Maybe your problem are all that bad. You didn't say what they were.

Well, My father is an alcoholic and im just now realizing that. He beat my bro and i senseless, most of the time for no reason.

My mom continually makes him sound like an ass, even though she aint that great herself.

Both sides of my family are TOTAL losers and i am just now realizing that.

I cant really sleep anymore because memories are bothering me.

I dont really have any REAL friends.

As a side-note, I found the worst part of all this was not being able to talk to anybody about it. At least you have people here who are willing to hear what you have to say and help you through it.
Take solace in that.

My father is also an alcoholic. My mother and father would always be at each others throats. Mom delt the beatings. Dad is deadbeat and mom thinks she's hot shit, though she isn't. Growing up in this household scared me out of making lots of friends for fears of them meeting these people.
I know how it is dude. I don't know what's kept me going. Maybe it's the hope that someday I can be better than these people and shove it in there faces. Maybe I just want to look after my younger siblings and tell them everything is gonna be okay. I don't know. I do know that life can be push you, and sometimes you gotta push back.

Dont let yourself become a product of what the people around you do.
Thats the very first thing i can tell you, because I have been in a situation like that.
About your mom, you should just know that cant exactly pick and choose with parents and you cant expect them to be perfect. Just a fact of life. Your problems could be worse, I was in that exact situation before, there's a lot more ways it could be bad. Just know that if you do keep getting out of bed, things will get better. Its a part of putting effort into things.

because of the crucible you are growing up in you will be stronger and wiser for it if you choose to persevere and stay your own path. my mom came from the exact situation you were in including REAL grinding poverty. she is the strongest woman i know and has raised two kids and a beautiful home. YOU can do this, your problems are bad that is true but YOU are badder! YOU will overcome this and YOU will be better because of this! Life is tough now and i understand that; it sucks and it isn't fair! Focus your emotions to better YOURSELF and you will enjoy a life that MANY will never know. you will be free in ways MANY are not and never can be. YOU will have the foresight and wisdom of an average man who's lived a lifetime while you are only a young man.

Trust me with this; YOU decide your life, YOU make your future, and YOU can do it.

remember this about the past: whatever happened, happened, and couldn't have happened any other way. but what is going to happen is on YOUR terms.

YOU GOT THIS omnomnipotent !

Is it bad that these are just words to me? I want to find inspiration but i....I just cant