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Submitted: 09/12/2013
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User avatar #56 - spainisbad (09/12/2013) [-]
Ok everyone, another thing: If you need to talk to someone and I'm online, add me as a friend and I will start chatting with you.
User avatar #6 - rongkong (09/12/2013) [+] (1 reply)
>tfw no gf
User avatar #2 - tarekmig (09/12/2013) [+] (1 reply)
>tfw no gf
#137 - stoicnick (09/17/2013) [+] (2 replies)
i don't have any friends because i'm a cynical asshole and everytime someone tries i push them away...but that's ok i know i'm a dick...i guess
User avatar #36 - arkytior (09/12/2013) [+] (8 replies)
>Lower middle class
>Slovenian (from Europe if you don't know. But I look like a Swedish girl)
>Everything all right if you ask doctors and social workers
>Always happy cheery

But sometimes I'm overcome with a great sadness and I just can't seem to help it, I get all sad and cranky. I try to get by with reading, playing games, listening to music. Sometimes however it's just so hard that nothing seems to help and I just sit there on my bed, staring into nothing and trying not to cry. I just don't feel like living and wonder why would it be worth
User avatar #38 to #36 - spainisbad (09/12/2013) [-]
Slovenia, love that country. I loved Lake Bled, really cool. Do you live in Ljubljana?
And yeah, that usually happens. Eveybody has bad moments without no reason. And if you are a teen (i'm guessing) it's probably even more normal, since homones n' stuff.
So don't worry, sometimes things like that happen. When you are in one of those moments, you can come here, on FJ, people will help you.
User avatar #160 - levitatingscrotum ONLINE (12/23/2013) [+] (9 replies)
]Well.. I could tell y'all that I was silent smart kid,had friends,gf who had mind made of play-doh blah blah blah...
But I want to tell you about this one girl.. to introduce myself, I am melancholic,lier and a super empathic manipulant (don't know if It's a word,in my language it is so sorry,it is just person who manipulates people) I don't manipulate with people to get something for me,just to help them.. had a best friend who was also a manipulative kind of dude,but he was arrogant and kinda selfish,he had a GF,I was not really caring about her,he was always talking about her and showing off..(she was kinda a nympho,so you can be sure he tries to pull it off as I got a nympho GF lolololol I'm da best,just a classic teenage **** ) he started acting cocky to her,started being a jerk,so I started getting things clean for him between him and his GF,she started talking to me,I was helping her when she was bad(she had the same personality as me,except she was not manipulative.. we were even going to the same kind of school..) and I was saving my friend's ass when she was angry.. and one day I stopped,because I felt I was falling for her.. one day both of us were really depressed,so we started sharing feels,and she told me that I am perfect boyfriend and if she did not meet my friend she would've probably been with me.. I told her that I have feelings for her,she admitted that she has some feelings for me,too.. we started going out,friend found out(he's on IT school,hacked her account and messenger,read the **** ) and he went ******** ,almost beaten up my ass.. one day I was out with the girl,and I had chance to tell her : "I love you".. but I did not.. then she did not believe me when I told her later.. he abandoned her from talking to me and she was scared... I lost her guys. just because of my stupid head.. nothing got me this bad.. ever. even when my dog and granny died..
#156 - drbeebs (09/22/2013) [+] (1 reply)
i know its been a while since you made this post but i lurk thru feels when i can. i have a girlfriend and some great friendships but im clinically depressed. i just get days where i want to just stay in bed and not see anyone. my gf knows and wants me happy but some days i just cant be. my aunt recently died from lung cancer even tho she never smoked or anything. i guess im just facing mortality when im not ready to and its kinda scary
User avatar #157 to #156 - spainisbad (09/23/2013) [-]
Woops woops woops sorry, I forgot you.
I don't care if it's been a while, I always like new people here
I've got a lot of family that has died of cancer. (My grandma, two aunts...)
It hurts, I know. Death is a problem. Nobody likes it.
Every time you feel cynical, just think about this: Life is a gift. It's precious. There's no problem being cynical for a while, if when you aren't you have a good life.
User avatar #146 - toastersburnthings (09/19/2013) [+] (9 replies)
tfw writing and practicing music so I can do both professionally is keeping me from doing the things that will supposedly make me able to do them professionally, and vice versa
#148 to #147 - toastersburnthings (09/19/2013) [-]
I don't like life
I want to fight the system
But the contract that allows me to go to public school for music requires me to complete my online schoolwork in a timely fashion, I'm still trying to complete the second half of last schoolyear, and they're gonna review my progress in november and see that I'm a Junior still doing Sophomore work
I know other people make **** look bad and act like drama queens, and people tell them to tone it down, but when I describe my life to somebody and they tell me the same thing, it's already the toned down version
User avatar #143 - puremadmentalged (09/18/2013) [+] (2 replies)
Had a fairly easy-going childhood, got picked on a little bit, but what child doesn't? Had fun, played a lot, had quite a few friends, a few home issues and such but it was all mostly okay. things really took a turn for the worse when I was 9 years old, playing in the street with my friends paul and kyle. kyle steps out into the road just as a car is coming just a little too fast and it takes him down. me and paul have no idea what to do, the driver keeps going, but my dad was just over in the pub so pauls running over to get him. when my dad finally arrives on the scene he knows it's too late, he was in the police 26 years by this point and he just knew from past experience and just looking at the blood all over the road. He dials for an ambulance, and starts giving first aid anyway, but he was right, there was no hope.
Fast forward two months - things are getting worse at home, I feel absolutely worthless, feelings I couldn't quite understand being so young. Thus begins my life of depression.
fast forward 4 years - 13 years old, I'm starting to really feel it, can't talk to anyone, moved to scotland and not really making any friends. things just keep getting worse and worse.
fast forward 6 months - 14 years old, I'm starting to feel like there's only one way out from all the **** I had to go through, and wind up trying to hang myself from the rafters in a nearby farmhouse. dad's taking dogs for a walk, and the dogs come close to where I am and start barking like mad, and my dad comes to investigate, finding my near lifeless body. he gets me down and just does what he can to keep me going, calling an ambulance and keeping me conscious.
fast forward another 2 months - dad blames himself, starts drinking more and more, and it looks like my parents are all set to split up.
User avatar #144 to #143 - puremadmentalged (09/18/2013) [-]
fast forward another month (roughly) - parents are arguing one night, and it's real bad. things get violent and my mum ends up throwing a knife at my dad. It lodged in his back, narrowly missing his spine and several internal organs, and while everyone considers him very lucky, I've never been able to get rid of the image of my dad bleeding through his white shirt, dripping down his back and onto the cream carpets.
2 years later - things are looking better, but not much better, still taking anti-depressants, got a few friends, a steady girlfriend, parents are on good terms somehow, and are even back together at the moment (no idea how) but to recap, it's looking pretty good.
present day - life is much better, still seeing my girlfriend, a happy 2 year relationship, friends are very supportive, spend 6 months of the year staying with my uncle in the caribbean, and are a significant improvement to 4 years ago. although I don't think I'll ever get that image out of my head.

