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#2 - asasqw (01/11/2016) [-]

GIF

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#87 to #2 - tapberry (11 hours ago) [-]

these waffles

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#88 to #87 - tapberry (11 hours ago) [-]

oops didnt post picture

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#89 to #88 - tapberry (11 hours ago) [-]

fuk it

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#117 to #89 - fullfrontal (10 hours ago) [-]

AT LEST HE DIDNT DELTE IT SO WE CAN ALL HAVE A LAUGH

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#111 to #89 - stormieskys ONLINE (10 hours ago) [-]

Check em

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#125 to #111 - anon (10 hours ago) [-]

Check em

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#161 to #125 - alpako (9 hours ago) [-]

its going down

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#177 to #161 - thedankmemer (3 hours ago) [-]

We need to go deeper

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#181 to #177 - supersixfourr (2 hours ago) [-]

Much deeper

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#127 to #125 - onegaishimasu (10 hours ago) [-]

21! gogo!

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#113 to #111 - electronicbacon (10 hours ago) [-]

Chekt and rekt

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#3 to #2 - sinonyx (23 hours ago) [-]

ima just... paintballx

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#30 to #2 - angryninja (14 hours ago) [-]

even the ******* bananas

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#39 to #2 - captchakid (14 hours ago) [-]

Weird, it tastes purple to me.

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#45 to #39 - floran (13 hours ago) [-]

because you are licking the wrong yordle

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#46 to #45 - dragonwaz (13 hours ago) [-]

I feel this is needed

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#48 to #46 - floran (13 hours ago) [-]

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#71 to #46 - shinyarmor ONLINE (12 hours ago) [-]

SOURCE PLEASE

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#81 to #71 - anon (11 hours ago) [-]

Bandlebro.
Has bro in the name, but the artist is female. Somewhat attractive.

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#86 to #45 - sackit (11 hours ago) [-]

too bad she got reworked

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#101 to #86 - floran (10 hours ago) [-]

she got kawaii'd

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#118 to #101 - sackit (10 hours ago) [-]

Her playstyle changed to much
she got ****
looks dont matter anyways

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#169 to #118 - epicactual (8 hours ago) [-]

I beg to differ, but I respect your opinion friend

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#114 to #45 - josuke (10 hours ago) [-]

Too bad they made her into a ****** anime character

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#8 - anon (20 hours ago) [-]

Things lose their taste. Colors are more dull. things that made you smile do nothing. Everything is a chore.

depression is just putting your head down and trudging until you get to sunny skys.

Not everyone makes it.

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#100 to #8 - traks (10 hours ago) [-]

Damn.

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#55 to #8 - hassoutobi (12 hours ago) [-]

that's edgy

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#74 to #55 - obanesforever (12 hours ago) [-]

Depression isn't just someone having a bad day; It's a psychological disorder. This is pretty close to how they perceive things.

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#82 to #74 - hassoutobi (11 hours ago) [-]

when did I ever say that depression is just someone having a bad day? I said that that guy's comment sounded edgy.

I deleted my last comment because I typed ''depressino'' by accident and I would get roasted for it

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#135 to #82 - vegasstoner (9 hours ago) [-]

despression and being edgy are very different things.

also depressino would have probably been the best part of your old post

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#139 to #135 - hassoutobi (9 hours ago) [-]

yeah

depressino is edgino

pls give me attentionino

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#140 to #135 - hassoutobi (9 hours ago) [-]

Also nah, depression sounds edgy to me.

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#148 to #140 - anon (9 hours ago) [-]

maybe learn what edgy actually means and stop using it as a buzzword you might think differently then

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#150 to #148 - hassoutobi (9 hours ago) [-]

it's a slang

it doesn't have a fix definition, it may change overtime

I'm here to make sure it happens.

and also because...I don't even know I'm getting way too bored to respond properly

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#167 to #150 - mahnamesjakers (8 hours ago) [-]

I've seen poor souls come on here to find friends where they have none in real life. But you seem to even have a hard time finding virtual friends which is a new level of edgy. But that makes you lonely. And loneliness is the least edgy trend

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#168 to #167 - hassoutobi (8 hours ago) [-]

im not lonely, i just like *********** . and when people get upset about my posts i feel good.

also who wants to get friends on FJ? That's like searching for diamonds in the sewers.

