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#95 - ButtonFly
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(03/08/2013) [-]
I don't think I have too many regrets in my life thus far. It's only been a couple of decades and I know I faced some very severe, extenuating trials that have greatly altered the course of my life. I know I could've been different. I could've been healthier, more succesful, heck, I could've even been happier than I am right now.
If someone offered me a choice, I don't know if I'd want to go back. I found so many silver linings. I've become a model and an inspiration of hope to so many families, people whom I've never before met but found themselves relying on me and my story. I helped children lead normal lives when I can't yet have that luxury.
I could meet my person who's more collected than I, doing exactly what I imagined I'd be doing but that person would have to look at me. I'm tired now, my biggest dream is to just function in society like anyone else. I'm sick and beaten but because of my trials, I'm writing a book series, something I know successful me would've never done. My story is appearing in Italy and I was in a documentary in Japan, I've spoken to senators. I'm idealized by children and respected by parents. I'm doing everything I can for them. I want them to have the life that was ripped from me. I spent my last year saving and protecting children. If I can get the kids to have a better life than me then I'll have a life well spent.
I wish it wasn't me people looked to for guidance or counseling. I was just thrown in and did what I thought was best. More than anything I want to off myself. It's such a tempting thought. To just rest forever but no one will be there to guide the kids so I remain.
I think my other being lead and easy and successful life and everything came without a trial.
My life will be rife with conflict, negative feels and hopelessness but I will also have families who look up to me as I work to get everything back to normal.
I think both lives will be lead happy ones in the end, just different.
#106 to #95 - moshthun
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(03/08/2013) [-]
May I know your name?
#160 to #106 - ButtonFly
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(03/08/2013) [-]
My name is Ruby.
#126 to #106 - TheBigGummyBear
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