [-]
and then you deleted a comment nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
and then you deleted a comment nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
User avatar #140 to #139 - sheepyhead (01/12/2013) [-]
Because I rambled. Some times it's difficult to keep my mind on the conversation.
#141 to #140 - facetiousrunner (01/12/2013) [-]
rambling is aloud. who cares
rambling is aloud. who cares
User avatar #142 to #141 - sheepyhead (01/12/2013) [-]
I don't like rambling. It leads me nowhere and only serves to depress me further.
#143 to #142 - facetiousrunner (01/12/2013) [-]
or, according to pysch studies, lets whatever is bugging someone or needs to be said come out.
or, according to pysch studies, lets whatever is bugging someone or needs to be said come out.
User avatar #144 to #143 - sheepyhead (01/12/2013) [-]
Most of this conversation has just been me rambling to you then. Isn't it annoying you?
#145 to #144 - facetiousrunner (01/12/2013) [-]
na ive got patience through the roof. i study psychology and work in child care.
na ive got patience through the roof. i study psychology and work in child care.
User avatar #146 to #145 - sheepyhead (01/13/2013) [-]
Haha, so I'm just another patient? I'm fine with that~
You cannot heal the healthy, after all.
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#86 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
then you keep on keepin on
then you keep on keepin on
User avatar #87 to #86 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
That's an easy advice to give, but you don't know me, so it isn't valid.
#88 to #87 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
na but i know enough situations to know nothing is to bad
na but i know enough situations to know nothing is to bad
User avatar #89 to #88 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
I wish I applied to situations like that then.
#90 to #89 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
no one is that exceptionally different
no one is that exceptionally different
User avatar #91 to #90 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
I get the feeling that I am, though.
#92 to #91 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
incorrect
incorrect
User avatar #93 to #92 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
Again, you don't know me. If the world is as big as you claim, then the one guy who is an exception might as well be me.
#94 to #93 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
statistically he is more likely to be in china im sticking with the odds
statistically he is more likely to be in china im sticking with the odds
User avatar #95 to #94 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
I'm a mathematician, I know statistics are ******** . Statistically, 9/10 enjoy gang rape.
#96 to #95 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
well yes thats a true statement, sadly.
well yes thats a true statement, sadly.
User avatar #97 to #96 - sheepyhead (01/10/2013) [-]
It is.
#98 to #97 - facetiousrunner (01/10/2013) [-]
so my math can be correct also
User avatar #99 to #98 - sheepyhead (01/10/2013) [-]
It can, but experience tells me you're wrong.
#100 to #99 - facetiousrunner (01/10/2013) [-]
my lack of math classes begs to differ
my lack of math classes begs to differ
User avatar #101 to #100 - sheepyhead (01/10/2013) [-]
And that doesn't solve anything~
#102 to #101 - facetiousrunner (01/10/2013) [-]
my high level of  pysch and health classes though those matter
my high level of pysch and health classes though those matter
User avatar #103 to #102 - sheepyhead (01/10/2013) [-]
In the end all the education in the world cannot compensate for lack of life experience, that's what I've come to know.
#104 to #103 - facetiousrunner (01/10/2013) [-]
enough can compensate for the lack of    
   
here is a creepy gif
enough can compensate for the lack of

here is a creepy gif
User avatar #105 to #104 - sheepyhead (01/10/2013) [-]
Nope~
#66 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
but if you stick it out, it all works out
but if you stick it out, it all works out
User avatar #67 to #66 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
That's even worse. This guy has a cute girl that falls in love with him. That's something else I'll never experience. I can't even have friends.
#68 to #67 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
im feeling you are being quite ludicrous right now
im feeling you are being quite ludicrous right now
User avatar #69 to #68 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
I'm facing facts. Realism.
#46 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
what, the stuff that has happened to you? situations dont rule a person
what, the stuff that has happened to you? situations dont rule a person
User avatar #47 to #46 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
Nah, but the way you handle situations do. And my actions speak for themselves, as do the results.
#48 to #47 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
then aim for change if you seem to know so well whats happening. sorry im slow im playing fire emblem and get lost in it sometimes
then aim for change if you seem to know so well whats happening. sorry im slow im playing fire emblem and get lost in it sometimes
User avatar #49 to #48 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
I aim for change, but change doesn't aim for me. I have little to no possibility.
#50 to #49 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
nothing worth having is easy to get
nothing worth having is easy to get
User avatar #51 to #50 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
I know. Doesn't make it any less painful to miss it. I guess I'm just not worthy of having happiness.
#52 to #51 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
now you are just being ridiculous. everyone deserves a smile
now you are just being ridiculous. everyone deserves a smile
User avatar #53 to #52 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
Haha. Then you haven't met me yet.
#54 to #53 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
i'm seriously doubting this whole situation, and i feel sorry for op having this 						****					 ton of comments
i'm seriously doubting this whole situation, and i feel sorry for op having this **** ton of comments
User avatar #55 to #54 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
Op doesn't get notifications for replies to comments. Also, this content sadly never got very far, and I don't think he cares much to be honest. Still, friends?
#56 to #55 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
im stupid. and yes as long as you liked banes dance moves
im stupid. and yes as long as you liked banes dance moves
User avatar #57 to #56 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
They're a'ight
#58 to #57 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
they are amazing give them the credit they deserve!
they are amazing give them the credit they deserve!
User avatar #59 to #58 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
Pictures of Rikka don't cheer me up either, I quit that show because it became too good. It wasn't good for me. Neither was Katawa Shoujo.
#60 to #59 - facetiousrunner (01/08/2013) [-]
awwww shes so cute
awwww shes so cute
User avatar #61 to #60 - sheepyhead (01/08/2013) [-]
I know. And that saddens me.
#62 to #61 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
like watch this
like watch this
#63 to #62 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
I know. Like watch this
#64 to #63 - facetiousrunner (01/09/2013) [-]
........
........
User avatar #65 to #64 - sheepyhead (01/09/2013) [-]
I know. That's why I quit.
#26 to #1 - facetiousrunner (01/07/2013) [-]
good thing im stupidly stubborn
User avatar #27 to #26 - sheepyhead (01/07/2013) [-]
Pictures on the internet can't cheer me up, but again; I appreciate the effort
#28 to #27 - facetiousrunner (01/07/2013) [-]
you sure theres nothin i can do? again all about those small steps
you sure theres nothin i can do? again all about those small steps
User avatar #29 to #28 - sheepyhead (01/07/2013) [-]
Not unless you can fix my mental and social issues with a swing of a magic wand, I'm afraid.
#30 to #29 - facetiousrunner (01/07/2013) [-]
just remember normal is boring and everyone in this world is 						******					 up
just remember normal is boring and everyone in this world is ****** up
User avatar #31 to #30 - sheepyhead (01/07/2013) [-]
Haha yeah. You are you and everyone has damage. Everyone has a tragic story or a scar. Except me, I'm just broken by default.