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#171 to #168 - mahnamesjakers (8 hours ago) [-]

"I'm not lonely"

That sounds like something a lonely person would say ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

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#172 to #171 - hassoutobi (8 hours ago) [-]

k

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#176 to #172 - mahnamesjakers (3 hours ago) [-]

ur mad heh

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#76 to #55 - anon (12 hours ago) [-]

you're edgy.

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#79 to #76 - hassoutobi (12 hours ago) [-]

yeah I am sometimes

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#83 to #55 - drekinn (11 hours ago) [-]

No it's not, depression isn't "edgy". Depression isn't something you just pick up and wear, Depression isn't cool, it's horrifying, it's the worst but also the least you can feel. Depression isn't about being sad, it's about feeling nothing, things you liked doing become dull and pointless. I don't wish depression on anyone.

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#107 to #83 - hassoutobi (10 hours ago) [-]

uhh ok? I just said that it's edgy ( because it is ). I don't get all the other stuff that you said.

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#112 to #107 - shrinkzz (10 hours ago) [-]

what do you think edgy means? I'm curious.

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#115 to #112 - hassoutobi (10 hours ago) [-]

well to me the slang ( Not the actual word) pretty much anything and anyone that unintentionally annoys you or makes you cringe while sounding emotional/deep/dark/complex/sad, either for genuine reasons or just to try and be ''cool''.

when people talk about depression and mental issues/emotional issues in general I think they sound very edgy. they make me a bit upset. Can't help it.

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#149 to #115 - fffffffuuuuuuuuuuu (9 hours ago) [-]

> Depression
> Trying to be cool

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#165 to #149 - anon (9 hours ago) [-]

>Acted Depressed
>Get Attention

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#152 to #149 - hassoutobi (9 hours ago) [-]

''genuine reasons''

aka actually having depression and not meaning to sound edgy but you just can't help it

learn how to read, fagit

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#154 to #152 - fffffffuuuuuuuuuuu (9 hours ago) [-]

Mate just shut the **** up. I've been reading what you said before and to me you're just an ignorant twat that has a lot of opinions of something he doesn't know **** about.

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#156 to #154 - hassoutobi (9 hours ago) [-]

yeah, get mad at me

your rage only serves to fuel my determination to continue ***********

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#158 to #156 - fffffffuuuuuuuuuuu (9 hours ago) [-]

This is probably why people talk about you behind your back in your daily life.

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#163 to #158 - hassoutobi (9 hours ago) [-]

yeah, they talk about how ******* much of a ******* god i am at *********** on the internet

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#119 to #115 - shrinkzz (10 hours ago) [-]

Well, the way I see it, it doesn't realy have anything to do with the subject you're talking about. You can be edgy about anything. It's just kind of having a "cool guy" attitude, mostly in teenagers. Like when you're an atheist and you say something like "they can keep their bible and their pedophilia", then you' being edgy. Or when someone draws anarchism symbols on his school books to show off how anti-establishment they are. The last one is me when I was 15

But here's the urban dictionary on it. I hope it spares you some reds in the future.

www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=edgy

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#129 to #119 - hassoutobi (10 hours ago) [-]

My definition still fits. It's just not as broad as yours/the urban dictionary one. I based mine around reality, where being edgy just makes you look like cringe-comp material, and doesn't really make you ''cool''. I also forgot to point out the rebellious/intelectual side, unlike you.

Also, I don't really care about reds. I don't post comments to get thumbs. I post them because I like posting them.

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#103 to #55 - amuzen ONLINE (10 hours ago) [-]

It's an edgy subject, deal with it.

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#106 to #103 - hassoutobi (10 hours ago) [-]

i am dealing with it. I'm just also pointing it out.

