So i have never known what this friendzone was until today...
In b4 TLDR,
In january this year me and a girl i've been in love with for a year got together, had sex and started a relation.
A few days later she told me everything was a mistake and broke all contact with me.
I was devastated and (since i'd already gotten the "diagnosis" depression" a few months back" i couldn't handle it at all so i got wasted and slit my wrist over 1,5 centimeters deep, and went to bed.
The next morning i woke up in my bed and there was blood everywhere, somehow i had survived, my stepmother came in to wake me and saw all the blood and started yelling at me and asked what had happened so i showed her and she took me to a emergency room at the hospital.
I had an operation and stuff, a couple of months later i had finally started to get out of my depression.
Time went and slowly we became friends again.
This weekend she stayed at my place because she had run away from her fosterparent.
We started talking and she told me that she didn't mean what she said back in january and told me that she liked me,
I told her that i like her too and we made out.
The day after (yesterday) i asked her if she wanted a serious relationship,
she said that i was wonderful, fun to cuddle with while watching movies but she could never have something like that with me.
She also herself said that i was now put in the friendzone.
I am once again devastated and i have started falling back in my depression, i'm thinking of doing a hero.
I know this'll probably get thumbed down and frankly idc, i just wanted to share my story...