Sounds like an exciting time.

Everyone's dead. Except them
They're essential

What are they essential for?

Some moders do that. So basically they're invincible killing machines
Because fuck everyone

So it's an unstopable pony army!

Yes

Happy birthday!

....what are the wubs for?

Cuz

About what?

Last night. I was falling apart over memories and stuff. I know you guys are right when you say I got to move on, but I still can't. Yiffy keeps telling me to, but I think staying here is me trying. I don't know how to move on. No one tells me how. No one knows. I just sit here and wait.

Don't be sorry about that.

No one really can tell you how to move on though, that's something you would have to figure out. All I could really suggest is simple things like...Get out more, make new friends...all those cliche things everyone else has already said

I sleep a lot now. I don't get out much. It's hard. I don't see people now because of that. I don't care though. I don't like people anymore. I don't want to. People can be dicks. There are more assholes then nice people now. I'm not going to die faster out there or in here, so I'll hide where I'm comfortable. I do still have friends, but I never see them anymore. We sometimes talk, but not a lot. I figure I'll chill until I'm better. If I don't get better, at least I won't hurt people.

I wish I could say or suggest more to help.
I've never really lost much in my life, so I'm not good at giving advice to those who have really.

I think you'd find more nice people if you gave it more of a chance though

Not many have. I don't think I got it the worst though. Nebula told me about his sister, and I relate a lot to that now. But he's all fucked up from it and some other shit. He has like a Tyler Durden thing going on. I think you used to be his friend, you know more I think. I don't know what's up with Yiffy, but he hides a lot from me, and complains that I hide shit from him. And he gets all mad when I try to find out what, while he does the same shit with me. The only other guy I talk to is xblthatguy, and he's like you. Always happy all the time and had nothing bad happen. I like talking to you guys, but I feel like a downer all the time. I know it gets annoying.

I've talked to blue and yiff a lot, and I do know quite a bit about both of them.
We don't talk as much anymore, but I'm stiff a clsoe friend of blue. Overall I suppose we jsut sort of ran out of things to talk about.
I'm not sure what yiff's opinion of me anymore is though, and it's just kind of...slowed down over time, and I barely see him now.

He was kind of like you in that he often thought he was annoying me, which he wasn't, and neither are you.

I wasn't really sure how to respond, sorry

That's alright. I don't know what else to say either. I'm not good at talking to people.

So...now what?

Um.. I don't know. How was your weekend?

Well friday I was still in Georgia
Saturday I spent the day getting home
now I'm home, and drunk

I don't have any alcohol here anymore. I only ever have vodka I steal from my father. My buddy and I were supposed to drink last night but the liquor store closed at 9 and we were way too late for that. Besides, he was with his girlfriend and I din't want to hang around too long.

Why were you in Georgia?

I was visiting my sister for a week

Oh. Was it like her birthday or something?

If she's in Georgia, where are you?

Nah, just visiting really. Nothing special.

I live in iowa

That's a long ass trip. That's far away. Pretty cool to fly that far for a visit.

Do you really live on a corn field? Someone said you did, and I saw you say you live in a super small town once.

lol no, i don't actually live in a corn field, I jsut live in a small city in Iowa

lol, I didn't think so. That would be cool though.

I only know blue cuz of you. I used to stalk you and TWYST a lot when I was still on the pony threads and this guy blue came along and was talking to you a lot. He was interesting too, like you. He had this kind of notes thing on his profile I would read when I get on and see what he's up to. He stopped doing it though. Now he has that personality in his head, Extra.
I don't know much about Yiffy. I know blue scares him a lot now, and I think it's cuz of extra, but Yiffy won't talk about it. He gets pissed and I don't want him to get pissed at me. I only met him a few months ago on the pony thread. He was pretty cool and we fucked around telling jokes and shit. He has a bunch of cool friends, but I don't talk to them anymore. I didn't know you two were pals.
Sorry fort thinking that then. I'm used to people finding me annoying. I'm the third wheal in most my groups of friends. You know? I try to keep my head down to not be annoying.

...umm, sorry about all the typos in that

Up where?

In the air

No

Okay

How was the vacation then?

Somewhat boring, but relaxing I suppose

alright :3

So, why no minecraft mister?

Because I don't feel like paying for a game that my shitty laptop might not even be able to run well enough to play it well enough to not be frustrating

specs?

Most of it's alright, but my graphics card is absolute shit, and on the verge of dying

well whats your graphics card? and explain its death symptoms.

I don't know how to look it up, but just to give some perspective...

It sometimes crashes when I'm playing Runescape

>start
>run
>dxdiag.exe
>display

Mobile Intel(R) 4 Series Express

Its an equivalent of intel GMA 4500M HD, which can play Crysis 2 on High......

....At 3 FPS.

dont worry though, it should be able to run MC on low just fine with optifine, its better than what my old one had i think, and it could run it okay.

