Tale that never ends. Beautiful despair
Glorious illusion, set me free
Don't care anymore what the rest might say
Nor how many dare read, dare listen
Don't care how many say: "Get over yourself!"
As if deppression was a matter of choice, as if I could end what's been done
But of course, they won't beleive. Even as they'll read this, they won't beleive.
Why should they? I'm just a little man, scared to deal with the fact you're gone.
And they all scream: "LET GO
BE LIKE US
BE NORMAL, GOD DAMN IT"
Why can't I listen? Why do I still feel your eyes every night? Why must I look for someone, someone new to talk to every night?
And they all tire, why shouldn't they? Who wants to be with a man who only complains?
I swear I didn't want this
I swear I didn't poison my heart with your taint
But what did you expect?
I was lonely, always have been. Waiting for one to call angel, demon. Night and day
But how can I move on when the moon doesn't come out without your eyes?
And the night never dies without your coat?
The clouds weep, day and night. They wonder, where has she gone?
Is she gone?
Was she ever there?
No, he's a madman
Sitting every night writing for the one that never was
Where have the stars gone?
Have you taken them? Stored them beneath your hands?
YEs, you look beautiful tonight. Your hair shone under the starry sky. You sit shyly
And your dress could have never been more beautiful than that night
And the stars themselves bowed before you
The moon was jealous of your eyes as I looked up. You were crying... Was it me?
I ran to you, held you in my arms, felt the warm feeling of your tears sliding down my shoulder
Your boody shook, but I held you tight.
And the more I felt you shake, the worse I felt. Until you looked into my eyes
Stared into them, lost my soul into the intricate passageways that resided inside. And just like that, without words,we understood each other.
"Will you... Will you ever leave?"
"No... every beat my heart does will spell your name. And my breath will carry your words, my eyes will carry yours"
And then you hushed, so quiet yet the words buzzed in my ears
"Will you love me tomorrow?"
And I held you, collapsed onto you. And you cried while I held you, dawn and dusk dancing around
"Tomorrow, today, yesterday" I said...
These concrete walls, colder than ever
Night hushed by, not a soul made a noise
I held myself, Alone, never any other way
... Always, I said as we held each other warm, the world freezing over