I'm in a pickle and I have know idea what to do. Let me start off by saying I'm one of those people that everybody avoids. I'm extremely socially awkward. But when you get to know me you will learn that I'm incredibly stupid, kind of a bitch, and super immature. I don't have a lot of friends but there is this one lad that has been with me through everything. This kid and I have a history together. We dated for a couple of months and fell for each other. We had to break up because his parents got involved. As time went on the feelings got stronger and we wanted to be with each other but since we couldn't we started a whole friends with benefits sorta thing. Recently he's gotten a new girlfriend. Usually when he's in a relationship he tends to have that 'I'm better than you' attitude towards me. With that unnecessary attitude and my unnecessary bitchiness we often argue. A lot.
Another thing, since I don't really think before I do stuff I often tell him that we're better off without each other. I do that out of anger. But I ALWAYS come crawling back. I realize that doing that is wrong and that I need him. He's been with me through everything and has gotten me out of a lot of things. He's a huge influence on my life and I cherish our friendship more than anything.
(One last mentioning, we have been in an argument for more than two weeks now. He gave me a mental bitch slap the other day and I realized that I need to make some changes for myself. Those include maturing up and learning how to control my anger)
Now what I'm asking for advice for is if I should try and patch things up between me and him. Would his attitude get in the way and also our past history? I'm sorta at a loss here and I have no one else to ask...