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#69 to #8 - daggydaggy (12 hours ago) [-]

I made it

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#57 to #8 - vorarephilia

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ruh roe.

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#13 to #8 - HAMMATIMEZ ONLINE (16 hours ago) [-]

Seeing all of the description just so on point and then the last sentence snuck up on me. It hurt, man.

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#1 - paintballx (01/11/2016) [-]

sad theres no joke about feeling blue

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#20 - trollmobile ONLINE (15 hours ago) [-]

apathy and sadness.

being depressed means you do not get the highs nor the lows.
your emotional range is decreased, and you are almost always somewhat on the lower side of the spectrum.

you can feel joy, but not happiness
you can feel desperation but not sadness.

a depressed person won't cry at a funeral
nor will they jump in joy when recieveing a gift they've wanted for ages.

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#183 to #20 - anon (2 hours ago) [-]

Is there any chance you could maybe respond to comment #99? It would mean a lot to me

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#121 to #20 - Jowi (10 hours ago) [-]

Don't get the lows? Are you joking?

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#123 to #121 - trollmobile ONLINE (10 hours ago) [-]

as someone that was clinically depressed for 6 years
no, i'm not joking.

you don't get the extreme lows.
you're always kind of low.

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#151 to #123 - fffffffuuuuuuuuuuu (9 hours ago) [-]

Can't imagine what you must've been through man. I've been pretty blue for years now, what you said "you can feel joy, but not happiness" hits close to home. I hope you're doing better.

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#155 to #151 - trollmobile ONLINE (9 hours ago) [-]

aye, i've gotten through mine.
eventually had to go to a psychologist for it though.
but been a year and a half of doing well now.

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#157 to #155 - fffffffuuuuuuuuuuu (9 hours ago) [-]

I've always felt like psychologist weren't worth it because to me they get paid to care. But still, I'm glad to hear you're doing better. Hopefully it stays that way man.

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#159 to #157 - trollmobile ONLINE (9 hours ago) [-]

thanks, and i hope you do well as well.

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#124 to #123 - Jowi (10 hours ago) [-]

Yeah and as someone who is currently battling the disease and regularly goes through extreme mood swings and suicidal periods I can tell you "not feeling the lows" is not a set part of depression.
It's very much part of it.

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#126 to #124 - trollmobile ONLINE (10 hours ago) [-]

mood swings are not typical of depression, they're bipolar tendencies.

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#128 to #126 - Jowi (10 hours ago) [-]

Depression isn't just one thing mate. You can be perfectly fine one minute maybe not fine by an average persons experience but fine in comparison to normal and then one tiny thing can throw you off, that's a part of depression
Don't tell me what disease I have, I've been on both anti depressants and mood stabilisers. Your experience isn't everyone else's and saying "depression doesn't cause low mood" is just bollocks. How do you think suicide occurs from depression? Is that just part of the average emotional spectrum?

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#133 to #128 - anon (9 hours ago) [-]

Let's be honest, mental illnesses are a broad spectrum of something that no one really knows much about; that's why some antidepressants don't work is some cases and vice versa.

However, I hope you break through it, pal. I know that feel.

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#141 to #133 - Jowi (9 hours ago) [-]

I absolutely agree with you, there is a wide spectrum for any mental illness and perhaps I overreacted to trollmobile's comments. Everyone has different experiences and that's all part of it.

But it's misinformation to say that depression doesn't cause low mood. When a comment has so many thumbs it means a fair few people see it and I feel the need to correct it

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#184 to #141 - anon (2 hours ago) [-]

Is there any chance you could respond to comment #99? Thanks a lot man

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#146 to #128 - Fgner (9 hours ago) [-]

Former depressive myself, mood swings were definitely not a part of it. My suicidal ideation was not from extreme emotion, it was from hopelessness and emptiness.

I did nothing because I felt nothing from it. The only real emotions I had left were perpetual numbness and love for my fiance.