That's my story FJ, if you don't like it I'm sorry but it's the only one I've got, I just needed to share
User avatar #130 - Tvfreek (09/16/2013) [+] (5 replies)
Im the loneliest person youll ever meet. My parents are divorced, i have no best friend, just a few friends, and i feel lost. Lost in the place i call home.

I just want a hug.
#132 to #130 - spainisbad (09/16/2013) [-]
And also, you'll find friends. There is always kind people somewhere.
User avatar #123 - freakstorm (09/15/2013) [+] (1 reply)
So uh i guess i should share.
So last year i took an Intro to Computer Science class, and i sat next to kid named Ben.
Turns me and Ben had a lot in common, we both like super heroes, Tf2 etc.
Anyway fastforward to end of last school year.
We get through all of the lesson plans like a month before school ends so we just **** around the computers.
Me and Ben watch Arrow during class and dont get through all of it.
Fastforward to this year.
I found out that Ben is fighting leukemia.
Feels good to share.
User avatar #113 - robertolee (09/13/2013) [-]
Reading all this has made me realise how amazing my life actually is, neither I or my parents are rich, we have just enough money to get by so money isn't an issue. I feel like I should complain about something but I have **** all to complain about, pretty much turned my life around when I turned 16.
User avatar #107 - unicornmangina (09/13/2013) [+] (1 reply)
I had a liver transplant when I was just 6 months old and now I've been told 21 years later that I might need another one and i'm incredibly scared I would speak to my mum about it but she died nearly 3 years ago and she knew about the whole thing more than me I don't know who to turn to
User avatar #108 to #107 - spainisbad (09/13/2013) [-]
If you need people that know about it, there is probably some association of people that had liver transplants, they probably know a lot. If what you need is being patted in the back (online) and a bit of emotional support, then I'm here for you.
#88 - chaosmaxis (09/13/2013) [+] (3 replies)
Started when I was 10, I had a vivid imagination, in that I always imagined people I loved dying, that's where the anexiety started. Get sort of past that by the time I'm 13. 'Date' friend because we both have mutual feels, we break it off when she says she isn't ready, leave it at that. 15 tell her I love her, she doesn't feel the same anymore, begin stupid friendzone, touchy feely, too many liberties and she doesn't say no, relationship. Graduate highschool, she starts dating some guy, molest/assault her, she wakes up during, says nothing does nothing. Breaks it off with the guy, 'cool maybe this is my chance' 'I'd rather be alone then with you'. October last year 'hey this guy asked me out to a halloween party, would it be cool if I skipped your party and went?' 'Sure, go for it' They start dating, I see them together for the first time, completely lose my **** , didn't leave the house for a week style, fail the class I was in at the time. See her at mutual friends birthday in december (a year after the assault), lose it again, not as badly, just can't stand being in the same room as her or look at her. Meet up just before new years, 'I need some space to figure out what's going on, or to know if I can be comfortable around you, and I'm sorry for what happened last year' 'I hope we can still be friends'. Next month see her on the train, she's doing well and she's happy with the guy still from halloween. It finally hits me, I won't every be happy being around her if she's with someone who isn't me, I hate myself more than ever at that point, text her after seeing her that night 'I'm sorry we can't be friends anymore, I just can't stand the thought of you with someone else' 'okay do what you need to, I hope it helps'. Don't see her at all the only contact we have is wishing each other happy birthday. See her again in July I look her in the eyes and it's like nothing ever happened. She say's his name every other sentence, and it feels like ******* daggers. End
#121 to #91 - chaosmaxis (09/14/2013) [-]
Yeah I know people have it worse. I have moved on. I got it out of my head that I love her. The only reason I posted this is so I can finally man up and tell our mutual friends why we choose not to be around each other.
User avatar #75 - timbittwo (09/13/2013) [+] (6 replies)
