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#4458832 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
My depression is so deep in the back of my mind I don't even know if it exists. Thanks for listening to this cool story bro.
User avatar #4458885 to #4458832 - theonetruespitfire ONLINE (04/30/2012) [-]
anytime :3
User avatar #4458843 to #4458832 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
Then it doesn't exist. :P
#4458893 to #4458843 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Well somethings making me sad through out the day.
User avatar #4460458 to #4460417 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Oh yea I heard this one! I was the first to comment on it :D

#Hipster
User avatar #4460555 to #4460458 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
I knooooow. :3
#4460640 to #4460555 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
It reminds me of the middle east for some reason .__. and you're very good at music! I can olny play the piano :P
User avatar #4460774 to #4460640 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
Thank you so much. :3

The scale I use comes from the middle east, so that'd be why!
User avatar #4460872 to #4460774 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Welcome :D I can only play Fur Elise on my piano. I can play little parts of some songs, but that's it :P
User avatar #4460979 to #4460872 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
That's a good start!
#4461024 to #4460979 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Indeed! I would like to be a professional pianist I'll never live down the name also I'll probably take guitar lessons soon. So I'm on my way.
User avatar #4458932 to #4458893 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
Everyone gets sad sometimes.

Almost no one has depression.
User avatar #4458968 to #4458932 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Well I'm sad everyday. And I've felt sadness before. This is much deeper than sadness.
User avatar #4458985 to #4458968 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
Only if you tell yourself it is.
#4459033 to #4458985 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
I do need to work on telling myself that I'm happy, But I do it sometimes and I don't get happier. Which makes me more sad.
User avatar #4459081 to #4459033 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
I know you don't want to hear this, no one does. But what most of us refer to as 'depression' is really just victimizing yourself and pretending you don't have the ability to be happy. It takes energy to be happy. And rather than blame yourself for not trying hard enough, you want to just say something's wrong with you, and it isn't in your control.

At any point in time, if I wanted to, I could convince myself that I'm depressed, and that I'm a depressed person. And then I would be 'depressed'.
User avatar #4459140 to #4459081 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
I've always been a happy person, Pinkie Pie would be a good example of me. But then randomly out of nowhere I got depressed, Idk why.
User avatar #4459250 to #4459140 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
You're having a moodswing. It's normal! You aren't a depressed person. You're just sad right now.
#4459451 to #4459250 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Been sad for many months. I miss the old me. The old me has never been that sad and always had a good outlook on life; made everyone smile and brighten up there day. Personally I didn't know how someone could be so sad that they have a frown on there face all day, it was beyond me. But you don't know what you have till it's gone. Suddenly I was sad, I guess my girlfriend breaking up with me triggered some kind of deep sadness I had. Now it's far in the back of my brain where I can't reach it. I now have a very negative outlook on life, everyone I see I think they are as sad as me and I don't know how people can go on.
But I know one day I'll be back to my old self and I'll appreciate the good life I have.
User avatar #4459491 to #4459451 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
I don't know how therapists do this.

Look, I love you, and you're my friend, but if you don't want to accept that you are in control of your mood, I don't have anything to say to you about the subject. I've just got nothing.
#4459659 to #4459491 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
I don't expect you to have all the answers. Just talking to you helps me a lot. You've helped me a lot with this trust me, I couldn't have gone this far without you. I just need to take the final step and it's gone for good I can tell. Talking to you has reminded me of the old days and that's made me very happy :D I just can't believe how much my perspective of life has changed over the past couple of months, its astonishing. Before I talked to you today I gave up. I gave up on being happy; depression won. I was planning on going my whole life like this. But you flicked the spark back into my eye, I know see how blind I was that I was my own worst enemy, I control how I feel, nothing else.
#4459721 to #4459659 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
You have no idea how happy I am to hear that. I'm sorry I wasn't as... nice about it as I could have been.

I'm just so tired of the people I care about giving up on living their lives happily, you know? :L
#4459944 to #4459721 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Ya it's a shame. Living is made to be happy and the trials you face just make you happier in the end. So life was made for happiness, but people, like me, lose site of themselves and give up when it's just another harder trail they have to overcome that they're not familiar with. When this is all over and this deep depression is gone I'll be more happy than I was before about life. And my life goal will try to make other people feel like I do. I feel like my old self again. I missed this feeling.
#4460160 to #4460047 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Sorry you met me in such a weird stage in my life. I was always happy back then and very optimistic about everything. All we ever talk about is depression. My old self would talk about happy things all the time. Also I lost the part of my self that wanted to make everyone happy. I was so consumed with my old sadness I forgot about everyone else's. Now my friends seem in a more down mood ever since this stage of life kicked in, but that will change I'll be my old self again no matter how hard it is, which will make me happy, and seeing others smile will make me very happy. Yes I would say Pinkie Pie describes me very well.
User avatar #4460181 to #4460160 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
I agree with that last sentence. c:
#4460265 to #4460181 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Well enough about depression, word around the street is that your song will be featured on EQD.
User avatar #4460295 to #4460265 - lupine (04/30/2012) [-]
Yeah! I'm so excited! :D
User avatar #4460344 to #4460295 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Linkz to the song? :O
User avatar #4458842 to #4458832 - XAssassin (04/30/2012) [-]
Hi sexy
#4458862 to #4458842 - colgatez **User deleted account** (04/30/2012) [-]
Hiya <3
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