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#174 to #146 - Jowi (6 hours ago) [-]

If you think hopelessness isn't an extreme emotion then I worry for you brother. You can have extreme happiness and extreme sadness but being devoid of emotion is just as extreme

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#145 to #20 - geeky (9 hours ago) [-]

5 years I've seen you dispense wisdom on this site, and they were the best damn years of my life.

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#164 to #20 - catburglarpenis (9 hours ago) [-]

You speak of emotional numbing, where the body cannot produce the feelings you described. Being depressed is a spectrum on the lower side. Your baseline mood is below normal. A hug won't make you happy for as long as it does others, but you'll still laugh every bit as hard at movies. Your mood will just settle at a lower level than others. However, sad moods last longer. You'll lament more over a death or a breakup, and it's much easier to fly into a suicidal state and much harder to recover.

There is of course normalcy and there is even a state known as joy, or joyfulness. It's the opposite: good feelings last longer, you shrug off breakups and deaths quicker, and it's easier to fly into tears of joy or states of gratitude and ecstasy. I have suffered from Major Depressive Disorder for years before as a combat veteran, and am now on a state know as joy. It's brought on by a litany of things, but having close friends that care is the biggest difference by far. Mihal Chisenmihal wrote about both these states in his book "Flow". Check it out.

Before I left the military I was Honor Guard, and I buried dead people for 8 hours a day. Mostly suicides. The tearful families would get to you, so the best defense was liquor, which produced the emotional numbing I described. With a **** diet and being an alcoholic, I felt nothing. No sadness, no happiness. Nothing. I was happy when I drank, I could laugh at jokes, but otherwise I felt like a robot surrounded by leaky humans. Once everyone was crying but me at a funeral, including my partner. I thought it was funny and had to stifle a laugh.

I never want to go back to those times. I was a monster.

Here's also a state known as manic depressive, but I won't get into it.

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#166 to #20 - anon (8 hours ago) [-]

sounds more like dysthymia

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#72 to #20 - enlightednatzie (12 hours ago) [-]

Huh, kinda reminds me of when i played minecraft 24/7

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#47 to #20 - victhree (13 hours ago) [-]

There's one good thing to it. It's made a great actor out of me.

Since I have to exaggerate all my feelings to look like a normal person around others, I've made a dangerously good character to play in their presence.

It feels nasty sometimes, the way I lie to them.

I'm just hoping the good times appear in the horizon someday, because I have no idea where to sail. I'm actually sort of lucky, my case isn't totally crippling.

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#58 to #34 - jesusisagoose (12 hours ago) [-]

i've had depression for some time and it kinda "stopped" 3 weeks ago, but now it's coming back. Working out is kinda the only hobby i have but since my depression i kinda lacked motivation. I also became more paranoid and worried about small things and i couldn't sleep and i had a hard time to concentrate. It has been quite a lot more than what i wrote but what I'm really saying is: Depression really sucks and no one should have it.

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#147 to #58 - Jowi (9 hours ago) [-]

It didn't go away for those three weeks bud, you just reached a plateau before crashing down again. It sucks but you'll probably have a thousand of them and during that time you may even feel "invincible" just don't forget that it can all come back again and you have to keep constantly vigilant against it's return.

I'm not saying there's no cure or getting better, because I know some people that do get better, but just keep looking out for the signs that it is coming back

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#104 to #61 - anon (10 hours ago) [-]

I wish it were that simple but at least with my depression, it makes me not love anything. I don't even have the motivation to do things I used to love to do. When people ask me what I like to do, I have to make something up because I don't like anything anymore.

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#94 to #34 - sackit (11 hours ago) [-]

listening to music in your bed for 3-5 hours then sleep 1 hour so you can go to school and sleep there with eating 1 and 1/2 half of a meal each day

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#10 - admjgg (20 hours ago) [-]

I'd recommend Welcome to the NHK to people who want to experience depression without the crippling pain of actually being depressed. Too bad I don't have a qt3.14 gf to save me

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#22 to #10 - borderlineparanoid ONLINE (14 hours ago) [-]

what's it about?

