I feel so depressed. Now I've finished school, I'm in the process of joining the British Army. My friends decided to carry on with their education and now I'm left out. They'd all go round each others and hang out and then there's me. I feel like I don't exist. Just a speck of dust. I get so depressed I want to just curl up and vanish. Just disappear. It's not just my friends. It's everything. I feel like I'm invisible to everyone. The one girl I liked we were really close as friends. I asked her out and she said she didn't know how she felt. She kissed me, said she loved me and then she said she didn't want to be with me. Now, we never talk. It's going to sound strange, but I feel like shaving my head and just lay in the dark. I talk to my best friend every now and then just to see how he's doing and we keep in contact on Facebook. But he never invites me to meet up or anything. I just feel invisible, lonely.