>after our visit we kept in contact while she was visiting her grandparents
>things going pretty good
>a month later or so i am greeted when i enter home from school by my mother with tears in her eyes
>"michael sit down i have something to talk to you about" she said choking back tears
>"is everything alright?" i was nervous as to whether i wanted to know this news or not
>"it's about grandad, he's been diagnosed with cancer and they don't think he's got alot of time left"
>no emotion passed on my face i just felt paralyzed all feelings going nowhere
>i just held my mother knowing this will be a lot worse for her than it is for me even if that sounds bad
>days and weeks passed as i grew more and more distant mine and liz's conversations getting shorter and shorter as slow feelings dawned on me that soon a large part of my life would disapear
>my parents decided we would go to Bridlington with my grandad while it was still possible
>Bridlington is my favourite place in the world it may not have been sunny on most days nor the most fun place in the world but i loved it never the less
>that day for an odd occasion the sun was beaming down as we walked on the streets next to the see front with my father pushing my grandfather in the wheelchair
>i felt so far away yet i was so close as i realised a family member i spent many weekends with would soon leave this world in the blink of an eye
>the only good feelings that could come close to the term "good" were that he'd be with my late grandmother once again
> the day went on and i enjoyed myself as much as i could in the situation
>we got home and my relationship continued with liz as i still felt myself distant from everyone almost feeling cold as i felt no sadness
>a month later my relationship was in tatters as i visited my grandfather for the last time while he was on his death bed
>i never took enough time to get to know that man i could have learnt alot nevertheless i stood by his side as he lay without enough strength to speak and held his hand as he looked at me with eyes that could see but said "i have to leave soon. you're a good kid. goodbye"
>i stayed the night their with the rest of the family and the next day went home and went to school
>to come back home and receive the news my grandfather had passed and that he was in a better place.
>i wished for nothing, i felt nothing and things form that point got worse
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