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#23 to #22 - admjgg (14 hours ago) [-]

Satou Tatsuhiro, 22 years old, thinks that everything that happens around him is a conspiracy. He even figured out who is behind it all: The NHK, an evil secret company.

"When you think anime, you think otaku. When you think otaku, you think people that dislike other people. Those people become hikikomori (people who shut themselves in)". So Satou manages to uncover the plot of The NHK (stands for Nihon Hikikomori Kyokai), after three years of shutting himself in (and rapidly approaching the fourth).

In reality, he is nothing more than a NEET (Not in Employment, Education or Training), desperately in need of a cure from that "disease". He wants to break out from the curse, but going out and getting a job is frightening enough for him. That is until he gets selected for a "project"; it is a plan to help hikikomori like him in facing the reality of this world.
I just copied and pasted that description.
Basically the girl in the front gets him to sign a contract and tries to help him intregrate to society like a filthy normie. 9/10 really good worth a watch.

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#25 to #23 - borderlineparanoid ONLINE (14 hours ago) [-]

right, so they imgained the NHK to compensate for their flaws?

sounds neat.

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#26 to #25 - admjgg (14 hours ago) [-]

Well, he did at least. Every character has a major flaw and that's his. It's the NHK's fault he's a failure.

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#28 to #26 - borderlineparanoid ONLINE (14 hours ago) [-]

I see.

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#64 to #22 - professorbob (12 hours ago) [-]

Depression probably.

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#12 to #10 - dispensa (16 hours ago) [-]

I second this.
NHK's my favorite anime out there, though I prefer the manga over the anime, it's a bit more grim.

Still haven't read the light novel though, should give it a try sometime.

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#17 to #12 - rejakted (15 hours ago) [-]

The light novel is ******* amazing. It's more 'out-there' than the anime, though.
The manga is even crazier.
It's also quite short. A few hours to finish.

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#14 to #10 - kalimah (16 hours ago) [-]

one of the best anime

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#16 to #14 - admjgg (15 hours ago) [-]

Definitely. Characters you can relate to and a unique story that doesn't rely on "plot" to keep viewers entertained.

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#96 to #16 - zshadowz (11 hours ago) [-]

I didn't like it because there were some scenes that they didn't take it seriously like the suicide on the island or the last scene when he was about to jump off the cliff

Like, come on, it's a serious anime about depression. Why throw in some ****** joke and humor to **** up the atmosphere of the scene.

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#98 to #96 - admjgg (11 hours ago) [-]

I thought those scenes were well written....they weren't presented as "serious" scenes because deep down the characters weren't serious about it either, and to remind the viewer that they're dealing with mental health problems.

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#178 to #98 - nickelakon (3 hours ago) [-]

To be honest I feel like the entire episode built up well
The entire episode and that scene are extremely important. They show us more about satou, hitomi and their relationship.
In the last scene is kind of meant to show him finnally let go of Hitomi, and Hitomi lets go of her issues.

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#179 to #178 - nickelakon (3 hours ago) [-]

Wait crap
I thought by last scene he meant the last scene of that particular episode.

Any way, my thoughts on that specific scene is that that scene kind of shows his delusions spike, they hit their highest point. Just after that scene he hit the lowest point he had in the entire show, he then ended up doing exactly what his friend's brother did, nearly starving to death by staying inside that forced him to begin working.

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#27 to #10 - nickelakon (14 hours ago) [-]

I personally think Satou displays symptoms closer to that of Schizophrenia rather than depression.
If any characters display things closer to depression its the suicide promise group and Hitomi.

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#32 - anon (14 hours ago) [-]

This is how it is for me.