I work at a HyVee

i knew it had a v....... okay well...... see ya?


here luna will say goodnight to ya with her axe

Alright, good night.

I GOTTA WAKE UP ALREADY!



k seriously good night

Hello there

so how is it being in iowa i guess

Uneventful and warm.

keystones are next week for me, which is the state tests for me, and the bumped up the difficulty even

Well that sounds like a ton of fun.

you're always so serious, so quick question, you play minecraft? yes i'm that damn bored



also do you slap teh azz or ride teh wav?

and brb in like 20 minutes if you give a damn

I do not. I was going to download it...but that's before I realized you had to pay for it.
For some reason I thought it was free.

....and what?

back and forget the second question, why did you think it was free?



i honestly wouldn't pay for it either, i got my account from a friend

I'm not sure really, I just never looked it up before then, and jsut assumed it was free...I geuss because I heard once you have it, all the updates are free and whatnot, I dunno!

you can get a demo version of it, but it only let's you play for 100 minutes

the game is kinda boring unless you have people to play online with then it's really fun, too bad i rarely get to play with people online

Yeah, other people were trying to get me to download it, so I'd have people to play with if I did get it.

I just don't really want to pay for it...because my laptop is a piece of shit, and I don't want to pay for a game that might not even run well on this thing.
I'll probably reconsider if I get a new better computer

i'm surprised that my school gave us such good laptops, also if you set settings to low it's still playable and the game will go much faster


if you get it, add me or meet the wrath of derpy

actually making a server is hard as dicks

I'm in no hurry to get it lol (bad news I guess for everyone else huh?)
I've been considering buying a good desktop sometime this summer though, since this laptop is really getting on it's final legs.

oh i forgot to ask to you, do you play tera?

Nope, I don't really play much of anything

except with yourself


me too minecraft and tera are the games i play basically

so life is the same i guess over the past few months?

Yeah pretty much.

I moved, but not far, I still work in the same place.

irving's is place? i think

....What?

that you work at? no?...

got a new desktop like a month ago really miss mah old one, the memories had it for like 10 years, too bad the new one is kinda crappy, probably because it doesn't have a monitor

bored as hell... i thought i should talk with you again i guess

Well that's unfortunate.

The boredom part at least

Hello.

What's up

Not much at the moment, just browsing about.
Might play some RS soon.

Probably gonna get drunk tonight too.

Bitch playing Runescape...

Oh, I'm free tonight, actually.

You're just made I'm good at it!

And hooray!

Yes, I'm made that you're good at it.

Cause I wasn't good at Runescape when I played.

Because it's totally possible to be bad at Runescape

Stop being so made

You're just made I'm stylin' on you

I'm the epitome of style.

Maybe if this were the year 1999.

that's a random year

t's not really that random..Ever hear the phrase "Party like it's 1999?"

Most people refer to the 70s or 80s for parties

"Party like it's the 70s."

No.The 1999 phrase stems from the Y2K theory of the world ending and shit.

But fine, you'd be the epitome of fashion if this were the 70s

I wear jeans and plain colored shirts....

Well then

WELL THEN INDEED

We shall hug now

Well that's a nice song

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

Well I didn't mean happy, it just sounds good.

Yeah. I guess.

I used to date this girl. I really liked her. I loved her. But she was crazy. Like, really crazy. She used to see shit and hear voices. Sometimes she'd hear these screamings and shit and just held her head. She got bad headaches cuz of it. She used to take all kinds of drugs to make it go away. We both did. We abused the fuck out of medical drugs, we smoked, took acid, ecstasy, all kinds of shit that fucked us up. We loved it. I think i was crazy too cuz I was doing all this shit with her. I liked it a lot though so i wasn't stopping. She loved it too. She was always suicidal though. She said she didn't want to hear them anymore. I helped sometimes when I was with her and stuff, but I couldn't always be there. So she kept getting worse and not getting help. I thought about trying to make her, but I was always fucked up with her and thought shed be fine if we wait. One day, I walked over to her place, and she wasn't there. Just a bunch of cops. Thy didn't tell me shit no matter what I said. I called up everyone I knew who knew her asking and finally a buddy told me his mom heard she killed herself in her room last night and was found this morning. She done shit a few timed like that before, trying to cut her wrists open, but this time she did it right and didn't make it. so now I sit around wondering if i fucked up. Maybe I could have saved her if I did something better or something. I was supposed to but I didn't.

I'm not really sure how to respond.

That was a year ago maybe less. I've felt nothing but worse all the time now. Sometimes people like nebula and yiffy try to tell me to just be better but I can't. She's the girl I got the butterflies for. She liked butterflies. Said she always wanted to fly away. I wish i could go with her.

