Thread... I have a confession...

Ever since I was young, I always looked at girls one way and guys another. I know I was supposed to like girls, and they were cute and all, but they were always so mean to me with their words. Then There were the guys, who would always get on top of me and beat my up for not being tough like them. I kinda Liked it though, being put in my place. So later in high School, it was pretty much the same, Girls being mean to me, even some texted my phone and said mean things, and Guys were being even rougher with me, and again, I didn't like how the girls teased me, it would even make me cry. However, I still liked for some reason that the boys beat me up and made me beg, especially when they would get on top of me. So one day, A new student came to school, His name was Barry. And when I looked at him, i was stunned. He was Girlish in a way, Yet, somehow masculine. His skin was soft, he had a soft voice, he was really shy, and even though i was supposed to like girls.... The first person i had a crush on was Barry. Everyday after, I would try to bring myself to talk to him, but it was just too hard for me. Then one Day, At the valentines day dance, which was mandatory at my school, I was sitting alone, once again. The only reason I wasn't getting teased or beaten up was a. everyone but me was having a good time and b. there were several teachers watching. So i sat there, alone, sniffling, And low and behold, barry came up to me. He tried talking to me with his sweet angelic voice, but I was too shy and embarrassed... and flattered.. to say anything back. He still kept trying, and eventually got me to open up. We talked for awhile, and we found out that we had everything in common. once we ran out of stuff to say, he popped the question: "will you be my valentine"? just like that. I pressed my lips against his and gave him my first kiss.
So thread... My confession is.....
I was phone.