Depression is the feeling of blurry gray. Nothing is great, just fine. Nothing is terrible, just negative. Your memory gets blurry as you can't quite concentrate. Even when you try focusing and listening, you don't properly register what was just being said, and you've likely forgotten it five minutes later. You're lonely, even when amongst others. Sometimes especially when with others. You can sometimes feel like crying, but no tears will come. Then sometimes, there's a sudden brief moment of emotions returning; and then you get so desperate to feel something, it usually just becomes negative. Sadness, fear, guilt, empathy, anger, frustration hope, horror. All burst out. Then they go away again. Then sometimes, your determination and self-sense start to return to you, and you overwin the empty mess in your head. This often with the help of someone else, but it's only possible because of something within yourself, regardless of the trigger (hate that word) being the what someone else said or did.

But if it doesn't go away... if you don't find a hope or purpose to hold on to again, amnd everything stays gray... despair comes.
The feeling of the sky falling down on your shoulders, pressuring you into a hole in the collapsing floor. You burn in icy fire, and you break out in a nauseating cold sweat. The absolute feeling of "I have no choice". Choice of what? It depends. But it's almost always really, really bad...

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#56 to #32 - asasqw (12 hours ago) [-]

All day every day

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#11 - unlithe (18 hours ago) [-]

everything kinda becomes gray. not literally but thats the best way i can describe it. your emotions are weaker, you don't care as much, everything stops being fun. i regularly have to work myself up to do trivial tasks. i usually feel spontaneous and impulsive if i go get some water or something. stuff suddenly becomes boring sometimes. like i'll often start a game and then realize it feels like work and just stop. like everything sucks except for just lying in my bed or sleeping. sleeping's the only thing i look forward to because it lets me not think about being awake. sorry if this explanation makes no sense. i got tired of writing it halfway through so i left it for a whiand came back and my frame of mind probably shifted.

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#99 to #11 - anon (11 hours ago) [-]

First of all, I'd like to express how sorry I am you've had to live through this. Depression is truly horrible.

Seconden, and I know this might be a lot to ask and I'd understand if you didn't feel like it, but could you maybe explain a bit on how you'd want others to act?
A very close friend of mine recently told me about her long depression struggle and I'm confused on how to handle it. I've never dealt with anything like this. I know its different for everybody But your discription of it is quite similar to hers.

She says she is doing better now but she believes she'll always have relapses for the rest of her life (I believe recovery is always possible even if she doesn't see it yet). I understand I can't solve her issues for her, but I want to do everything in my power to be part of the solution instead of the problem.

Once again I'd understand if you didn't feel like it, but it would mean a lot to me if you could help out even a little. I know I'm anon but I'll return to check.

I sincerely hope your future days will be bright.

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#187 to #99 - trollmobile ONLINE (32 minutes ago) [-]

oh and yeah, relapses are a very common issue.
i myself have decided to not go into a romantic relationship yet, since i know i'm not strong enough not to relapse, should it end sourly.

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#186 to #99 - trollmobile ONLINE (35 minutes ago) [-]

just be kind.
that's really all there is to it.
the only things to really avoid is betraying her trust or severely dissapointing her in other ways.
basically just avoid making her more numb to her emotions than she already is.

depression is a reaction to emotional trauma.
if the emotions hurt you too much, you numb yourself to them, and go into a depression as a result.

as long as you do not severely hurt her feelings through breaking her trust etc, you're fine.

this is not to say if she asks you out you can't say no, it just means you should say "no thanks" rather than " **** no, not with you"

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#188 to #186 - trollmobile ONLINE (30 minutes ago) [-]

what i'm trying to say is: try to avoid letting her down, but if you have to let her down, do it softly.

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#122 to #99 - unlithe (10 hours ago) [-]

i'd love to be more of a help but i don't know much. i guess just try to be receptive and include her in stuff.

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#182 to #122 - anon (2 hours ago) [-]

Thanks man it really means a lot. Is there anything I definetly don't wanna do? Or things I should avond saying when discussing her issues?

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#19 to #11 - anon (15 hours ago) [-]

I went through 8 years of that **** , the only thing worse than being awake was trying to fall asleep. Being alone with your thoughts (with nothing to distract you) for 2 hours is not a happy place to be during depression. Was 25 years old before it finally 'stopped', 2 years later and i'm still picking of the pieces.