I can't find a job and at the end of this month, maybe one or two weeks into October... I'll be homeless ans starving. I've been trying really hard to find a job. It's not the first time I've been on the streets either. I'm 19 years old and I'm living in a city on my own, no family out here at all. I don't know what else to add.
User avatar #84 to #82 - bitchitroll (09/13/2013) [-]
good luck and remember the people of fj are always here if you need them
#74 - applecrash (09/13/2013) [+] (3 replies)
I have no idea if the career path I have chosen for myself is what I really want to do, or if its just what I fooled myself into believing i wanted so as to not fall out of touch with the only group of friends I have ever made ( which I have had for about 4 years since I was pretty much alone companion wise from grades 1 to 8). I also do not know if I have some sort of anxiety because I tend to scratch the skin off of my fingers when I am in a public setting from nervousness. I am super awkward near anyone I do not know, to the point where my normally loud and deep male voice sounds more akin to a meek and scared little girl, and become I super submissive. I still don't know why I wake up sometimes, as I know if I leave my house I just end up being unhappy the rest of the day and immediately going to sleep when I get home. I am overly-conscious about my appearance and have a sort of voice in the back of my head that always tells me that people are badmouthing me behind my back when I am walking or standing alone somewhere even though I know it isn't true. I have no idea what the future will hold and it honestly terrifies me. I feel like I am not good enough for other people and the only person I ever confessed my feelings to basically called me an idiot and turned me down over text.

Well I saw an opportunity to let stuff go and I took it, sorry for making you read all of this if you did. I probably sound dumb heh.

#118 to #92 - applecrash (09/13/2013) [-]
Thanks man, it feels good knowing someone cared a bit <=)
User avatar #58 - dreadedsin (09/12/2013) [+] (2 replies)
1. Live with grandparents because of an argument with my parent
2. Lost a girl who used to be a very good friend
3. Not very social

I am still happy no matter what. My friends that I do know are some of the best people I know. Even if I only know them through xbox live or Steam. Life is what you make of it. Life itself is a gift and you shouldn't let it go to waste no matter how bad it's getting. Spainisbad, you might think that you might not deserve this life but in no way are you using it for the worst. You are probably a good person but you don't see it as that.
User avatar #34 - azumeow (09/12/2013) [+] (7 replies)
Life is good.

The dreams have stopped.

Still haven't gotten nightmares. I dread that they'll come sometimes.

The Prozac only does so much, sometimes. Sometimes I remember things I shouldn't remember...for my own sake. But I remember them. It's usually those who are gone. Those who didn't deserve to have gone. Not so young.

But life is good. I am alive, and I am happy. I am in a relationship. I'm in college. I have good grades. I have good friends.

I'm happy. Honestly. I just...need a little help keeping it up. There's nothing wrong with that.

Then why am I so ******* ashamed?
User avatar #41 to #34 - spainisbad (09/12/2013) [-]
Ashamed of those things? Man, don't worry. You just feel sad for other people, it's normal. Everybody with a big heart suffers for other people. I think it in this way: you can do things they have never done, but doing them for them. You can give them "memories".
User avatar #33 - LegitBlackChick (09/12/2013) [+] (2 replies)
My twin brother has treated me like **** all of our lives and now that I'm finally not taking his **** anymore, my entire family is lecturing me on how I should forgive him. Plus, my grandma died and she was the only person who actually liked me for me.
User avatar #35 to #33 - azumeow (09/12/2013) [-]
He should be getting lectured for treating you like **** .

Sometimes people are just asshats for no reason.
#11 - prebrosj (09/12/2013) [+] (5 replies)
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#19 to #17 - prebrosj (09/12/2013) [-]
guess you're right
guess you're right
#12 - anonexplains (09/12/2013) [+] (1 reply)
I want to live a happy life but my impulsive behaviour keeps ruining everything for ****
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