>Two years ago
>Start relationship with girl I was talking to for months
>Great relationship, were both weird, random, crazy, and spontaneous
>Loses her virginity to me
>She shares all her secrets
>Has pretty ******
up family (Addicts, Dealers, etc.) they tell her she's ****
, a mistake, etc.
>I open up to her completely, regardless of my trust issues
>She accepts all my flaws and ****
>Things start turning bad
>Start becoming jealous, over possessive, not trusting her, always fighting with her
>Things get worse, never let her have IG, Twitter, Facebook, etc.
>Would constantly break up, tell each other ******
>But at the end of it all, would always promise to each other to be best friends
>We were really close, even lived with her when my family got evicted (I've always had the unfortunate circumstance of poverty)
1 yr & 6 months pass
>Things have gotten out of hand
>When we would fight, she would get violent, throw ****
, try to hit me
>Stay with her cause she's all I have, and I'm in love with her
>After an argument over a guy disrespecting her, we break up again
>Don't talk for a week
> Try and talk
>She's already with someone else, says she stopped loving me a long time ago
>Devastated, she treats me like a stranger, calls me psychotic, a loser, tells me to go kill myself, etc.
>Go through months of confusion, thought I could at least always count on her as a friend, thought we would ride through thick and thin
>Eventually become depressed, stop eating, stop talking to people, lose a lot of weight, thoughts of suicide
>See commercial on Tv about the Marine Corps
>Go to recruiting station to check it out
>Decide to join, it was always a dream
>Start getting fit, a physique, talking to people again
>I'm ready to leave to bootcamp
>Had plenty of hoes, had plenty of friends, was kind of happy and proud of myself
>Never stopped thinking about her, did everything basically so she could realize what she lost one day
>Her and her ex breakup
>She texts me one day
>"How are you Anon?"
>She persists "Can't believe you're leaving, you know I never wanted you to go."
>I tell her to hop off, she treated me like a stranger then, she shouldn't try and talk to me now
>Unfortunately, I fall for her charms again, she tells me she never stopped thinking of me, cares about me, etc.
>Tells me how her parents have been *******
up again, she needs me, she made a mistake and wants to have a future with me
>Tell her I will never trust her again
>She tells me to go see her one day
>Pick her up from school, go to her house, no one there
>Fall in love again, we have sex for hours (Till her father shows up while we're getting dressed, but that's another story), try to see if we can do "us" again cause I really never loved any other girl besides her
>Time passes and bootcamp is days away, I'm excited, she's sad cause I'm leaving
>She cries every night, says she doesn't know how she'll live without me, says she doesn't want me to change, become distant
>Think about all that while I'm on my way, have no idea how we can make this work, she has to finish high school and ill be deployed somewhere
>Get to bootcamp, receiving week is ****
, but what really got me was everything she told me
>All that ****
she said gets to me so much, that I realize (Or so I thought was a realization at the moment) that I don't want to risk a future with the one person I've ever loved over this
>Quit, can't eat right, sleep, corpsman says I might be depressed
>Get unchar. entry level discharge
>Get phone call home before I leave
>It's to her, she picks up and says "I can't believe you're throwing away our future, you're pathetic."
>I'm speechless, I thought she would be ecstatic, like any normal girlfriend would to know their boyfriend is coming home
>Get home, folks pick me up at the bus stop, she's with them, she says she was wrong, she loves me and only wanted what's best for me (all ********
>Start to look for jobs, apply to school, start from square one
>She starts acting weird, cry during sex, says its nothing etc.
>She goes to Hawaii to see her cousin who's married to a soldier there
>Moment she gets to Hawaii she forgets about me
>Barely talks to me, doesn't call me, etc.
>One night she hits me with a text "I'm unhappy with you, I don't see a future with you anymore. You quit the marines and didn't even think about me, you have no ambition and I can't be with someone like that."
>Confused, I thought love is riding it out through the good and bad?
>"So you don't want to be with me anymore?"
>I'm devastated, hurt, I can't believe I swallowed my pride, trusted her again, quit the one thing I thought was my future, for her, and she tells me she doesn't want to be with me because I'm not a marine
>Realize she never loved me, she only wanted to use me because she would have it easy if I was a marine out fighting and she stayed home receiving money.
>I go on twitter and see she's talking to guys already, not a day passing.
me over twice, I trusted her again, but she ended up doing the the exact same thing she did last time.
What do I do now? I have nothing, my family is going through a financial crisis, our car broke down, and now I've lost the only thing that gave me motive.
(Respect to all those who serve, for doing all the great things I was too stupid not to do. I made a permanent decision based on temporary emotions.)