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User avatar #42638 - thedumbledore
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(12/12/2012) [-]
Sup folks, I am here because i am genuinely considering suicide. It started 3 years ago, my father became an alcoholic, decided i was now named 'Communal punching bag'. I could take him, but he obliterated my confidence with the emotional bullying side.
Here's the TLDR version of the rest of the issues- Undiagnosed illness leaves me in agony every day (Doc thinks MS), bullied all life, hate self, family did not believe me about abuse at first.
Now i have horrific anxiety/depression and i leave the house about once every week. Was doing two highers at home, but i had to drop one of them because i am literally too nervous to draw a straight line, let alone a portrait.
I have gone from being told i could get into Glasgow school of art, to being a prospective candidate for one of the shittiest colleges in all of Scotland- So i can complete my highers due to missing the last two years of school.
Getting help for my mental health issues, but i have found most anti-depressants have really bad side effects- to the point where they are struggling to find one for me. It's try and error.
Terrified of going to college as i have aspergers too.
I am looking for literally ANY advice on ANY of this for you guys. Suggestions on how to cope, ideas, personal experience- anything. Also kinda needed to vent. But really, fucking anything would help at this point. Thanks.
User avatar #42754 to #42638 - xspacemanx
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(12/13/2012) [-]
TLDR version was TL so I DR
User avatar #42810 to #42754 - thedumbledore
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(12/13/2012) [-]
Then was there a need to reply to me? Or are you just that 'Offt look at my edgy-ness' Brand of dickweed?
User avatar #42651 to #42638 - smashingprodigy
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(12/12/2012) [-]
A lot of people are scared about going to college. Independence is a great thing, but it can be scary at times. Mistakes WILL be made; however, you shouldn't let this stop you from experiencing some of the best times of your life. You may have had rough times in your past, but each new day can be a brand new experience if you let it be and if you do something new. If possible, take what you can from your rough past and try to help others. To become more comfortable with yourself and the world around you, find different outlets. Try music, art, writing, films, anything that will help you bring out your creativity. If you let your creative side bloom, you increase the chances of having more in common with people, and just by being a little selfish and rewarding yourself a little, you can make friends easily.
User avatar #42650 to #42638 - eamonn
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(12/12/2012) [-]
... dude. if its really as bad as you say. once you hit rock bottom. all that can happen is that it gets better.
also no one likes a quitter, stay positive
User avatar #42645 to #42638 - dubslao
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Try lamictal, that's too what I'm on.
And I had the same problem with my dad, he started hitting me when I was 8, so I called child services, he started again when I was 14.
I really do not recommend this, but I dug a kitchen knife into his ribs.
And I found other things to get my mind away, I got a girlfriend, I started doing MMA/boxing. I spent lots of time getting extra help for my school work.
I was never really big into therapy, but I know it helps.
And don't worry, I can't draw a straight line either.
This is coming from a guy who has been diagnosed with ADHD, ADD, dyslexia, bipolar, depression.
I'm pretty much fine now, besides my grades in school.