haha... o god, i totally know that feeling. when you're in college you'll realize that there isn't a need to be in a relationship like there was in high school because there's less drama. just go to college, improve yourself, and have fun being yourself and not being tied down. if there is someone who comes your way, you'll know, but don't rush anything and just take it easy. when you're in college you will meet tons of people. i haven't been in a relationship since college started, but it is SO much better than being tied down and being in one. there's just so much to do and you don't want to be limited to what you can and cannot do simply because you're in a relationship. it'll get better, much much better. just wait and see. you can send me a PM if you feel like i could give you more advice on stuff, whatever it might be.

Friends are the best medicine.

sooooo, what are you asking advice about?

Should I attempt going for new relationships? I know I will never move on regardless. But I need someone there by myside on the days where I want to quit. Time isnt going to let me move on. Everyday I want her more and more, and she wants me less and less.

oh, i thougt you were killing yourself or something.

well, i'd say move on. she's done with you, probably.
continuing to obsess over her will only lead to depression, jealousy and possible anger.

Way into the depression part. I just cant move on, its not that simple