then die

Cutting yourself isnt the answer. what do when m down is i go out and just walk. walk anywhere and i take my walk to look around and reflect on my life. and remind my self. it ant as bad as it seems.

grab a rubber band. and snap it against your wrist instead of cutting. OR get a hot shower going. let it get just a bit hot. feels good :)

Do what your heart tells you.

Grab a piece of paper and write 3 positive things that happened today.

Nothing positive happened...
Not at least in the past 2 years.

stfu. alright you want some ways to get your shit together. the perfect way is to tell you what the hell to do. 50 bucks says you are one of those dudes who analyzes and overanalzes every fucking move and never bothers to just be spontaneous. so right now. i command you to get in your fucking car and just fucking drive. I don't care where you are going and i don't even fucking care if you know.

DONT EVEN BOTHER REPLYING TO THIS. simply read this grab your coat and keys and go somewhere. you dont have a car then fucking walk. either way get your shitty ass up cause i don't like crying.

again DONT RESPOND. DON"T ANALYZE. DON"T TALK. FIX THROUGH ACTION GO NOW.

What kinds of things interest you, besides harming anyone or yourself?

Nothing , that's why I'm joining the army, just to die somewhere.

Why don't you explore or try new things? or is that not relevant to you?

I want to explore the life of a grunt, a life of being in danger every day...
That's what I want , why? I've got no money to buy the world.
I've got no love to stay here.
I've got too many scars to not look at them and cry.

what the hell makes you think you need money to do anything good i live right next to the countries capital and my fav place to go is the old abandoned industrial estate if you feel like you cant deal with life then fine be an escapist some one who seeks adrenaline someone who reads to exerience places that cant possibly exist, join a philosophy course to try and understand the reason you exist, join a psychology course to understand how your brain works and how to make the world a brighter place
if i could i would bitch slap you from here till next fucking year for saying you want to join the army to die hundreds of people die everyday and everyday the people who cared about them get abandoned and left with a gap in their life and nothing but painful memories of that person because that person wouldnt make the effort to go to them and get help sorry but suicide is not a one person decision it has ramifications on everyone you know

Maybe living the life of danger and slipping on the edge of life and death can show you how great life really is.

Money isn't everything. I was in your shoes 5 years ago, I quit drugs and stopped hanging out with a bad crew and got a part time job. One day at a time. Eventually things started to look up. This guy I knew always said "just for today". For months I had always had that in the back of my mind. Then I had realized just for today. Each day and every morning.

I'm pretty much a hermit, socializing is one of the last things on my list.

I want friends...

Well if you ever want to talk, message me if you want. I'm always up for a chat.

Thanks.