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#21 to #19 - unlithe (14 hours ago) [-]

i manage to get through that with audiobooks.

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#33 to #21 - iphraem (14 hours ago) [-]

thats exactly what I do. just try to keep yourself distracted with audiobooks/books or netflix until you are too tired to think anymore and finally fall asleep. just to wake up the next day, completely tired and do the same stuff all over again.

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#24 to #19 - sinreaper ONLINE (14 hours ago) [-]

i watch tv at night, i'm never actually alone with my thoughts unless i'm so tired i know i'll sleep.

i drink otherwise

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#49 - butwhynot (13 hours ago) [-]

GIF

This is why Kel was always so happy.

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#138 to #49 - anon (9 hours ago) [-]

GIF

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#4 - oosulley (21 hours ago) [-]

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#63 to #4 - wraithguard (12 hours ago) [-]

>>#2

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#15 to #4 - destreader (15 hours ago) [-]

You should of replied to #2

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#41 - rundas (13 hours ago) [-]

I'm blue da ba dee da ba die

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#18 - ningyoaijin ONLINE (15 hours ago) [-]

Think of your most beloved person dying in front of you. The numbness you feel for a few hours is what a person with depression suffers with every waking moment of their life. I've experienced both personally (depression first, family death later), and it's about as accurate a description as I can give. It's not pretty.

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#35 - iphraem (14 hours ago) [-]

you just dont give a **** anymore. about anything. I saw my granddad die in front of me and didnt feel anything. I just thought about being at home, lying in my bed and watching a movie. when I was a kid the guys who were cool about everything and just didnt care were the cool kids. not caring means not living. and if you dont live you might aswell be dead I guess. atleast thats what some people seem to think. I for one just hope it ends before I fail college for not caring about studying.

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#52 to #35 - garymotherfingoak (12 hours ago) [-]

that doesn't sound healthy. don't you want to work towards a decent job through college?

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#65 to #52 - anon (12 hours ago) [-]

If he doesn't care about anything, obviously not

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#66 to #65 - garymotherfingoak (12 hours ago) [-]

hey may think so, i doubt that he's completely out of ***** .

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#108 to #66 - iphraem (10 hours ago) [-]

of course I want to finish college and get a good job. if I wouldnt I d just end college. the only reason I want to do it is that deep down I remember that this was always my favorite job and its the smart thing to try and get it. doesnt change the fact I dont have any strong feelings toward college. I might aswell be lying in my bed all day. I m still in college for the same reason I shower and eat every day. not because I want to but because I know its the smart thing to do.

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#120 to #108 - garymotherfingoak (10 hours ago) [-]

well I'm glad you still have the motivation to stick in college, even if you dont want to.

any idea how the lack of ***** started?

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#130 to #120 - iphraem (10 hours ago) [-]

to be honest I really dont know. my parents told me I was depressed since I was 4 year old when they split up. apparently it was very hard for me to see my father only once a week right after I got him to know as my father. but I remember good times after that, I was eneegetic, I was happy and I had dreams. maby it was the truck that drove over my leg when I was 14 and maby traumatized me, maby it was the 6 month I spent with my father at his so called "boot camp" when I was 15 where he wanted to break my character down to rebuild it better as ever, maby it was the girl I lost my virginity too when I was 16 and told me she had HIV as a revenge when I broke up with her, maby it was the way my father talked to me at the rare times when I was around him, apparently he wanted to harden me to prepare my for my future. or even it was one of the other girls I had trouble with after that, I can only say that it started between the ages 13 and 18. there are many possible reasons but to find the true one I d have to go to a psychoterapist I guess.

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#132 to #130 - iphraem (9 hours ago) [-]

*once a month *energetic *psychotherapist

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#131 to #130 - iphraem (10 hours ago) [-]

wow thats quite a paragraph.

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#175 to #130 - garymotherfingoak (5 hours ago) [-]

Well you've certainly been a tough ************ to keep yourself in tact after going through all that. A psychotherapist could really help you pinpoint and treat the cause, and given your age, time will help as well.

