I feel suicide is an obvious choice more often now. I knew it was a stage as a teen, but I never imagined I'd be crying every night, thinking everyone was against me, I feel like the only thing to cure my curse is a barrel of a gun. I feel like death is impending, and I know everyone dies, and this makes me scared. I don't want to die, but for some reason, it just seems like the obvious choice. I never imagined, in any of my theories on teenage stages, that I would think my own math teacher hates me, just because there were negative numbers in a text book. I never thought my brain would shut down my academic side, and my grades would decline. All this does is make the stress worse. I never thought it sane, but just one thing one person says over the internet. That one person I don't know. I never thought it sane they would make me want to end it all. It's just the feeling of uselessness, stress, and madness that makes my soul drop to the trigger. Its the feeling of this sadness, though, that fires the shot.