Yeah I knew that's why you were trying to collect them.
And it seems normal to be sad about it, especially if it was just less than a year ago. But there's still the rest of your life to go.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=mk_V6R_pGfM

I don't think I do. I've been sticking around cuz I'm afraid of what happens when you die. I'm afraid I wont really see her again. I don't live anymore anyway really. I take a bunch of pain pills and sleeping pills and let them take away my problems for me.

Then live your life, and find ways to be happy again.

Death is going to come eventually, there's no stopping that, so why worry about it or rush it? It's not going to go anywhere, and I'm sure it's patient enough to wait for you. You'll find out what happens in time.

I'm not, and I can't. I don't find joy in anything anymore. I'm just kind of here now. I don't want to be. I know I'll die some time, but I want it to be sooner then later. Whatever happens when you die, it's better then this. Who's going to miss me? Some family I don't care about and some people on a computer who don't really care. That's it. I'm not losing anyone, I already lost her. Maybe if I was better then I could have saved her but I didn't and now she's gone. Because I couldn't help her.

Because you don't try.

Everyone looses people they love.
They still go out and find ways to be happy.
What makes your case different? Who's to say you can't find something to be happy again? You?

You don't know what happens, so you can't say it's better.

Youre right. I'm sad cuz it's fun to be sad. I haven't tried moving on and forgetting or nothing like that. Nope. I think I'll try that now and feel all better in no time at all!
I've been trying. I'm not going anywhere. Every time I try to forget or just put it behind me, it just comes back again stronger.

I'm not special. I know. People are just better then me. I already know that. but the thing is, this shit was my fault. I should have tried to get her help or not have fucked around with her so much. I thought she would be happy if she's doing shit with me and she seemed like it. but no. she wasn't happy. what do you think she was thinking, huh? she didn't leave a note or nothing. she just up and killed herself. Maybe she hated me and wanted out. maybe she wasn't happy and wanted out. maybe I meant nothing to her and she wanted out. maybe she love e like she said and just thought i'd come with her when i knew. I was close to. I'm close again lately.

Why do you think it's your fault? You didn't kill her, and you didn't want her die.
You didn't do those things with her because you expected her to get worse, sounds like you thought the opposite.

You were with her a lot, you spent time with her, tried to make her happy. Why would you think it's your fault or that she hated you?

because she still left. I couldn't save her. I mean I could have if did more, but I didn't, because I didn't think about it, and I didn't know she would actually do it. I should have done more or done better. I was there so long and knew she was always hurting and sad. I should have done more for her. I fucked up so much here. I was too busy getting fucked up with her and focused on her that I didn't do anything else.

Hello

How are you

I'm alright, yourself?

Bored

Well that's a shame.

And kinda tired.

Well maybe you should sleep then.

I just woke up

Well stop being tired!

No u

I'm not tired

Then talk to me while I wake up and be less tired

I do not.

oh
well i have like, 50 pony figs if i remember correctly

54 it seems

you have toomble gurrs?

thou hast no toomble gurrs!
oh well.

Video game mods

That's creepy

I think that Fallout mod was a little worse

A lot of the ones' you've shown me are pretty bad

Does mean that some of them weren't bad?

I can't remember any if they weren't!!

I think this one is the best though. Random bikini-clad anthro ponies because why the fuck not.

That was awhile ago

that's disappointing because i liked having you around. Do whatever you're happy with though

Well that's nice to hear(read)
But I just got bored with it is all.

that's allowable

Well that's a shame.

I am now absorbed in Dark Souls
Shit needs to be stabbed

Well you have fun stabbing things then

You have fun..training skills
Still training agility?

yeah, though I'ma ctually trying out EoC a bit too on an old Non-mem account I have

Browsing friendly and the RS forums.

You need to do more entertaining things. Might I suggest playing a game or two?

Like Runescape!!

I'm going to bed now, see ya later.

Hello

How're you, young Vinyl/Octavia obsesser.

Why the hell did this take you 4 hours?

Fine, ignore my question then.

I decided that it'd be in your best interest if I did not talk to you, since you had a long day, but I decided against it.

Who said I had a long day?

Why, I took it upon myself to say that for your own benefit! You may thank me.

Fine, don't thank me. I shan't do it anymore.

So Eric, what activity are you currently wasting your attention on?

Getting my toe to stop bleeding.

Er...Right...And may I inquire as to why said toe is uh....bleeding?

I was clipping one of my bad toenails, and went to far (couldn't tell, I have like no feeling in them)

Er...Right. I suggest applying pressure.

I know how to stop a bleeding toe

Ah yes, I do apologize. It is most unpleasant to have someone offer you knowledge, is it not?

You aren't offering my knowledge though, because I already know it

That matters not. I was concerned with your safety and took appropriate action, and now I am apparently the "bad guy," so to speak.

I never called you a bad guy, all I said was I already knew the information.

Ah, yes, one such as yourself cannot possibly grasp at the signals they throw off. My apologies.

.......what?

Nothing, nothing. What are you doing now, Eric?