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#78 to #66 - garymotherfingoak (12 hours ago) [-]

*he

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#153 to #35 - Fgner (9 hours ago) [-]

This is exactly right, and the H&H comics these pictures are from are perfect for anyone who wants a more in-depth discussion.

I recommend looking into your college's mental health options. I know mine offered free counseling and psychologists for those suffering trauma or illness, which is how I approached the problem initially.

If that's not an option, though, I received a book later in my recovery that really helped me get back on track. If you PM me your address, I'd be more than happy to send it to you? I'll cover shipping, just promise to pass it on.

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#162 to #153 - iphraem (9 hours ago) [-]

wow.., thatd be great, but cant I buy the book myself? that would propably be more convenient than shipping all the way to europe.

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#173 to #162 - Fgner (7 hours ago) [-]

Oh... Yeah.

The Depression Cure, Dr. Ilardi.

Pretty cheap on Amazon:
www.amazon.com/Depression-Cure-6-Step-Program-with

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#36 to #35 - iphraem (14 hours ago) [-]

stuff like birthdays and holidays is just another name for monday or tuesday. the sun is just not dark and the birthday cake infront of me is just food.

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#95 - ferrocordis (11 hours ago) [-]

Depression is a feeling of being alone while surrounded by everyone. No self worth, no motivation, no energy, no drive, no confidence, no anything... Depression is nothingness and feeling like nothing. Depression is almost like being void of everything. It's almost like you're on the outside looking in and just constant screaming and begging and wanting to be better, but you're just trapped on the outside while you watch yourself suffer and drown and wither away helplessly to do anything to stop it.

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#62 - ericr (12 hours ago) [-]

You really can see the difference.

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#42 - darksideofthebeast (13 hours ago) [-]

Like nothing matters anymore and the only way you can feel better is through drugs...
At least in my experience, that's how I dealt with it.
I am no longer depressed, but when I was, it was the worst point in my life. I woke up and I felt good for 2 seconds, then I realized everything wrong with me/my life and I would just stay in bed and wish I could sleep forever.

It's like you just heard about someone close to you has died, but it lasts a lot longer than that moment does.
you know the disbelief and the aching feeling you get? It's like that... But all the time.
you know how they draw depressed art in black and white? Well, depression feels just like that and in a way (at least in my experience), that's how you perceive reality.
there is black and white, no color... Not visually, but EVERYTHING just feels dull and boring, nothing matters and no one can help.

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#43 to #42 - darksideofthebeast (13 hours ago) [-]

I also had to deal with PTSD and GAD at the same time, so imagine WANTING to die everyday but the anxiety makes you scared to die.
There is literally NO escape other than downing some benzos or painkillers.
It ******* sucks...
There is no worse feeling (to me) than wanting to die but also being afraid to die at the same time.

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#5 - animalassasin (21 hours ago) [-]

it's more like one of those stomach aches where you can't get comfortable and it stops you from going to bed and stuff, like that but for your emotions

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#6 to #5 - billymayss (20 hours ago) [-]

I've recently been kinda depressed, on the up side of it now and things are starting to get better but that's irrelevant, but how you describe it is perfect. That is the single best description I've ever heard.

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#7 to #5 - hirollin (20 hours ago) [-]

But depression makes you tired, lethargic, and apathetic. Which results in spending more and more time in bed or in a still state.

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#9 to #7 - animalassasin (20 hours ago) [-]

yeah sorry i mean sleep not bed, i just refer to it generally as going to bed

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#160 - argentvz (9 hours ago) [-]

A lot of these comments hit pretty hard. I won't pretend to be special because I'm not but constantly living in apathy and without feeling is awful. Nothing is fun for me anymore and I don't get excited about anything. It...sucks. Surprised I'm even still around, honestly.

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#51 - ogthegreat (12 hours ago) [-]

I'm blue bla bla due dee dah do dee dah do dah bud da bu dee. Not really, I'm pretty happy with my life. Could be better but it's nothing heart breaking?

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